My bloody parents are so bloody childish >_____< They've had a massive argument and aren't speaking to eachother.. Mum's saying that she's moving out after Christmas, my little brother is distraught and my dad is sulking... And right at this moment i'm just too bloody tired to give a damn... I've been at work all weekend, i have a migraine and i'm working again tomorrow and boxing day, and i'm just so tired i don't care if my parents are splitting up.. I know that sounds really selfish, but i don't care, they're being selfish. All my dad did was accidentally smash our plasma ball. Big wow. OMG, he made a little mistake and smashed a £15 plasma ball, and that's reason for mum to walk out? I think not. My brother is locked in his room and as far as i know has been crying for 2 hours, my parents are refusing to sort this idiotic argument out, and once again i'm stuck right in the middle where i don't want to be. I've tried explaining to mum that if she walks out, she is leaving me as the one who will have to pay for everyone's keep because my dad doesn't have a job (due to a terminal disease, not laziness).. And since i'm in full-time education, this is obviously not going to work. But i've decided that i don't care. If mum wants to be childish and walk out on us over a broken plasma ball, fine. She can. I don't need her anymore, i've grown out of always needing my parents. We'll figure something out money wise, if i have to quit school and start working full time... It'll be ok. I'm just damned determined that this stupid fight isn't going to ruin Christmas, if i have to put the presents out on Christmas eve and cook the bloody dinner on Christmas day myself, i will NOT let my stupid parents ruin this for me and my brother... He's been so looking forward to it this year, and so have i... I'll be damned if they're going to spoil it thank you very much >:(

Right, now that that's over with, i think i'm going to do something.. Not sure what, but it will only be until 10 because then Clarkson is on HIGNFY (Y)

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ARGH work was so tiring today =____= i'm nackered, i could so go to sleep now XD And i've got another 8 hour day tomorrow *dead* ...It's not too bad though coz tomorrow i'm with Linz, so it might go a bit faster XD

Umm... What else did i want to say? I've just noticed that the store manager looks like John Simm O_O I thought i recognised him XD

Anyway, gotta go eat! Turrah!

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Rofl, Neil just asked me if i want to 'pop round for a cup of tea and a natter' o___O Has he turned into an old man in the two days i haven't seen him?? Bloody hell...

Ruth's party today, which should be fun! I've managed to wrap my secret santa present and make it look nice! It doesn't look like a monkey wrapped it! I'm so proud X3

That is all.

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Work wasn't too bad today... I was in a foul mood when i got there, and i could have cried sitting behind the jewellery counter on my own for the first hour.. Then Louise appeared and i went out on clothing for a few hours so it wasn't so bad... There were these german guys looking for wellies and they made me laugh so much. "Vere are your vellingtons??" I was so trying not to giggle XD

Then on my break i was with Harry..

Me:...Can you see Hitler in this Wotsit?
Harry: Are you really that bored?
Me: Yes.

And later on i rang him because i could see he was the only one on the desk.

Me: Hi it's Beki on jewellery... Can you put a call out for Russell Brand please?
Him: Nice try. Bored?
Me: Excruciatingly.
Him: Do a jig.
Me: Will do.

XD So i did have quite an amusing day, and Linz got me a present bless her X3 She's so nice, i'm glad she's my main supervisor and not Michelle (who's evil XD) ..What else happened today? I nearly got run over 4 times by an insane Jamaican guy on a fork lift.. And i embarassed myself with Raj, one of our regulars on the kiosk.

Me: Ok, that's... Bloody hell! Thats £7000 please.
Raj: *hands over £7000 in cash*
Me: ...Why aren't you in Barbados?

And then i realised what a stupid thing to say that was XD Oh well, he laughed! Erm.. Nothing else amazingly interesting has happened to me recently... I'm going to Ruth's party tomorrow... And then i'm working saturday, sunday, christmas eve, boxing day and the day after boxing day *dies* I'm going to be so shattered... Blah.

I get payed triple for boxing day though. £15 an hour (Y) That's £120 for a day's work :p

That is all.

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Grrr... I was in such a grumpy mood today... I was really tired and people were annoying me and it's time of the month so i'm moody anyway... And i just ignored it and ignored it all day and finally Josh made my temper snap XD He'd pissed me off anyway and i wasn't speaking to him, i can't be bothered explaining why.. And then we were walking to Ruth's..

