Worrrrrk wasn't too bad. It's actually cheered me up ^_^ But i am now craving toast like nothing else, because i haven't had any for 3 hours. Oh dear.

I noticed something today, something me and Amz have talked about in the past, because the same thing happens to her. I have no idea why this happens, but whenever i notice a guy that i never really payed any attention to before, and think 'oh he's cute', he suddenly seems to realise my existence and want to buy me stuff and take me out. It happened today.

John: I like your hair. Want some chocolate orange?
Me: Uuh... Thanks (i was thinking 'Oooh, he's actually really cute')
John: You doing anything tomorrow night?
Me: Um... I have life drawing class... (in my mind: OMG, screw life drawing!!!)
John: Friday?
Me: Driving lesson...
John: Weekend?
Me: I'm working lates all weekend. (in my mind: God, why do i never have free time when a cute guy wants to buy me drinks?)
John: Are you even interested?
Me: ....In you or your chocolate orange?

Sooo... After i took the piss out of him a bit pretending i was fully booked until new years, we decided we'd go out for a drink on saturday night when i get out of work =3 I don't really mind if we're just going out as friends, or people who live near eachother, or something else, it doesn't matter. It's just nice to have cute-guy company :p  I've had to give him directions to makro so he can pick me up, the wally doesn't know where it is XD It's kinda hard to miss, it's mahoosive!! Moron =3

So no surprises that Carl shot through my life faster than a very fast thing. I don't really mind, i never really saw him as more than a friend in the end. Funny how things turn out isn't it? You can be giddy for someone one minute and the next you're like 'eeeh, no, your sideburns annoy me.' ...... o.O  .....Well that's what i'm like anyway XD Aaah well, it's all fun.

NOW I MUST GO GET TOAST BEFORE I DIE!!! Do i have anything else productive to say? no... No i don't think i do. YAAAAAAAAAY no more rambling ^___^ *is shutting up*

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Finally starting to feel a bit better =/  My throat is still in agony and i can't stop coughing, but i'm going to drag myself to work anyway. It's only 4 hours, i can handle it, and i missed school again today because i was up till 4am coughing last night =/ Ugh, i hate being iiiiiiiiilllllll. If it wasn't for this cough, i'd be fine, the fever has pretty much cleared up now, so has the blocked nose and the headache, but the cough is bloody relentless. My stomach and shoulders are actually hurting because i'm coughing so much. Ugh. It sucks. I just hope i don't cough myself to death in work. Lots of strepsils, lots of tissues, i should be fine. I think.

Aaaanyway, i gotta go and finish sorting out this stupid computer room which is what i'm supposed to have been doing all day. I haven't, you might have guessed o.O but now i'm going to, to prevent the old ones going mental with me. Ta-ta! XD

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I've become addicted to toast O_O It's all i've eaten these last 2 days and i've now watched every Disney 'classic' movie that i own, so i have nothing to do. Seriously, i think Disney movies are the only ones i can watch one after another after another and not get bored of them, i'm such a fantard. I suppose i just love a cheesy fairy tale X3 Yesterday i watched all 3 Alladin's, Tarzan, Hercules, The Lion King, Sleeping Beauty, Pocahontas, Mulan and one of my old Winnie the Pooh tapes (yes, i still have them).. And today i've watched Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast and 101 Dalmatians. I'M OBSESSED. I LOVE DISNEY <3 <3 I don't think i'll ever grow up, i will love all my childish movies forever X3 Ooooh, now i want to watch Peter Pan =3

Enough rambling about Disney now... I need to go and ring work and tell them i'm too busy eating toast to come in today... I mean, i'm too ill to come in today o.O I'm actually feeling alot better, i just can't be bothered to be honest, you know how being ill really takes all the energy out of you? Well that's how i feel. So this is my recovery time now, then it's back to normal as of tomorrow. Yes.

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Beki is very very ill =___=;; I knew i shouldn't have gone out at all this weekend, but i'd been invited to two parties, i didn't want to miss either of them! Ryan's was awesome :D I was a bit dead at the start, and all i wanted to do was sleep on the sofa, but after i'd got a bunch of paracetamol and a can of cider down me i started to feel better! In the end i really enjoyed myself, but i'm really feeling the effects now XD I was off my face drunk at Gemma's, stoned into oblivion at Ryan's, and i have the flu on top of that. In other words i feel like i've died of the plague, twice for good measure. So obviously i'm not in school today, and i may not be tomorrow depending on how i feel when i wake up. If i feel this bad i may drag myself to school but there's NO WAY in hell i'm going to work. Absolutely not. I'll work wednesday if i feel like it because it's only 3 hours, and maybe the weekend if i've recovered a bit by then, but no more than that.

