Lmao, beforeee --
Chad: And i went to buy my ticket, but i couldn't talk to the ticket lady to ask for it... So i just stood there looking at her, counting my money.
Me: Why couldn't you talk to her?
Chad: I dunno, i was off my face, i thought she was a dragon.
LMAOOOOOO :D
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Amz: “Isn’t the internet amazing? You can find out the name of some little African kid who’s sitting at the corner of the world eating twigs.”
Fooking, legend.
Lmaooooo.
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I just spent a very enjoyable 15 minutes chasing my various family members/pets round the house yelling 'smell my face!!' The reason for this is i tried out a new face-mask thingy, and it smells like candy X3 You know that uber-sweet, usually bright red, will-make-you-
Ok, i'm done espasmoing about my face smelling of candy... I don't really have anything else to say... Getting a laptop for my 18th, and i've bought dad's christmas present looooool. So just about 5 million more to go ¬___¬
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Xaldin: There's a word for that, i think it's 'hooker'
Xigbar: YOU'RE A HOOKER!!!
XD lmaoooooo!! KH the stupid files is my crack. Again X3 i always end up watching it when i'm ill o.O
That's all i had to say.
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Wheeeee, David appeared and fixed out interwebs!!! X3 He is the magic computer man <.< >.>
In other news, i'm ill =[ I was ok when i woke up this morning, i got out of bed and went downstairs for breakfast, then i suddenly felt really dizzy and sick and like the room was spinning, and i fell over in the kitchen XD Mum says i fainted, but i don't think i did, i think i just lost my balance. Because i'm a tosser like that. Anyway she gave me some of the pills she takes for her vertigo because she thinks i might have had a vertigo attack and then sent me back to bed. I just got up again and i still feel queasy, but not dizzy anymore so it's all good-ish. Might go into school for the last couple of hours although i don't really see the point o.O I'm just bored here at home to be honest XD
Errrrmmm... It's children in need day today... I was meant to be going into school dressed up all crazy so i'm a bit gutted that i cant go in, i had an outfit all ready and everything =[ Oh well, i'll just dress crazy on monday and say i'm raising money late XD
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On the school computer again lmao!
Before-
Amz: Beki, that guy is missing an arm...
Me: ...Do you think we should go and tell him?
LMAOOOO!!! :P
Ooooh loads of alarms are going off o.O What's going oooooon O___O
Not much to repooorrrt. Still no interwebs at my house which is depressing =[ It also means i have to do most of my school work in my frees so less free time for me BOOOOO!
Errrrr... Pay day tomorrow so Ebay christmas shopping ahoy! And of course savings for Japan <.< >.> We're going around May-June time next year X3
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Hai gais! Ok, i gotta be quick cuz i'm in art at school <.< >.> I'm not gonna be on much for a while, because my internet is le-broken! I'll get on a computer at school as often as i can to check messages etc, but i won't be on much apart from that!
See you all when my internets are back! :p
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Oooooooooomg, i just downloaded the sweetest game ever X3 It's called WolfQuest, and you get to create your own little wolf character *squeeeee* X3 ..Then you have to hunt, and meet other wolves, and find a mate, and start a pack of your own, and raise pups, and it's so adorable X3 I'm addicted to it!! Wujawujawuja X3 I've got a little black wolf called Race, after one of my old dogs, and he has a mate called Ylva, which is a scandinavian name it means she-wolf X3 waaaaaaaaa, i love them X3 *is way too over-excited about a childrens wolf game* O___O
In other news... I still have an essay to write and i'm exhausted, there's no way i'm going to get a story and 2 commentaries done tonight, and i have tried, i just can't get my brain into gear to write them *grumbles*. I'll do the one commentary now and worry about the other 2 tomorrow i suppose. Beki is wanting another week off school plx.
Aaaah well, that's all i had to say really.
