[Beki in Wonderland]'s diary
Hmm, i feel a bit better now ^___^
NOW! to the real reason i decided to write in my diary AGAIN XD
After much thought, and many hilarious conversations with my Danna and my dear cousins who are so nice about my personal sense of style, i (or rather they) have decided that i'm a female transvestite. The reason for this? Well, have you noticed that most male transvestites dress really outrageously? They wear things that you hardly EVER see (normal) women wearing on the streets. SO! They have decided that i dress like a really outrageous guy. Nice! I suppose in a way it's true.. When i actually make an effort, i do tend to wear the sort of clothes some drugged up punk guy would wear XD Or a really gay guy, depending on my mood. But yes, that is what i am. A female transvestite.
Thank you danna and cousins, you're all so lovely XD
Put music player on shuffle and use the song title to answer each question.. press skip after you've written the answer!
What does next year have in store for me?
Lost in America (oh great XD Lost in Liverpool last year, Lost in America next year XD)
What's my love life like?
The Enemy (ROFL!! XD)
What do I say when life gets hard?
The Worst is Yet to Come (wow, optimistic XD)
What do I think when I get up in the morning?
Umbrella (ROFL! Yeah, if it's raining i guess XD)
What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Sleeping Beauty (YAY! I adore that song XD)
What do you want as a career?
The Dagger (...Does this mean im gonna be a mass murderer or something?)
Your favourite saying?
What If? (lol! Yeah! XD It works in an odd way)
Your pets name?
Hey Stoopid (LOL! I may well call my next pet this now XD)
Favourite place?
Lost in Hollywood (LOL! I guess that means Hollywood? So i've been lost in america, AND Hollywood XD Wonder if it's referring to the same trip to america?)
Describe your sexlife:
Dawn of a Golden Age (o.O Okaaay then XD.. Aah well, if Dani Filth sings it, it must mean good things XD)
What do you think of your parents?
Cry Little Sister (oh great XD)
What's your Pornstar name?
Rain (cool XD I've just noticed that Dir En Grey have a song called Rain, and a song called Umbrella XD XD.. i find that way too funny XD)
Where would you go on a first date?
The End (the end of where i wonder?)
Drug of choice?
20th Century Boy (ROFL XD)
Describe yourself:
Poison (aaah, couldn't have said it better myself XD)
What is the thing i like doing most:
In the Fire (LOL! I'm no pyro! *cough cough*)
What song best describes my school principle?
Hate Something, Change Something (OMG!! *dies laughing on the floor* that's amazing!)
What is my state of mind like at the moment?
Psycho (Oh great XD But it IS great that it's another Dir en Grey song XD)
How will I die?
3 Little Birds (ROFL!!!!!! I'll be killed by three little birds? OMG!! XD)
I'M DEAD!!!
Now that's over and done with..
I really do feel like i'm dying.. I'm amazed i managed do drag myself out of bed long enough to get on the computer..
I'm meant to be going to chester tomorrow, so i'm really hoping this is one of those 24 hour things..
Why the fuck am i always ill? I think it's my own fault really..
I haven't been sleeping properly for days.. I've hardly eaten anything since thursday and i've drank even less..Infact i think the most i've eaten was my lunch at work yesterday.. i haven't eaten anything today.. I don't know why really, i just can't (sleep eat or drink that is) I'm making myself ill and i know it, but i really don't know what to do about it..
It's really quite gay.. I'm gonna try and drag myself to chester tomorrow, coz i want to see my friends.. And i think if it's my own fault i'm ill, then i should just try and carry on like normal.. Work again on wednesday, which seems to take my mind off it a bit, which is good.
Further discussions with michelle about my possible future horse will follow *grins*
Mum's being a bitch though.. she says she'll let me go to chester tomorrow because i 'need to get out more' according to my doctor, but i'm not allowed anyone round this week and i'm not allowed to go to anyone's (which is gay as it's half term).. Apparently tomorrow night i need to go to bed early so im not dead for work.. i'm trying to work on her coz Alex was meant to be crashing at mine tomorrow, we need to wear neon eyeshadow and have big hair! >.< i'll try staring at her pathetically when she gets home.. im not having an argument over it.. im not in the mood for yelling and screaming today..
