Man talk about retail therapy.. I've been shopping like a maniac on Ebay recently, and i'm dead excited because most of what i've bought it coming tomorrow and it'll be like christmas all over again opening all those packeges X3 I'm watching an auction for the Yellow manga boxset at the moment.. I haven't bid yet, but 3 people are bidding like crazy and my plan is to snipe them in the last 10 seconds using my usual trick XD Oh dear, i'm becoming an Ebay addict *smack* It's only another £15 and then i PROMISE i'll stop buying stuff.. It just makes me feel better for some reason XD
That's all i had to say really.. Work was ok today, went a bit slower than yesterday but meh.. I'm getting used to it XD
That is all.
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*yaaaaawn* nomnomnom... What am i doing on here at 8:30am for Christ's sake.. I'm not even sure myself, i only got up 15 minutes ago, i'm kinda in a daze still.. Got to go to work in 15 minutes... Don't wanna >.< Yesterday wasn't to bad i guess.. 8 hours doesn't seem like quite as much anymore.. Up till about 2pm it goes really fast, but when you get into the last 3 hours it drags like a bitch.. By the time the last hour comes around i always find myself staring at the clock XD Oh well, it's not that bad, i'm just being a grumpy bad-in-the-mor
What else did i want to say? That's it really i think.. Just that i really don't feel like going and standing behind a counter for 8 hours doing nothing.. I served, what.. 9 customers yesterday, if that. In 8 hours, that really isn't alot. Fail.
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Ahaha, i was just watching this new impro game show thing on tv called Thank God You're Here, and it's so effing funny XD I'm going to be glued to the tv every week watching it now XD My favourite line from it was:
Manager: John, you've been manning the drive-thru
John: Well i can't woman it..
XD I don't know why that made me laugh so much, it just really amused me for some reason XD
Moving away from TV... My dog is weird. Every morning we have to clear out her bed, because over the night she wanders around the house, steals things and puts them in her bed. Today i found a pack of cards, a posh fountain pen and a recipe for some chicken dish... What the hell has she been doing, playing poker with the cat and writing recipes?! That dog seriously has a problem.. XD
That is all.
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Won: 8 Amount: £115.53
Oooooh dear... That's my Ebay bill FOR A WEEK. I am so effing bad with money XD XD
Work wasn't so bad today, it seemed to go really fast for some reason.. Prolly because i had alot to do XD I don't really have anything useful to say now.. I'm off to eat curry! XD
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Today, i feel like my head is imploding in on itself. I seriously am getting sick of these headaches, they have been loitering around for what feels like forever and they're getting worse... My optician says it's got nothing to do with my eyes, so i'm going to see the doctor tomorrow i think... Oh bum bum shit i'm supposed to be going to the gym tomorrow.. I'll tell mum to book me in at the doctors later then, losing flab is more important than losing migraines XD but seriously, it feels like i have a small porcupine practicing gymnastics inside my skull, it's awful. I'm ok at night, when it's dark, but the minute i'm in any kind of vaguely bright light my head starts banging and i have to shut my eyes to make it stop ¬___¬ irritating..
