[Beki in Wonderland]'s diary

987370  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-28
Written: (6237 days ago)
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According to my mother i've become a petrol head ¬____¬ just because i'm overly obsessed with cars at the moment <_< >_> It's because i'm so psyched about going to the MPH car show X3 I totally can't wait, it's gonna be so awesome :p GYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!! *runs in a circle* If there's a Noble M15 in the showroom i'm going to demand that they let me sit in it. My life will be complete if they'll let me sit in a Noble X3 Actaully no, sitting in a Lamborghini Gallardo would make my life at the moment. It's my new favourite car.. Sort of.. ARGH!! I'm torn between the Merc SLR, Noble M15, Lamborghini Gallardo or Aston Martin DB9!!!! >____< AND WHY AM I EVEN TALKING ABOUT IT IN HERE?!?! Who actually cares which car i think is the best?! XD XD XD ok, shut up now... I've decided that the Lamborghini is my favourite simply because it's the kind of car that turns you mentally into an 11 year old boy the minute you look at it. It's just that cool. Yeah.

STOP TALKING ABOUT BLOODY CARS WOMAN!!!!!! *shot*

What was i going to say? Ah yes, i need to go on msn at some point tonight so i can discuss the matter of this halloween doodad with Alex... And... That's it for my plans for this evening <_< >_> ..Hairdressers tomorrow.. No idea what i'm going to get... Bah. I don't actually care, as long as it's out of my face. Then i have halloween, chester and MPH to look forward too (Y) this is gonna be a good half term methinks!

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987261  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-28
Written: (6237 days ago)
Next in thread: 987309

Blaaah. Parents and the boy are out today so i get the house to myself for a few hours. I'm supposed to be cleaning my room, so naturally i'm procrastinating like hell and coming on here to talk about it. Jolly good then. Mum has given me the whole 'we're going to the cinema tonight and if you're room's not done you're not coming' lecture. What she doesn't know is that i wasn't planning on going to the cinema with them anyway XD The new series of Top Gear starts tonight and i'll be damned if i'm missing it for the cinema!!! So yeah, useless threat mum XD

I will go and do my room soon... I have nothing better to do... Well i do... I had a complete nervy spazz last night! I decided that all the unfinished stories and one shots hidden away on my hard drive needed to go. I mean, i'm never going to finish any of them. None of them have a plot, i have no idea where any of them are going, and thanks to Alex and Danny most of them have turned extremely gay in the space of about 2 chapters XD XD SO. I got rid of them all. Every single one. Naturally i couldn't delete them, i'm awfully sentimental about my characters, so i bunged them all into a 'This is what happens when you don't plan the plot' folder, zipped it and tucked it away in a dark corner where i never have to look at it again. So i currently have alot of moody characters sitting on the shelf wishing i was capable of coming up with a decent plot.

BUT LO!!! I actually have. For once in my life, i've come up with a story that has a plot line. Not half a plot line, not a third of a plot line, THE WHOLE THING. It has a beginning, middle and end, and it's actually fairly good if i do say so myself. And it's not just planned in my head. I've planned it on paper. I have notes, i have a vague plotline written over 3 pages, i have character information and backstories to fill in any and all plotholes. I'm on a roll!!! ...Now i just have to start writing the bastard thing <_< >_>
While on the subject of writing... Me and Em decided to scrap Switch 24, which was very upsetting for me as i happened to love the characters! We decided the plot was way too fuzzy and all over the place, and that we were better off just leaving it to rot ;__; RIP S24, you shall be missed XD ...Edit:: S24... does that sound like a type of car to anyone else?? o_O

Ok, enough about all that writing malarky.. Bloody hell that turned into a rant and a half... I do apologise to all those people who have no interest whatsoever in my writing. Which is pretty much everyone XD ...You know what? I had a dream last night that i had a bath in a load of melted white chocolate. Very good for the skin i'm sure <_< >_>

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987154  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-10-27
Written: (6238 days ago)
Next in thread: 987160

Xehanort...

Xehanort - X = Rent-a-Ho

*dies laughing* XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD

My life is now complete.

Mansex, Bigrax and Rent-a-Ho.

Someone kill me now. I haven't laughed so much in ages, and that is a very very sad thing.

In other news... I've been playing KHII for 5 hours straight. I'm officially addicted.