On a slightly less ghey note, i can actually walk! Which is a miracle as i totally fucked up my back (again >.<) yesterday. It's agony if i try to bend over XD But other than that it's just the usual dull ache. YAY! I seriously thought i'd be back on crutches today after how much it was hurting yesterday XD
All that combined, i think it's safe to say im having a pretty shit half term so far -___- ah well, could be worse couldn't it? ^___^ I'm not planning on going emo over it ^3^
On a totally un-related note - 'Take That - Patience' and 'A Perfect Circle - Sleeping beauty' <3 <3 <3 Songs of the moment. I've been listening to them on repeat for days XD
My mom is seriously considering buying me this horse:
Isn't she gorgeous? Her name's Maisie and she lives at the farm that i work at. Mum says her and dad will discuss it later *squeel!* i really hope i can get her, she's such a nice mare. And if i can't me and [Lexi. Short and Sweet!] are gonna go halves on mimi and get her as a breaking in and selling on project. I'm all excited now X3
And i've just realised i typed mom instead of mum o.O damned americans infecting my brain XD gotta love them *hugs a random american person* <.< >.> yeah, im fine ^___^'
Written about Saturday 2007-02-17
Written: (6433 days ago)
Ok, i'm being a diary whore, but this had me in absolute fits for half an hour:
....YES i'm easily amused XD
Me Alex
XD ...Ok, it made me laugh XD
Not many people will get this actually.. infact, i think only alex will XD
EEEEEEEEEEEEK!
Naruto Shippuden is out *flails* i totally forgot about it.. thank god for youtube XD
Everyone's so cool! Sai animated *faints* ...They didn't show Neji though, so i grumbled a bit..
BUT OMG DEIDEI!! I seriously screamed when i saw him X3 His voice is just so KAWAII!!! It's perfect *squee!!!* ..I'm gonna have to go and watch it again now X3
Oh, and Sasuke is still a total prat. A slightly cooler prat, but still a prat. I won't forgive his prattyness until he decides that killing Itachi isn't his life ambition. And let's face it, that's not going to happen. Down with Sasuke, long live Itachiiiiiiiii
Weasles own
Hmm, Valentines day wasn't too bad to be honest. I had a good day anyway XD Didn't get any cards or presents, which is good. I only would have eaten them if i'd gotten anything XD My boyfriend wasn't there all day either, which meant i could love everyone for a change XD I had to deal with an upset friend at one point, but someone's always going to get upset on valentines day..
I also went to see Of Mice and Men (the play) tonight at Theatre Clwyd, and that was really good XD Me and [Lexi. Short and Sweet!] were a bit peeved though, coz the guy who was playing Curly looked really cool in his photo, and then he came on and it was like 'huh?!?' lol, but all went well and we had fun so yeaaaaaah.
That's all i have to say i think..
Happy V-Day all ^3^
AWWW!! Every time i watch big fat quiz of the year i just love Noel and Russell more X3
"Farpack was a government agency.."
Russell: "It was a type of butter. It had a man on it what could play the trumpet."
X3
"Ask him any yes or no question you like."
Noel: "Do you like ice cream?"
X3 X3
I love them! <3333333 XD
i think i'm having one of those days today..
Like, i was just walking out of my room and i reached out to turn off my light (i've got a dimmer). I tripped as i was doing so, and as i was falling, i was wondering why the room was going dark. Despite the fact that i'd just reached out to turn the light off and i was aware that i was turning the light off. Duh.
FFS, my family XD It's like living with.. i don't know, but GAH.
Dad: That was my mum on the phone.. she might be coming up to visit again in half term.
Me: Cool.
Mum: Who was that?
Dad: MY MUM. I just told you that 2 seconds ago! Fucking deaf old bat..
Mum: What? Who was that on the phone?
Dad: I just fucking told you!!!
Mum: Well i didn't hear!
Dad: *yelling at the top of his voice* MY!!!!!!!!! MOTHER!!!!!!!!
Dog: *Howls*
Mum: God's sake, no need to shout!
Me: *eats fish, tries to ignore parents*
...That just seems like somthing that would happen on TV.. But it is actually a fairly normal thing to happen in my house >.<
Ok, i'm being a diary whore, but i forgot something..
http://youtube
Watch it.
Bill Bailey = God
That is all.