Also. The Josh fiasco. I still don't know what to do about him. He text me this big long, romantic (in his world) text last night, and i just burst into tears. I think the tears were more because i'm hormonal at the moment and i was slightly merry on wine (again).. But i couldn't bring myself to reply to it, tell him i'm sorry for being a bitch and ignoring him because.. Well i'm not sorry. Not in the slightest. He's been pissing me off with his constant moods and his 'All the shit' line that seems to keep popping up and 'messing up his head'. What this shit is i have no idea, because he'll never tell me. It's just 'all the shit'. Which implies that there's nothing wrong at all and he's just being a drama queen. I just wanted to yell at him yesterday 'Change the damned record will you. Grow the fuck up. Life is shit, it's shit for everyone at this age, we're all having a tough time and we all want to chuck ourselves off bridges sometimes. Get over it, you're not the only hormonal teenager in the world and you're not getting any bloody sympathy from me anymore.' and leave it at that... Seriously, he spends all his time yattering to me about how 'stressed' he is. I'm a full time student, i work full time hours at Makro AS WELL. I have a dying dad and most of my family live a million miles away from me. Alex is taking 5 A-levels, she has a shit load of work to do, more than i think any human being should be able to handle. Her dad is hardly ever home and she has alot to deal with there to. Isaac lives with an alcoholic mother and has to look after his 2 little brothers on his own, because she does nothing to help. He had to drop out of college at 17 and go into full time work just to support the family. And Josh? Josh gets in trouble at college now and then because he's a naughty boy and skips it. Josh doesn't live with his mum anymore because he WALKED OUT. Josh doesn't have any money because he spends it all on stupid, ugly piercings. Josh has a much harder life than all of us clearly. Please note the sarcasm. Myself and several of my friends are in much tougher situations than him, and while i'll admit his life isn't peachy, he has no right to get shirty with me when i tell him to stop whining because to be frank it does my head in. Life is always going to be hard, and he is going to have to deal with that one day. I have, other people have. I don't know about them, but i'm way better off for it! Josh needs a wake up call, and i think a break up will be just the thing ^__^ So yes, i think that as of tomorrow i will be single again. I've had enough of a whiney teenager with the mentality of a 10 year old hanging off my arm.
Wow, i sounded like such a bitch then o_O i wish he could read that though, it would be much easier than me having to tell him.. Oh well, i'll try and get it all into one sentence tomorrow. And if it still doesn't sink in then whatever Gods there are help him.. Or drop a cow on him, whichever.
That is all.
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I feel better today.. I am unnecissarily tired, but i'm starting to get used to all the stress i've got going on now.. I'm used to 3 days a week haveing to get up, go to school, come home, eat really fast, go to work for 5 hours then go to bed.. I'm used to knowing that i'll be in work for 18 hours over the weekends.. I'm getting better at managing my time and although i'm utterly exhausted, i'm actually enjoying it. All the long hours at work and hard work in school is actually giving me something to do. I'm not eating compulsively anymore, i've dropped a stone (YESH!), my size 10 jeans are too big for me now (that is good XD), i've made new friends at work, i'm feeling more social in general, and i'm not doing too badly at school either! My psychology exam today was a piece of piss, so i think i'm gonna be ok with the rest of my exams. And me and Harry were bitching about psychology today, which was fun X3 *sigh* i never actually thought that leading a busy and active lifestyle could be so rewarding! I used to just sit around at home being bored off my tits doing nothing, but now i actually have no time to do that i really appreciate my 'me time' alot more XD
For the first time in a long time i'm actually enjoying every aspect of my life! Things are goooooood. Except a conversation i had with Topher while in work today.. But he can go fuck himself at the moment, i'm in too much of a good mood to let his jealousy get me down! I AM HAPPY I TELL YOU, AND I WON'T LET ANY AMOUNT OF STRESS OR TIREDNESS GET ME DOWN!!!! I am the worlds laziest hard worker as of today :p
That is all.
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Gaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Me: 'exterminate' *does robot dance*
Courtz: I. Will. Trash. Your. Shoes. 'exterminate' *knocks the shoes down*
Paul (floor manager): Are you two working or messing around with dalek slippers?
