I AM A DIARY WHORE TONIGHT! X3

last diary entry.. i promise! lol i am going to bed now! <.< >.>

WE HAVE THE HORNY GENERAL!

On a little side note this is not funny at all but it made me laugh my ass off.. seriously.. maybe you have to know mike *shrugs*

we were talking about Josh's sleeping arrangements for tomorrow night and he was wanting to know if his parents need directions etc. So meh then he just went: "forget i said anything we can invent sleeping places" I found it really funny coz i just had this image of a drunk group of partyers trying to get a drunk josh ontop of a cupboard so he had somewhere to sleep..

I know not funny at all.. i think it's my tiredness the fact i know mike and what happened last party.. *tries to stand up* "ow"...*tries to stand up* "ow"...*tries to stand up* "ow"... "oh yeah i'm under the table!" XD yeah that was me! <.<

I just came online to have a quick rant about stuff!! ^__^

I just got in from babysitting (i'm so tired! XD) it was alright took me about 2 hours to get the kids to bed though -_- but i got payed which was cool! =D Means i have some money to save up for a shopping trip! yay! lol

It's so weird you can tell i'm tired because i walked into my house and my dad had left me a note and a large box of ferrero roche's (my favorite chocolates) and i nearly burst into tears! XD it was just so sweet.. i haven't seen my dad in a week coz he travels alot and we're a close family so mu mum finds it tough and i have more work to do to help out. Which is fine but with exams as well i'm completely shattered. Anyways the note said "Just a little something as a congratulations for finishing your exams and helping out. Love you loads dad." Might not seem alot but it really touched me.. and okay it could just be coz i'm tired and i have moments of hypersensitivity (long word! O__o)

so yeah that's about all i have to say.. i'll write more next chance i get which might not be till saturday coz i'm having a girly shopping day with my mum tomorrow and then mike's party! X3

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Now: Smoothie and food!

I HAFF NEW HAIR! X3 i shall post pics.. at some point when i'm at home! =D

annd...

EXAMS ARE OVER SUMMER BEGINS!!! Here's to all the parties and fun! *cheers*

Well i promised an end of week update and here it is! ^__^ Just a quick warning 1) i have ALOT to write about because i haven't been writing in here much this week 2) if you don't want to end up spending half an hour or so reading this just ignore the entire thing! 3) my spelling has apparently died <.< >.> so sorry for all the mistakes. XD I think i'm going to start at today which i think is Sunday and work backwards.. so the end should be very vague.. coz exams make you forget stuff more easily *nods* .. oh and i'll have to probably write this in several parts becuase 1) i'm lazy 2) i'm meant to be having a short break from revision BUT if i make it last until 4 i can have half an hour off having afternoon cake and coffee (yeah my family got posh.. i shall explain in a min!) 3) i'm puzzling on gaia ! XD <333 Gaia is the reason i haven't been online much.. i'm addicted!
Infact i'm going to forget the days thing and ramble in a random way as there are a few things that span several days..

//WARNING!!: Ramble about legs\\Meh lets start with this weekend and the reason i look (apparently) like some popular high school clone.. and this is going to sound completely stupid but it's because i'm trying to tan my legs before Mike's party! I woke up on saturday and threw on my usual black jeans and black strap top then i went and watched TV for an hour or two by which point i'd noticed that it was a really nice day.. soo.. me being me i decided i wanted to have a long kinda "beautifying session" becuase i'd been so busy with exams and stuff. So i pottered off to the bathroom, had a long shower put a face-mask on all that kinda girly stuff and then decided my legs were horribly pale compared to my arms (which had been exposed to the sun and tan quite well) which led to me throwing half the contents of my wardrobe around trying to find a pair of shorts.. my black pair smelt kinda dodgy coz i'd been on a canoing holiday last year and worn them in the river so i had to settle for my jean pair.. which are shorter than i thought! XD After that i had no black tops and i remembered my gran and grandad were coming over with my grandad's half sister and her husband which he found last year (he's adopted so he didn't know his real family and out of the blue he got a phone call from this woman and it turned out she was his half sister so of course we had to meet them). Which made me decide to wear this green top my gran got me a couple of years ago. So i went and prettyfied myself and went downstairs to sit in the garden, tan my legs and revise! (yay for multi-tasking!) And my mum turned around went OMG! and then realised it was me (thanks mum! -_-) at which point she told me i looked very nice but i wasn't her daughter becuase i looked too stylish (again thanks mum! XD she didn't mean it in a bad way just i don't normally look "fasionable" more just odd!) SO now i have made a resolution to wear shorts for the next two weeks so i can get browner legs! ^__^ see wasn't that important? a long ramble about shorts and legs! XD //RAMBLE OVER!\\ 

