I'm sooo hyper now, i can't wait for tomorrow! *dances* me and [Beki in Wonderland] are off into chester dressed as pirates to shop nad see POTC 3 for the 2nd time! XD coz we love it THAT much! <333
My pirate costume consists of:
*Riding long boots
*Black jeans
*A black belt
*a black skull and cross bones scarf tied just above the belt
*A white T-Shirt with poofy sleeves!
*A bandana
*3 rings
*A charm bracelet (coz it jingles!)
*2 other bracelets
*Several earrings
*A necklace with a couple of bits and bobs attached to it
and if it's cold a long black coat! XD

Tomorrow is going to be so awesome!

Time for another ramble me thinks! =D

So yesterday i had a great time! ^__^ I went into Mold on the bus to meet Josh coz i hadn't seen him in a week and i needed a break from revision. I got there a bit earlier than i said i would so i went into the libary and found [imperfectionist] who told me about this anime and manga magazine called Neo.. which i had to go and buy immediately of course! XD To any UK anime and manga fans the magazine is gooood! *nods*

Then me and Danny met Josh and we all went to Tesco's to get lunch coz none of us had eaten all day! XD (yeah we're good like that!) I was having a moment (proberly becuase of the amount of rum i'd drunk the night before <.<) and i couldn't decide what i wanted to eat! I ended up with a french stick, some crisps and a bueno. I ate the french stick and i've just had the crisps and bueno for my lunch. ohh and it's raining! o___O quite heavily too! Anyways after that we wandered around, i needed a pencil case for the exams so.. yeah.

Surprise surprise we ended up at the libary again and met Gemma and Anne and Ceri appeared too! Which was cool, i hadn't seen Ceri since ROA so we hugged and chatted about revision! Then Walker ran in and glomped me and insisted he had to show us that the libary had a slayer CD! XD bless him! Then Danny, Gemma, Josh and I went to the bank coz i had my allowence and wages to put in and on the way back to the libary met Alan and Chris and Laura's mum. So we chatted to them for a bit about viper and other quite perverted stuff and drugs.. o__O it was odd..

Then back to the libary where we spent about an hour just chatting coz Alan appeared again.. we got told off for being nosy! XD can you imagine?? XD

So yeah after that we ended up in Chris's house and i saw Wilson (who's got a tattoo now!) and i told him off becuase i hadn't seen him in about a month! lol After that we didn't do much just wandered, found out what time my bus home was and went to gemma's for a bit. I went to get the bus and Josh followed.. he'd decided he was coming home with me! XD So yeah i came home with Josh and we had a bit of a drink and a chat and watched big brother. Josh decided he couldn't be bothered going home and ended up sleeping in the spare room! I was like.. fine whatever! My parents are away so as long as he was gone before they got back it didn't matter. ^__^

Then this morning i got up at 5 in the morning and did all the chores, washing up, stacking dish washer, feeding pets the usual and then fell asleep on the sofa infront of the TV. I woke up at 8 and Josh appeared so i forced him to eat something and then he left to go home! Since then i've been revising.. <.< well ish i AM looking at my physics book! XD tomorrow is Chester! yay, i think i'm going to see pirates 3 again this time dressed as a pirate and i'll do some shopping! ^__^

All in all a gooood day after the crap one yesterday. 

hehe i inspired [Beki in Wonderland]'s hyperness and diary whorishness last night! XD and surprise surprise her morning seems to have gone just like mine.. parent eh? I've come online to have a break from revision (why am i bothering?) and becuase i need to ramble about my morning or i'll just get angrier and angrier.. and i know this is REALLY bad but i've got myself a rum and honey mocha (I know drinking at this time in the day.. i hate myself for it.. but it's not much.. i actually only had a splash.) So yeah.

