Felt like a long day in work today.. I went and sat in the changing rooms instead of the canteen on my break today, because i didn't feel like talking to anyone. I've been really down again recently, i can't work out why. I refused any more counselling a while back because they don't help at all, now i'm thinking that was probably a bad idea... If i didn't have to work i probably wouldn't even bother to get out of bed, it's got to the point where i can't be arsed with anything. Mum wants to take me to the doctors again because she thinks i'm depressed. It's time of the month aswell which isn't helping... Mine is so retarded at the moment, i get it once every two or three months now, it's so stupid. Apparently it's a sign that one of your ovaries isn't working... Pah, i don't care, i only need one anyway.
I'm not speaking to ALOT of people, because alot of people have pissed me off. Petty things, things that normally wouldn't bother me, but recently they've been really getting to me and i've just stopped talking to alot of people. One guy made a comment about my weight, because i've dropped quite a bit off, and he thinks i'm starving myself... I kicked off on him and now i'm refusing to talk to him, but even i don't know why.. He was only worried about me ¬____¬ HUUUUUUUUH.
Gotta sort myself out again.
I have a headache now ¬____¬ Bed time.
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Are you keeping a big secret right now?
Nope, don't think so.
How many posters do you have in your room and of what?
8. I used to have hundreds before i redecorated though... Now i have 1 of Gojyo from Saiyuki, one of Mr.K from Gravi, and 6 of the Joker from the Dark Knight XD
Besides sleeping, what else do you do in your room?
Watch tv, play videogames, draw, and just generally chill.
If you had a baby with the last person you texted, what would the baby's last name be?
Despite the fact that it would be impossible, it would be Partridge XD
Do you like Canada?
Magh, not really bothered XD
Who do you live with?
Parents
What's the last number you've entered into your cell phone?
My home number to get a lift home yesterday cuz i was hungover and didn't want to walk XD
What kind of grades do you get in school?
Average
Is money important to you?
Yes
How much time per day do you have to relax and be alone?
A few hours at least, i like my alone time XD
Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
Kinda depends what mood i'm in. If i'm upset or tired or moody or angry i prefer to be on my own and chill, but if i'm hyper or overly cheerful or excited i like to be with other people XD
Do you think you'll get along better with your siblings when you get older?
No, probably not.
Would you rather give up the computer or the TV?
TV, cuz i hardly ever watch TV anymore anyway...
Does internet gossip ever end in you sitting in tears at the computer desk?
Nah. Sometimes when i have those very rare 'serious' conversations with people on msn i'll cry a little bit, but i don't count that as internet gossip.
Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk?
Yeah man, till the sun comes up then go and collapse XD
Do you find yourself happy at this point?
Yeah, if a bit tired XD
Where were you last night?
At hoooooome, sleeping off all the drinking i did the night before last XD
What is today's date?
6th August
When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?
Usually
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
I think i'd be ok yeah
Who do you text the most?:
Ummmm... Probably Amz XD
First person to text today?
Cheekbones o.O (aka Gaz)
I went to see the Dark Knight again yesterday, and i'm going to see it again on Sunday <3 i'm absolutely in love with that film, and the Joker <3 My obsession has gone into overdrive, i've just bought loads of posters of him, including one 3D-effect one, and they're currently all over my bedroom walls XD <3 i want to marry him dammit!!! O.O
Went to Emma's party last night and it was SO much fun XD i got drunker than i've been in a while, but some of the best quotes ever came from last night, if only i could remember them XD Nah i can, me and Amz had to amuse ourselves for a few hours cuz everyone else suddenly got depressed and we were like 'They're all depressed... BUT WE'RE FINE!!!!' XD it was awesome.
That's all i had to say really.
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Bah, i hate working weekends, it always sucks... Nothing to do all day except stand on checkouts and pray for the time to go quickly D8
And my insomnia is back... I'm tired all day, then i come home and eat and chill for a bit, but i just can't sleep. Then when i finally get to sleep at like 4am it's restless sleep and i wake up exhausted and have to drag myself out of bed and go to work again ¬___¬ i hate it. Anyone know a cure for insomnia? Please let me know if you do XD
That is all.
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Went to see The Dark Knight today. Bloody loved it! As usual, i developed an affinity for the bad guy, and was completely in love with the Joker by the end of it XD so much so that a dear friend of mine drew a picture of me and the Joker for me. It's the most awesome thing i've ever seen XD
But yes, film was gewd! Despite being stupidly long, it was great.