Me+Courtz: <.< >.> ........'exter
Paul: *walks off shaking his head*
XD XD made me giggle... But yeah. Nothing else majorly interesting has happened to me today... I just don't know how i'm going to face Josh tomorrow. I feel so aweful for what happened on Friday night (Alex knows..) and thinking about it now i don't think i want to lose him yet.. Well.. I dunno really, this is what happened last time.. I spent a week avoiding him and debating whether or not to break up with him, i broke up with him and realised it was the wrong decision.. Or maybe it was the right decision and i just have no conviction whatsoever? I don't know... I have a vague plan... I'll stay with him, see if this niggling need to be single and whorish again dies down. If it doesn't, i'll break up with him before half term, giving me a week to get over it before i have to see him again. It sounds selfish, i know but.. It worked with Steevo <_< >_> and i just don't want to break up with him then decide that i actually want to go out with him again.. It's not fair on either of us. So. I'll see how things unfold. But right now i'm debating whether to tell him about friday night, or whether it's best left unsaid. I was very drunk.. Ergh.. I dunno, i'll attack Alex and cry at her tomorrow at some point XD thank whatever Gods there are that i have her to slap me into place when i need it, else i'd be some kind of mad whorish tramp by now XD
Anyway, that's all i had to say. I need to sleep now before.. Oh shit. I've just noticed it's past midnight. That means i have been payed. EBAY AHOY!!!!!!!!!
I am so bad with any amounts of money, it's unreal...
I only got 2 weeks worth of pay this month though!! I have to wait until next month for my £800! *depressed* My paycheck for this month is only £275 OAO how can i survive on that?!?! XD XD
That is all.
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Roite.. i will now attempt to ramble about Amz's.. This will be similar to Alex's ramble, only most likely more garbled as i don't seem to remember all that much o_O I got to Amz's an hour before Alex, and we cooked the dinner (and Amz forced a few shots of vodka down my throat XD). She really amused me becuase she couldn't be arsed defrosting the chicken so she blow-dried it XD Made me giggle.. Then we went and got alex, and for some reason i decided i was wearing Amz's masquerade mask.. So i looked like a bloody maniac walking down the street with this weird mask that has a massive beak XD
After we hung out at Amz's for a bit, watched Clockwork Orange, one of my uber fave films <3, and mucked about on webcam we decided we were going to the park. Things get a bit fuzzy after this because i was on the wine, i'd had several shots of vodka and a fair bit of beer (i found 3 empty cans of it in my bag in the morning XD) Me and Amz had been through 2 bottles of wine between us.. Ish.. Apart from the glass i spilled on her carpet XD XD twice XD so i was pretty merry, but not really drunk. And that's the worst for me. When i get merry, i forget everything XD drunk, i'll always remember. Merry, no. So we went to the pub to meet Topha and some random guys i think i may have known, and i met this girl called Sian who was really nice. We decided to burn a face onto my fraggle Melvyn for no reason XD she was cool.. Then some random guy who i think was called Gaz sent me a bunch of music.. We went to the chippy and i started talking to some random strangers and eating their chips XD Then we decided to go to Tesco for no reason whatsoever. We got there, stuffed our tops with scrunched up magazines for insulation, then walked all the way back to Buckley double quick time XD Me and Alex got there really fast and Amz was miles behind us, so we fell asleep in a hedge for half an hour XD Then on the way back to Amz's she nicked an elephant watering can from someones garden XD We got in at about 6am and went straight to bed. I fell asleep within abot 6 seconds of my head touching the pillow (wine does that to me) and didn't wake up till 12:30 (missed my hair appointment, but that's a good thing since i discovered that my hair had about half a can of beer in it XD) then me and Amz watched a chinese horror film, and my mum picked me up to go and have my eyes tested! THE FECKING END!!!
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Oh wait, two more things. I have decided that if i'm going to drink in future, then i will drink wine as it doesn't seem to get me as drunk as other substances (or i didn't notice anyway) and i dont get hung over at all either. It also doesn't make me feel sick like other alcohol does, it's affects last longer, and i don't get headaches when i drink it. So yes, from now on i'm a wine person.
The other thing was that i got ANOTHER pair of designer glasses in town (Gok Wan reccomended ones!!! <3 XD) So now i have 2 pairs of Osiris glasses, both costing £125 each. Booya! XD
That is all.
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Aaah man, Amz's was so amusing.. I'm not going to ramble about it now, i want to go and watch a film before i go to bed.. All i'll say for now is that me and [Lexi. Short and Sweet!] ended up sleeping in a hedge at 5:30am XD XD XD XD omg lol...