What else? it's now been about 2 weeks since i started that entry and i have absolutely no idea what i was going to say for the rest of it.. i'm nearly done my exams now though.. only STATs on Thursday and then Mike's anti-prom friday and i CANNOT WAIT!!! it's going to be awesome.. Vena Cava are playing and as i'm good friends with their Drummer and their bassist is my ex (don't worry we're speaking.. it's cool! XD) I know exactly what their playlist is and my god it sounds awesome!! Plus i'm wearing a dress and jewellery and i'm going to be looking somewhat respectable! *gasp* i know! xD I'm getting my hair cut and dyed tomorrow.. black and pink and turquoise! X3 which should be interesting.. i'll post photos at some point.. of my hair and of me and [Beki in Wonderland] at the party.. Mike's party pics take 2! XD lol if last time is anything to go by we're going to have so much fun!

Meh i guess i should comment on my exams.. i think they went pretty well.. i stupidly took 12 GCSEs so i had about 18 exams to do in this last month -_- with a week break over half term for revision.. it's been so tiring.. getting up at 7, revising till 2 am and then sitting and thinking for hours only to think afterwards that i've completely failed! XD They haven't been that bad in all honestly.. i mean welsh i've failed and physics was SO difficult but i think i did okay ion all my other exams and thats the last thing i'm going to say on the matter because there is absolutely worrying about something i can't change for 2 months. (results day is on the 23rd August)

I need to send myself a reminder that we have a 6th form day on the 10th July.. (in 2 weeks i think) and after that i'm not going back to school until September (hopefully i'll get accepted into the 6th form)

So over my extra long summer i've got some things to do and some things to look forward to!
1)I've got to catch up on all my EP ET and Realms messages... especially the realms.. i admin so i have a new forum to sort out, RP to post on and a lot of general work to do.
2) Finish all the art requests i've had recently and upload all my art to my DA as well as type up some stories and poems and organise them somewhere!
3) 2 weeks walking holiday with FSC end of July/beginning of August X3 i'll be seeing Ian, Graham and Jaco for the first time in a year <3 luff to them all.. we have so many camp take-over plans! XD
4) BLOODSTOCK!!!! The line up looks awesome and i've got my tickets! <3
5) A random week long ramble with [Beki in Wonderland] to get over the exams and just chill chat and be lazy! 

Anyways that'll be it from me until Friday i think.. except to post photos of my hair tomorrow!

My New Start Resolutions:
*walk somewhere every day
*do 60 stomach crunches a day
*keep up to date with ET and EP
*eat more healthily
*save money
*HAVE AS MUCH FUN AS I CAN!!!

Love ya! xxx <333

What is my stereotype??


