[Lexi. Short and Sweet!]'s diary
HALLOWEEN! <3
I LOOOVE halloween!! The last day or so several things have heppened that have got me in a really childish halloween mood! I'm just disappointed that i don't have time to do halloween art.. but on the plus side i'm doing well at checking the boxes on Miss Batten's art coursework sheet! =D yayz!Anywho back to halloween.. last night i talked to Beki and we've arranged for her to come over here and then we're going trick or treating with my little brother (like the little kid i am at heart) after that we're going to go to the graveyard take some photos and stuff and then watch some horror movies.. and the final part of the most haunted live halloween 5 part show. Thats the other thing thats got me excited about halloween MOST HAUNTED LIVE! lol i know it's stupid but i'm a most haunted nut! I love the tension it builds up and the way you can never be sure if it's real or fake.. i just love it! Anyways caught the 3rd episode last night missed the first two ;__; but last night was brilliant! Me and my brothers watched all 3 hours of it and i had my laptop so we went on the website to watch the webcams during the intermission (or ad break). It was really scary!
Then there's the normal halloween stuff, like the fact i carved the pumpkin today! And made a pumpkin cake... randomly.. coz i felt like it! Anywho i'll take pictures of my costume and of my pumkin and i'm going to halloweenise my house at somepoint! (tonight and tomorrow i think) so yeah! X3 *luff* lolz
Anyway i need to get back to work! tarrah! xxx
gah.. brother (mark) has a friend over, he's pretty nice but boys being boys him and mark spend most of the time fighting and insulting each other.. which can be annoying when i'm in charge and he has chores to do.. but he's no where near as bad as felix sooo.. s'all good! Plus i can now retire to my room and net when they annoy me too much.. although i wanted to play KH for an hour before i have to walk into town.. guess it'll have to wait until later!
I'm going to get my hair cut.. dunno what im doing with it it's pretty short at the moment.. i might get some layers added in and make the back really short.. something like that.. or i might just let emma do whatever she wants she's pretty good at things like that! I just want a change.. then this afternoon i think i'll re-dye it and start on my art coursework.. luckily i don't have much other homework cept maths revision and to write up notes. I'm going to do mrs batton's coursework first as she's given us a check list and i should be able to go through that fairly quickly..
Plus there's NaNoWriMo and i'm determined to succeed which means a 2000 word count every day.. =/ i'll find the time.. i have 2 ideas.. one is a dark story about a girl who was captured and tortured until she lost her memory and is then found. It fallows 2 intertwining plot lines which is what happens to her in the present and her slow remembering of what happened in the past.
The other i was thinking of was a terry pratchett type spoof.. i think i'm going to write both of them but use the first one for NaNo as it's got the more developed plot of the two. The second one is going to be about a witch.. modelled on myself.. so a know-it all, loud-mouth, happy go lucky nutter!! =D
Anywho.. half an hour till i have to leave! I should be back online later..
tarrah xxx
MWAHAHAHAHA!!! *evil laughter* ^__^ i am happyful and you know why? Because all my stuff is in my room, i chucked out 5 bin liners worth of crap and i just have the second coat to do on the red squares and then i'm done with my room!! *dances* Done by tomorrow i think which gives me the rest of the week to work on Art AO1 and AO2 for Mr t and Mrs Batton and other homework and revision typing up notes etc. Plus I think i'm going to go trick or treating on halloween.. coz i'm 16 and this is probably the last year i'll get to go and act like a kid! :3 So i'm hoping to rope [Beki in Wonderland] in and then she can stay over and we can watch scary movies and do a halloween graveyard photo-shoot! I'll ring her tonight to talk about it..
