Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai had fun at Mark's!! (Y) cba going into immense detail about it but... Me and Amz got waaaay more alcohol than we needed, comandeered the couch and sat there all night drinking, smoking (i only had one fag because the only reason i smoke when i'm drunk is to calm me down. I'd be impossible if i didn't) and generally having a laugh. We had a spazzy fit over gravitation, fangirled over the band and as we got steadily drunker started to act more and more stupid. Fun times, fun times. The only thing that ruined it for me was Josh deciding he was going to get in a big mood and lecture me for an hour on stuff i've heard a million times before. However, because i was drunk i totally spaced out and started thinking about Gojyo of all people XD then i sat up, spazzed and decided i was drawing Gojyo on Amz's neck XD XD amused me terribly, it did.. I got really pissed off with Josh though and stormed out without saying goodbye when me and Amz finally decided to go home at 2:30am. Buuut, we'll talk it through on monday, i think it was the alcohol that was making me get so pissed off.

Aaaanyway. Woke up at 10 today and me and Amz just blobbed playing Drakengard until mum came to get me at 1:30. Got the PI count today which sucks bum but it's only 4 hours so feh. I can handle it XD

Probably pulling an all nighter tonight so i can finish art, then i'm working tomorrow night so i am going to be absolutely exhausted come tuesday, but i think i'll manage XD

Erm.. That's all i have to say. Except that i just discovered a really bad drawing of Gojyo on my hand XD XD it looks like he has a drinking straw sticking out the top of his head XD XD

Oh, and [Swollenfish] is now Swollen Fish Crotch Boy as of yesterday night. If you want to know, ask. But really, you don't want to know XD XD XD

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HURRY UP EBAY STUFF!!! *spazzes*

I need to give Amz her present before she accidentally buys what i've bought her XD XD I'm refusing to tell her what it is, but i think that she should have guessed by now XD

Had fun today, had a total spazz fit in art, i was in a stupid mood XP I was gonna go out tonight with my work dudes but i cba now, i'm to tired. I just fell asleep at my keyboard lerd XD

Amz is coming over tomorrow (Y) we're going out to steal garden ornaments and pot plants to decorate my new room with XD then Mark's party tomorrow (BOOOOOOOZE) and hungover PI count on sunday. Fun fun.

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Ordered all my Cosplay gear off Ebay X3 X3 i can't wait to be Tamaki, it's going to be tres awesome!! I'm determined to convince a few people that i'm actually a boy XD i'm wearing my boob-flattening corset underneath my costume so hopefully i'll fool a few people XD XD

Me and Amz were discussing going to the London one dressed as Sanzo and Gojyo from Saiyuki and carrying round a sign saying 'will yaoi for money' XD XD The only issue we'd have is we'd be fighting over who gets to be Sanzo XD XD

OMAIGAWD gonna be so much fuuuun X3 i get to retard around in my Tamaki costume scaring people! And i'm buying a black wig for [Raychell] tonight so she can be Setsuna from Negima, and Atay is coming as Lucy from Elfen Lied and Danny is coming as god only knows what XD XD It's gonna be fuuuuuun!!!

I've decided i'm wearing my costume into school and i'm gonna freak a few people out, just for the lulz! XD

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HAHAHAHALOL I just freaked some dude out on FTJ XD XD

Guy: Hey, ur pretty, do u cyber?
Me: ...Go ask Alice.
Guy: Whoz alice?
Me: Go ask Alice, when she's 10ft tall.
Guy: wot r u talking about?
Me: Twinkle, twinkle, little bat! How I wonder what you're at.
Guy: Ur weird!
Me: Weird? Mad you mean. We're all mad here.
Guy: Woteva..

