*grumbles* Bloody english lit homework...

OMFG WE'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE!!!

Yes, you may have noticed that i'm in a much better mood tonight. Sunday night blues are a bummer.

I'm doing the bloody full stop enter key thing again. I went through a phase where all my diary entries were like this.

I just watched Star Trek - Nemesis... Now i'm rooting out all our ancient Star Trek vids and watching them all. When i say ancient, i mean like the very first series up to the most recent series. My mum is a Star Trek nut, and i'm slowly following in her footsteps >___<

Nerd.

I'll be speaking Klingon next ¬___¬;;

Mutti got me a new top today. She's been buying me alot of clothes recently. She must want something.

I have a bottle that looks like a rum bottle but it's actually a glass water bottle. We fooled Walker that it was rum.

I love my friends ^___^

I didn't get Paul the bus driver today, which upset me greatly.

School bus tomorrow.

Bah.

That's the end of this weirdness.

Goodnight my dears! xXxXx

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*grumbles* Bloody english lit homework...

Ok, i had a nap before and i feel a little better now i guess, although my stomach is hurting like hell... I think i was just really tired before, and that's understandable. I only just realised how little sleep i've been getting recently... I'll go to bed at about 1am but not get to sleep till 3am... Then i'll wake up at least twice every hour for no reason... I'm getting about 3 hours sleep a night, and it's not good sleep... Meh. I dunno what's causing it, but whatever. Probably stress of some sort, i have no idea. I've done this before though... I'll survive off very little sleep and lots of coffee, food and alcohol... Then i'll realise that i've put on weight and reverse the process. Lots of sleep and very little food *sigh* i don't know why my brain can't just work normally like a normal persons brain XD

I feel so sick now though... bleh. *sigh* i should go to bed, but i feel like... I don't know what i feel like. Have you ever had that feeling where you know you want to say something important but you don't know what it is? Like there's something niggling in the back of your mind... But you can't quite figure out what it is. It's so irritating. I was just talking to Em on msn and she's got this horrible ability to make me really think about life. Normally i'm the kind of person who tries to avoid thinking about it, because if you think about it you realise how monotonous and depressing life actually is. But whenever i talk to her the conversation either goes into insanity, or into a really deep and phylosophical debate. And now i'm sitting here wondering why the hell i'm sitting here. Where am i going? What am i doing? Why do i bother getting up every day, and going to school, and working for an education that's going to be lost when i die anyway? Why do i strive for things, and hope for things, and set myself goals that i know i'll never achieve? I have dreams, but i already know the difference between dreams and reality... At the moment i just kinda feel like a spectator on my own life... I want to yell at myself 'Hey, you, stupid! You're doing it wrong!' but i just can't... I genuinely feel like i'm on a set path and there's bugger all i can do to change it... I have no motivation to change it... I'm the most pessimistic person in the world. My theory on life is that we're all going to die so why bother making the effort to live life 'to the fullest'. What's the point of it all in the end? We can strive and struggle to succeed till the end of time, but at the end of the day we're going to die and leave everything we've achieved behind us anyway. Is that the point of it all? To leave a mark on this world? To make sure that people remember you? Does that even matter?! You'll be dead, who gives a damn who remembers you and who doesn't?! It makes no bloody difference if 10000 people remember you or 1 lone person... Eventually everyone will forget. Because the people who remembered you will die. So what is the point? If you can survive on the bare minimum, why bother striving for more than that? *sigh* The world just seems like such a madhouse... No one knows why we're here, no one cares... We just make our own stories. Well this is my one. How exciting it is. Born, live, die. Exactly the same as everyone elses. In 100 years time no one will have any idea who i am. So why bother.

...Sorry, that was incredibly depressing. Tiredness does that too me. I guess that was the thing that was niggling in the back of my mind. Oh well, at least i got it off my chest. Time to go and try and get some sleep. Gotta beat this pattern i've got myself into or i'm going to end up doing this for the rest of my life... Bah. Night everyone, sorry if i've caused any depression or feelings of hopelessness with that rant. Not intentional. Those are just my views. You can ignore them. Nighty xxx