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Whats Your Stereotype?
____________
•HIGH CLASS:•
____________
•[] You go/have gone tanning.
•[x] You own an iPod/mp3 player.
•[x] You love Starbucks.
•[] You have been called a brat.
•[] You have tons of shoes.
•[] You hate buying things that are on sale.
•[] You have a laptop.
•[x] You love shopping.
•TOTAL: 3
________
•GOTHIC:•
_________
•[x] Black is one of your favorite colors. (okay that fits)
•[] You wear chains. (thats fetish not goth)
•[x] you like heavy metal. (metal head not goth)
•[X] you've shopped at soho's (huh? i'm british what is that?? SOHO'S IS THE ONLY GOTH SHOP.. i'm changing it to soho's) (hot topic is more emo/scene)
•[x] You have worn black lipstick. (punk/rocker/metal head)
•[x] You have/had/or wanted piercings. (punk)
•[] You own a pair of Tripp pants (punk)
•[X] u have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend. (punk)
ergo none of this makes you a goth.. ergo you lose! XD
•TOTAL: 6
(TRUE GOTH IS DEAD! RIP)
_______
•PUNK:•
_______
•[] You can skateboard. (skater -_-)
•[] You like plaid.
•[] You have/love Converse. (scene/clone)
•[x] You hate mtv. (anti-pop)
•[x] You have/had/wanted blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
•[X] You love mohawks
•[X] You LOVE Music. (punk music)
•[X] Hate people who pretend to be something they are not
•TOTAL: 5
(PUNK IS NOW PLONK.. I SAY BRING BACK THE GOOD OLD PUNK ROCK!)
______
•EMO:•
______
•[X] You are depressed sometimes. (everyone gets depressed doesn't make you emo)
•[x] You have dark colored thick-rimmed glasses. (again not emo.. some people actually need glasses and there's not like there's a wide variety to choose from.)
•[] You cry easily. (again not emo.. sensitive -_-)
•[X] You like emo music
•[] You've kept a journal/diary. (also doesn't make you emo just coz you want to remember your life!)
•[x] You have written a sad poem. (doesn't make you emo.. >.<)
•[] you have dyed your hair (EVERYONE dyes their hair.. so we're all emo.. yay! now can everyone stop being so childish about it all.) 
•[] You're sad when you're drunk
•TOTAL: 4
(TRUE EMO IS COOL! ALAS EMO IS DEAD AND ALL THAT REMAINS IS SCENE)
_______
•GHETTO:•
_____
•[] You like rap
•[x] have said "Fo Sho, Fo Shizzle, Fo Sheezy, etc."
•[] You have worn/wanted a grill.
•[] You have had a freestyling contest.
•[] You have worn your shoes with the tongue flipped out.
•[] You've said the N word to a black person and didnt get punched
•[] you know most of the lines from Boyz N Da Hood
•[] You own a huge gold chain with a giant gold pendant
•TOTAL: 1
___________
•HARDCORE:•
___________
•[x] You like loud music.
•[x] You love/like the Ninja Turtles. (WTF?????)
•[x] You have slip-on shoes.
•[] You like Norma Jean.
•[x] People have called you a freak and meant it lovingly
•[] You love to "hardcore" dance
•[x] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
•[x] You wear jeans a lot.
•TOTAL: 6
(how does this make you hardcore?)
_______
•PREP:•
_______
•[] You LOVE/like The OC.
•[] You had/have/want a tiny/small sized dog.
•[] Your usual outfits consist of pink.
•[] u like buying shoes A LOT.
•[] you shop at Hollister.AE,and/or Abercrombie
•[] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
•[x] You have big sunglasses
•[x] You can't go anywhere without your hair perfect.
•TOTAL: 2
__________
•ATHLETIC:•
__________
•[] You watch the Superbowl.
•[] You own track shoes or cleats other sports related shoes.
•[] You own jerseys.
•[] You have/ had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
•[] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
•[] You belong/belonged to a team.
•[] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
•[] You practice a sport at least 3 times a week
TOTAL: 0
_______
•SCENE:•
_______
•[x] You like putting little bows in your hair (J-Rock.. japanese fetish not scene)
•[] You have mini-skirts.
•[x] You have parted your hair to the side. (yeah coz it looks crap otherwise..)
•[] You think polka-dots are way cute.
•[x] You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture.
•[] You've been called scene before.
•[] You have dyed you hair a bright neon color
•[x] You wear/wore long, colorful socks with your skirts
•TOTAL:4
__________
•REDNECK:•
__________
•[] Gone four wheeling.
•[] Went hunting.
•[] Own a four/three-wheeler or dirt bike...ect.
•[] Like to go fishing.
•[] Eat beef jerky
•[] Ever said GIT-R-DONE.
•[] Listened to the song Redneck Woman.
•[] Know who Bocephus is.
•TOTAL: 0
___________
•METALHEAD:•
___________
•[x] You wear band shirts alot.
•[x] If people down talk metal you down talk their favorite music.
•[x] You like bands like As I Lay Dying, Lamb Of God, and All That Remains.
•[] You HATE emos. (i don't hate true emo i hate scene)
•[x] You love Black Sabbath.
•[x] You have gone to Ozzfest.
•[x] You like to headbang.
•[x] You don't like rap.
•[x] You have a taste for classic rock as well.
•TOTAL: 8

•The 1 that you have the most X's under will be your title!!•
Repost this as "whats ur stereotype?"