Then chester on saturday i think! Which should be fun it's been like 2 months since i last went to chester.. oh yeah and halloween larp.. should be fun! (plus gets lyon off my back for a while.. =P) Thats it really.. still need to reply to my gaia RPs.. but that shouldn't take long and then do some writing.. in prep for NaNoWriMo.. =D so yeah i'm feeling less like i have an empty life and more like i am getting my ass in order.. no BF.. but meh.. *shrugs* i'm not going to go find any bloke.. i'm going to wait and see what happens!
tarrah! xxx
MWAHAHAHAHA!!! *evil laughter* ^__^ i am happyful and you know why? Because all my stuff is in my room, i chucked out 5 bin liners worth of crap and i just have the second coat to do on the red squares and then i'm done with my room!! *dances* Done by tomorrow i think which gives me the rest of the week to work on Art AO1 and AO2 for Mr t and Mrs Batton and other homework and revision typing up notes etc. Plus I think i'm going to go trick or treating on halloween.. coz i'm 16 and this is probably the last year i'll get to go and act like a kid! :3 So i'm hoping to rope [Beki in Wonderland] in and then she can stay over and we can watch scary movies and do a halloween graveyard photo-shoot! I'll ring her tonight to talk about it..
Then chester on saturday i think! Which should be fun it's been like 2 months since i last went to chester.. oh yeah and halloween larp.. should be fun! (plus gets lyon off my back for a while.. =P) Thats it really.. still need to reply to my gaia RPs.. but that shouldn't take long and then do some writing.. in prep for NaNoWriMo.. =D so yeah i'm feeling less like i have an empty life and more like i am getting my ass in order.. no BF.. but meh.. *shrugs* i'm not going to go find any bloke.. i'm going to wait and see what happens!
tarrah! xxx
Written about Saturday 2007-10-27
Written: (6094 days ago)
[I'm a horrible person.]
1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [x]
6. Had sex. []
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. []
10. Done drugs. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 8
1. Taken painkillers. [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. [x] <_< >_>
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [x](i'm not perfect.. infact far from.. but cheh..)
5. Been to rehab. []
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [x] ([not in the emo way.. there is a story behind it actually, which only Alex knows XD] - beki.. yeah i know the story! =P)
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. [x]
10. Seen someone die.[]
TOTAL SO FAR: 15
1. Missed curfew. [x]
2. Stayed out all night. [x]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. []
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. []
8. Been in an accident. [x](<_< coz i'm a bit dim sometimes)
9. Wished someone to die. [x]
10. Been to a bar.[x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 23
1. Been to a wild party. [x]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. [ ]
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [x] (beers?? me and beki do crates by ourselves and then follow up with spirits.. XD)
4. Had a spring break in Florida. []
5. Sniffed anything. [x](ohh yes and those flowers smelt damn good i'll have you know!)
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. [x]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x]
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. [x](rofl i did! XD thanks to rachel!!)
TOTAL SO FAR: 31
1. Dressed Gothic. [x]
2. Dressed prep.[x]
3. Dressed punk. [x]
4. Dressed grunge. [x]
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [x]
7. Blacked out. [x]
8. Fainted. [x]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [] (aye coz those dead bodies are so damned sexual! X3 =__=)
TOTAL SO FAR: 39
1. Snuck into someone else's room. [x]
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [x]
4. Dry-humped someone. [x] (rofl.. reminds me of someone..)
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car. []
8. Broken a mirror. [x]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [x]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush. [x](grins and (yes i'm going to say it) it was a damned good toothbrush too! =P)
TOTAL SO FAR: 48
1. Consider/consi
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [](thought that said chester then! XD)
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [x]
5. Had surgery. []
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. []
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 54
1. Owned/rented an apartment.[]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. [x](cheh.. drinking in chester..)
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [x] (i'm not proud... theres alot i hate about myself.. this list has most of the things!)
4. Got in trouble with the police. []
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [x]
7. Kissed a stranger. [x] (festivals FTW!)
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [x] (hehe)
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 62
1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. []
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [x]
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. []
8. Prank-called someone. [x]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 69
TOTAL OF ALL SCORES = 69 o___O crap... that says it all.. buut i'm not bad at all... this is a cheap fake quiz! *pouts* lolz
-If You Have Less Then 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.]
in other news i'm bored as hell.. i'm doing feck all this week.. sooo bored... sooo fed up.. can't wait until college is over atm. =___= You know what? I need a relationship.. where is that damn perfect guy?? fucking hurry up and sweep me off my feet! XD I need to rant and moan and snog and hug.. and... yeah.. i need a guy! lolz.. lookit i'm advertising like a whore.. ahh well.. i'm not looking for net relationships.