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986881  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-10-26
Written: (6239 days ago)

Poll is now up, vote on it even if you don't like cars XD

In other news, I'm going to the MPH car show on November 8th (Y) i'm totally wired about it, it's gonna be so awesome X3 Hosted by Jeremy, James and Hammond of course!! AAAAAARGH!!! I've become bloody car obsessed >___<

...I'm going now, Top Gear is on >___<

986854  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-10-26
Written: (6239 days ago)

Ok... My hair is looking a little less grey now XD Not much though o___O Oh well, if it does end up grey i'll just dye it again XD I'm going to the hairdressers on monday... My original plan was to get a whole new style, since i'll have a whole new colour.. But Em pointed out that if i get my old style and go blonde, i would look like Mello from Death Note XD XD I thought that was awesome, so i'm tempted to get my full fringe cut back in and be a permanent Mello cosplayer XD

Aaaanyway... Enough about my hair... Erm... What was the other thing i wanted to say?? Oh yes, i'm having an argument with James at the moment, about cars. Sad i know. I make a new friend and instantly start arguing about bloody cars of all things. Anyway. The argument goes thusly: Which is a better car, the Noble M15 or the earlier M12. James thinks the M12 is better (boys and their bloody boy racer cars with their big spoilers and loud engines ¬___¬) i perfer the M15. I want people to join my side!!! The M15 is just way more sophisticated looking, and according to reviews drives better! It's just a better car ¬____¬ So if you're a car person and have any idea what i'm talking about, help me out here XD I might change my poll actually.. Yes, i will, i'm going to prove James wrong!!!

Ok, i'm off to play Kingdom Hearts now. Its pretty much all i'll be doing this holiday XD

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986776  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-10-26
Written: (6239 days ago)

I'M GOING GREY!!!!!!! FECKING GREY!!!!! WTF?!?!?! Seriously, i've been stripping the colour out of my hair (which is a slow and boring process) and the hair underneath is bloody grey!!! Why?! ...How many times have i dyed my hair?? I was white blonde.. Then i dyed it sort of golden blonde because i was sick of people asking me why i had white hair... Then i went red for no reason.. Then goldy blonde again.. Then chocolate brown... Then i went completely jet black.. Then brown again.. Then purple... Finally bright pink... Now i'm stripping the pink out and the hair underneath is grey! What happened?!? Is this because i've dyed it too much?? XD XD omg, grey hair... Wow...

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985914  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-10-23
Written: (6242 days ago)

Omg, i swear i just died and went to heaven. There's a new TV channel thing on Freeview (which is all i have) called Dave, and it has ALL my favourite programmes on from 8 until God only knows when! I was up till 1am last night watching TV XD Top Gear, Red Dwarf, Never Mind the Buzzcocks, QI, Have i got News for You and Whose Line is it Anyway!!!! X3 It's so awesome!!! I have NEVER spent so long sat infront of the TV as i did last night XD 5 hours solid o___O i feel fat and lazy XD

Omg, ok, if you don't watch top gear and have no interest whatsoever in cars or a bunch of guys going on a disaster of a caravan holiday, don't bother reading this bit. But Top Gear tonight was SO EFFING FUNNY XD seriously, me and my dad were in absolute stitches XD They decided to go on a caravan holiday to see what the appeal of it was... and it was quite possibly the funniest thing i've ever seen XD they got cautioned by the police for trying to U-turn on a country road, and Jeremy and Hammond ran away and hid in a bush and let the police have a go at James XD XD When they got to the caravan site James ran over someone elses tent and broke all the poles while trying to park the caravan! Then when they went to bed:

Jeremy: Oh yes, this is brilliant...
James: I like it. It's romantic.
Hammond: Don't say things like that, i'm sleeping in the same bed as you!!!!!

XD XD XD lololol! And then finally Jeremy set fire to the caravan! And while Hammond tried to put it out he set fire to the caravan and tent next to it (coincidentally it was the tent that James broke XD).. They ended up going home with a burnt out caravan XD so funny... Yes, ooh! And the stig drove an F1 car on an inside straight track and it only managed to do 10mph more than a Ford Fiesta saloon!!! WTF!!!!! XD XD ...Yeah, i find it funny even if no one else does <_< >_> i like cars!!!