I am.. a metal head.. go figure! XD lol

I hate exams... well no thats not really true, i like exmas i prefer them to revision leave.. all the learning things and having no idea if what you're even learning is going to help you at all. I don't mind exams what i do hate is people. I know it sounds really odd and it's not like i'm anti-social or anything but when i'm doing exams i like to chill and focus i don't mind being with one person and chatting but i've only had 2 exams so far and already i've had to walk away from all my friends becuase i know if i'd stayed i would have ended up yelling at them all and really using my temper.
I don't know why it's just i can't stand being with a bunch of people that don't really give a shit about me and only speak to me coz they have problems. I hate people thinnking i'll do whatever they want coz i'm easy going. Right now i'm in the frame of mind where i want to push all my friends away, i want to yell at them and hurt them coz i know then i'll feel better. I'll feel like i deserve to feel like crap at the moment, like i'll be able to stop worrying about everyone else and actually worry about myself.
This happens to me alot and i know it's stress but knowing doesn't make it any easier, it doesn't stop me from wanting to go on a killing spree or run away. If it wasn't for the fact GCSEs are so important i'd be gone by now. The other thing i hate is not knowing whether i'm going to move to Holland or not. We might be finding out tomorrow and fingers crossed we do becuase the longer we wait the more i can feel myself completely loosing it. I make a promise right now that i am going away for a couple of days after my last exam. From the 23rd to the 25th i think. I'll take some clothes, our hiking tent and go off into the clwydian mountains. It'll give me a chance to think nad get so worn out thinking's no longer important. If i didn't have a biology exam (which i'm going to fail) tomorrow i would be getting completely wasted right now. Nothing like drowning your sorrows but i'm going through too much crap with these exams for me to just throw them away like that.
I'm in two minds about whether to get the morning bus into school tomorrow or get a lift. I'll go in in the morning *nods* Beki's going in and chatting to her on msn has made me feel better.. i can rant at her! *luffles* <.< lol XD
meh i'm playing on gaia.. i'll do an exam update at the end of the week.. i need to go do puzzle stuff! yeah! 

Que todays long winded and ultimately pointless ramble... wait for it.. wait for it... okay NOW!

Well yesterday was just as good as i thought it would be! XD I had fun!! lol We met in Mold at 1 and got the bus to Chester which was 50 minutes of singing drunkenly, yelling at Josh for suggesting that the bus wasn't a pirate ship! (XD) Flying our pirate flag out the back window and waving swords at all the nearby drivers! It was amazingly fun if childish, drunken and resembling a two girl hen party! Anyways we got to chester got our tickets for POTC3 and did a bit of shopping. It was so hot!! I couldn't believe it.. i mean it's britain nad it's been raining for the last couple of days! So we had to stop by cafe republic and grab ourselves a couple of bueno shakes and some oreos. Then we went to clairs and me and beki had to get a set of surprise bags! XD After that we decided it was too hot for proper shopping and went and blew pretty much all our money in the disney shop on POTC3 merc. I got a cup (i'm getting the mug next time) some badges and some transfer tattoo's. Then we watched the movie, Josh for the first time and me and [Beki in Wonderland] /aka Beki\ for the 2nd time. it was just as good the second time and there were only about 9 people in the cinema so we were alloud to laugh at EVERYTHING we found funny (which for me and beki was pretty much every single thing!) and chat about what we thought of the movie as it went along. For me it is the best of the 3 films and Will and Jack are at their hottest <33 nothing like a bit of fan love.. i mean come on.. the dark eye-liner thing and wet wind-swept hair.. it just works! XD
So yeah a good day!

Today was quite boring just biology revision all day with breaks for reading Neo mag, answering ET and EP messages and texting people but it was still a pretty awesome day, i felt really chilled and well rested for the first time in ages. which just goes to show having a day out followed by a day of revision is ALOT better than several days of revision in a row. There were a couple of things at dinner and this evening that made me laugh though:

me: oh mark Josh says he'll fight you if you get a sword
mark: great! but remember to tell him i don't fight fair i mean if we're locked in battle a kick to the crotch would solve everything.
me: *laughs* you should fight me then, i don't fight fair and a kick to the crotch wouldn't do much.
mark: yeah but then i could hit you in the nose with my sword.
me: i'm short i'd sit down and then i'd hit you round my kneecaps with my sword!
mark: i could just hit you on the head with the hilt of my sword.
me: no! i'd be rolling around your feet in circles occasionally hitting your shins.
mark: i'd drop a bomb...
me: *inturrupting* you would never have a bomb..
mark: but if i did i'd drop it and walk away..
dad: *laughs* and blow yourself up as well as her.
mark: it'd be on a timer, what do you think i am? stupid? yeah i could imagine it.. how do you turn this thing on? ahh i see BOOM!
me: do i look completely thick to you? I think i might notice that your feet had disappeared and there was a bomb instead!
lewis: why don't you step out of your boots?
mark: yeah it could be a pair of exploding boots.. you could just be walking into tesco and.. BANG! one of your boots blow up!
Everyone: *laughs*
mum: *gives us all a look*