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Bah. I'm not in the best of moods today... Last night i was bummed cuz my parents were going out and i had to babysit my brother instead of going to Amy's party, which was really annoying.. and said brother was being a little pain in the ass. Then Josh appeared and they were being pain in the asses together, and i was getting really pissed off with them... I put Sleepy Hollow on and they shut up for a while watching that... Then Ethan got a nose bleed and i had to sit with him while he bled everywhere (which was actually quite funny) but Josh was no help at all and just sat there watching TV... I was like 'wtf, you could at least give me a hand here...' Seriously. My brother was bleeding everywhere and i was trying to clean him up and keep grabbing more clean tissue and keep his face over the damn sink so he didn't bleed everywhere and stop him from passing out which he nearly did (he doesn't like blood and there was ALOT of it).. and Josh didn't even offer to help ¬___¬ ...But anyway, the bleeding stopped eventually and we watched the end of the film, but then i wanted to watch Deathwatch (horror not really suitable for a 9 year old). Ethan refused to go to bed and was being really awkward going "I'm not going to bed until mum and dad get home" and once again Josh was not helping the situation at all. I was getting seriously annoyed by this point but... bah. Nothing gets in the way of me and my films, so i put Deathwatch on anyway and told Ethan if he couldn't sleep because he was scared of the film then it was his own fault for not going to bed when i told him to. M + D eventually came in at 12:30 ish, and Ethan finally went to bed, followed closely by parents. I was like 'Hooray! Now i can watch the end of the film in peace!' but no such luck.. Josh was annoying the hell out of me and i couldn't watch the damn film for having to constantly hit him to get him to back the hell off... Grrrr... I was so tempted to just kick him out and tell him to bloody well walk home... He wouldn't let me sleep either, kept me up till 3am complaining that he was too hot or too cold or that his fucking knees were hurting... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

So yeah, basically i just had a bad night last night... Got woke up at 8 by mutti and spent the whole day grumbling and being moody XD I'm now really tired and i feel ill... So if i snap at anyone i'm sorry, blame lack of sleep and annoyance that i could have been at a party having fun last night instead of being annoyed by my brother and my boyfriend ¬____¬ grrrr....

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Wheeee! I've been playing videogames with my brother for the last 2 hours XD it's the one thing that we can do together for hours on end without arguing XD We've found a connection!!! OK, those people out there reading this who haven't played Bloody Roar (3 or 4) will not get any of the following rant, so feel free to skip ahead to the next bit if you wish. Anyway. Yeah, on Careers mode on BR4 you can steal other characters attacks. I was playing as my Xion (who owns all) and i fought Uranus (the demented woman) about 6 times in a row and stole a bunch of her attacks. Now she's very... Feminine in her attacking style, so we stuck all her attacks onto Xion. AND OMG. He looks so effing gay now it's not even funny! Ok, it is, it's hilarious, but whatever. The divvit. The attacks look normal on Uranus, but when you see them on a guy it's just hilarious XD So much butt wiggling and hand flapping and hip thrusting. So yeah we turned him into a complete fag-end (new insult created by me while screaming at the PS2 while i was fighting Nagi XD) Then i went on arcade with him and perfected Ryoho in dragon form (which is really hard to do! *proud*) so i was chuffed... Then mum walked in and told Ethan to go to bed and at that moment Uranus did this attack and shouted "GET LOST!!!".. So me and Ethan pretty much wet ourselves, and then kept yelling "Get lost" at mum in really posh english accents XD aaah good times.

Aaaanyway. Drifting away from the subject of videogames... Erm. I'm a little bit pissed off because tomorrow is Amy-mofo's party, and i can't go because i'm babysitting my brother ¬___¬ kinda annoying. I don't mind too much though, i can play videogames. Josh is apparently coming over, but i'm still going to sit and play videogames all day whether he's there or not XD I <3 Bloody Roar so much. If i had a choice in the matter i'd just sit and play it 24/7 XD Oh bum, i'm going back onto the videogame thing... Oh well... Grant says i'm cool cuz i'm a female gamer, so it's a good thing as far as i'm concerned XD

I don't really have anything else useful to say. I'm totally nackered now so i think i might get a reasonably early night for once in my life XD toodles!

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Messages replied to! (Y)

I'm at [Lexi. Short and Sweet!]'s at this moment in time... Gah. I can't type with her keyboard, it sucks balls >___< Well no, it doesn't it's just different from mine and really noisy XD

We went for a walk last night.. At like 12.. got back at somewhere around 1:30am.. we walked all the way to mold in record time! And nicked a reflective bollard on the way (it was our weapon <_< >_> ) ...in other words, we got a bit 'merry' (aka, drunk).