Basically I got up at 9 after having 4 hours sleep, it took me at least an hour to get to sleep after i went offline coz i'd been drinking rum and caffinated coffee. So yeah last night i was a bit hyper and i thought that while no one was around and i was talking to Beki and she was drinking coffee and rum i would too. But i got a bit over excited.. anyways no harm done.. i was just a tad mellow. So yeah i got up this morning and went down stairs to rescue some books my mum was attempting to throw out. I kept myself to saving only 5 (plus the pile of about 20 i hid in my room.. <.< but yeah) //This is a completely un related ramble you can skip it if you want. My mum told me i needed to get rid of some of the books in my room, i was like yeah right -_- i am a book worm and yeah i have about 100 books in my room but all of them are ones i would re-read or am intending to read and i couldn't throw any of them out so of course i said i wasn't going to. Then she started grumbling at me and telling me i didn't have a choice. So i didn't yell, i didn't scream. I turned around looked her in the eye and said "If you touch ANY of the books in my room i will become the most horrible daughter you could ever imagine." Then i walked away. Thing is she hasn't brought the subject up again.. which just goes to show she knows i'm deadly serious and capable of making her life a complete and utter hell. She hasn't even stopped me from taking the books i think she shouldn't throw away and adding them to the ones in my room.\\ now back to the original rant. So my mum yelled at me to come talk to her in her room, her and my dad were there and they had set it up so it was two against one. I'm NOT a morning person.. most people know if you try and talk to me when i've been up less than an hour you're asking to have your head bitten off. Especially when i've had 4 hours sleep (not that they'd know that) so yeah and you know what she said to me? I don't want you going out on wednesday or friday. i was like WTF?? I'm not allowd to see my friends even though i'm spending pretty much all week revising and am going to be stuck at home for the next 2 weeks becuase of exams?? So of course i wasn't playing ball and i told them i had a revision plan and i knew what i was doing. As i left my mum yelled "remember you're laptop" now for those of you that don't know i have to get 10 A grades and i get a laptop. People who also don't know me that well won't know that i DO NOT like being forced to do something against my will. For a minute i thought about not doing any revision to spite them but decided i was just tired and should get on with the revision i had planned. Which i did.

An hour later my mum came in with a muffin and i went downstairs to get breakfast. Everything was fine, i was calming down and then she said: You're not doing enough work and i don't think you should go out at all, you're not going to pass if you don't put in more work. MORE WORK??? as if giving up about a month of my life to revision isn't enough for her. So i got angrier and angrier and asked her how much revision she did for her O Levels.. she told me that she failed her O Levels which i know she didn't and i stormed up to my room to eat my breakfast. Well and truelly angry at this point but i calmed myself down a bit figured it was just coz i was tired.

Half an hour later she comes in and says something trivial about muffins and i tell her i'm not speaking to her, i need space to calm down. but nooo she can't figure out i need to be left alone, after crossing me twice in 2 hours she has another go and i of course explode.. coz she starts in the most patronising tone ever "I knew you were upset." NOOO have a prize.. you think? no i'm really happy.. my mother told me nothing i was doing was good enough and i'm extatic -_- so yeah.. que me losing it completely. So i yelled at her about how she had no right to try and bribe me and try and control my life and (coz i was well and truelly gone by this point) I yelled that she couldn't try and live her life through me becuase she failed her exmas. Just because she failed doesn't mean i need to work harder and then i told her she knew full well i'm alot cleverer than her. She walked out of my room (not really surprising.) And okay i do regret tearing her down like that and everything and if i hadn't been so angry i wouldn't have said it but.. grrr she doesn't know when to back off. So yeah...

Now i'm not speaking to her and i'm drinking rum mocha coz otherwise i'm really tempted to try out this tribal thing i read about where you cut yourself and rub salt in the wound coz it makes it scar. it's a sign of strength. If our knives weren't all so blunt i'd be tempted to try.. more than tempted but you have to do it along your ribs.. and meh.. i'm not that stupid. 

I'm being a diary whore too... blame [Beki in Wonderland].. who says i'm drinking like a teenager the reason being:

we both went to get rum coffee.. she ended up with schizo coffee (see her diary) and i ended up with coneyum which is rum (i put in half a mug full... <.< meh i'm a bit trigger happy) honey and coffee! GORGEOUS!!! and addictive.

Also why do spirits like to go up my nose.. i've ended up with vodka up my nose and i sttempted to swig some rum and it all went up my nose! hmph! so i had to try again nad have a big mouthful <.< >.> and the coffee's caffinated again! yay for all nighters and revision tomorrow.. i might have a couple of hours sleep..

Old School Hollywood

*is trying not to yell and scream and bounce off walls as parents are asleep and are likely to kill if woken*

<.< yeah.. explination? right? well whether you want one or not you're getting one.. so woop de doo! *dances* okay.. in the spirit of things..