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Wheeeeeeeeeee off for a piss up at Amz's in 15 mins! I have had a hilarious day at school.. I've been in such a retarded mood all day, and it's just starting to hit me now, I'M SO FRICKING TIRED!!!! XD But.. Omg, at dinner.. Me and Amz stole a bunch of sticks (coffee stirring things) from Tesco, and chucked them all at Danny (a demonstration of 'retard no jutsu') XD XD XD It was the funniest thing ever, there were hundreds of them all over the floor XD Ah man... And i've been thinking. I'm bored of Josh. Totally and utterly... I dunno why, i was just sitting in the bus shelter with him and Ruth and Walker today and i thought 'it's the same bloody thing every day.. He gets depressed over something stupid and i'm expected to offer my sympathy.. Grrr..' so... Yeah, i think i'm going to break up with him on Monday, PROPERLY this time and i'm not going to get back with him after a week... It's permanent this time, i need to learn to show some conviction and when i make a decision.. I have to stick with it. I dunno, this may hit me hard or it may just be like 'what was all the fuss about??' XD but expect rambles in here about it either way. Anyway, off to Amz's now, turrah!
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OMFG. I have FOUND the tattoo that i'm getting. And i am definately getting it, i don't care what anyone has to say about how gross they are, this one is gorgeous. The minute i turn 18, sooner if i can get away with it, i'm getting that mutha fugging tattoo. Yeah.
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Ooooh this made me giggle X3 Tora's description of Autumn:
autumn?! autumn?! i never really thought about autumn...um...
X3 ZOMG i love Tora almost as much as i love Miyavi! Seriously, he is the cutest little thing on the planet, and he's got such a sexy voice that just doesn't match his peronality at all XD Kyaaaaaaa X3 Tora's voice is how i imagine Rio's voice to be.. Yeeeeeeeah... So, yay, i'm off to fangirl over Tora and Myv now. Turrah! XD
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Rofl, i was just talking on the phone to Anne, and we got on to talking about having kids.. Bloody hell, that woman may be old but she makes me laugh..
Anne: Why don't you want kids then?
Me: It's not that i don't want kids.. I don't want to go through the pain of giving birth to the little bastards.
Anne: *chuckles* it's not that bad you know.
Me: Describe to me how painful it is.
Anne: It's like losing your virginity to a really angry bullctus.
Me: ..What is a bullctus pray tell?
Anne: It's a bull crossed with a cactus.
Me: *dies laughing* that's the exact reason i don't want kids then XD
Aaah man.. She's really put me off having kids now, not that i was ever that keen on the idea of kids to begin with XD
Anyway.. What happened today? Nothing interesting really, i bought a bunch of new stuff because i'm retarded and when i have money i have to spend it.. Me and Danny invented a new attack for Haku 'Retard-no-jut
Alex: You hit me with your bustier!
Beki: You groped my chest!
Alex: I tripped over my art folder!
Beki: That's what they all say..
Alex: NO RLY!!
XD and we've been through that about 500 times today XD we're so retarded...
That's all i had to say i think. I'm off to do psychology homework now. Turrah luvs.