I have nothing else to report at this moment. My mother is very late picking me up. Wazzock.

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Right. Time to reply to all the messages that have accumulated over the last few weeks... i fail at life so much. Seriously. I should be locked up. In future i must remember to reply to messages as soon as i get them or they'll just build up and build up until i'm drowning in them... Gawd...

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Afgnroewafneowiangroejafnag O_____O

PEIN WAS A LITTLE EMO!!!!!! Then he went floompf, and lots of piercings, and the big hair!!!! WTF!!!!

OAO

*gone*

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Omg. On the bus:

Annoying little kid: Do you worship the devil?
Me: *trying to listen to music* wtf?
Kid: Do you?
Me: No i don't.
Kid: What about satan?
Me:... They're the same thing douchebag...
Kid: ...I worship Lucifer.
Me: Really. How wonderful for you. *puts earphones back in*
Kid: You must believe in God then.
Me: Well so must you, if you worship Lucifer.
Kid: LOL no God doesn't exist.
Me: ...Lucifer is part of God's story dumbfuck.. You can't believe in one and not the other. Your logic is flawed now leave me alone.
Kid: *sulks off*

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! I just hate these annoying little kids who think they worship the 'devil' and 'lucifer' and whatever other stupid names there are for him without actually knowing what the hell they're talking about! Lucifer was one of God's fallen angels, therefore to worship him, you must believe that God exists! Otherwise Lucifer is just a faceless entity with no story or usefulness other than to make little children sound cool because they know what a freaking pentagram looks like! And the pentagram has FECK ALL to do with devil worship and is actually a peaceful Pagan and Wiccan elemental symbol that is about as evil as a dead haddock! GRRR! I just wish these little pillocks would get their facts right before they start rambling on about how they worship the devil.. True 'Satan' worship is basically a form of reverse-christianity... While Christians worship God, Satanists worship Lucifer (aka: Satan). They believe in (and probably hate) the existance of God. They do not sit in circles chanting nonsense and trying to summon abyssal demons. I am by no means saying that i'm a satanist OR a Christian, i'm just saying that these kids deserve to be brutally murdered. With a bible, just for the irony. I'm done now.

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Stole this! It amused me X3


1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car),
Gizmo Astra (Mutti's car, not mine)

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie),
Half Baked Blueberry (ROFL XD)


3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
R-Joh

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal),
Purple Snake (lol XD)


5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Lily St.Asaph (I don't have a middle name, so i'm using the name i almost had as my first name XD)

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Sonre (awesome!)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The" + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink),
The Green Jagermeister (ROFL!!!)


8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers),
Pete Donald (lol!)


9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Charlie Toffee (Okaaaay then XD)


10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother's & father's middle names ),
Julie William (mum doesn't have a middle name, so i used her first..)


11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher's last name, a major city that starts with the same letter),
Gregory Glasgow (*snort* that sounds retarded XD)


12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower).
Summer Foxglove (that's so cool XD)


13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you're wearing right now + "ie" or "y")
Cherry Socksy (rofl XD)


14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree),
Coffee Willow (lol XD)


15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: ("The" + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + "Tour"),
The Drawing Storm Tour (lol, wtf!)

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If you love Neil off The Young Ones, you HAVE to watch that video.

If you don't love Neil off The Young Ones, you HAVE to watch that video.

If you don't even know who Neil is... You still HAVE to watch that video.

Neil = <3

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=3

Aloha! Well, i be a bit bleh today after the party but.. I can't really be bothered talking about it now... Ok, i can't actually remember all that much of it to be completely honest XD We got there, started drinking, went for a walk, played chicken, band played, i hurt neck, lots of people, socialising, Nathan o_______O, bed... and that's pretty much it... Then i woke up in the morning and started drinking rum... Went to Gemma's with Josh, Toni and Neil appeared, then Terry materialized... So we had a mini-piss up there and made a shit mix that for some unknown reason turned green... Whatever... Aaaanyway. I left my sleeping bag at Gemma's. What a retard. Oh well, it's not actually like i need it for anything. Bah.