Ok, enough about cars and lunatic people now... I don't really have anything more interesting to say!!! Story of my life... Get up, grumble, go to school, work, be lazy, lunch, work, town, home, computer, dinner, top gear, homework (lol), other TV programmes until 1am onwards, bed...get up, grumble, go to school, work, be lazy etc etc etc... Basically i'm a very sad individual. Who likes cars, being lazy, eating, watching TV, hanging round in town with friends, and sleeping... Typical student then XD Actually, that's typical for a male student o___O I don't get it, i should definately be a guy XD XD

Bah, i'm done rambling now. Off to watch TV again XD

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985547  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-10-22
Written: (6243 days ago)

*sniffles* I miss Alex!

Art lessons just aren't the same without her! I ACTUALLY DID WORK TODAY!!!!! =O It's shocking!! I coloured a squirrel XD Not an actual squirrel, a drawing of a squirrel o__O although now i really want to colour in a squirrel. Lololol...
Me and Amz went up to the shop at dinner and i bought 'Lolly in a Tube' which shortens (kinda obscurely) into Lube XD XD XD rofl!! I found that so funny. We were lubing everything!!!
I'm home early because i have two free lessons last on a monday (Y) yaaay, an extra hour to do bugger all! Actually, no, i'm going to go and do work... I need to wooooork <_< >_> and i owe people drawings and stuff on DA so blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Josh was trying to get on my bus and come over my house, but i wouldn't let him XD I like this hour that i get all to myself, it's peaceful, i don't want him over here being loud and annoying and getting in my way ¬____¬
I had a really bad feeling about today but nothing bad has happened yet, so maybe i was just being paranoid...
The pink is starting to come out of my hair! I see blonde X3
Yeah, that's all i have to say...

Except, you know what is really nice that i just discovered on a whim??? Feta cheese wrapped in a basil leaf! It really is nice! I was just in the kitchen like "what can i put on this feta cheese to make it more interesting?" and i spotted the basil and decided to try it, and it's really nice! w00t, i'm going to be a chef one day <_< >_> Yeah...

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985402  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-21
Written: (6244 days ago)

I'M A HORRIBLE PERSON!!


and i'm bloody proud of it i'll have you know \m/


1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [x]
6. Had sex. [x]
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. []
10. Done drugs. [x] (accidentally!)
TOTAL SO FAR: 9

1. Taken painkillers. [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. [x] (my dad's painkillers <_< >_>)
3. Lied to your parents. [x] (who hasn't??)
4. Lied to a friend. []
5. Been to rehab. []
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [x] (not in the emo way.. there is a story behind it actually, which only Alex knows XD)
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. []
10. Seen someone die.[] (how does that make you a bad person anyway?!)
TOTAL SO FAR: 15

1. Missed curfew. [x]
2. Stayed out all night. [x]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. [x]
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. []
8. Been in an accident. [x]
9. Wished someone to die. [x]
10. Been to a bar.[x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 24

1. Been to a wild party. [x]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. [ ]
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [x] (lol, more than 25 beers in a night would be a more suitable question for me XD)
4. Had a spring break in Florida. []
5. Sniffed anything. [] (...I've snorted pepper, but i don't think that counts XD)
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. [x] (wtf?)
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x]
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. []
TOTAL SO FAR: 30

1. Dressed Gothic. [x]
2. Dressed prep.[x]
3. Dressed punk. [x]
4. Dressed grunge. [x] (so basically i wear whatever i want, and that makes me a bad person? ¬___¬)
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [x]
7. Blacked out. [x]
8. Fainted. [x] (lol, reapeatedly at bloodstock! I kept fainting then waking up going "oh, hello again grass" XD)
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. []
TOTAL SO FAR: 38

1. Snuck into someone else's room. [x]
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [x]
4. Dry-humped someone. [x!!!!! lololol] (OMG ROFL!!!! I hump people all the time <_< >_> *hump hump* XD)
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car. []
8. Broken a mirror. [x]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [x]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush. []
TOTAL SO FAR: 46

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. []
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. []
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [x]
5. Had surgery. [] (how does that make you a bad person i ask you?!)
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. [] (not my own trial, but i've been... i don't think it counts though)
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. [x] (only once, and it's because i forgot to pay XD)
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 52


1. Owned/rented an apartment.[]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. []
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [x] (i didn't know he had a gf at the time though..)
4. Got in trouble with the police. [x]
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [x]
7. Kissed a stranger. [x] (lolol, bloodstock makes me a bad person XD)
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. []
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 59