Bleh my house still needs sorting <_< *cough* it will happen eventually.... in a year or two =P j/k
Anywho! Long time since i diaried... school is teh hard work.. no time for doing much.. no will to do much =__= i am a willless zombie atm! but.. half term! :3 and crimbo coming up and hopefully my tablet so i can do some decent digital art and i'll probably change my DA coz that name is sooo old.. and i want a new one! yeahz.. so all that to look forward to.. and zomg birthdays.. i'm in mold on monday so i shall sort out prezzies and stuff then!
Anyways i went caving and it was awesome! I survived the trains *ish proud* and even managed the 6am get-up and the afternoon cave on the first day.. and i lOVED every minute of it.. so now i know i have no normal phobias.. i mean i can handle small spaces, darkness, heights.. all that sorta stuff and i hope to go back in february.. twill be my new crack! :3 well my new activity crack.. although i would like to go skiing again but i figure i'll do that in my gap year! Or with a friend sometimes! X3
I did 5 caves, Cuckoo Cleeves, Rod's pot through trip (2 caves), Goatchurch and Sidcot Swallet and in feb i'd like to do Rod's pot again, goatchurch, eastwater and swildon. =D so yayz for that.. i'll try and get hold of some of the photos and make a wiki for them! It was so awesome though i met loads of cool people! <3 to them all.. and i think i might do a bristol then london trip at somepoint!
I got back lateish on wednesday and was thrown straight into school on thurs.. needless to say i was a moody bitch and i have a new bunch of people on my "don't like" list.. life as normal.. not speaking to josh, hanging out after school.. lessons.. bleh! =___= BUUT now it's half term and i have time to catch up on my work and my gran's coming to stay and i'm adding the finishing touches to my room! *dances* so it's all good.. plus i decided to go to LARP just to get out and do something and i'm getting my hair cut on monday! :3 so it's all good!
Anyway i CBA writing anymore now.. that brings everyone who cares up to date! Now to gaia to post on some RPs.. and then.. *shrugs* bed!
Tarrah! xxxx
parents.. =__= seriously.. got in from babysitting last night got addicted to KH so i ended up in bed at 3am expecting a lie in... 9 o clock my mum comes on "Just checking you're here!!" ..Thank you.. she could have checked without yelling at me! Then she had to have a half hour long convo with me about how much she likes my room and how pretty it is and how it's good that it's finished finally... blah blah blah.. and finally she left.. but WTF?? I don't get my mum... she's odd sometimes.. i love her lots but seriously.. i'm going to wake her up and start talking about oranges one day see how she likes it!
Anyways i actually got up properly at 2pm! Then i was just pottering about doing art, playing KH and chatting on msn.. pretty relaxed day! First one in ages and i did all my homework yesterday and friday which was good! Just gotta finish my mechanics homework now.. then i'm home fee which is good coz next week is going to be busy! :o i have to move most of my stuff back into my room and pack for caving (i leave on sat at about 6am :o but it should be fun and i'll have time to sleep on the train) and there's a concert on friday ruth says i HAVE to go to.. so i am but i have to have all my stuff sorted for caving.. shouldn't be too hard.. old clothes... first aid kit.. torch.. anywho thats all for today!
oh yeah..
I HAVE LOADS OF IKEA PENCILS! X3
as is the tradition in our area.. you go to ikea steal loads of their pencils and give them to people at school! XD thats why my pencil case is full of mini-pencils.. hehe.. i looked really stupid walking arounf ikea with my jean pockets stuffed with pencils!I think i was a magpie in a past life! lol.. seriously i LOVE shiny and sparkly things and today in ikea i got stressed out with my mum so i sqwarked at her and flapped my arms around... o___O rofl.. it's so true! XD If everyone has animal charactaristic
Anywho... the point of this ramble was to update everyone on life at the moment... coz i haven't been spending much time writing in my diary or answering messages at the moment.. I've been busy with school work and trying to keep up to date.. plus art coursework due in on monday and what i've got to hand in is kinda pathetic.. we do get it back to work on but i'd kinda like to get as much done as poss. this weekend.