Then later when we were clearing up:

mark: it'll fit, it'll fit! (he was trying to get a bowl of pasta into the fridge* yes i managed it!
me: yeah and then you close the fridge door and.. "crash SMASH!"
mark: when have you ever heard anything go smash?? You don't get a train crashing into a building and then "SMASH!" or a bomb blowing up and the sound "SMASH" echoing around the hills.
me: fair point *walks away*

and finally we were having a nice family conversation about terrorism.. as you do..

mark: terrorists are stupid.
me: why's that?
mark: well instead of having a pair of sissors they could buy a bottle of water on the plane and throw it over the pilot's controls.
lewis: you'd need a kid to get into the cockpit..
me: i'm sure the controls are all protected from liquid damage (if they're not i suggest you hurry up and sort that!)
mum: you know what's really stupid?
me: what?
mum: the scientist guys they get on TV after all these terrorist plots and stuff.
mark: yeah like after the car park bombing attempt on the twin towers and the guy came on TV and said "that would have been most ineffective if i wanted to cause maximum damage i would have flown a plane into this floor of the building as it is where the building is weakest" (i kid you not.. they actualy gave the terrorists information on how best to bomb the twin towers -_-)

sorry if anyone finds that offensive but it is really stupid.. i mean come on! 

I'm sooo hyper now, i can't wait for tomorrow! *dances* me and [Beki in Wonderland] are off into chester dressed as pirates to shop nad see POTC 3 for the 2nd time! XD coz we love it THAT much! <333
My pirate costume consists of:
*Riding long boots
*Black jeans
*A black belt
*a black skull and cross bones scarf tied just above the belt
*A white T-Shirt with poofy sleeves!
*A bandana
*3 rings
*A charm bracelet (coz it jingles!)
*2 other bracelets
*Several earrings
*A necklace with a couple of bits and bobs attached to it
and if it's cold a long black coat! XD

Tomorrow is going to be so awesome!

Time for another ramble me thinks! =D

So yesterday i had a great time! ^__^ I went into Mold on the bus to meet Josh coz i hadn't seen him in a week and i needed a break from revision. I got there a bit earlier than i said i would so i went into the libary and found [imperfectionist] who told me about this anime and manga magazine called Neo.. which i had to go and buy immediately of course! XD To any UK anime and manga fans the magazine is gooood! *nods*

Then me and Danny met Josh and we all went to Tesco's to get lunch coz none of us had eaten all day! XD (yeah we're good like that!) I was having a moment (proberly becuase of the amount of rum i'd drunk the night before <.<) and i couldn't decide what i wanted to eat! I ended up with a french stick, some crisps and a bueno. I ate the french stick and i've just had the crisps and bueno for my lunch. ohh and it's raining! o___O quite heavily too! Anyways after that we wandered around, i needed a pencil case for the exams so.. yeah.

Surprise surprise we ended up at the libary again and met Gemma and Anne and Ceri appeared too! Which was cool, i hadn't seen Ceri since ROA so we hugged and chatted about revision! Then Walker ran in and glomped me and insisted he had to show us that the libary had a slayer CD! XD bless him! Then Danny, Gemma, Josh and I went to the bank coz i had my allowence and wages to put in and on the way back to the libary met Alan and Chris and Laura's mum. So we chatted to them for a bit about viper and other quite perverted stuff and drugs.. o__O it was odd..

