Woooooow haven't written in here in ages. I'm only really writing in here now so i can have a belated spazz about Diversity winning BGT X3 I'm going to marry Ashley and adopt the little afro kid, who i think is called Perry... or something like that, i don't care, he's absolutely adorable, i could fluff his hair all day X3 and i'm sooooooo glad they won, i've been rooting for them from the moment they auditioned, so yay! Happy X3

Yeah, i'm meant to be on holiday this weekend.. But i came home early. Long story, don't feel like explaining it, but i'm gutted really... I wanted to see my family, but i didn't even make it to south england before i came home =[ So yeah, feeling very moody and depressed and lonely.. But despite feeling lonely, i also don't want to see anyone. I'm a self-destructive person like that XD I dunno, Mizz wanted to come over, but i kind of avoided the subject... Dom wanted to come over but i bipassed that altogether... It seems that i live to make myself miserable, and i have no idea why XD Oh well, parents will be back soon and i'll be wishing i was on my own again XD

Umm... Not much else to report. Got my college interview on Weds and if i don't get in then i'm completely screwed for life so wish me luck XD

That's it really :D 

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I AM VERY VERY PISSED OFF AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY >:{  <<<good face there o.O   BUT IM STILL REALLY PISSED OFF!!! I have no idea what's getting to me so much, i have no real reason for being pissed off, i just feel like smacking someone round the head with a bit of wood =___=;; I'll get over it XD

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Omg i've just realised i feel really fooking sick D; and good effort with the pink writing ET, thats mint (Y)

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Weeeeelll, contrary to what i expected i actually ended up enjoying working at the races :D twas a fun time..
Had a rough night last night. Was feeling very hormonal and tired and upset about everything, and i think i pissed Omari off somehow cuz he was being really arsey with me this morning which has upset me =[  But Nath has been the best friend he could possibly be today and made me feel better, so i love him for that =] BROS OVER HOES LMAO!!!

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LMAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOO! I'm having one of those uncontrollable giggling fits right now, because i just remembered the conversation i had earlier with Chad, which cracked me up XD I was absolutely fuming because my art teacher had just pretty much got the head of the art department and ganged up on me with her to threaten to pull me out of the art exam, for no good reason either! But that's not important, what was important was the conversation i had with Chad afterwards XD We were walking up town, past a building site so i could go home and follow the bloody commandants orders.

Me: *spots a small digger* I want that digger. I want to steal it and kill Miss Batten with it.
Chad: Yeah, just chase her down the street with it.
Me: Scooping at her face.
Chad: BATTEN!!!! I'VE GOT A DIGGER!!!!
Me: *bursts out laughing*
Chad: "Yeah, i've got a digger, and what have you got, your paintbrushes?? Ooooh?" and she's there in the digger scoop just waving her paintbrushes around screaming.
Me: *laughing hysterically*
Chad: And you just go and hold her over a cliff, and she's like "oooh no, i'm over a cliff in a digger!" and she can't move for an hour, so she's stuck there with her paintbrushes.
Me: *died from hyperventilation long ago* XD

It was so funny XD Him and Amz always manage to make me laugh, even when i'm in the most horrible mood XD And later on we were just sitting there talking normally...

Amz: So what are you gonna do?
Me: Well i'll get the bus back i think, or i might get a taxi so i don't have to walk with it all.. I'll give you a text anyway.
Chad: *in a really goonish voice* ONION
Me and Amz: *crack up*
Chad: SWEEEEEEEEEDE
Me and Amz: *dead*

Awesome times XD I might actually miss Sixth form =3

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I got the job at Chester Racecourse :D I don't think i even wrote about it in here... But anyway, i got it XD It sounds like amazing work to be fair, because you can choose when you want to work. If you don't want to work for a few weeks, then they're fine with that, they just let you do whatever hours you're comfortable with, and it's bar work which should be great fun! Also, £6.50 an hour ftw, i was only on £5.17 at Makro :D *happy*

I had the biggest spazz ever last night... I left Oblivion on for a few hours by accident and when i came upstairs my Xbox had red ring of death D: i nearly cried XD But i unplugged it all and left it to cool down over night, and thank god it had just overheated! It's working fine again today XD I nearly had a heart attack, jeez XD

Catrina's party tonight which should be fun ^_^ I've had a free house since thursday and Amz has been over, so we've made a lovely mess XD oddly enough though i actually enjoy cleaning the house, so i'm going to spend a couple of hours tidying up and then i'm going to pass out on the floor XD I'm exhausted! I've been going to bed really late every night but getting up at 9 every morning o.o not like me at all! XP

I think that's all i had to say... Yep!