Ruth: Beki, make Josh go over the wall and get my bottle..
Me: Nah, he'll break his neck.
Ruth: What? You've gone soft.. Is this the real Beki?? Punch Josh.
Me: Ok *punches Josh and kicks him in the shins*
Ruth: Oh it is you ^_^
Josh: Sexual harassment!
Me: No, that would be this *knees him in the balls* Goodbye.

And me and Ruth walked off giggling to ourselves ^__^ I know i'm going to get guys going 'omg, how could you knee your boyfriend in the balls, that's just harsh!' ...Yes, i know it's harsh, but he bloody well deserved it as far as i'm concerned. I'm mean to Josh at the best of times, so when i'm severely pissed off with him and at the end of my tether in general, he's going to get hurt XD

What are we to learn from this? Don't piss me off if you're male and i'm in a bad mood. I WILL kick you in the balls, i don't bloody care how agonizingly painful it is.

That is all.

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Aaaah, work was actually amazing tonight XD I had such a laugh with Courtz.. We were talking about piercings:

Courtz: My mate got her nipple pierced yesterday..
Me: Ugh, i couldn't get that done.. I couldn't just get my boob out for a random stranger to stick a pin through..
Courtz: I know, it'd be like 'excuse me, do you want to release your breast into the wild?'
Me: *ROFL*
Boss: Are you two working
Me + Courtz: Yes <_< >_>

XD so i do actually enjoy work when i'm with Courtz.. She's a big fan of Dylan Moran aswell, so she's officially super cool in my books now XD

I've written my Christmas cards and i feel very festive now ^___^

I'm also insanely tired and going to bed if you don't mind XD

That is all.

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Oh dear, i'm having one of those ridiculous giggling fits again... All over a comic that i was reading, and in this one panel the vampire dude is leaping off the roof to attack a fae... And this is what Marty had to say about it:

"It kinda looks like Faylin is doing a jig off that loft. Like he was not only seized by the need to feed on fae blood, but also seized by the need to do something incredibly Irish at the same time."

XD XD XD That made me giggle so much.. You kinda have to see the comic page to understand why it's so funny but... Bah, i'm too lazy to link it, i'll do it another time ^_^

Bed now.

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Dum de dum ^___^ Just put the Christmas tree up so i feel very festive now ^___^ Aaaah, i'm in a good mood, but i'm also totally nackered out and i feel ill... I'm not sure why i'm feeling so tired and run down lately... Must be the end-of-term fever again XD aaah well...

I don't really have anything useful to say... I got the night off work so i'm going to spend it RELAXING... Might go and have a bath... No, i'll probably fall asleep and drown myself XD

That is all.

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Weeeell, i just watched the Exorcist... On scare-factor, it was a big dissapointment.. For 'the scariest movie of all time', it wasn't really that scary at all... In fact, it just wasn't scary. At not point in the film did i feel the need to hide behind a pillow or anything like that... So yeah, it wasn't as scary as i had hoped, but it wins in my book on comedy value XD I thought it was hilarious, because when it was released it was really shocking and everyone was like "*shock-horror* O___O can they do that??" ...but now it's just funny. Well i thought it was funny o___O;; I mean obviously there were bits of it that were mildly scary, but most of the bits with the 'demon' or whatever in it were just funny... It got to the point where it just wasn't believable anymore, and that's where it loses scary-ness for me... I dunno... If i can believe something is happening, then i'll be scared of it... The highlight of the film for me was when 'Pazuzu' was talking to the priest guy, and he said 'La plume de ma tante', because now i finally know where it came from, how to spell it and what it means XD XD XD *victory dance* it's taken me about 6 months to figure it out XD XD XD other than that... Yeah, not scary, but definately worth watching (Y)

What else did i want to say? Dad's been ill(er), so has mum and bruder.. So i'm next i suppose... Erm... I've been so bloody busy this weekend i haven't had time for anything other than psychology and the occasional art thingy.. Guh.. And tomorrow i'm working until 10 *dies* ..I think i'm going to have a word with Jenny about cutting my hours down, i can so see myself dying from stress if i don't.. Seriously, they're expecting me to work the whole day on boxing day.. Do they have any idea how fucked i will be after my family's Christmas party? XD So yeah, i'm going to cut down my work hours lest i die from stuff overload... If i carried on at work the way i am, i'd be working monday tuesday and thursday straight after school until 10, and then gym on wednesday and friday and 9-5 at work every other weekend.. So basically i'd have 1 weekend a fortnight to myself, and all that would be spent doing schoolwork... Some people can handle that kind of thing, i CAN'T. I'm lazy. Very very lazy. But also easily stressed. Me + no me-time = nuclear explosion of temper. Seriously, i would end up having the worst temper-explosion the world has ever seen XD

So... Now i must go and see if i can scrape together a decent amount of work for AO3 to keep my art teacher happy... I have barely anything and i'm not sure what i've been doing with my time other than rushing about worrying about this and that o_O somehow i've managed to waste the last few weeks... Gah, slow down clock, i need time XD

That is all.