Anyway. I like to watch Disney films and curl up in bed with tea and toast when i'm ill, so i'm off to watch Mulan XD toodle pip!

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Gemma's party was gewwwd, would have been better if i wasn't ill but there we go XD I now feel like i'm dying. Cold, cough, headache, aching all over, nausea, the whole works. But i'm still going to Ryan's party, i'm not missing it just because i'm coming down with something very much like flu.
I've had my hair done too :D It's pink o.O and short *tugs at straggly bits* i'm not used to having so little hair, i can barely get it into a ponytail now O_O

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Ok, one thing before i go to bed, i AM going to hunt down and punch in the face the next person who spells Halloween as Holloween. You stupid, stupid people *grumpyface*

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*grumble* It's time for me to have another ET-diary-rant, because i don't have proper rants anymore and i need to lmao. I'm off to work AGAIN in half an hour so i've gotta be quick but... I was just talking to my dad, and i've noticed something. Why does it seem like the whole world is going down the shitter at the moment? Sure, yes, the economy is terrible, but it seems to be having a knock-on effect on things that don't have anything to do with the economy. Maybe it's just 'that time of year', when everyone gets depressed because it's winter and christmas and no one has any money and hobo numbers have increased tenfold but... I dunno, things just seem to be going really crappily for everyone at the moment. A fair few of my friends have dropped out or been kicked out of sixth form for various reasons, my family is beginning to crumble again under christmas stress, and coupled with the economy problems bringing grief and misery to everyone else in the world i think it's safe to say this is one of the most depressing winters i've ever had. It just seems like all of a sudden everything is changing for the worse, and for once there's not alot i can do about it, because for once it's not my fault that everything is changing. And for some reason that makes me feel worse about the whole thing. Usually when i have a 'depression' moment, it's my own fault and therefore i can fix it. But this time it's not, and i don't have anyone to blame and i don't see what i can do to stop all this madness. I'm on the edge all the time with work because i know Makro is losing money since they decided it was a GREAT idea to spend an absolute fortune on a refit that was, in the end, totally pointless. Less money and less customers means less need for staff. I suppose i dont have as much to worry about as some of the temporary staff, because i'm permanent so they can't just fire me for no reason, but the temps can be layed off just for the hell of it and i feel kinda bad for them because it's not a good time to be getting fired. *sigh* Aaah damn, i dunno, the world's gone to pot and it's only getting worse... Maybe we're bringing about our own demise, as some old biddy said to me the other day, or maybe this is just another learning curve for the human race. Whatever it is, i hope it's over soon, because i don't like having to think about things that don't really concern me.

Sometimes, i wish i was a kid again, when the biggest thing i had to worry about was a grazed knee and cooties... Ho-hum.

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I was meant to be doing something constructive today, since it's my day off and all, but i just ended up sleeping till noon and then moping about all day complaining about my sore throat and headache and the fact that i have to work tomorrow at piss take o'clock in the morning. PFAH!

To rid myself of this feeling of crapness i have once again immersed myself into the world of Fandom Hearts (the land where all Kingdom Hearts uberfangirls go to squeal and make tea and whatever else they do). I haven't really been that obsessed with KH for about a year, but i've recently got back into it and it's like WAAAAAAAAAAA all of a sudden, because i can now draw better than i could back then, and can therefore draw Orgy XIII properly without them looking like deformed monkeys on heroin! So that has made me happy..

In other news.. Erm... I have none. My costume-thing for Gemma's party has arrived, so i'm going to look like a loon on loon tablets come the 28th lmaooooo. Me and Amz are going as a pair of gimps. No, really, we are. Fun fun.

I've decided i'm going to get completely smashed that night aswell, because i haven't been properly drunk in ages and i am in desperate need of some drunken antics, even if they end in me throwing up in a hedge. ALCOHOL AHOY!!!

Then it's my 18th, and then Christmas, good God... Not looking forward to that at all, i hate Christmas, it's so depressing. Yay, woo, presents that you'll never use or even see again after Boxing Day, old people in your house eating all your food, and having to deal with the humiliation of your parents getting drunk. DO.NOT.WANT. No, i'm spending Christmas in the pub wallowing in yuletide misery. Well, no, i'll be wallowing in beer, but same thing.