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My house smells so nice today! My mum is cooking a big Indian banquet because we have 11 guests coming over for dinner tonight. It was absolutely hectic last night till about 11pm, with me and my mum and dad rushing around the kitchen making sure everything was prepared so we could just whack it in the oven today XD I went to bed exhausted and smelling of curry XD but now it's all cooking, and dad's burning about a million incense sticks all around the house, it smells soooooooo nice and... well, Indian XD I'm really looking forward to tonight now, even if i have to put up with noisy relatives in my house, it should be fun!
Uhhh... I don't really have any other news... I'm having a big spring clean this week, starting with the computer room and then my bed room and then the rest of the house while my parents are away next weekend, because i think everything is getting too dusty and no one else can be bothered cleaning properly XD My family go for the 'stuff it in the cupboard and forget about it' method... So, this week is the big clean XD Other than that nothing else exciting is happening... It's finally getting summery though, which makes me happy =3 I'm definately a summer person XD FESTIVAL SEASON AHOY! Me and Amz are going to Download and Bloodstock this year :D I've decided i don't care about spending ridiculous amounts of money on tickets and tents and alcohol and clothes and things, Download this year looks like it's really going to be a once in a lifetime, so i'm not missing it for anything! Wheeeeeeeeee!!! Excited now X3

I think that's everything... Tatty bye!

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I had an epic anime dream last night :D i don't often dream in anime, but this was like a proper episode with awesome characters and an actual storyline, i was well impressed XD aaaaahahahah

I desperately need a job... I r wanting to Bloodstock and Download this year, because Dir en Grey at Download = me there with booze and big hair XD  and Bloodstock is just epic win so i don't want to miss it :D I'm withdrawing money from my big savings account tomorrow o.o so depending on how much i decide to get i might just go for it and buy Download AND Bloodstock tickets and fuck my finances for the future, i've always been one to live in the moment and regret it later, so that's what i intend to do XD

I never learn, do i?

Going to bite the bullet and apply for Tesco soon too =/ i'm still not desperate enough to apply at Maccies though XD

That is all.

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Aaaargh, i'm so freaking tired... I've been sleeping really badly these last few days, which is fairly unusual for me... I either sleep really well or don't sleep at all, but recently i've been having alot of this stupid 'falling asleep only to wake up every hour for no reason at all and then go back to sleep again'... so yeah, hate iiiit. Can't wait for the easter holidays, when it'll be ok for me to lie in bed all day, because that seems to be the only time i can actually get to sleep XD
Ummmm don't think i have anything else today... Been re-addicted to Soul Calibur 4 tonight, i've been playing it for nearly 4 hours straight and that's not even bad for me o.o i'm such a game freak XD
Buuut now i'm to tired to think, which means i'm too tired to type, which means i'm going to go and TRY and get a normal nights sleep... Bleh.

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Waaaaa, i'm not feeling too good =___= i didn't sleep well at all last night... You know when you have one of those nights where you're just tossing and turning and you can't get comfy, and then you open your eyes and it's light and you're like 'wtf, did i even sleep at all?'... Well that's what i had last night, and i woke up this morning feeling like death, ran to the bathroom and spent half a delightful hour throwing up =___= so not happy. Got to go into school for last lesson to pick up a camera to do film work, but i really don't feel like it. Thankfully, i'm not actually in the film this time so i don't have to act or do anything except point the camera and shout instructions at someone else XD I still need to find a guy to drag to buckley, and i've got the doctors tonight so i'm going to have to get a lift up later with my mum which is going to make life even harder because it means whatever guy we drag there has to find his own way there... BAH. *wants to curl up in bed again* It's fine, we'll work it out somehow...