Ahh, new hair.. I was a little nervous when i sat down in the chair at Deb's today.. Deb has been our families hairdresser for YEARS. She was the one who cut off all my dad's long hair 20 years ago 0__0 So yeah, she's practically part of the family. And because of this, she does whatever she wants with my hair XD She uses me as an experiments dummy.. So today when i went in the hairdressers, i had no idea what i'd be coming out with. Thankfully, i was pleasently surprised. Deb did a great job, as always, and didn't cut in a full fringe XD
*ish happy*
Reet, off to Azerbaijan! xx
It didn't stop snowing for hours last night O__O It was obviously very heavy as it's crushed the big bush in my back garden XD It's all melting now though, you can just hear 'drip drip drip SPLOOSH! drip drip' ...The sploosh is when a big lump falls off a tree or something...i hope it's bloody freezing again tonight, and it snows again. Then they may have to close the school on monday, which would be a bit good, wouldn't it XD I'm having my hair cut today, and i don't want to.. Well, i do but i don't... I want it cut because i'm beginning to look like a hobo.. But i don't especially want to walk all the way to the hairdressers (can't drive, roads too crapped up) *sigh* problems problems.. Can't decide what style i want either XD Debbie wants to cut a full fringe back in, but no. No no no. I do NOT suit fringes, so i refuse to have a full fringe cut in no matter what they say. I'mm off to Azerbaijan now to look for some hair styles :p toodles xx
Blaaaaaah...
I'm supposed to be painting Russell Brand for a dear friend of mine.. But i'm having one of those moments where you just go: "*looks at painting*.....
So instead, i'm going to finish a gift art i'm doing for another dear friend of mine XD She's not aware that she's getting it yet, so i hope she's pleasantly surprised XD
Then i shall finish Russell when i feel more patient.. His hair is a total bitch you know, and stubble is a total ass when you're CGing realistically.
Thank you, goodnight :p
Interesting day today.. School closed at 2:30 again, which in my opinion was pretty crap.. what is the point in closing an hour earlier than normal?
So me, rob and walker went and sat in the drama studio waiting for my bus (they were both going into mold, but apparently they wanted to keep me company o.O) Some little chav girls from like year 8 started calling us goths and throwing hula hoops at us, which i found insanely funny. I made walker eat them XD (the hula hoops) then they started to play a sort of weird 'chicken' like game, to see who could get closest and insult us. So me and rob were in stitches over that. Then we got bored so rob gave me a lift home.. We were going to run round in fields, but decided it was too cold, so he gave me a hat instead o.O strange child..
So all in all, a pretty good (if weird) day XD
Well, it did snow.. but school's still open! What's the point in that? WHAT?! Why bother snowing if the school isn't going to close because of it.. Jeez.. Now we have to go and sit in a FREEZING COLD school and be bored to death, instead of just sitting in a school and being bored to death... bah..
Uuuh, yeah.. Fellow Naruto reading people who have not yet read chapter 341 (it's only out in RAW) do not read on! There are spoilers and me rambling on about Kuzu for no good reason other than that.. wait, i was just going to put a spoiler in the spoiler warning.. that would be stupid.. Bugger it i'm rambling again *shuts up and goes to bed*
zomg, 'Kuzu has hair :O
Ok, that sounds random and crap.. but i wasn't expecting him to have hair XD I don't know why.. But not only does he have hair, it's a kind of schloomfy emo style X3 He's all smexy ^3^
Pity he's dead... Bummed that 'Kuzu and Hidan had to die so soon.. they were made of awesome ;__;
So Kuzu got 'sploded by naruto.. and Hidan got 'sploded by shika.. not very creative is it?? Pfft, i don't think Kuzu is dead.. He's just lying on the floor looking a bit pathetic XD ..His eyes are open.. that makes him alive <_< >_> ..Come on, they can't reveal him to be so *aww* and then kill him, can they!? They? Who the feck is 'they'? XD I mean Kishi of course -_-'
I'm rambling now..
But he CAN'T kill them both off so soon, dammit..
This was meant to be a short diary entry, just pointing out that Kuzu has hair.. then i was going to install the printer AGAIN and see if it wants to print off my essay this time.. -__-
I'm just going to shut up now..
Aah, there are spoilers.. should put some kind of warning.. done, bed now. Night xx
I MET RALPH THE GERMAN DRUMMER!
HE'S AWESOME X3