I also went to see my old friend Roo who i haven't seen for 4 years XD it was nice to catch up after all this time! <3
That is all.
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Blaaaaaaah.
It's too hot! It's making me feel ill ¬____¬
Me and Amz have got all our gear for BOA, so looking forward to it now X3 Off over to hers now to rant about how our Norrath games have broke, and do other things i suppose. We're both working at 9 tomorrow so i have to get a lift home later so we're not late XD
I bought a pipe today. I have no idea why. And then i tried to tell my cousin about it and accidentally wrote 'i bought a pope' XD Typo's are fun.
Erm... I have nothing else useful to say. Farewell.
That is all.
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IT'S. TOO. HOT.
I'm dying in here!!! Jesus wept, what kind of lunatic has the heating turned up full in this weather?! My dad, that's who... Bloody idiot...
Aaanyway. Had fun in Chester today with Amz and Alex. I've missed chilling with just the three of us, it was fun <3
Me and Amz have decided that we're going to buy rats! Next paycheck, that's what we'll be getting, a pair of rats XD I want one with red eyes, Amz wants one that would suit the name Sanzo *rolls eyes*
Mine will be called Betty, whether it be male or female. It will be an ode to my Norrath skeleton, who i love waaaaaay to much considering it's pretty much a bunch of pixels XD
That is all.
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WELL... I haven't written in here for, what, a week? Odd for me, but i think i'm just getting bored of ET and EP and the internet in general now...
What updates do i have? I still have my job, which is good, and i don't think they're planning on kicking me out for some time, which is also good.
Amz now has a job, so me her and Alex all have a good constant flow of money now XD which hopefully means more days out and chilling over the summer <3
My hours have changed so i now work tuesday and wednesday instead of monday and tuesday. Which is better in a way because it means i never go more than 2 days without a day off XD
Liverpool was ACE. Billy was lovely, and we met some of his friends too, one of whom was very Irish XP we had fun. And we bought Norrath Return to Arms, so you can imagine what i'm going to be doing all summer XP
I got all my holidays booked so i'm prepping for the week alone while my parents are away! Amz is coming to stay with me, along with maybe Billy, Carl and a couple of other people might appear for a day or two. Also trying to arrange a party for the wednesday or thursday, but we'll have to see how that goes XP
Erm.. That's pretty much all that's been happening recently... Mum's insuring me to my dads car so i'll be able to drive myself places (Y) apart from that, life is pretty same old at the moment. If hectic. But same old, and i'm happy, so it's all good. Off to play Norrath for a while and get ready for work. Ta ta!
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LOL at work today, it wasn't so bad XP Linda and Andrea were comparing the twins..
Linda: Jack is more competative...
Andrea: Harry's a pain in the arse.
Linda: Jack gets more stressed over things...
Jack: Because i have more to do!!
Harry: In life, Jack. Not just work, in life.
Andrea: ...Harry's still a pain in the arse.
Harry: I'M GAY =D
Linda: Are you?
Harry: Would you be gutted if i was?
Chloe: Why do you think it matters to Linda?? *XD*
Harry: It does!
Chloe: I love gay people.
Andrea: ...Harry's STILL a pain in the arse.
It was tres amusing XP
Now i'm tired and i have work again tomorrow. I have a goal for tomorrow though: Reach level 50 on Norrath before we go to Liverpool on wednesday. Purely because i want to be the highest level possible XD
That is all.
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I am so fucking tired ¬___¬ and pissed off, and tired, and PISSED OFF. GOD. I was up till 5am last night talking to people on msn, mainly Josh, and once again he has managed to upset me. Which has just left me in a horrible mood today.. I woke up at 11.30 but i'm still nackered due to not going to bed till 5am two nights in a row. I have work in 15 minutes and i really REALLY can't be arsed. I'm in trouble with HR because i took a day off and i have to go and see Linda about my holiday which i asked about 3 weeks ago and nothing has been done about it ¬___¬ It's so fucking annoying! Makro are absolutely shit at communication, don't work there... Part of me wants them to fire me, just so i can get out of there... But lets face it, i need the money more than ever now, so i can't afford to lose the job.
So yeah, bad mood today, sorry about swearing so much, i tend to swear more when i'm in a bad mood ¬___¬ i'm going to bed as soon as i get in tonight, i cba with people talking to me on msn until piss take o'clock in the morning. I have work again tomorrow, i intend to be awake for it.
That is all.