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Okaaaaaaay... Big newwwwws guys. I might be moving out of my parents house and moving in to a house with Nathan, because there's an empty council house at the end of Gemma's road and it's only £300 a month, which we could easily afford between us. We've discussed it a couple of times, the only problem that i can see with it is finances, and work. Nath works in mold, i work in queensferry. I've worked out that i could get to work on time during the week by getting the 4.30 bus to Queensferry, but i'm not sure about the weekends, and getting home again at 10.15 every night. I think as long as i'm on lates at the weekends getting there shouldn't be a problem, it's just getting back, i'm not paying £8 a go for a taxi every time i need to get home. SO, if i can find a new job in Mold, project moving out of this dump is go. Either that or really work hard with my driving and pass my driving test sometime in January so i'll be able to drive myself. Either way, i think it's time to move on, i've lived here too long and i feel ready to move out and find my own way now. I am nearly an adult now, as my mother keeps reminding me, and i don't want to spend the rest of my life leeching off them. To be honest, they don't even feel like my parents anymore, more like people that i know and live with. To me that's a sign i should leave. Haven't told mum yet, don't know what she'll say really, hopefully she'll be ok with it since she's been threatening to kick me out anyway for the last few months.
That's all i had to say really.
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*Grumbles* why must men be so insensitive? ¬____¬ I've been having some trouble with a guy i know, because he's gone a bit weird recently and i'm frightened that he might hurt himself, but i don't know whether to tell him that he's starting to scare people and that he might want to get help... So anyway, i decided to confide in one of my good male friends. I talked to him about it for a bit, and told him what's worrying me about this guy, and he was ok for a while just talking to me about it. I just like to talk things like that out, and when i'm worried about a friend i tend to talk about it quite alot, i'll admit. But it's a friends job to listen and offer advice right? I'd do the exact same thing for any one of my friends, no matter what they were upset about. But this guy just said 'can we change the subject now, this is like talking about bread for half an hour.' ...and i got really upset. Ok, maybe i'm over-reacting, but i'm genuinely scared for a friend, and trying to vent a bit to someone i THOUGHT was my friend, and he pretty much tells me that i'm boring him! Well i'm so sorry for being upset, mister holier-than-th
Oh i don't know. I'm just tired and hormonal i think. Bed time.
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Yeah i was just in a slump yesterday night. Work made me feel much better, i think i just needed to get out of the house and stop dwelling on things, and i was so busy today i didn't have time to think about anything at all, which was good. And now i'm far too tired to be depressed, so all's well that ends well i suppose :p
Work again tomorrow but i don't really mind cuz if it's as busy as it was today it'll fly by. Then i think i'm going to Amz's on monday to do some art.
That is all.
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OH and also, Pentre tomorrow!! I'M SOOOO looking forward to it this week :p I'm feeling generous at the moment too so i've told a few people if they want to go but cant get back, i'll chip in and give them money for a taxi. I like it when there's lots of people at pentre, its more fun XD I really cant wait until i pass my driving test though, then i wont have to worry about taxi money, just petrol money XD
That is all. Really.
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Meeeh, i'm tired but i dont feel much like sleeping because i know if i sleep the next thing i'll be doing is getting up to go to work, and i can't be arsed with work atm XD XD i'd pull a sickie but it's only a 7 hour shift so i shouldn't really complain. Still debating whether or not i can be bothered going out with Carl tomorrow night, it's too much like effort tbh o.o I'll see him at Pentre next week, i don't think i can be arsed coming out of work at 7.30 then going home getting changed trying to organise myself and then going out again to meet him at 8. Knowing me i'll get stuck in shotton and end up out till piss take o'clock in the morning, and then i won't want to get up on Sunday for work, which is a 9 hour shift, which will be much worse especially if i'm tired. So yes. Having internal conflicts here :p
That's all i wanted to say really.
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Ok. I've decided, running away isn't going to help anyone, neither is losing my temper or sulking. Mum was yelling before but then she calmed down, but my dad wouldn't stop, and it got to the point where he scared me so much i had to run out of the house. He can be so horrible sometimes =[ But i'm not going to let it get me down, i can't, not when i really need to push myself to try hard at school and stop missing lessons just because i feel down. I'm a teenager, i'm meant to feel down 90% of the time, and i can't let it get in my way anymore. I need to focus on the good things in my life, not the bad. Ignore my parents, ignore my arguments with Josh, ignore the stress and the sleeping disorder and the tiredness. Focus on the nice things that have been happening to me recently, like Carl, and parties, and new friends.
Stop crying. Now. It's not helping.
Inner peace. I need to stop letting everything get to me. Inner peeeeeeeeeace.
O_O
I feel surprisingly better XD
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