I GOT MY KH GAMES!! They came in the post on Thursday.. thank goodness for the end of the postal strikes!! I would have gone crazy having to wait any longr! Haven't had much time to play them though! My brothers keep asking me for a go and i'm like NO!! get away!! my new games!! GRRR! lol <_< I'm going to take them with me babysitting coz the kids i'm sitting have a PS2 so i'ma gunna steal the mem. card and game for a couple of hours! X3 yay! I need to play on the PS2 more.. i'm going to get our family one after x-mas if my bros get the X-box 360 they want!
I also got a letter in the post on Thursday saying a poem i entered in an online contest has made the semi-finals and is being published (with my permission) and stands a chance of winning me a couple of hundred pounds! I don't think i'll win but it's still exciting.. and i can't believe the judges likes what i submitted.. i mean i know people say i have a talent for poetry but i've never really thought i was good enough to win anything... especially as the other entrants are all in their 20s and 30s! *squee* !!! I think i might enter more comps. i mean if i can get money out of something i LOVE doing then why not?
Didn't get the tesco job =( but i'm filling out an application for Argos for x-mas work and i'll get an app. form for Smiths if they're taking on people which rach says they might be!
Last night was good hung around at the bus stop with Josh, Mark, Wilson and Gemma.. we had so much fun! XD lol and we saw Beki and ruth! All of us were eating chips! yum!
Today.. well i had to get up at 8 to go to ikea so we could get some furniture and get home before my mum had to go get her hair cut. I was SHATTERED!! lol because i was up till 1:30am talking to Ieuan on msn and then i was reading some of this poetry book i was leant off my english lit teacher.. and i had one of those.. have i gone to sleep at all moments at about 4am.. so i got up had coffee went to ikea!
My mum was stressing out becuase she wants all my stuff back in my room and she stressed me out and kept asking me what i wanted and stuff and coz i was tired i lost it with her! I just screamed and flapped for a bit in the middle of Ikea.. rofl must have been so funny to watch! Then my mum felt bad for me.. so she let me have a really cool light tree! Oh yeah and my room is almost done! about 3 months after i began.. but hay! I have a desk now which i'm currently sitting at! Nice big double bed, bookshelf, chest of draws and wardrobe (not all from Ikea) and i got a cube to go next to my bed to dump magazines and stuff in! And a cool light thats next to my desk! So i'm happy.. especially as we only have to put up a couple of shelves and i can get all my stuff back in my room! I'm going to sort everything out and go to a big bootsale at somepoint.. hopefully make a bit of cash! Which is always useful! Plus caving in a week! Can't wait!! Get to see all the camping gang again and get good and muddy and have camp fires and just generally forget that there are expectations of me.. gah.. A Level stress aready! *rolls eyes* i'm too stubborn to drop a subject though!! I WILL SURVIVE!!!!!!!
Anywho i'm starving.. dinners not till 6 ;_; i had lunch at 12.. and nothing since.. lol but my mum got me some daim's from Ikea.. coz i love them! Plus she disappeared off while i was sorting some bits in my room and reappears with a proper posh art portfolio!! She used her wages to buy it for me coz she said she was fed up of me carting aorund tatty plastic art folders with broken handles! It's so awesome! looks really professional too and it should last me a while.. must have been expensive though o___O Anywho i am a very happy child at the moment! ^_^ I think i just need to get organised (which i will do over half term) stop fannying about and start using a baseball bat to make my way through life! I'm going to do things my way and succeed or some one will be feeling the wrath of my large metaphorical baseball bat! so yeah... *dances* rofl.. thats probably been a very long and rambly rant so.. <_< i shall say tarrah to you all! Babysitting yeah! KH gaming sesh! even better!