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. []
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [x]
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. [ ]
8. Prank-called someone. [x]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 67


TOTAL OF ALL SCORES = 67

-If You Have Less Then 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.]
985398  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-21
Written: (6244 days ago)

Lololol, i'm having another one of those moments. I just downloaded a bunch of Irish drinking songs. Dammit i really need to have an Irish-themed party. Or just learn them all and sing them really loudly at whatever halloween party i end up going too X3 I wish i was more Irish... I mean i have a teensy bit of Irish blood in my veins (which explains my love for alcohol and getting totally smashed) but it's just not enough!!! I WANT TO BE IRISH!!! I think i may go and live in Ireland for a few years... I at least want to pick up the accent x)

The most epic drinking song ever is The Wild Rover. The Dropkick Murphey's did a cover of it and it's just the ultimate song to get completely shitfaced, wankered, smashed, hammered, pissed, intoxicated, plastered, trashed, inebriated, sloshed, tanked, wrecked and utterly drunk to!!! I'm listening to it on repeat at the moment and it's awesome!!! It will be stuck in my head tomorrow though XD

I was discussing this subject with my cousin and he said "Well you develop an Irish accent when you're drunk. That's got to count for something." ...It's true XD and i'm happy now, for no reason <_< >_>

Long live the Irish!!!!

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985235  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-21
Written: (6244 days ago)

Doo de doo! Hello :p I'm in a good mood today XD The results of my blood test haven't come back yet, but i'm not too worried to be honest because my throat's not hurting as much as it was (maybe that's because of the painkillers, but shuddup!!)... Now, what was i going to talk about? Ah yeah, Friday night. I went to see Phatfish with Ruth and Lauren. It was so much fun XD We ended up drifting over to these guys at the back and dancing like a bunch of loons. They taught us how to 'Christian mosh' which was the funniest thing in the world in my opinion, and i taught them how to 'Korpiklaani mosh' which was hilarious XD They seemed very surprised when i started listing off all the other bands i listen too XD One of them had a "Don't hassle the hoff" t-shirt on which was amazing XD And OMG the bassist from Phatfish looked like Jesus o___O seriously, he had long hair and a beard and he was up on stage with a white light shining right behind him so it looked like a halo XD It was awesome! We met him after the gig too and took his picture XD

So yeah, Phatfish were awesome. Yesterday i just had a lazy day really... Wandered into town with Ruth for breakfast then met Josh and bogged around a bit... Met mum and dad in Weatherspoons for coffee and brunch (aka cider and... cider XD) then went home and fell asleep until 7 XD lazy lazy day...

And today i'm working on stripping all the colour out of my hair so i can go my natural colour again (i'm naturally blonde, and if i hear a single blonde joke i will murder whoever said it XD). So yeah, basically another lazy day. And we're going to see Stardust at the cinema tonight, which should be good (Y)

Anywho, that's all i have to say! Turrah!

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984414  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-10-17
Written: (6248 days ago)

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Baaaaaaaad daaaaaaaay. Yeah... I woke up this morning and my throat was like.. blaaaah again ¬____¬ Mum decided that i was staying off school to go to the doctors, because this throat infection has been hanging around for over a month now... and apparently that's not normal *shrugs* ...Soo i went to the doctors and i had the crazy one who talks to you with his eyes closed... He said that whatever is wrong it's obviously not bacterial (despite the fact that they said it was bacterial and gave me penicillin for it last time ¬____¬) and that it might be something more serious than what they originally thought... Soooo i had to have a blood test, which was horrible... It didn't hurt or anything, i'm not that bothered about needles really, it was just seeing my blood in the test tube i was like 'wtf, do you really need that much?!' ..He found it really funny -___- twit. Then i had to hang around for a while so he could examine my throat and my ears (wtf.. seriously, i have a THROAT infection, what does that have to do with my ears?!)... Then he decided that there's no point prescribing me anything because he doesn't know what the problem is... And he's cutting my course of penicillin short because apparently it's not doing anything to help ¬____¬ BLAAAAAAAAH. So i have a killer sore throat and nothing to take to make it hurt less... Whatever. I've got some of my dad's weaker painkillers (i shouldn't, but i do XD) and paracetamol and that's going to have to do. Bah.