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Got it off [XxTsomexX], because i'm addicted to doing things like this XD
Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1.) Learn Japanese fluently
2.) Visit Japan/live there
3.) Lunge wildly at the pope (you kinda have to be a Bill Bailey fan to get that XD)
Three Names You Go By:
1.) Beki
2.) Beki-mofo
3.) Bex (the peeps at work call me that X3)
Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1) Ai Kajuju
2) Juju-Sensei
3) No Cash Value
Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1.) My eyes
2.) My hair (it's naturally blonde+curly, but blow dries straight, so i hardly ever have to straighten it <3 XD)
3.) My bum!(It's big, and i love it XD)
Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1.) English
2.) Scottish
3.) French
Three Things That Scare You:
1.) Moths
2.) Relationships that last more than 4 months XD
3.) Growing up
Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1.) Tea
2.) My phone
3.) My computer
Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.) My Makro fleece (i just got back from work XD)
2.) My black work trousers
3.) My smexy Osiris glasses (they cost £125 i'll have you know! XD)
Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists: (This is a really tough one for me as i listen to a MASSIVE variety of bands.. So i'll put my 3 favourite musical genres instead XD)
1.) Metal/power metal/rock/pun
2.) Reggae
3.) Folk (and yes, i do have a weird taste in music, and no i don't want to hear your opinion on it)
Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1.) "Kingdom For a Heart" - Sonata Arctica
2.) "Buffalo Soldier" - Bob Marley
3.) "Tornado" - Mindless Self Indulgence
Three Things You Want/Have In A Relationship:
1.) Understanding
2.) Freedom to be me
3.) A healthy love-hate balance ^___^ XD
Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1.) I have a total of 3 diagnosed mental 'problems' (anger management problems, mild schizophrenic, manic depressive) only one of which i believe that i actually have.
2.) I love to be loved, though i generally hate to show people that i have a soft side!
3.) I am a chav (lol, guess which one's the lie 8D)
Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1) Piercings
2) Long hair
3) Japanese XD
Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1.) Being lazy
2.) Going to gigs/festivals
3.) Drinking (as in alcohol)
Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1.) Sleep XD
2.) Scratch my foot, because.. It's itching XD
3.) Reply to Isaac's text before i forget..
Three Careers You're Considering/Yo
1.) Graphic designer
2.) Sports psychologist (they get payed almost as much as the sports-person, so just be a really famous footballer's psychologist XD)
3.) Hair-model (loads of free haircuts! XD)
Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1.) Japan
2.) China
3.) North Korea
Three Names You Like:
1.) Axel (and i've always liked it, not just since i started playing Kingdom Hearts!!!)
2.) Dylan (X3 so cute!)
3.) Rose (have a girl's name..)
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypicall
1.) I fuss about my hair
2.) I wear makeup
3.) I worry about my figure sometimes
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypicall
1.) I'm generally violent and aggressive with my friends
2.) I really enjoy leaping into outdoor mosh pits and getting absolutely filthy and beaten to a bloody pulp
3.) I prefer hanging out with guys playing video-games and getting shitfaced to going out 'on the town' to clubs and stuff with girls.
Three People That I Would Like To See Take This Quiz Now:
1) ALL J00 PEOPLEZ WHO READ IT!!!!!!! I'M WATCHING YOU!!!!! <.< >.>
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Omfg.. This guy came to the jewellery counter today looking at bracelets, and he was soooo camp it was unreal XD He stood there talking to me and Courtz for ages and then he came out with the weirdest thing ever...
Me: No, we really don't have any more of those.. Sorry :p
Him: ...You know what, you would make a really hot gay guy.
Me: I beg your pardon?! XD
Him: I dunno, you just seem like you should have been born as a gay guy.
Me: *dies laughing*
..It was really funny at the time, but thinking about it now he's not the first person who's ever said that to me... OMG I'M ACTUALLY A GAY GUY!!!! XD XD XD
And then later on me and Courtz were talking about haggis:
Courtz: Ew, i never knew what was in it...
Me: Mhm, they ate it in the wars when there wasn't any fresh meat, so they just used the leftovers..
Courtz: ..You mean like "Here's your brother, he's died in the war." "..Hmm, let's make some haggis!"
Me: XD XD No, they weren't cannibals XD XD
So yeah me and Courtz had a laugh today, talking about guys with big poles, and we acted out a scene much to the amusement of onlookers. I was the bemused girl, and Courtz was the pervy guy.
Her: Heyyy, you wanna come round me house and see my big pole?
Me: Alright then >:3
Her: ...Ok, here he is.
Me: ...What?