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My birthday party was AAAACE!!!! I am so effing tired now, so i'll rant about it tomorrow...

One thing i will say, Beowulf is the most sex-obsessed anti-christian film i've seen in a while o___O and it was definately not a 12a XD

That is all.

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Zomg... I've just been at my Grans and.. Omg! While i was out, 'some bloke' came over and dropped off a present for me. Turns out it was my birthday present from James. He's got me this really nice necklace with black and white crystals, two bracelets, a ring and a headband and they all match with the black and white crystals... I was like O____O how much did this bloody well cost?? Cuz it doesn't look cheap or anything, it's all really nice.. I hope he hasn't spent too much.. But still X3 squee! Birthday presents! X3

That's all i had to say really..

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaargh O___O Work was sooo tiring DX ...It wasn't half as bad as i was expecting though. I'm working with this girl Courtney and she's really nice so at least i have someone to talk too! Erm... I can't actually be arsed yattering all that much, i'm too tired... Bed in a minute i think!

Oh, i didn't get on the Japanese exchange.. But Sinead didn't either, so i don't mind XD I'm going to Japan with a few friends for my 18th anyway, and i don't want to miss BOA next year! So it's all good... I shall have to congratulate the one guy from our school who got through.. Sam i think his name was...

One other thing i have noticed recently. I am a compulsive theif. I can't help it! I see something, i pick it up and take it without even realising i'm doing it. I noticed it the other day when i was walking down the corridor and i saw this person made out of carboard lying there (it was one of the art projects or something) and i just automatically picked it up and tried to walk off with it XD I was also sitting in work today (i work on the jewellry counter and tobacco kiosk) and i was there thinking "I wonder if i could get away with stealing that box of tobacco.." <_< >_> the box was worth like £50 because Macro sells everything in bulk, so i mentally slapped myself for even thinking of pinching it and selling it at school XD Is there a name for compulsive thievs? There should be... I'm going to have to get it under control Xd

That's all i have to say, turrah.

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I've just discovered that if you eat chocolate syrup crispy cakes and drink blackcurrent juice, it tastes like roast chicken. Yeah.

That is my nugget of useless information for the day. I bid you farewell.

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I'm bored ¬___¬ Got nothing to do... And my back is really really hurting again, for no good reason... Jenny hasn't phoned so i have no idea when i'm working tomorrow... BAH. I can't concentrate on anything right now because of my back... I'm just going to give up on this ramble..

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Rofl, i've just noticed that my hotmail account is counting down 'till my birthday o_O 7 days to go! *excited for no reason*

Aaah, i had a good day today. Went over to [Pinup_princess] house with Josh so we could dye his hair. It's PINK. Not just pink. PINK. Bright bright bright luminous pink at the front, and black at the back. It actually looks really cool, which surprised me as i was expecting him to look a complete pillock. It does actually suit him, which is worrying XD He had alcohol, so we got nice and mellow, then decided to go to Tesco and get noodles and chocolate fingers XD ...So yeah we pigged out on chocolate and cider, so i DEFINATELY need to go to the gym next week (so much for giving up alcohol aswell <_< >_> aah well, i didn't drink too much, just two cans, so i'm ok...) but... All in all i had a good day, it was fun!

I'll tell you what though, Mold is absolutely CRAWLING with old people on weekdays! I've never noticed before, but i felt like i was in a zombie film or something! It was so weird, with them all lumbering and dragging themselves along the streets, moaning and mumbling.. Ok, i'm exaggerating slightly, but still! I never knew there were so many of them in Mold XD

Anyway, that's enough talking... I'm off to simstard or something! Turrah!

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ONE MORE THING!!!!!

My brother asked me what a virgin is today.

I told him it's a company that makes phones, trains and over-priced cinema's.

He dropped the subject after that luckily.