Wow, i'm in a very grumpy, british mood tonight :D I shall go back over to EP and see if that bint has replied to me, just so i can yell at someone. I don't think i've said anything about this have i? No, well, some girl picked a fight with me on EP because apparently i'm too much of a 'conformist' (when she was the biggest scene kid i've ever seen in my life lmao) and she is now losing this fight miserably because she failed to notice one very important thing. I am, in fact, British, and i am therefore extremely stubborn and extremely good at arguing. I love it. It's what we brits do. Well, we stereotypical brits anyway. We argue alot, drink alot of tea, and complain about everything. That's me lol :D ...And when i'm in a grumpy brit mood as Em likes to call them, i like to argue with ignorant people-who-aren't-british.

So off i go ^__^

*LOL tea time*

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I am ill again =_= ill ill ill and bleh! I can hardly talk and my glands are really really swollen. I've been drowning myself in hot lemons the last couple of days and rummaging around trying to find the last tray of antibiotics i had when i had my throat infection. I know there's one more around here somewhere!! I kept myself up till 4am last night coughing, it's really not nice =[ I'm glad i've got today to recover because i'm in work tomorrow on the worst set o shifts ever =[ I have to go in at 7am to cover Em's morning, come home again at 11am, go back in at 2.30pm and stay till 10pm >.< seriously CBAAAAAAAAA with that amount of work, then i have to go in for a 9 and a half hour shift on sunday aswell >.< ...pish. I'll do the saturday thing cuz i know they're REALLY short staffed, but i'm tempted to ring in sick on the sunday, i can't be arsed with sitting there on my till for 9 hours dying XD

Aaaanyway. I haven't properly been on ET for a few days or updated my diary at all, other than to put in things that have made me laugh (lol, Chad and the dragon *gigglesnort*)... the reason for this is because i decided to play through KHII again out of boredom. Bad idea. Now i've become a total fantard AGAIN and am really depressed because i've completed it AGAIN. Lmao i'm so lame. And i somehow managed to turn an L into a = by pressing some random button on the keyboard by accident o.O weird..

Ok, that's all i had to say i think. Off to continue drowning myself in liquid paracetamol *sniffles*

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Lmao, beforeee --

Chad: And i went to buy my ticket, but i couldn't talk to the ticket lady to ask for it... So i just stood there looking at her, counting my money.
Me: Why couldn't you talk to her?
Chad: I dunno, i was off my face, i thought she was a dragon.

LMAOOOOOO :D

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Amz: “Isn’t the internet amazing? You can find out the name of some little African kid who’s sitting at the corner of the world eating twigs.”

Fooking, legend.

Lmaooooo.

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I just spent a very enjoyable 15 minutes chasing my various family members/pets round the house yelling 'smell my face!!'  The reason for this is i tried out a new face-mask thingy, and it smells like candy X3 You know that uber-sweet, usually bright red, will-make-you-throw-up candy that you buy at beaches? It's usually in the shape of a dummy... Well that's what my face smells like lmao XD ...I've just realised, it also resembles the sweet-grape tobacco we had in our Hookah at Bloodstock... AWESOME!! I need to get me some more of these X3 for the BOA memories X3

Ok, i'm done espasmoing about my face smelling of candy... I don't really have anything else to say... Getting a laptop for my 18th, and i've bought dad's christmas present looooool. So just about 5 million more to go ¬___¬

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Xaldin: There's a word for that, i think it's 'hooker'
Xigbar: YOU'RE A HOOKER!!!

XD lmaoooooo!! KH the stupid files is my crack. Again X3 i always end up watching it when i'm ill o.O

That's all i had to say.

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Wheeeee, David appeared and fixed out interwebs!!! X3 He is the magic computer man <.< >.>

In other news, i'm ill =[ I was ok when i woke up this morning, i got out of bed and went downstairs for breakfast, then i suddenly felt really dizzy and sick and like the room was spinning, and i fell over in the kitchen XD Mum says i fainted, but i don't think i did, i think i just lost my balance. Because i'm a tosser like that. Anyway she gave me some of the pills she takes for her vertigo because she thinks i might have had a vertigo attack and then sent me back to bed. I just got up again and i still feel queasy, but not dizzy anymore so it's all good-ish. Might go into school for the last couple of hours although i don't really see the point o.O I'm just bored here at home to be honest XD

Errrrmmm... It's children in need day today... I was meant to be going into school dressed up all crazy so i'm a bit gutted that i cant go in, i had an outfit all ready and everything =[ Oh well, i'll just dress crazy on monday and say i'm raising money late XD

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On the school computer again lmao!