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HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

I feel like i haven't written in here in ages... I really have been neglecting my diary since i used to write in here diligently every day and rant about nothing at all... I have no idea how i did that XD Although exciting things have been happening.. Well, no they haven't, but i'm just in a very unusually good mood considering it's sunday evening X3 lol a french person is talking to me on msn o.o aaah fun times... So what has happened that i wanted to talk about? Uhm... Ok, start with wednesday, i failed my theory test by THREE BASTARD POINTS!! THREE!!! Lol:

Woman: I'm sorry, but you've failed by three points.
Me: OH BASTARD SHITFUCK OF CRAP FACED ARSE CRAP WHORE!
Woman: ...Well that's a reaction i haven't seen before..
Me: :D

So yeah that was amusing XD  Went to pentre on thursday and met Barry (seriously, that's his name) again... Did i mention them last week? i don't think i did... We met Barry and Rob when i was drunk and giving out rolos to people and Rob was like omg sexy... And they invited me and Amz to this camping/festival type thingy and Rob said he'd get us tickets because he's working it so he can get them free.. So we were like 'yay fit guy buying us stuff!' ...But he wasn't there this week because he'd been arrested XD and me and Amz were obviously like 'oooh that makes him even sexier!' because we're awesome like that...But he's coming next week so yay, sexy ahoy XD We were playing various drinking games, wherein i ended up snorting vodka and red bull and then spitting it all over the table and my own face XD we were having a generally good time and then Barry and his 2 friends who's names i have totally forgotten asked if we wanted to go back to his house to have a drink and chill... But by the time we got up by Oasis in Queensferry me and Amz had sort of realised it was a really stupid idea to go wandering off into the night with three drunk guys who were obviously only interested in one thing XD so we left them somewhere and took shelter in the chippy where we made friends with the crazy foreign person in there who kept talking about giving Amz a 'free giant sausage' and she was so slow on the uptake it was hilarious XD she thought he was genuinely going to give her one of the sausages XD So fun night all round... Friday Amz's dog got put down, so i crawled out of bed and got dressed and went over there and i ended up crying as well, and we both cried, and then we watched an absolutely insane french movie and ended up laughing our asses off like usual :p but RIP Holly, she was such a lovely dog :(  <3
This weekend has been a nice lazy one, i've pretty much just blobbed around and done artwork... School wise i'm having a great old time because i'm FINALLY studying Roger Dean for an art exam, which is something i've wanted an excuse to do for YEARS! So i'm thrilled XD still have a mahoosive amount of film work to do, but we managed to film most of it, cut it, edit it and do the sound for it in a week, so considering we only have like 30 seconds left to film i doubt we'll have a problem with that :D
Harummm... Did i have anything else to report? o.o no i don't think so... Life is generally good at the moment :D which means only the occasional mad rant from me, like this one :D
Oh one more thing. I'm cutting all my hair off and dying it silver in a couple of weeks. Because i can. YAY :D
Right i'm going to shut up and go to bed now before i write a novel ;P

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I missed the bus again today XD No surprises there since i didn't go back to bed until 4am last night, and it feels like i've only had 3 hours sleep when i actually had closer to 10... stupid messed up sleeping patterns... I knew i would feel like poop today... Gah. And i have to get up super early tomorrow because i'm going into chester with my mum and she leaves the house at like 7.45... CBAAAAA... then i have an hour once i get there to find the test centre and go and fail my theory test :D fun fun... Bleh. Better go now, if i miss the NEXT bus i'm really screwed, because i'm meant to be in my film lesson in about 10 minutes >.< *head/desk*

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Aaaaablah, i feel dead =___=

I fell asleep when i got in and i only just woke up =___= everyone has done this at some point in their life.. And it always works the same way... You get in and you feel really really tired... Either you've had a busy day or you were up late the night before, and you think "i'll just go to bed for a few hours, that can't hurt."... You set an alarm to wake you up and off you pop into dream world... And then you wake up in the middle of the night, confused and disorientated wondering what the hell happened. The first thing you always do is sit up and look around and try and work out where you are and what time it is... Then when you realise you've slept away an entire afternoon and evening that could be spent doing something useful, you get annoyed with yourself and get up... then you turn the light on, and for some reason it seems about 50 times brighter than it has ever been before, so you spend the next 10 minutes squinting. Then you go into the kitchen, still confused and with no idea what's going on, open the fridge, and drink the first thing you see. Carton, bottle, can, whatever, you pick it up and drink all of it, because for some reason you feel like you've been doing aerobics in the desert for the past 7 or 8 hours that you were asleep. Then it sort of dawns on you that you've missed dinner, and you get really pissed off! If you live with other people, you're like "why didn't they wake me for dinner?!" and you get really disgruntled.. If you live alone, you get annoyed with yourself for not waking up... Then you grab the first thing you see and eat that... Then back to your room to sit around thinking "Well... It's one in the morning and everyone else is asleep... What do i do now?!"...And then you do something to try and make up for the time you wasted, then eventually go back to sleep. And you ALWAYS do this on a night where you have to get up early the next day, so it really messes up your sleeping patterns, and you feel like crap for 4 days afterwards...