Then back to the libary where we spent about an hour just chatting coz Alan appeared again.. we got told off for being nosy! XD can you imagine?? XD

So yeah after that we ended up in Chris's house and i saw Wilson (who's got a tattoo now!) and i told him off becuase i hadn't seen him in about a month! lol After that we didn't do much just wandered, found out what time my bus home was and went to gemma's for a bit. I went to get the bus and Josh followed.. he'd decided he was coming home with me! XD So yeah i came home with Josh and we had a bit of a drink and a chat and watched big brother. Josh decided he couldn't be bothered going home and ended up sleeping in the spare room! I was like.. fine whatever! My parents are away so as long as he was gone before they got back it didn't matter. ^__^

Then this morning i got up at 5 in the morning and did all the chores, washing up, stacking dish washer, feeding pets the usual and then fell asleep on the sofa infront of the TV. I woke up at 8 and Josh appeared so i forced him to eat something and then he left to go home! Since then i've been revising.. <.< well ish i AM looking at my physics book! XD tomorrow is Chester! yay, i think i'm going to see pirates 3 again this time dressed as a pirate and i'll do some shopping! ^__^

All in all a gooood day after the crap one yesterday. 

hehe i inspired [Beki in Wonderland]'s hyperness and diary whorishness last night! XD and surprise surprise her morning seems to have gone just like mine.. parent eh? I've come online to have a break from revision (why am i bothering?) and becuase i need to ramble about my morning or i'll just get angrier and angrier.. and i know this is REALLY bad but i've got myself a rum and honey mocha (I know drinking at this time in the day.. i hate myself for it.. but it's not much.. i actually only had a splash.) So yeah.

Basically I got up at 9 after having 4 hours sleep, it took me at least an hour to get to sleep after i went offline coz i'd been drinking rum and caffinated coffee. So yeah last night i was a bit hyper and i thought that while no one was around and i was talking to Beki and she was drinking coffee and rum i would too. But i got a bit over excited.. anyways no harm done.. i was just a tad mellow. So yeah i got up this morning and went down stairs to rescue some books my mum was attempting to throw out. I kept myself to saving only 5 (plus the pile of about 20 i hid in my room.. <.< but yeah) //This is a completely un related ramble you can skip it if you want. My mum told me i needed to get rid of some of the books in my room, i was like yeah right -_- i am a book worm and yeah i have about 100 books in my room but all of them are ones i would re-read or am intending to read and i couldn't throw any of them out so of course i said i wasn't going to. Then she started grumbling at me and telling me i didn't have a choice. So i didn't yell, i didn't scream. I turned around looked her in the eye and said "If you touch ANY of the books in my room i will become the most horrible daughter you could ever imagine." Then i walked away. Thing is she hasn't brought the subject up again.. which just goes to show she knows i'm deadly serious and capable of making her life a complete and utter hell. She hasn't even stopped me from taking the books i think she shouldn't throw away and adding them to the ones in my room.\\ now back to the original rant. So my mum yelled at me to come talk to her in her room, her and my dad were there and they had set it up so it was two against one. I'm NOT a morning person.. most people know if you try and talk to me when i've been up less than an hour you're asking to have your head bitten off. Especially when i've had 4 hours sleep (not that they'd know that) so yeah and you know what she said to me? I don't want you going out on wednesday or friday. i was like WTF?? I'm not allowd to see my friends even though i'm spending pretty much all week revising and am going to be stuck at home for the next 2 weeks becuase of exams?? So of course i wasn't playing ball and i told them i had a revision plan and i knew what i was doing. As i left my mum yelled "remember you're laptop" now for those of you that don't know i have to get 10 A grades and i get a laptop. People who also don't know me that well won't know that i DO NOT like being forced to do something against my will. For a minute i thought about not doing any revision to spite them but decided i was just tired and should get on with the revision i had planned. Which i did.

An hour later my mum came in with a muffin and i went downstairs to get breakfast. Everything was fine, i was calming down and then she said: You're not doing enough work and i don't think you should go out at all, you're not going to pass if you don't put in more work. MORE WORK??? as if giving up about a month of my life to revision isn't enough for her. So i got angrier and angrier and asked her how much revision she did for her O Levels.. she told me that she failed her O Levels which i know she didn't and i stormed up to my room to eat my breakfast. Well and truelly angry at this point but i calmed myself down a bit figured it was just coz i was tired.