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG!!!! ZOMFECKINGGOSH!!!

hehe i had such a good day today!! I got up at 9:30 without the help of alarms or parents and then i was lazy until about 12 when i realised i'd said i'd do some work nad my mum was going to be home soon. So i hid in my room until i heard her get back and then came down for lunch mumbling about maths! XD It worked really well! lol After lunch i got a picnic blanket and went into the garden with my maths homework to lie in the sun and pretend to work! Amazingly i did get some stuff done! ^_^ *yay* and i went to sleep for half an hour.. when i woke up the sun had moved so i chased it to the top part of the garden and did a couple more maths questions before getting bored and going to terrorise my rabbit.. <.< i meant groom.. hehe he was being moody and throwing things at me! While the guinea pig sat in the corner and made the weirdest sound ever becuase i gave him dandelion leaves which he loves o__O it was so funny. After that i couldn't be bothered with maths so i came in and dyed my hair! X3 it's weird.. my mum had a moment and did the short bit at the back red and the long front bits black! It looks really awesome though.. well i think so! Now i'm trying to do welsh coz we have a speaking exam in 2 weeks >.< annd tomorrow... dun dun dun TRIVIUM!! I can't wait it should be amazing! Pity i have to follow it with school.. i'm going to be a zombie! 

*sneaks up to [Beki in Wonderland] and steals* The 10 names of moi!


1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Alexandra (alex)

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first three letters of your name, plus izzle)
Aleizzle.. XD thats just dodgy..

3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three of your last)
A-Par XD hehe heads up i'm a golfing term! XD

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Black Wolf

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, Street you live on):
Eva Cilcain (XD XD XD *dies* .. okay so it's not that funny!)

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of mom’s maiden name):
Paralfor (I like it! XD *dances*)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink):
Indigo Ouzo (O_O hehe)

8. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dad’s middle name, 1st letter of a sibling’s first name, last letter of your moms middle name):
Raowla (hehe... <33)

9. YOUR STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/body spray)
Cool Water (XD)

10. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father’s middle name)
Lavina Edward (thats pretty cool.. i might use that for an RP character!)

Picture number one.. the toaster in the living room.. yeah i wanted a bagel but it's 12:30am (or was.. it's later now) and my parents are asleep -_- so i relocated the toaster and had a bagel anyways!


Picture 2.. my bagel.. which was delicious.. yeah i had to smother it in butter.. umm.. i love buttered bagels so much! <3 and my phone.. <.< i was trying to use it to show the time..


Picture drei.. the big bruise on my side.. it doesn't look all that big but that picture shows pretty much my entire side and it's all purple, red and green! Yeah. someone punched me in the pit at the pentre! XD

hmmm i've been away the last couple of days so here's a quick over-view of what i've been up to:
Thursday:
Mood: chilled
Events: Went to work at the farm which was cool it was really warm so we didn't do much, mucked out the stables (all of them! :o) abnd then groomed finn which was ace.. beki schlumpfeled his mane which looked awesome and i tried (and failed) to get rid of all the lose hairs from his coat coz he's moulting! He loved being rubber curry combed on his back.. he pulled an amazingly funny face! X3 aww bless him! After that beki managed to run off with my wages but we're meeting in Chester on Tuesday so i'll get them back then.. which is good becuase i don't know how much money i have at the moment!
I cam home, showered, changed, packed my bag and had a big glass of iced cider which chilled me out and was the best way to finish the day.. well the daylight part of it that is! At 7:30 i left for Cross's house coz we were going to the Pentre for the metal night! I took all my bags (spent a couple of days in Lincoln). We went to the Pentre and had an awesome time! Mitch was there as was cal, walker, josh, bianca, chantelle, and some other people i didn't know. I have an awesome bruise on my side coz someone punched me in the pit! XD and there was this really cute guy there who was completely out of it! He knew walker and the rest but i never found out his name. he got pushed in the pit and i ended up catching him then he followed me back to our table and sat down next to me. Pity i'm taken coz he was sooo sweet! X3 We couldn't be bothered with the last band so me and bianca went outside and everyone else followed. We just chatted and sat on the wall.. which walker pushed me off and i found really funny! We left the Pentre at 12 and i stayed the night at Cross's.
Friday:
mood: slightly annoyed
events: i had to wake up early so we could dricve down to Lincoln for a family gathering. The journey was okay.. it took about 3 hours though. When we got there i was really annoyed coz i couldn't get changed (i was still in my pijamas) and i couldn't shower or put any make-up on. In the end i changed in the toilets and made myself look vaguely okay then we had a big meal which again was alright, the food wasn't great nad Mark spent the whole time throwing things at me biting and pinching me and being generally annoying. we had a great game of tag in the play park with my cousins and uncle Mick then went back to my gran's house. We were quite lazy there just snacking on party food, chatting and watching TV. We left at 9:30 and went back to the hotel. i was tired and my mum had put me in a room with my two brothers, i had to sleep on the floor and both brothers were whining and ordeing me about. i went and had a shower in an attempt to stop me losing my temper and talked to cross who helped me chill out a bit. After that it was alright.. although it took me ages to get to sleep and i thought there was a guy sitting on the window sill o_O
Saturday:
Mood:Pissed off
events: well got up early again to get breakfast and check out of the hotel, i slept really badly but i was in good spirits. I had breakfast and i was ready to head for home but my parents decided we had to go into town. So i was dragged there kicking and screaming, dragged up a massive hill so my dad could look at wine and dragged into several shops i really didn't want to go in. I wanted my own space and time to chill out! Anyways we were there for about 2 hours and i got some chocolates from this shop and a dir en grey CD (whithering to death) which was good but after that we had to get back in the car for the journey home. It wasn't too bad, i slept a bit and listened to a story CD but i really wanted to listen to dir en grey. when we finally got home my mum yelled at me for taking the bags in as she told me to because i took a bag she was going to take -_____- So now i'm on here chatting to my friends and trying to chill out. I'm going to get a cider and shower soon and maybe do some homework but i refuse to speak to the rest of my family unless i really have to.
... the Dir en Grey CD is AWESOME though! <333 