Love you all! xxx
The strangest thing just happened.. o___O
I was sitting in my room on my laptop minding my own business when the fire alarm went off, it lasted for about 30 seconds and then stopped so i figured someone had burnt something in the kitchen and ignored it. The it happened again and it went off for longer.. so i thought i'd get up and go check it out.. walked along the landing and smelt the faint whiff of smoke then the alarm stopped again. So i stood and looked at it a while but it did nothing.. so i went downstairs and my mum asked me if i'd heard the alarm, i told her i had so we went and checked every room for any sign or smell of smoke.. as you do! We couldn't find anything.. that may not seem weird to you.. you may just shake your head and go "so your fire alarm battery needs changing" but i was up in my room, my mum was in the front room watching TV, the first time it went off only me and my mum heard it, the second time everyone except my brother mark heard it. The strangest thing is i smelt smoke on the landing upstairs and my mum smelt smoke in the dining room downstairs. Thats opposite ends of the house and different floors! It was only a faint smell and it disappeared after that... Then i went back to my room and the minute i stepped in the door the alarm went off again and i went back to yell at it.. it stopped beeping the minute i told it to "shut up!" Which was odd.. anyways we decided it was just the battery needing changing as there was no sign of a fire or anything around.. but it was still freaky... the smoke bit most of all.. o___O
I haff an imaginary Dragon! X3
Curtosy of the Imaginary Dragon Store
His name is Kyo, he's silver black with violet eyes and at the moment he's under my bed! X3 Bless him! *glomps* XD
Written about Sunday 2007-10-07
Written: (6114 days ago)
GRRRR!!!
I'm in a mood now... =___= The postal workers are on strike so i don't get my KH games until thursday at the earliest which sucks ass...
My brothers are annoying the hell out of me! They keep fighting and Mark keeps saying he hates lewis and he wishes he was dead.. i just wanna smack mark and ask him how he'd like it if i told him every day i wished he was dead.. kinda lost it a bit when mark smacked lewis over the head with a tray.. i was like ffs.. and his reply when i asked him what the point was was: "I don't care" =__= so yeah.. i flipped.. i was like i know you don't bloody care thats the problem! If you cared you wouldn't do it.. you know what we all have to live in the same house whether you like it or not and right now i don't want to live with you. He stopped being mean to lewis after that.. but i think it's only because he respects me b/c he believes that a persons worth is shown by their fighting ability and i lost my temper with him when i was younger and beat the crap out of him.. now he keeps mostly to my good side.. lewis however hasn't beaten him up coz he doesn't like fighting and he's alot smaller than mark.. i mean he's nearly 3 years younger.. GAH!!
Plus there's other stuff but i don't really want to talk about that.. i'm going away in 2 weeks and that'll give me a chance to sort out my head and calm down.. i hate this.. i have so much work to do at school.. my dad's never home, my mum's always working but she misses my dad alot and i have to cook, look after my brothers, do homework and my chores and it feels like i'm trying to keep my family together while everything is spinning out of control. I don't know what to do. And now i'm sitting her bloody crying... The worst thing is i feel like there is no one.. i feel like i've lost myself and my heart somewhere.. there are people i should care about that i feel nothing about.. i hate it.. looking at someone and thinking "I should care" but i can't find anywhere in me that does care. I have no idea whats going on but it feels like i'm falling apart, like there's nothing left inside.. no emotion.. nothing.. i feel like i'm just living because i can't think of anything else to do.
this wasn't meant to be a rant at all.. just ignore it..
zomg a whole week since i last worte in my diary! :o I've been too busy reading the KH manga and i've suddenly become addicted to myspaz plus tv, homework and going out after school.. oh yeah and being ill.. has meant i haven't been on here as much! o__O I had a cold.. for ages.. i probably still have it.. but i'm too busy feeling slightly sick.. i blame Amz's party! Which was awesome! She suddenly announced on Friday that i was coming so i was like.. fine! Coz Amy is amazing and i like going out for a drink! =D We had so much fun! I wasn't feeling well though.. so i drank and felt worse and blacked out for a couple of seconds halfway through a convo me and amy were having and ended up half out the conservatory door.. me and amy were laughing our asses off! XD It was really amusing.. there were only a few of us, me amz, tanz, tofa and christea but we had fun! We got the dance mat out and sat in the garden and had a rolling competition!