Half an hour later she comes in and says something trivial about muffins and i tell her i'm not speaking to her, i need space to calm down. but nooo she can't figure out i need to be left alone, after crossing me twice in 2 hours she has another go and i of course explode.. coz she starts in the most patronising tone ever "I knew you were upset." NOOO have a prize.. you think? no i'm really happy.. my mother told me nothing i was doing was good enough and i'm extatic -_- so yeah.. que me losing it completely. So i yelled at her about how she had no right to try and bribe me and try and control my life and (coz i was well and truelly gone by this point) I yelled that she couldn't try and live her life through me becuase she failed her exmas. Just because she failed doesn't mean i need to work harder and then i told her she knew full well i'm alot cleverer than her. She walked out of my room (not really surprising.) And okay i do regret tearing her down like that and everything and if i hadn't been so angry i wouldn't have said it but.. grrr she doesn't know when to back off. So yeah...

Now i'm not speaking to her and i'm drinking rum mocha coz otherwise i'm really tempted to try out this tribal thing i read about where you cut yourself and rub salt in the wound coz it makes it scar. it's a sign of strength. If our knives weren't all so blunt i'd be tempted to try.. more than tempted but you have to do it along your ribs.. and meh.. i'm not that stupid. 

I'm being a diary whore too... blame [Beki in Wonderland].. who says i'm drinking like a teenager the reason being:

we both went to get rum coffee.. she ended up with schizo coffee (see her diary) and i ended up with coneyum which is rum (i put in half a mug full... <.< meh i'm a bit trigger happy) honey and coffee! GORGEOUS!!! and addictive.

Also why do spirits like to go up my nose.. i've ended up with vodka up my nose and i sttempted to swig some rum and it all went up my nose! hmph! so i had to try again nad have a big mouthful <.< >.> and the coffee's caffinated again! yay for all nighters and revision tomorrow.. i might have a couple of hours sleep..

Old School Hollywood

*is trying not to yell and scream and bounce off walls as parents are asleep and are likely to kill if woken*

<.< yeah.. explination? right? well whether you want one or not you're getting one.. so woop de doo! *dances* okay.. in the spirit of things..

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG!!!! ZOMFECKINGGOSH!!!

hehe i had such a good day today!! I got up at 9:30 without the help of alarms or parents and then i was lazy until about 12 when i realised i'd said i'd do some work nad my mum was going to be home soon. So i hid in my room until i heard her get back and then came down for lunch mumbling about maths! XD It worked really well! lol After lunch i got a picnic blanket and went into the garden with my maths homework to lie in the sun and pretend to work! Amazingly i did get some stuff done! ^_^ *yay* and i went to sleep for half an hour.. when i woke up the sun had moved so i chased it to the top part of the garden and did a couple more maths questions before getting bored and going to terrorise my rabbit.. <.< i meant groom.. hehe he was being moody and throwing things at me! While the guinea pig sat in the corner and made the weirdest sound ever becuase i gave him dandelion leaves which he loves o__O it was so funny. After that i couldn't be bothered with maths so i came in and dyed my hair! X3 it's weird.. my mum had a moment and did the short bit at the back red and the long front bits black! It looks really awesome though.. well i think so! Now i'm trying to do welsh coz we have a speaking exam in 2 weeks >.< annd tomorrow... dun dun dun TRIVIUM!! I can't wait it should be amazing! Pity i have to follow it with school.. i'm going to be a zombie! 

*sneaks up to [Beki in Wonderland] and steals* The 10 names of moi!


1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Alexandra (alex)

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first three letters of your name, plus izzle)
Aleizzle.. XD thats just dodgy..

3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three of your last)
A-Par XD hehe heads up i'm a golfing term! XD

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Black Wolf

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, Street you live on):
Eva Cilcain (XD XD XD *dies* .. okay so it's not that funny!)

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of mom’s maiden name):
Paralfor (I like it! XD *dances*)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink):
Indigo Ouzo (O_O hehe)

8. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dad’s middle name, 1st letter of a sibling’s first name, last letter of your moms middle name):
Raowla (hehe... <33)

9. YOUR STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/body spray)
Cool Water (XD)

10. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father’s middle name)
Lavina Edward (thats pretty cool.. i might use that for an RP character!)

Picture number one.. the toaster in the living room.. yeah i wanted a bagel but it's 12:30am (or was.. it's later now) and my parents are asleep -_- so i relocated the toaster and had a bagel anyways!


Picture 2.. my bagel.. which was delicious.. yeah i had to smother it in butter.. umm.. i love buttered bagels so much! <3 and my phone.. <.< i was trying to use it to show the time..