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Errrrm, wtf with wiki page pictures?? Is it doing this for anyone else or just me?? Layering them all on top of eachother so you can't see anything? o.O Yeah...
Been neglecting ET a bit, mainly because i'm still huffy about the new layout XP
I don't reall have anything else productive to say... Went out drinking with Amz Cal and Butch (what a name) last night, didn't get back till 5am and it was LIGHT! I felt well hardcore walking home after a night of drinking in daylight XD ...When i say home, i mean round the corner to Amz's, but... Same thing XP
Going to Liverpool with Amz on wednesday to drink with Billy, so i'll be able to meet him and abuse his apparent willingness to do anything you tell him too XP
So yeah, gonna be a good week i think.
Apart from work. They're calling me for an investigation because i took ONE DAY OFF. ONE DAY!! Louise took 2 weeks and she doesn't get called for investigation!
Soooo... I don't really have anything else to say. Good effort with the preview button, i like previews... but this new look still has to win me over, i'm stubborn, i like the old one ¬___¬
That is all.
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Chester was ok today but.. Time of the month =/ i felt really ill for most of it, apart from after i took some aspirin. Still, had a good day =] Nice to see everyone really, cuz i know what i'm like in the summer XP i have a tendency to hermit away and not see anyone for the whole 2 months, so i'm determined to get out and about this summer and just enjoy myself a bit.
I bought 3 asia extreme films today (5 technically, if you count the three movies in the boxset XP) Ring, Battle Royale (BEST MOVIE EVER <3 <3) and the Vengeance boxset. I LOVE Asia Extreme movies <3 <3 <3
I really want to watch one of them now but it's piss take o'clock in the morning and i know i'd never wake up tomorrow if i watched a film now. Doing overtime tomorrow and friday ¬___¬ nooooooot looking forward to it but hey, it's only 5 hours each day so that's like the shortest shift i will ever have done there XD no problems. And it's money, so whatever.
Good news is i'm FINALLY over him. Yeah, that him, the him i was so infatuated with... I saw him in work the other day and i was like 'what did i see in you again?'.. and just like that my brain decided that he's just a friend. I think it's Bloodstock fever kicking in, i can't wait to get there and be single and meet loads of new guys all over again. As for after BOA... Well we'll just have to wait and see ;p
Pretty happy with life at the moment. No more school for ages, only little odds and sods work wise, and house party at mine at the end of August, everyone's invited!!! :p
That is all.
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Hrrmph, had an ok day in work today. I've been given a load of overtime, but i don't really mind.. It's money XD Nic was being ditzy today which really amused me.
Michelle: Someone needs to put a call out for someone to go to fish.
Nic: Nicole already put a fish out for... *bursts out laughing*
Michelle: *not finding it funny*
Me: *LOL* Put a fish out XD XD
Nic: I mean call out *facepalm*
Nic: Bek, can you take this milk back over to the thingy.. the cold things.
Me: The fridges, yeah?
Nic: That's what i was aiming for yeah.
Me: *XD*
She amuses me XD
And i'm not talking to a certain SOMEONE because he ran over my foot with a pallet dog and it hurt.
That's it for today.
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ELFTOWN YOU'RE GAY!!!!
It's deleted all my diary entries the big gay!!! >.<
GAYGAYGAYGAYGA
I like reading them back to amuse myself you gayface!!!
WHAT WAS WRONG WITH THE OLD ELFTOWN!! BLOODY HELL!!! I want to campaigne against this new look, it fails...
That is all.
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HOLES SOUNDTRACK ARRIVED!!! And i'm really over excited about that! It amazes me X3
BUT. This diary entry is a sad one. Today, i went into work as usual. Horace was there, and he had some friends! Friends who i named Helga and Hector. I put a blue spot on Hector and a red spot on Helga so i could tell them apart. Later on, i was walking around with Carl, and he spotted Helga on the floor. He BRUTALLY MURDERED HER. Well he kicked her and accidentally killed her... So i got really annoyed and kicked him and we had a tiny little fight, and then got bored.
Anyway. This entry is dedicated to Helga, the poor dead beetle. May she rest in peace. And may Hector and Horice somehow survive without her.
She was a very pretty beetle.. You know, for a beetle.
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OWWWWWWWWWWWWW
But i have a throbby ear. Which is going to annoy me endlessly in work, so i'll probably be really snappy with everyone XD
Actually, no, i'll just take co-codamol before i go. It takes away aaaalll pain, it's like a mild dose of morphine :D So co-codamol down the hatch and i should be fine for a 6 and a half hour shift. YAY.