Before-

Amz: Beki, that guy is missing an arm...
Me: ...Do you think we should go and tell him?

LMAOOOO!!! :P 

Ooooh loads of alarms are going off o.O What's going oooooon O___O

Not much to repooorrrt. Still no interwebs at my house which is depressing =[ It also means i have to do most of my school work in my frees so less free time for me BOOOOO!

Errrrr... Pay day tomorrow so Ebay christmas shopping ahoy! And of course savings for Japan <.< >.> We're going around May-June time next year X3

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Hai gais! Ok, i gotta be quick cuz i'm in art at school <.< >.> I'm not gonna be on much for a while, because my internet is le-broken! I'll get on a computer at school as often as i can to check messages etc, but i won't be on much apart from that!

See you all when my internets are back! :p

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Oooooooooomg, i just downloaded the sweetest game ever X3 It's called WolfQuest, and you get to create your own little wolf character *squeeeee* X3 ..Then you have to hunt, and meet other wolves, and find a mate, and start a pack of your own, and raise pups, and it's so adorable X3 I'm addicted to it!! Wujawujawuja X3 I've got a little black wolf called Race, after one of my old dogs, and he has a mate called Ylva, which is a scandinavian name it means she-wolf X3 waaaaaaaaa, i love them X3 *is way too over-excited about a childrens wolf game* O___O

In other news... I still have an essay to write and i'm exhausted, there's no way i'm going to get a story and 2 commentaries done tonight, and i have tried, i just can't get my brain into gear to write them *grumbles*. I'll do the one commentary now and worry about the other 2 tomorrow i suppose. Beki is wanting another week off school plx.

Aaaah well, that's all i had to say really.

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Okaaaaaaay... Big newwwwws guys. I might be moving out of my parents house and moving in to a house with Nathan, because there's an empty council house at the end of Gemma's road and it's only £300 a month, which we could easily afford between us. We've discussed it a couple of times, the only problem that i can see with it is finances, and work. Nath works in mold, i work in queensferry. I've worked out that i could get to work on time during the week by getting the 4.30 bus to Queensferry, but i'm not sure about the weekends, and getting home again at 10.15 every night. I think as long as i'm on lates at the weekends getting there shouldn't be a problem, it's just getting back, i'm not paying £8 a go for a taxi every time i need to get home. SO, if i can find a new job in Mold, project moving out of this dump is go. Either that or really work hard with my driving and pass my driving test sometime in January so i'll be able to drive myself. Either way, i think it's time to move on, i've lived here too long and i feel ready to move out and find my own way now. I am nearly an adult now, as my mother keeps reminding me, and i don't want to spend the rest of my life leeching off them. To be honest, they don't even feel like my parents anymore, more like people that i know and live with. To me that's a sign i should leave. Haven't told mum yet, don't know what she'll say really, hopefully she'll be ok with it since she's been threatening to kick me out anyway for the last few months.

That's all i had to say really.

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*Grumbles* why must men be so insensitive? ¬____¬ I've been having some trouble with a guy i know, because he's gone a bit weird recently and i'm frightened that he might hurt himself, but i don't know whether to tell him that he's starting to scare people and that he might want to get help... So anyway, i decided to confide in one of my good male friends. I talked to him about it for a bit, and told him what's worrying me about this guy, and he was ok for a while just talking to me about it. I just like to talk things like that out, and when i'm worried about a friend i tend to talk about it quite alot, i'll admit. But it's a friends job to listen and offer advice right? I'd do the exact same thing for any one of my friends, no matter what they were upset about. But this guy just said 'can we change the subject now, this is like talking about bread for half an hour.' ...and i got really upset. Ok, maybe i'm over-reacting, but i'm genuinely scared for a friend, and trying to vent a bit to someone i THOUGHT was my friend, and he pretty much tells me that i'm boring him! Well i'm so sorry for being upset, mister holier-than-thou! I shall never bother you with my troubles again ¬___¬ Jesus... I knew i should have confided in a woman, men are just so insensitive. Well, most men. I'll admit i know some men who are so sensitive it's frightening XD But this particular man has really got on my nerves now. I mean, if a friend of mine was upset about something and was ranting to me about it, i'd let them rant until they were done, then offer them some friendly advice, then let them rant some more! I would NEVER tell them i was bored of what they were saying, that's just horrible! Am i being petty here? It's just really upset me...

Oh i don't know. I'm just tired and hormonal i think. Bed time.

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