Picture drei.. the big bruise on my side.. it doesn't look all that big but that picture shows pretty much my entire side and it's all purple, red and green! Yeah. someone punched me in the pit at the pentre! XD

hmmm i've been away the last couple of days so here's a quick over-view of what i've been up to:
Thursday:
Mood: chilled
Events: Went to work at the farm which was cool it was really warm so we didn't do much, mucked out the stables (all of them! :o) abnd then groomed finn which was ace.. beki schlumpfeled his mane which looked awesome and i tried (and failed) to get rid of all the lose hairs from his coat coz he's moulting! He loved being rubber curry combed on his back.. he pulled an amazingly funny face! X3 aww bless him! After that beki managed to run off with my wages but we're meeting in Chester on Tuesday so i'll get them back then.. which is good becuase i don't know how much money i have at the moment!
I cam home, showered, changed, packed my bag and had a big glass of iced cider which chilled me out and was the best way to finish the day.. well the daylight part of it that is! At 7:30 i left for Cross's house coz we were going to the Pentre for the metal night! I took all my bags (spent a couple of days in Lincoln). We went to the Pentre and had an awesome time! Mitch was there as was cal, walker, josh, bianca, chantelle, and some other people i didn't know. I have an awesome bruise on my side coz someone punched me in the pit! XD and there was this really cute guy there who was completely out of it! He knew walker and the rest but i never found out his name. he got pushed in the pit and i ended up catching him then he followed me back to our table and sat down next to me. Pity i'm taken coz he was sooo sweet! X3 We couldn't be bothered with the last band so me and bianca went outside and everyone else followed. We just chatted and sat on the wall.. which walker pushed me off and i found really funny! We left the Pentre at 12 and i stayed the night at Cross's.
Friday:
mood: slightly annoyed
events: i had to wake up early so we could dricve down to Lincoln for a family gathering. The journey was okay.. it took about 3 hours though. When we got there i was really annoyed coz i couldn't get changed (i was still in my pijamas) and i couldn't shower or put any make-up on. In the end i changed in the toilets and made myself look vaguely okay then we had a big meal which again was alright, the food wasn't great nad Mark spent the whole time throwing things at me biting and pinching me and being generally annoying. we had a great game of tag in the play park with my cousins and uncle Mick then went back to my gran's house. We were quite lazy there just snacking on party food, chatting and watching TV. We left at 9:30 and went back to the hotel. i was tired and my mum had put me in a room with my two brothers, i had to sleep on the floor and both brothers were whining and ordeing me about. i went and had a shower in an attempt to stop me losing my temper and talked to cross who helped me chill out a bit. After that it was alright.. although it took me ages to get to sleep and i thought there was a guy sitting on the window sill o_O
Saturday:
Mood:Pissed off
events: well got up early again to get breakfast and check out of the hotel, i slept really badly but i was in good spirits. I had breakfast and i was ready to head for home but my parents decided we had to go into town. So i was dragged there kicking and screaming, dragged up a massive hill so my dad could look at wine and dragged into several shops i really didn't want to go in. I wanted my own space and time to chill out! Anyways we were there for about 2 hours and i got some chocolates from this shop and a dir en grey CD (whithering to death) which was good but after that we had to get back in the car for the journey home. It wasn't too bad, i slept a bit and listened to a story CD but i really wanted to listen to dir en grey. when we finally got home my mum yelled at me for taking the bags in as she told me to because i took a bag she was going to take -_____- So now i'm on here chatting to my friends and trying to chill out. I'm going to get a cider and shower soon and maybe do some homework but i refuse to speak to the rest of my family unless i really have to.
... the Dir en Grey CD is AWESOME though! <333 

well i had a kinda shit evening yesterday. I lost it big time, not with anyone i just kinda lost control and alot of stuff that had built up over the past couple of months came out. Partly becuase of stress i guess and partly because i'm tired. Anyways i had to vent so thanks to Wilson and [Domo-kun] for listening and offering me advice. I've slept on it now and i feel a hell of alot better. Crying helped too. Now i have a plan of action: I need to talk to the person at the centre of this and i need to stop caring that i may end up losing alot of friends. Yes it will hurt but i know i have a boyfriend that will stick by me and i'm fed up of tiptoing around painful subjects. I also need to take some time out so next week i'm going to just revise and think about things.. and go to town with Wilson to get my tongue done.
So meh! ^__^ I gotta thank everyone else coz you guys made me laugh and you help me to focus on life. That may sound odd but.. *shrugs* i know what i mean! =D