Then at about 1am after i'd got over being ill thought fuck it and carried on drinking anyways (it was my mission according to Amy to keep up with her.. and she drinks fast! o__O plus she kept mixing my drink till i ended up with a pure alcohol layer and a layer of solidified baileys! It was horrible.. but great for getting pissed on!) So yeah.. we went to the park at 1am and Amy span me and tanz on the roundabout and we were trying to not fall off/throw up by yelling I'm on jupiter until Amz said jupiter was cold then we were yelling I'm on mars! XD rofl.. we bailed out in the end coz amy wouldn't stop.. it was hilarious...
We had a good womanly chat and a gossip! ^^ so yeah it was all good! X3
Plus i have an invite to ANOTHER party now! XD I'm becoming such a 6th former.. annoying my teachers.. turning up to lessons wearing stupid things and partying every weekend! yay! *dances* Anyways i have homework and room tidying to do.. so i may log off and come back later to answer my messages! =D
tarrah! xxxx
Bleh it's cold >.< and i have such and urge to go for a walk... it'd be so nice in the morning... quiet and wooo! But Beki and Josh are asleep on the sofa and i have to tidy up the house a bit.. washing up, dishwasher stacking etc. to be done you see! I am amazed i'm not dead right now.. i've had like no sleep because there's no blind in my room yet and i went to sleep as it was starting to get light and woke up every 10 minutes or so till i thought "fuck it" I'll just get up i have stuff to do anyways... so here i am rambling in my diary about it! XD
Beki came over yesterday afternoon with cider and my brother sold me a bottle of cider for £2:50 which he didn't want X3 So we drank the 2 cans i had in the fridge then the whole of Beki's bottle and then i drank half of the other bottle >.< That was not a good idea and i think it must have been slightly dodgy coz i feel like puking my guts up right now... but i'm not going to i'm going to be good and feed the pets and wash up, stack dishwasher and maybe start doing my homework i was meant to do yesterday <_<
But first answering messages...
Tarrah! xxx
Naruto Manga Spoilers.. sorta
ZOMG PEIN!! He was such a cute little emo freak.. and now an awesome pierced face changing *drool* .. bless him!! I have fanarted him just need to CG it and upload it then i have an excuse to shamelessly sefl-advertise my DA! *prods people* you know you want to go check it out:
http://psycho-
Anyways i'm home alone.. parents are in Holland brothers are at friends houses and Beki is coming over at some point this afternoon/even
Schools going good now! I'm having a fun time! Just need to get organised and on top of homework and stop spending money on fattening crap! =D yush! *nods* Which is what i'm using this weekend for. ^___^ mwaha.. anyways i need to stop rambling and procrastinatin
Tarrah! Love ya! xxx
Zomg ROFL!
I R PRAT! *grin*
and thats it for now folks!
god i remind myself of a bugs bunny cartoon... myself is disgusted with myself... me says i should hang my head in shame.
and no you are not meant to understand.. it's one of those things.. at one of those times.. which means i have gone stark raving bonkers.. i'm a rooning laney *nods* uhuh!