And then he logged off XD XD aaah, the things that amuse you at 1am XD

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AAAAAAAAAAARGH. Work bored me half to death today, i seriously thought i was going to die. DIE. You would think standing around doing nothing for 6 hours would be a piece of piss, but it's bloody not!!! It's infuriatingly difficult! Especially for someone like me who has the shortest attention span in the world. If i get one moment where i don't have to be doing anything i instantly zone out and dissapear into my own little world. I need something to occupy myself with or i go all spacey and people think i'm on drugs XD GADS SAIK!!! Seriously. Here's the breakdown of what happens when i go in on a weekend. I arrive at noon, say hi to Louise and take over on the jewellery/tobacco counter. Louise comes back at 3.15 and i go on my dinner break. I go back to the counter at 4pm and stay there until 6.30pm. I shut down the counter which takes half an hour and go on the shop floor until 8pm. I spend 5 hours and 45 minutes on that counter, and in that time i usually serve about 7 customers. 7 intervals in nearly 6 hours of utter boredom IS NOT ALL THAT MUCH ACTUALLY. I HATE doing the late shift, i really do. The day seems to drag WAY more, and i don't actually know why because it's actually half an hour shorter than a normal day shift. BUT I AM SO ARSED GOING AND DOING IT ALL OVER AGAIN TOMORROW, I GENUINELY THINK I MIGHT EXPLODE.

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In other news, i've been watching Azumanga Daioh and it really amuses me. <3 YAY new anime. And i got my payslip. £627 this month. Almost makes all the insanity involving stupid hours, ridiculous overtime, losing the job, getting the job back, almost messing up a 7 month relationship and general mental confusion worth it. Almost.

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I just watched 1408 again, and it confused me a bit because it had a different ending to the one i saw in the cinema XD I was like 'i'm sure it ended differently o.O' ...Turns out i downloaded the directors cut, with the original ending. Apparently people thought the original ending was too much of a 'downer' but i actually preferred it to the alternate one. It was much sadder, yes, but it gave a distinct finality that the alternate ending failed at. Anyway, i love that movie <3 <3 very eerie, unsettling... I really want to go and find the Dolphin hotel, if it's real... And if it's not, i want to find one similar with a room 1408 and go and stay there! :P

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OK GAIZ. Last boy related entry, i've sorted it. Josh knows about what's been going on, i think he's always had an inkling, he's not as much of an idiot as he pretends to be :p But he knows, and he knows that i have no intentions of breaking up with him or having ANY sort of relationship with Carl beyond friendship. I've made the decision to just keep it together with Josh, pull out of the rough patch we're in and such. It's not worth throwing away a 7 month relationship for what would just end up being a quick fling (probably). So. That's my decision, i've told Carl, and he's accepted that and said he still wants to be friends. So. Boy troubles sorted :D

Now.
The time has come, the Walrus said,
To talk of many things,
of shoes and ships and sealing-wax,
of cabbages and kings,
and why the sea is boiling hot
and whether pigs have wings.

...Yes, i'm not going to talk about any of those things XD In fact, i'm going to go to bed i think, because i'm absolutely completely and utterly shattered beyond belief.

That is all.

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AGREJAOIRAVREAHG work really exhausted me today. My feet feel like they're going to drop off XD Fortunately for me, the new late/night manager is rather sexy (in a John Simm kinda way) so i don't mind having to tidy wellies till 10pm XD

Rang my cuz who i haven't spoken too in a while and the first thing he said to me was 'good god, you sound so old...' which made me go o.O he then explained that i sounded exhausted and weary, like i'd suddenly aged 40 years since we last spoke about 2 months ago. It worried me a bit, but i guess i have been stressed out the last couple of weeks, and it's probably got to me more than i've realised. Now i'm talking to Carl because in the 4 short months i've known him he has become the first person i turn too when i feel down =]

Truth be told i think i might be falling for him. Like falling falling, properly. I've liked him for a while as past diary entries have explained, buuuut... Well yeah... When i was with Josh today, it just didn't feel the same... Not right anymore, almost forced... I dunno... I'll just see what happens :p

Sorry, you whoever you are probably don't want to read all this... It's just since Carl is the one i talk to about everything, i can't very well talk to him about himself XD so i talk to my diary so i can try and gain some clarity on the situation! Feel free to ignore rambles like this XP

That is all.