Now, on to today.. or this evening to be more precise. I went to Cheshire Oaks with my mutti. We went to Borders, which is what i imagine heaven will be like. Lots of books, lots of coffee and a whole section dedicated to manga and graphic novels X3 I nearly died when mum offered to buy me something, then i was completely torn between books 1 + 2 of Death Note and books 1, 2 + 3 of Gravitation... Until i spotted the complete Kingdom Hearts series box set. I literally squeeled and threw myself at the shelf. A nearby attendant gave me a look, so i calmed down. So yes, i now have the Kingdom Hearts box set, because i'm sad like that X3 anyway... Then we went to the cinema, where i met Laura who i remember talking to last night at the party.. We had a conversation about gay firemen, which was very amusing XD Me and my mum went to see 1408 which was.. Scary. It was one of those films that just totally messes with your brain. Really good film, i highly reccomend it (especially since it's based on a Stephen King novel!!!) Yeeees.. what else did i want to say? Apart from that i completely hate being an English Lit sudent XD it makes me read into absolutely everything.. I'm constantly looking for plot holes, hidden things that you're not supposed to notice and probably aren't even there anyway XD Damn you lit teacher.. damn you... Ah yes, my favourite line from the whole movie:

Manager: He drowned in his chicken soup.
Mike: That... That's hard to do. How did he do that?

XD it was just the way he said 'how did he do that?' that had me in stitches.. aah, you have to see the film, and you probably won't get why i find it so funny anyway... One last quote that is truer than true, then i'm going to bed.

Manager: Do you drink?
Mike: Of course. I just told you i'm a writer.

*nods* all writers are alcoholics. It's true. Now, bed time ^____^ Bai!

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Y'arr, tomorrow be talk like a pirate day me hearties! Get in the spirit of things and yell "y'arr" at everyone you see tomorrow! I'm going into school dressed as a pirate, as are a bunch of my friends! We're going to have a crazy day of running around dressed like pirates and yelling y'arr at everyone who comes near us XD I'm fully aware that i'm going to get lots of strange looks and people asking my 'why the fuck are you dressed like a pirate' and then 'omg'ing when i tell them that it's talk like a pirate day.. but fuck them, if they can't get in the spirit of things, then they're not worth my time! XD I'm really looking forward to it actually.. i kinda look like i just rolled out of POTC, rolled through a low budget pirate movie, then rolled into the modern day. A weird mix of cool, cheap and unrealistic all create the look of Captain Elanor Scarr (more commonly known as Wench Y'arr). And it's going to be fun. And i have alcohol XD It's cider, not rum, but it's close enough! XD

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Ffs, who knew a tongue could bleed so much o_O about 20 minutes ago i was just sitting at the computer minding my own business, when it occured to me that there was way more liquid in my mouth than there should have been and that it tasted funny. I swallowed it and i was like 'wtf, blood???' so naturally wandered to the bathroom and looked in the mirror to inspect where the blood was coming from.. and all this blood just suddenly started pouring out of my mouth and all over everywhere. I had no idea what was going on so i just stuck my head under the cold tap and stayed there for a while with my mouth open XD The bleeding slowed eventually and i could see that it was my tongue, but it was bleeding for no adequately explored reason, and it just started for no reason. I still can't see a cut or anything, it just looks like a massive graze or something o_O totally weird. But so much blood from such a little space!! XD It was really funny.. and it gives me an excuse to eat lots of ice, which i'm currently failing at cuz i'm chucking it all over the floor... i don't really have anything useful to say now, so i'm going to watch AMV Hell ^___^ toodles!

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I am so booooooooored... There is seriously NOTHING to do in this house.. I've finished all the school work i have to do (what ho?! Beki doing school work?! NEVA!!!!) and i basically can't find anything else useful to do with my time.. I'm half tempted to re-install the sims 2 and play on that for a few hours, but i know i'll get hooked and be up on it till 4am like i used to XD ..Plus re-installing it would mean finding the case and the instruction book ¬___¬ why do they put the stupid serial number on the stupid instruction book where i wont be able to find the stupid thing?!!? >__< they should put it on the actual disc, then i'd have no problems finding it.. Plus plus, if i re-install it then i have to re-download ALL the hacks and mods and extras i had... which is like... a phenominal amount. The game i played was NOTHING like the base game at all XD I had my Naruto world and my medieval world and my 'OMGWTFBBQ' world, where all the freaks and weirdos went.. And everything was all mixed up and retarded because i installed so many hacks.. The rain one amused me the most.. I had a weather hack installed and it randomly decided to rain for something like 48 days.. And there was a power cut EVERY BLOODY DAY. It was funny though XD ..Aaah, why am i ranting about the sims, its making me want to bloody play it... But i caaaan't, because i have no idea where the stupid instruction book is... omfg, i just found Dogz5!!! I forgot i even had that XD XD But once again, no instruction book, and thus no serial number, and thus no installing.. bah.. Rofl, i found Dogwaffle too.. Aaaah, i haven't been on that for yonks.. I've got LOTR, House of the Dead... Some horse riding game.. gawd, i have a whole bunch of games that i've never even bothered to install XD Omfg, there's so much crap in this room, it's no wonder i can't bloody find anything... I'm going to sort through it all and look for TS2 book thingy so i can install it again... Sleepless night here i come XD