Gah, curious 9 year olds... He'll be asking me about sex next >__<

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Grrr, i really hate my mum sometimes... I just heard her talking to my brother about me, and she was being deliberately loud going 'I just hate her, i can't be bothered with her anymore, she does nothing." ..That really upset me since i've been trying really hard recently to get stuff done... I sorted out my christmas shopping and got a bunch of psychology coursework in to Mr. Rhind... I've been talking to Miss. Batten about what i should be doing to improve and on top of that i've got a job that pays really well... But once again it's just not good enough for her... I'm always going to be a failure in her eyes, no matter what i bloody well do...

But. I'm not going to let it get me down. If she doesn't like me, or she thinks i'm not going to achieve anything in life, then fine let her think that. I give up with her anyway, she can just sod off now. I'm making my own money so i dont need to rely on her anymore. I can strike out on my own a bit more. I know that if i start thinking on things too much like i used to, i'll just end up getting depressed again. And i'm not going back into counselling, that's the last thing i need on top of everything else. So i will smile, and i'll carry on, because no matter how hard things are now they're probably only going to get harder XD I've fallen out of the baby-pool and into the real world i think... Growing up and all that... But i'm enjoying it. Admittedly work from 6th form is stressful, but not so much so that it's getting me down. Just enough to nacker me out a bit. Me and Josh are actually ok at the moment and i dont feel like i want to murder him or break up with him. And he's not talking about having kids anymore XD that was just scary.. I'm going to dye his hair pink tomorrow, which should be amusing XD aaaand everyone at work is really nice so i think im going to enjoy that. School is fine i suppose... The only real problem i have is home life, but i'm going to be spending so little time at home now it doesn't matter! (Y)

So i'm 8/10 on the feel-good scale and feeling unusually cheerful for this time of night and year (i normally get massively depressed and bah-humbug during december XD). Now... I think an early night will benefit me since i'm working from 8 'till 4 on saturday and sunday *and death*... glad i've got a study day tomorrow, i can have a lie in! Tweet! I feel like writing a story now... Bah, i'll leave it until some time next week. Must sleep now. Tea, then sleep. Tea solves all problems. BAI!!! <3

Oh one more thing. Walker left school today because he's been kicked out. I shocked myself with how upset i was... I suppose i spend a hell of alot of time with him now i'm in 6th, because i spend most of my frees with him and we've become really close... I was nearly crying when he went, i'm not sure why it got to me so much... Ah well, he promised he'd come in and visit every now and then, and there's no way i'm losing touch with him! He gives good hugs! XD Now i'm leaving! XD

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I got the job!!! WOOO!!! I'm working on the jewelerry counter in Makro as of tomorrow X3 I have to go to my induction tomorrow straight after school (which means getting the school bus home *grumbles*) so i'll have to give the gym a miss... Oh well, it doesn't matter, i might get a bus into mold on Friday and go to the gym then... I really need to go this week so.... Yeah, i think i'll do that. But yay! JOB! Now i will have money X3 I work quite late though and on a monday, tuesday and thursday from 4:30 till 10, so i wont be on here as much... i also work every other weekend. Soo... Less free time i suppose, but it's ok. I have too much free time anyway XD

Yay, happy now X3

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AAAAARGH!!!! Job interview today and i am so effing nervous it's unreal >___< I have to try and stay calm, at the end of the day it's only an interview and if i dont get the job then... There'll be other interviews!!! XD That doesn't stop me being shit-your-pants nervous though... AAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!! *dies*

Apparently they do a little maths test aswell, which i am bricking it about, because anyone who knows me knows that i'm bad under any kind of pressure at all, and i'm likely to panic and why the fuck is my mouse cursor edging it's way up the bloody screen?! AGH!!!!

Anyway i have to go and get ready now... WISH ME LUCK!!! *crosses fingers*

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*snort* another amusing webcam moment with Emily.

Me: *absent mindedly clicking toes* (it's a bad habit of mine)
Em: ...You have really crunchy toes.
Me: I do!

XD XD Just the way she said 'crunchy toes' with a really dodgy accent XD XD XD ...Well it amused me <_< >_>

Anyway i need to get some sleep now. I have a job interview tomorrow which i am insanely nervous about and i need to be semi awake for it. It's also ninja day so i need to dress up like a ninja XD 

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I've been put through to the interview stage for the Japanese exchange!!!! I am like, mega hyper about it, and i just read Alex's diary and she's through too!!!!! It would be so awesome if we got to go together X3
Also, i got a job interview at Macro today! It's tomorrow at 2 so i have to miss half of school, but i dont care because... SQUEEL!!! Job interview, Japan interview... It's all happening! X3

Nothing else to say really, i'm off to simstard! Toodles! <3

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