Erm... Back to school today. Wasn't that eventful, didn't even feel like we'd been away long.
We're having our artwork displayed in a gallery. Me and Amz invited Skye to come and see it, so we can sneakily turn him into one of the exhibits. "Skye the Mop" because of his new blue dreads XD
And Viper is coming to stay with me. Bad idea? Yes, probably, but i don't care. We have a plan. Amz is coming to stay too, Viper is sleeping on the sofa and me and her are going to ignore him and play Champions of Norrath all weekend XP
Fun fun.
That is all.
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Hmph, i'm bored and i have nothing to do, so i think it's time for a ramble... Since i haven't rambled for quite some time... Not properly anyway.
The only problem is i don't really have anything to ramble about... Erm...
The beetle was back today o.o I've named him Horace. He's a very nice beetle, but he gets in the way when i'm trying to serve customers. I had to keep leaping about to avoid squashing him. Simon asked me what i was doing, and i told him i didn't want to step on Horace. He gave me a very funny look, he probably thought i'd lost my mind completely in the heat XD
Yes, that's how bored i get in work. I make friends with beetles. Welcome to my life.
Back to school tomorrow. I'm quite looking forward to it actually! It'll be nice to see everyone again, even if it's only been a few weeks, it feels like forever! I've missed our noisy form time and annoying miss B! XD
I've decided that when i'm 'grown up', whenever that may be, and i actually have a substantial amount of money and a house of my own, i'm going to have a whole menagerie of animals! I was talking to Karl about it to day, and the looks he was giving me kept getting weirder and weirder as i chose species and names for all my future pets XD
First off, nice and simple, i want 5 cats. Sanzo, Gojyo, Goku, Hakkai and Betty. You'd understand that if you watched the episode of Saiyuki where they get a kitten XD
Then i'd have tarantulas, because Spike used to have loads and they're the only things with more than 4 legs that im not scared of. 3 boys called Aragog, Spindleshanks and Wilson (don't ask, it was a 'you had to be there' moment), and two girls called Charlotte and Shelob. They have their names for a reason.
Then i'd have an iguana called Milo. I don't really know why o.o
A Minor Bird called Shakespeare (Will for short XD)
A rat called Scabbers
A ferret called Moakjak
A corn snake called Winston
An Asp (yes, a venoumous snake, i'd keep it in a tank) called Cleo
A python called Orochimaru (Oreo for short XD)
A hamster called Special Patrol Group (anyone who gets that also gets a hug XD)
A huskie called Nanuk
A Saluki called Shadi
And a fish called Vyvyan. A really big fish. Catfish maybe.
And i will be very happy with all my animals. And probably drive whoever i live with absolutely crazy XD
Yeah Karl offended me by telling me he wouldn't be able to find me in a house full of animals. I threw my half eaten apple at him and he did a gorilla impression, which apparently proved his point. So i threw his coffee in the bin and he sulked for a while.
And then it was all ok again o_____o
That is all.
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Work wasn't so bad today, it didn't feel like such a long shift, which was nice XP Sat in the canteen with the usual people and watched House, cuz i had it on my phone XD Best quote ever:
House: He was hit by a bullet, aswell.
Cameron: He was shot?!
House: No, someone threw it at him.
XP me and Karl found the biggest pie i've ever seen in my life, and tried to steal it. We failed miserably and had to put the pie back XD
I'm still scared of my temper you know =/ Have you ever tried to have a normal conversation with your parents and they've just turned it into an argument for no reason? Yeah, it's infuriating.. So i just had an argument with my mum, came upstairs, picked up a hammer and smashed the bin. I didn't even know what i was doing, i just needed to break something. I'm just scared that one day i'll need to break something and that something will be another person, not a wall or door or bin.
Viper started talking to me again last night. He really pisses me off, he only talks to me when he wants something, and he totally sucks up to me being really nice but it's so obvious he's only trying to get something. So i told him i'd turned into a zombie while he was away and then i wouldn't talk to him XD
So i'm calm now, once i've broken something i calm down XP which is good. I do feel like taking out some frustrations on Champions of Norrath though... It's the best game evaaaaar!! :D
LAST WEEKEND SHIFT FOR THE REST OF THIS MONTH!!!!!!!!! *thrilled* 3 whole weeks of only working two 6 and a half hour shifts a week! BLISS!!!!
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