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Wheee, i have a new printer X3 it's all shiny and black and smexy! It needs a shiny black and smexyful name now... Gaaaaah, i can't think of one. What's shiny, black and smexy? Ummm... I'll get back to you on that one...

Anyway. My printer is boring. And i have to be quick because i have psychology work to do. What did i want to talk about? Oh yes! I went into Chester with my mum and my brother today. My brother had swimming so we dumped him at the leisure center and me and my mum bogged into town. I got a new bandana ^__^ it's pink! I'm starting a bandana and weird hat collection. I was talking to my mum about it. Because my favourite bandana in my collection is the one she gave me, which is like 30-odd years old, and has been to Woodstock and all sorts of concerts and gigs (Bob Dylan and all XD). So i want to get loads of bandanas and hats and hand them down to my son/daughter one day. It'll be like "These ones have been to Bloodstock 6 times. This one got beer poured on it by an irishman at Download 2013. This one's been to Germany 4 times..." etc etc. So yes, that's my plan for life XD Anyway... When we got back to the swimming baths, we discovered that there was a big basketball thing on! I started talking to one of the guys on the basketball team (James) and i ended up meeting the whole team while mutti wandered off in search of my AWOL brother XD It was so scary thoug, because i'm only quite small and all the basketball guys were well over 6'2". There was this black guy from America who was yaddering on in street slang and all the others were agreeing with him and i was like "Wtf, what are you even saying?" XD it was so funny. I'm not in the loop when it comes to basketball slang <_< >_> I can't even see the loop...
So yeah, after i met a bunch of basketballers, we came home... And we just watched LOTR return of the king, which is the most amazing movie ever. Well, one of the most amazing. Me and my brother were pissing ourselves at the end though, over something that wasn't funny at all.

Ethan: It shouldn't be called Lord of the Rings. It should be called Eyebrows Occasion.
Me: Wtf, why?!
Ethan: Because Frodo does this all the way through whenever anything happens *wiggles eyebrows manically*
Me: LOL
Mum: Oh, look at that lovely round house.
Me + Ethan: *ROFL* (literally XD)

Ok, it wasn't really that funny, but i thought it was at the time 8B

Anyway.. I don't think i had anything else useful to say.. so yeah, i'm going to try and install this printer, and then get my psychology thing finished and my english printed off.. then i can go to bed! BAI!

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I have discovered something very important today. People on DA like boobage and nakedness. They also like Naruto, KH or Harry Potter slash. This is what you have to do to gain popularity over there. Seriously. Coming up with complex and original characters is easy, GOD. But drawing a picture of someone elses characters making out with eachother takes, like, SO much more talent!!! (NOTE: extreme sarcasm.) ..You know what would be the ultimate popularity gainer? A big ass KH/Naruto/HP crossover, featuring all the female characters running round naked with boobs 10 times the size of their boobs however they were originally drawn and the sudden sprouting of cat ears and tails, all the male characters naked and having a big orgy in the centre of the picture, then a few anthros and cute little kittens dotted around the edges just to satisfy those beastiality lovers. THAT would instantly get you 1000000 page views. People are so shallow *shakes head*

I'm going to bed now.

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Bah. I'm bored and there's no one on msn... I have nothing to doooo!!! I'm going to put together a sketch dump since i have alot of sketches to dump... Then i will dump them up on DA XD That is all. BAI!!!

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I've just realised that i'm using my art project (the AO1 for Mr. T anyway..) as an excuse to take a stab at society XD Oh dear... I cant see Mr. T looking at it, rolling his eyes and walking away XD XD Ah well, it's not my fault i hate society today and want to stab at it in whatever way i can... This time using squirrels and collection plates. Yes.

Ummm... I need to reply to messages at some point <_< >_> i'm so lazy... i'll do it eventually, when i can be bothered...

That's it really...

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