Well... That's how it works for me anyway XD Maybe it's not universal, maybe i really am the only person who does this every now and again... It is very stupid and i don't advise it, because no matter how tired you feel when you go to sleep during the day, you will always feel worse the next day. Ugh. Plus, if you're a student like me, it makes you feel like you went toddling off to college, came home, and then went straight off to college again without doing anything in between... CRAAAAP.

Anyway. Enough talking about my warped sleeping patterns. Theory test on wednesday, SOOOO gonna faaaaaaaail :D

That is all.

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Harieuwfhwagrwe... crappy night last night =[  i was meant to be going to Holly's party, but my mum decided last minute that she wasn't going to give me a lift there or back, and i didnt have enough money to get a taxi ¬___¬ ended up just going to bed early, so that sucked...

It's mothers day today and i don't think my mum is talking to me o.o not really sure why, i haven't done anything bad... i got her a card and i'm cooking dinner for her tonight, i can't really do much else, i've seriously run out of money. I'm skintypoo, i have about 50p to my name. But even so i must have done something because she hasn't said a word to me all day *grumbles* parents...

Nothing else useful to say really...

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Oh dear god, anyone who knows Dom Bowen watch this video! Seriously, i couldn't stop cringing, it's made of fail XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WUH40oFU-o

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Oooooomg i had such an awesome night last night XD I got as trashed as i said i was going to and then some, i was awful XD I don't actually remember much of what happened, but what i do remember was awesome XD We got to Spoons at about 8 and i started on the vodka and red bull's straight away... then Dave appeared, and Nino started talking to me o.O For some reason he was obsessed with the fact that me and Amz are married (yes, we are. Us + drunk + bloodstock + a guy who was ordained = me and Amz deciding to get legally married) and i've never really talked to Nino before so it was a bit odd o.o somehow i have managed to end up being invited over to his on Saturday so i can dread his hair XD good times o.o then we started on the shots, and it all becomes a bit of a blur after this.. I remember going outside for a fag and Amz ran into the Spoons sign outside, and i thought it was hilarious so i did it to.. Then i climbed up on top of one of the traffic lights and started directing the traffic, so i got alot of weird looks XD Amz dragged me down off the traffic light and i ran into the sign again and then we went back inside and had a couple more shots and i kept yelling 'MORE BOOZE!', much to the amusement of everyone around me XD then it REALLY gets fuzzy... Dom walked past the pub and i chased him down the street trying to convince him to come inside for a drink... Then i went back in, did something, drank more, went outside and threw up (lol) uuuh.. I stood up screaming 'im fine now, more booze!' and then started rolling around in the middle of the road... Then i went back in and passed out for a while... Some guy was chatting Amz up so i yelled 'she's married!' at him while i was still semi-unconcious... Then i yelled at Dave to stop talking about gravy o.o Then the pub closed to we went up to the bus shelter and there was a hobo sleeping up there which i found insanely funny because he was snoring really loud... Amz licked the bus shelter alot and drew a smiley face on it, and i ran into one of the shelters really hard and fell right on my arse screaming 'rock and roooooooolll!!!' ...i have a delightful video of the event on my phone XD then me and Amz both tried to do the Cossack dance and failed miserably.. Then we went home, and i passed out in the taxi... Then when we got back to buckley i threw up again and it was red! I don't know whether it was blood or whether i'm just weird but it was insanely funny, and i stood up going 'not feeling to good!' in an irish accent, then started trying to eat a small tree... Then i picked a handful of leaves off a tree and rubbed them all over my face, went into Amz's house, somehow managed to put some pyjamas on and crawl into bed... And now here i am with a classic Beki hangover! Which is nothing but the shakes o.o which i find very odd... Most people feel sick and get headaches, but not me, i just shake like a twat for a couple of days XD

So yeah, good night! Pentre tomorrow and Holly's on Saturday as well XD God im up for a very, very insane week XD

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