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Carl is a good friend. A good friend i say. I have never in my life talked to someone on the phone for 2 hours, until tonight. It's now 2am and i'm going to kill him next time i see him because i have to be up at 6:30 tomorrow.. well.. today..

Me: Carl, you've kept me up 2 hours past my planned bed time.
Carl: Oh my, how frightfully naughty of me.
Me: *¬___¬* you know the only reason you're still alive is because it's illegal for me to kill you?
Carl: And it's kinda hard to kill someone via a phone?
Me: Well, yes, and that...
Carl: Unless of course... you use... *long pause*
Me: ....?
Carl: MIND BULLETS!!!!
Me: *dies laughing*

He really makes me laugh that boy =] i'm glad i met him! Oh the joys of a social life outside school. Not saying that i don't love and adore all my school friends, but sometimes it's nice to hang out with a totally different crowd of folk, you know? Savour all the stereotypes this generation's gene pool has to offer. As i mentioned to Carl. He asked me if i was trying to sound like Darwin, or Jonathan Ross. Sarcastic twat.

I <3 him so much right now X3 i haven't smiled this much since the last time i was at Amz's XD He just sent me a text saying 'I weally hope you apweciate what i, as a supewior member of the human wace, am doing for your stweet cwed, Jonathan Woss.' XD XD and that's only funny if you know who Jonathan Ross is and you were part of the conversation we were just having.

Aaanyway, enough about the reasons behind my hysterical laughter and uncontrollable grinning tonight. I'm off to bed.

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Maaaaagh. Possession films really creep me out =/ there's something very unsettling about possession i think ¬____¬ (yeah, i just watched the Exorcist and the Exorcism of Emily Rose one after the other XD)

In other news, my brain is hurting from trying to solve a rubiks cube, and failing quite miserably. I refuse to quit it though! IT IS MY DESTINY!!!

I feel like playing Bloody Roar again...

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It's 3:15am and i've only just noticed that it's been snowing XD

I'm going for a walk, right now, i don't care how annoyed my parents get, it's snow for crying out loud!! SNOW!!!

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Just watched Little Britain with my dad. I've always known we have a very similar sense of humour, but i never realised how alike we actually are in that sense. We were both in stitches at exactly the same points, it was the weirdest thing ever. We have the same laugh too, so it was in stereo and my mum was getting really annoyed with us XD

That's all i wanted to say really..

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Abrjepafjreoainges O___O My diary entries are gone O____O

And people are talking to me about them.

And i have no idea what they're talking about because i can't remember what i wrote.

And now they're gone, so i can't read back what i wrote and go 'ooooh, that's what he/she's talking about!'

OH THE HORROR!!!!

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Still have an unbelievably large crush on THAT person (regular readers of my diary may have some ide what i'm talking about XD)... I don't know why this so called 'crush' won't just fade away, they normally do if i just ignore them for a while... Buuuut this one isn't. And rumours are flying round that he likes me too and is gonna try and get me on my own next time we go out drinking drwnapfgerhafragera D8 ...How the hell am i going to tell him that i like him, alot, but have a boyfriend of 7 months who i have no intention of breaking up with any time soon... It sounds so harsh no matter how i put it... GAH. Don't know what to doooo... And a couple of people have said that i'm leading him on, flirting and such, but i've been trying not to! I really have, i just can't help it when i'm around guys... I don't want him to think that i'm messing around with his feelings, and i don't want to lose him as a friend... I suppose i should just slip the fact that i have a boyfriend into normal conversation and hope that he takes the hint =/ ^{Although part of me was ecstatic when i heard that he likes me... Ehe, i guess that's the 'i'm still single' part of my brain <.< >.>}

Aaaaanyway, moving away from boy issues as that's not very interesting at all i just felt the need to ramble... Erm... I only just got up and hour ago and i have nothing else interesting to write about... Was meant to be doing overtime today but Linz text me at 9 and told me not to worry about it cuz she doesn't need cover anymore, so i went back to bed! Banyaaaaiii!!!

That is all.