Her: Klaus the 7 foot Polish man.
Me: *dies laughing*
Her: He's a reeeeeeeally big Pole!
Her (pretending to be Klaus): HALLOOOOO!
Me: *still dying of laughter*
She really has the most awesome sense of humour ever XD It's such a bummer that she's leaving in March, work won't be the same without her! :'( Oh well, i'll manage XD
That is all.
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..Except, i have just noticed that all i seem to talk about in here is work. That's because it seems to be all i do at the moment XD Work and school.. Incidentally, some pretty funny shit happened in school today, but i've rambled enough and i need sleep! INCEST, ANAL, ORAL AND GENITALS!!! That's all i need to say and only people taking Psychology this year will udnerstand!!!!
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Oh i forgot to mention.. I GOT SOME GREEN SKI GOGGLES XD XD XD XD
For those of you who haven't known me for ages, i have wanted a pair of green ski goggles ever since i wrote a story with a character in it who always wore green ski goggles.. AND NOW I HAVE A PAIR X3
I am so easily pleased it's unreal ¬__¬;;
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Lol, work has been fun this weekend X3
Me: *sneakily texting someone in the shoe isle*
Jake: Buonjiorno!
Me: Aich! *hides phone*
Jake: Ooooh, it's like that is it?
Me: You saw nothing! *runs off*
~~later~~
Jake: *preening in mirror*
Me: Ahem..
Jake: Argh! <.< You saw nothing..
Me: LOL we're secret keepers!!! *strokes invisible beard*
Jake: What are you doing?
Me: I'm Dumbledore
Jake: *O_O*
And with Courtz...
Me: *reading shoe box* ...Gluv Your Feet? That's a bloody stupid name...
Courtz: Yeah.. Why don't you go and... Shoe Your Hands!
Me: *XD*
Sooo, i didn't have a bad day today... Had to sort out the mens underwear with Vicky which was crap, but other than that it was a laid back day ^_^
That's all i had to say really.. I'm off for tea now!!!
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You know what.. I was just browsing around houses and i noticed about 5 'emo' people with some random rambling about their 'heart bleeding'.. And i was just like.. Well, yeah, your heart IS bleeding.. You'd kind of, not be alive if it's wasn't... And most of the things they write that they call 'poetry' make no sense anyway, and it's just an excuse to stick loads of emotive words together in a big jumble, claim it's poetry and that they write it because they're depressed and that all the best poets were depressed. I have news for you, all the best poets were drunk. Best quote in the world: "Do i drink? Didn't i just tell you that i'm a poet? Of course i drink." and another "Poetry is the worded version of your own thoughts and feelings that are hidden away in your deepest subconscious. In order to access them, you must be drunk." So, not depressed then, just drunk. Most writers, artists and poets are just drunkards, no matter what historians say. They were either drunk or completely mentally unstable. Not depressed 14 year olds with fringes bigger than their brains. Sorry 50000000 emo children out there who think you are going to get recognised for your 'beautiful' poetry one day. Chances are only one of you will become famous for it, and i bet you anything it'll be the drunk one in the corner over there *points*
That's all i had to say, thank you goodbye.
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Okai... One of the store managers in Makro is actually quite cute... The one who looks like John Simm... Nomnomnom X3
I thinks i have a weird taste in men... Oh well!
I got so bored today in work that i ended up doing an introduction to all my characters... On Post-It notes XD Aaaah, it amused me for 2 hours, I didn't know i could stand up and draw for that long XD I do love my job sometimes.. I'm getting payed to do feck all really...
That is all.
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Okai, my new years resolutions are:
- Drop a stone. I'm too heavy and it's starting to bug me. If i can get down to 9 stone by April i'll be happy.
- Clean my room and keep it clean!!
- Try harder in 6th form, because i've been slacking again.
- Work on getting my sleeping patterns back in synch so i'm not dead when exams come around!
That is all. Here's hoping that 2008 is as eventful as 2007!
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