well i had a kinda shit evening yesterday. I lost it big time, not with anyone i just kinda lost control and alot of stuff that had built up over the past couple of months came out. Partly becuase of stress i guess and partly because i'm tired. Anyways i had to vent so thanks to Wilson and [Domo-kun] for listening and offering me advice. I've slept on it now and i feel a hell of alot better. Crying helped too. Now i have a plan of action: I need to talk to the person at the centre of this and i need to stop caring that i may end up losing alot of friends. Yes it will hurt but i know i have a boyfriend that will stick by me and i'm fed up of tiptoing around painful subjects. I also need to take some time out so next week i'm going to just revise and think about things.. and go to town with Wilson to get my tongue done.
So meh! ^__^ I gotta thank everyone else coz you guys made me laugh and you help me to focus on life. That may sound odd but.. *shrugs* i know what i mean! =D 

HOLIDAYS YAY!!! //GCSE revision BOO!!! >.<\\
lol we were off school yesterday so i slobbed a bit and my aunty nad cousins arrived from America.. my cousins are 4 and 7 and they think i'm a rock star which is the cutest thing ever! xD According to sarah (the 4 year old) i went to music school but i quit coz i knew it all and i'm a famous rock star! <333 i love my cousin's sooo much! idol worship will get you EVERYWHERE!!
In other news i had a great time in Chester with a bunch of my mates! It was soo awesome! We hung out i got the double piercing needed for a scaffolding bar.. which was the most painful thing ever.. becuase i had one of the holes really far back and they hit a cappillary so it bled lots and then it got knocked. >.< Buut i survived and we went and hung out in the ampitheter with all the other metal loving teenagers! I met some new people Mitch nad this other guys who had a kinda wierd name but he asked me what i thought of his top and gave me a hug so he's cool in my books! xD lol and we met up with Ben Matt's friend.. we recognised each other but it took us ages to figure out we'd met for a while during the Dragonforce Gig in December! xD
Me and Beki ended up playing a stripping game and had a big audience.. i lost.. we only played down to bra's though! And we had a game of British bulldog! ^__^ It was soo awesome!
The rest of the week is going to be busy too.. i got work tue and thurs, babysitting mon, cinema wed and a week on monday i'm getting my tongue pireced yay!

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

haha! I am paranoid! xD buuut must people know that anyway!

Hellloooo!! ^__^ today has been a really good day! I feel so relaxed and i haven't had a day like this in ages, one thats just gone smoothly and i've been happy all day! =D
Nothing special about today except it was the first proper spring day, one of those ones that starts off cold but gets warmer and by lunch time it's sunny and the kind of heat where you feel pleasant and sleepy. Becuase we only have 4 days left of term the lessons were relatively easy and laid back and Beki [Boburriku Suzume] gave me a manga (I.N.V.U) which she had borried from the libary to read so i spent most lessons reading that! It's really good too!! I need to get the next volume! <3
Then at lunch i just spent time chatting with my friends and sitting in the sun with my boyfriend.. which was really nice and chilled! =D After that a couple more chilled lessons and then i came home. I finished the manga and did some chores. I had to clean out my rabbit and guinea pig! I spent some time brushing them coz they're moulting everywhere! xD
After that i finished my maths coursework that i'd been putting off since last weekend and practiced on the guitar, i tuned it over the weekend and am having a go at teaching myself from a guitar book my brothers got me for my birthday! Then i cooked dinner coz my parents were out working late and now i'm just chilling on the pc chatting and watching anime (scrapped princess)! So all in all a fantastic day, simply becuase it's been laid back and un-complicated! Plus i was talking to Jim.. bless him! I luffles him (in a friendly way) he split up with his girl-friend.. but he seemed alright about it.. and he made me laugh! xD
I am happy happy HAPPY! =D annd.. on wednesday i'm hopefully getting a new MP3 player (a zen V) and having my hair cut in a sorta emo/myavi cross style! which is going bright pink during exam leave! If the rest of the week is this good i will be amazed!! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iv82IRm2T4s