enjoy your cake folks! Folks.. roflmao!!! *dies*
*dances* another good day.. beki's made no move to make friends.. so i'm guessing this is it.. XD There should be a tribute wiki or something.. anyways just have to see what happens tomorrow. Nothing happens then i'm going to put it in a box and get on with life.. coz i have alot of work to be doing.. o_O I'm starting to realise just how much effort it's going to take to get where i want to in life! *sigh* growing up too fast.. but mind you i am kinda loving it.. these past couple of days especially i feel so free and chilled.. anyways I'm always open to being mates with Beki again but she has to make the move, i know it sounds harsh but i have my reasons. Reasons that will only be revealed when whatever happens happens. lol thats a mouthful.. and it sounds so mysterious.. *holds up gun bond style* dun dun dun... <_< yeah.. anyways Heroes rawks! I have my new watercolur pencils! X3 and art with Mrs Batton is annoying the hell out of me mind you at least i'm working in her class.. in Mr T's i'm not really.. i don't know what i'm supposed to be doing!! I need photos for my AO1.. maybe it
i'll go into town at lunch to get some batteries for my camera and get the photos developed. I'm going into town anyways after school coz i have a chem prac. till 4:30 and after that i've got an hour to kill.. i'll find someone.. ask amy to meet me or something like that! XD If not libary, tescos.. plenty to do! =D
Anyways thats it for now i have notes to write up for Matt and something to do for my brother! X3
Tarrah! Love you all! xxx
Today has been odd... good but odd! I didn't write anything yesterday i don't think.. i was a bit stressed out and tired and emotionally wrecked! XD I just felt betrayed and fed up and lost, no idea of where i stood with my best friend. Fortunatly that problem has solved itself in the form of Beki not talking to me o__O Now some of you might be going ZOMG!!! but they're like inseperable.. well not any more it seems! XD lol.. okay so it may seem so weird that i'm not really upset about it.. and it's not that i'm hiding it i'm actually not upset. I've spent today with a load of people i wouldn't normally spend my day with and it was AWEZOME!! I have so many good friends that i sometimes didn't take much notice of, me and Amy are getting on great.. she forced me to come into town with her after school and then didn't want me to go home! XD Normally i wouldn't have gone without beki.. coz i always feel like i'm second best to her and that no one would want me there on my own.. but i had just as good a time without her.. it might seem really harsh to be saying this but it's the truth and yeah i know she has an ET and will probably read this and thats part of the reason i'm writing it.
Beki: I have no idea why you're not speaking to me, that's your problem and i'm not going to grovel at your knees to find out. If you want me as a friend thats fine if you don't that's also fine, i think i'll survive! I'm not about to turn this into some kinda war i'm still going to enjoy my life coz i realised a while back that i'm the only person that can make me happy. If this is over Josh i think thats really stupid.. i don't care if you're dating him or in love with him, again thats your choice and i'm over him. As i've said he's dead to me now and that has nothing to do with you and his relationship. And if this is something else i honestly have no idea what it is so i have nothing to feel guilty about. Balls in your court, you have to decide what you want.
Thats it i think! ^__^ so yeah a pretty good day for me! X3 I'm in a happyful mood.. just going to do some homework and i'll be back later.. to do some CGing and writing. Turns out i've grown alot in the last couple of months, I think i'm actually happy with myself, i believe in myself again and i have faith in me! So what should have been bad was actually good.. life is funny like that lol!
ohh yeah.. Amy's also invited me to her Bday piss up and she says i can probs. stay at hers afterwards! ACE! XD
Written about Sunday 2007-09-23
Written: (6128 days ago)
Completely irrelivant but i can't feel my foot and i need to go to bed! *nods* buut i have lots of news from this weekend that i need to write about before it falls victim of what i am now calling BOA syndrome.. as in i can't be bothered writing about it and so it is left as a half finished word document! XP
Anyways where did i get up to last entry? Thursday.. goodo! =D means i don't have too much to ramble about and i noticed i typoed awesome as AWEZOME which is infact awesome and i shall now completely over use! AWEZOME! =P Anyways Friday was Shammy's party, which was great! Beki came over at about 7 ish and we started drinking t3h rum before we got there and then moved on to spirits and cider! X3 Vena Cava did an awezome set! Few more songs than at mike's party.. we did some made piggy-back headbanging.. ate some guinea pig treats.. (<_< >_>), then it gets hazy so to keep it short.. lost beki made friends with a load of people i knew from other parties and were in my form and talked to sinead again! All of which was fun.. built up y shit mix in my cider can.. i have a habit of getting people to add bits of drink into my can till i have no idea what i'm drinking and then get wasted!