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Aaaaaah, i just watched 2 more films =] I won't bore y'all with film reviews like my last few diary entries XD I'll just be quick. I watched Brokeback Mountain (yes, that one about the gay cowboys, thank you Carl for your mature comment ¬___¬). It's a very moving and emotional film, i loved it and i urge you to see it if you like your movies! I also watched The Water Horse, which i enjoyed immensly! Lovely film =] I do love my kids movies, and this one was about the wonderful people of Scotland! How could i not love it, i adore that accent! X3 So yes, all together two very nice films =] P.S I Love You and Bucket List are next :P

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Gooooooood morning ETers! Well it's actually afternoon... But i only just got up due to the fact that i was up till 3am last night watching movies, and i intend to do the same today! I'm running out of films now though, anyone want to reccomend a good one to me??

Anyway... Today is my nan's 80th birthday, so happy birthday nan XD We were supposed to be going down there to see her and surprise her (she lives 300 miles away on the south coast) but my dad's really ill so we can't =/ never mind, i'll see her in the summer. You know when you were a kid, you always had your 'favourite' nan or aunty or cousin or whatever... Nan was always my favourite family member :p she's just awesome and wacky and brilliant, as are most of the people who live down that end of the country. So i'm looking forward to seeing them again.

Oh my Israel form came back. They said they can't accept me this year because i'm 17 and due to new laws they can't have under 18's coming unaccompanied. Buuuut they said they'll be happy to take me on next year if i'm still interested and they're awaiting a reply =] I'm not bummed about it to be honest cuz it means i get to spend this summer with family and friends and next summer and maybe longer (gap year ftw) in Israel! So yay to that, and i'm happy as larry, who ever he is...

That is all.

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One Missed Call was very dissapointing... I remember seeing the Japanese version, and i was freaked out for a week. I was scared to answer my phone! But the American version... Ugh, i kinda hoped they'd pull off a decent remake of this particular Japanese film, because it has such an intense plot... Buuuut, they ruined it. They de-scarified it. It's just not as chilling as the Japanese version was. The American film makers have no idea how to make movies harrowing, they're really bad at it. The Japanese however seem to be more twisted in the head, they know how to scare people, and they do it well XD Attention American film makers! Adding extra gore and pointless violence doesn't make a movie more scary! This version of the film was borderline funny. *sigh* Way to ruin a brilliant film guys =/ 3/10...

In other news, i'm now downloading the ORIGINAL Japanese rigntone, so i can have a heart attack every time my phone rings XD

Sorry, my diary is turning into a film review page o.O

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DSNOWAGBREWAOFNEWAGRES AWAKE IS AN AWESOME FILM!!! I was crying like a soft bugger at the end, i really was ;___; Sooooooo good, loved it loved it loved it!! Such an interesting plot line, not one of these generic thrillers, it generally had me in suspense the whole way through!!

Tell you what though, it's put me off the idea of ever having surgery XD not that i've ever been fond of the idea, but i REALLY don't want to have surgery now. What a scary thought, being awake the whole way through =/

Anyway, that's all i have to say XD

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Also, also!!! Still about Makro, and i don't know why i find this so amusing, but it's got a page on Wikipedia XD XD ah man, i can tell i'm hyper or i wouldn't find that funny at all... Makro on wikipedia... FAIL XD

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OMAIGAWD!!! I'VE FOUND THE ONE!!! ...No not Neo, or the love of my life. It is in fact the ring that i am determined to buy one day. It's so preeeetty, i can't believe i've never seen it before!!! GAH! Nomnomnom.. It's only downside is that it's £235... Lolol... That's half of my monthly wage, but i'm not spending all that money in one go, i intend to save a bit before i go splurging all that on one ring... Either that or i can somehow hope that Josh suddenly becomes very wealthy and decides he wants to dote on me XD We have been together 7 months this saturday after all, and i think i deserve a reward <.< >.> XD

Anyway, enough about rings. I'm off. You know what i'm going to do? Play Final Fantasy 8 while watching Awake and eating Oreo's and apple and cinnemon Pop Tarts from the comfort of my own delightfully warm and cosy bed. I. Am. In. Heaven. I don't want my old room back, this one is fine!! XD

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