It's so true but we luff them anyways! <33 (J-rocker's fan-vid) on that note new J-rock band i love!! GazettE!! <33 weird but cool!

well tonight was interesting.. i went out to babysit and came home early, Chloe was sick bless her.. luckily i have brothers so i had more sense than to freak out! She was really mature as well! ^__^ she really is amazing! She's my little sister in all but blood! i can't stop saying bless her now.. she was just so amazingly good if i was her age and my mum was out and i'd been sick i'd proberly have locked myself somewhere and been miserable and upset but she was just so grown up.
We were chatting while we waited for her mum to come back and she was telling me about how she wants to be a solicitor, i thought it was really great coz she knew about the different areas of the law they can work in and she'd thought about how it could effect her mentally if she lost a case and stuff. I was like "this girl is amazing!" just awww.. i want to hug here.. meh soppy moment over GIRLY DAY IN CHESTER TOMORROW!! *dances* 

http://youtube.com/watch?v=c3fHEySHj0M

[Beki in Wonderland] finished the vid she's been working on for 3 days! xD It amused me alot! lol although i'm in it FAR too much for a person that hates cameras.. although you can proberly guess why i hate them if you watch it! xD Anyways .. yea.. gratz to her!! I love that kick the cna song.. so now i have to go watch the vid again!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o7wKVd04LiQ

Moi and Beki [Beki in Wonderland] slightly tipsy! xD singing.. badly.. :o enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QPTsgmrmurU&NR

Asian black metal FTW!! This is amazing! I love it.. i need to buy lots of J-rock CDs.. and find out who it is that plays this.. damn Kanji! xD ahh i found out who it is ChthoniC now i can look for their CDs... yay!

Hellooo! i'm pretty happy today! I had the last 5 hours of my art exam and i'm pleased with the outcome, i'll get a photo up after i've added a few bits to it on tuesday. (Thin lines are a bugger when using oil paints!) it's worn me out though i never realised how true it was when they said that some pictures take sweat, blood and tears! I've put so much into it i feel completely drained! It was funny though coz i finished my picture with 45 mins to go and was allowd to go and give my coursework to my chemistry teacher, i had to sign a sheet to say i had done the work myself and i messed up my signature because my hand was shaking like mad! It was from spending two days holding my hand really steady while i was painting! Then me and Beki made a person and an udder out of the rubber gloves she had been wearing to do her art outcome! Sir popped the udder though telling us we were being stupid -_- ahh well it was still funny!
Then i went into town with Cross and Ruth which was cool we got chips! They were nice!! My parents are away tonight as well and they sent my brothers away leaving me alone for tonight and tomorrow so Beki's coming over and we're going to celebrate the end of our art exam! Plus it means we can both watch Hellsing! =D yay!

okay sorry for being a diary whore buuut.. meh! xD you can just skip this entery if you want to..

My kneee hurts! >.< I injured it in August last year while on a canoeing holiday nad it hurt for a while, aching mostly occasionally sharp pain but i could deal with it, after about 3 months it disappeared and i assumed it had fixed itself but the pain has returned again. It may have something to do with standing up all day while i was painting but i can't straighten my leg without pain and it aches alot -_- So i have a support bandage on it which makes me walk like a tard.. and my foot has started acting up too.. i think it's just the pressure of being on my feet for 6 and a half days a week instead of the usual five. It only started recently and it was only recently i started ice-skating and working up at Michelle's with the horses which involves alot of standing up.. xD ahh well i'll survive and i thought i'd rant here becuase my parents are very unsympathetic! xD
My mum just walked in and i said "my knee's hurting again." her response was to turn around and walk away! xD lol ahh well..