Me and Amy were WASTED so we stuck together.. we had a rofl moment with the seesaw.. it was a 2 year olds one! Me and beki had tried to get on it and somehow i tripped over and ended up lying on Beki's legs then when me and Amy tried we managed to flip it over completely and were left ROFLING on the floor! XD After that i don't remember much of anything.. Nathan added Absynthe to my shit mix after i had a couple of mouthfuls of it straight.. i think i had, vodka, rum, whiskey, absynthe, cider, beer and whatever other spirits were going in it! XD Killer! lol I sat with amy and steevo outside the hanger.. matty got yelled at.. alot of people left.. i ended up paralitic on the floor.. the tent had been put up but i couldn't figure out how to get in.. tent.. sleep..
Then the next day.. woke up with no hangover at about 6 and then went and sat on the camping chairs i'd brought from 8 onwards. Found beki made a vid of the aftermath and got a lift home with my dad! Saturday was ugh.. i had to dismantle a wardrobe and put a chest of draws together.. which i did then i crashed on my sofa for 3 hours.. woke up with a sore neck.. had dinner.. went on pc.. found out Lyon had got him, me and beki tickets to a manga con. on november 29th in chester! X3 fecking YES!!!!! i am majorly excited and i need to figure out a costume as well as ones for ninja day and halloween.. i lOVE dressing up! lol anyways yeah..
Got up early this morning.. put together my new wardrobe and then did homework all day.. boring -___- but had to be done i hadn't done any all week! XD My room is pretty AWEZOME now i have some new furniture in but i need to go through some of my stuff... i have so much crap.. but my room is almost done and it's so big now.. at least it looks alot bigger than it did.. i'll get some photos soon! x3 me and my mum are going on a shopping spree for accessories and stuff which i adore! I love getting new pretty stuff.. i'm such a girl! <_< anyways i should be heading off to bed now so i can cope with school tomorrow although i'm not really tired.. but i do have to read some Antony and Cleo.. so i might do that and read a couple of Neo Articles.
Oh and i have a future.. my aim is architecture in Cambridge! *dances* i'm so glad i have a plan now! =D
Tarrah! Love you all! xxx
Gah i feel exhausted! I mean i feel more tired than i did in the holidays staying up for days and nights in a row and more tired than camp where i got about 3 hours sleep a night and walked 12 miles with a pack a day! :o I don't know what it is.. there are several things it could be.. just general school and stuff tiring me out, sleepwalking alot or not sleeping too well.. the other strange thing is i'm almost constantly hungry.. i mean i must have eaten about twice the amount i normally would today.. which would suggest i'm growing.. which i REALLY doubt.. but you never know i live in hope! XD
In other news i have just completed my Tesco job application form which i hope to give in tomorrow! Fingers crossed i get the job because the money is quite good and i could use some extra cash what with uni fast approaching and plans for a gap year round the world trip. I got Harry Potter special edition top trumps too today! xD Me and mark were playing them in physics and our teacher caught us.. we had no idea what he had been saying but luckily the fake tattoo on my neck saved us! XD He went off on a ramble about a guy in a caffee with a spiderweb tattooed on his face and then started rambling at walker about his baccy tin/pencil case! XD so we got out of the lesson early and i had a free first coz our chem teacher was away! Unfortunately we have a mini-test tomorrow -___- which i should be revising for now.
Yesterday was AWEZOME!! A couple of us from 6th form went to school dressed as pirates, Mr Humphys was threatening to chuck us out of school for the day but everyone else thought it was funny! So he got over-ruled and spent the rest of the day glaring at us! I'll put up a pic of my costume when i can find one! I got told off in maths too by Mrs Bradford but meh! XD it was awesome! We went into town too! Everyone thought it was amazing and we met loads of people and started conversations with them! Plus the look i got when i went into the job center was priceless! XD Ahh i had so much fun! X3 But it was so tiring i got home and fell asleep on the sofa! XD
And for anyone that hasn't seen the latest Heroes eps yet or doesn't watch it.. shame on you!!!!! it is really gooood! :o I love Hiro and Peter! They are my favs with Isaac as a close second! ^____^
AHHHH!! *dies* for no reason at all i started watching marauder's vids on youtube and now i want to fanart!!! NOT ONLY THAT BUT I WAS NEARLY IN TEARS!!!!! zomfgwtf??? gah =__= i am a potter nerd!