In other news... I watched a reaaally long film today when i got back from the doctors. It's an old Stephen King one... It was about 5 hours long, i nearly died by the end of it XD it was good though... Not exactly as scary as i think it was meant to be, but still good. Erm... I don't really have anything else to say, since most of what happens to me that's worth talking about happens at school... I'll probably go to school tomorrow, sore throat or not... I hate staying home, it's so boring. There's bugger all to do and i just end up sleeping all day or sitting infront of the TV. That's all i have to say...

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983999  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-10-15
Written: (6250 days ago)

My dad certainly knows how to scare the living shit out of me... I was sitting in the computer room a minute ago, minding my own business, when he barged in...

Dad: Now, i don't want you to panic, but there's a possibility that the boiler has been leaking gas into this room and that you're soon going to die of carbon monoxide poisoning.
Me: Mmhm... *long pause* ...WHAT?!?!?!?!??!
Dad: I said 'Charlotte's on the phone'.
Me: YOU UTTER BASTARD!!!
Dad: *walks out LOLing to self*

XD Apparently my parents no longer care about me swearing at them, as i didn't even get a 'mind your language' from my mum. My mum does mind me calling her a fascist... and if i say 'go back to Russia' to her, she gets all flustered... which implies that she's a Russian fascist o___O ...or is deeply offended by Russian fascists XD whatever, i find it amusing...

I never noticed before, but there is a Young Ones reference in KHTSF. Which i find incredibly funny. Yes. You know what else i find funny? I got KHII off Danny today (cuz i have to wait until CHRISTMAS for mine... Santa is a bastard XD) and i haven't played it yet. That is not right. I should be totally hooked on it, yet i'm not o__O I've been to busy playing bloody roar XD I've just realised that Ryoho (dragon) is really cockney XD and i think that is about the funniest thing ever, because he's supposed to be a Japanese monk, and yet he has this really cockney accent XD XD XD lol phail...

ANYWAY. Enough talk about my insane family and games and so on and so forth. I have nothing else useful to say (Y) turrah!

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983589  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-14
Written: (6251 days ago)

Hmph. I'm in a bad mood with DA today ¬____¬ It appears that they've randomly brought in a new rule that you have to be over 18 to view Deviations with 'mature content'. This would be fine except some of the people i watch put mature content filters on their art. Ladychimera, for example, one of my favourite artists on DA, does KH comics. Because of all the attention she gets, she has to mature content any of the comics that have blood/violence/minor references to sex and so on and so forth... So i can't bloody see them anymore! It's so annoying... And extremely patronizing aswell! It's like DA is saying "If you're not 18, you can't POSSIBLY be mature enough to look at this." Do they honestly think that just because i'm not 18 that i'm not capable of looking at a picture with a bit of blood or nakedness without being severely mentally disturbed? I think we should have a CHOICE as to whether or not we view images with mature content. That way if we look at something with a mature content filter on and are severely mentally disturbed by it, it's our own fault for bloody looking at it!!! (I sound so schizophrenic right now... when i say 'our' i mean the collective community of under 18 people on DA.) I mean really, i'm nearly 17 years old for christs sake. I'm not going to go 'OMG BOOBZ ON A PICTURE!!!' and then sue them, am i? For heavens sake... And all they're doing now is encouraging under 18 people to make clone accounts that are only there so they can view mature images. These accounts won't have any art on them and will just spam up the servers at DA! I swear, they are totally asking for all the hate mail they get, and there will be alot of it... Not from me of course. I'm going to write them a polite email explaining that i think they're a bunch of ageists and that what they're doing is very patronizing to us under 18's who are actually mature enough to not pitch a fit when we see blood, violence, nakedness or (God forbid) a swear word. And if that doesn't work then so help me i'm starting a revolution. You may think i'm overreacting, but i'm just completely sick of people under 18 being treated like children. We are just as mature as any 18 year olds, more so than some, and i think we should be offered freedom of choice. At the moment, DA is acting like a parent. A really annoying parent. So yes, i'm going to write a very condescending email in return to their stupidness. And i'm going to encourage everyone else to do it too.

Anyway. Moving away from that subject i'm actually in a decent mood today. I have to clean my room (again) which is a bit of a bummer, and do some art and psychology work... Which is also a bit of a bummer. But other than that i feel fine and life is actually reasonably good at the moment. I don't really have anything else useful to say, so i'm just going to stop here, as i think my DA rant has taken up enough space as it is XD Toodles!

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983291  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-10-12
Written: (6253 days ago)

*sigh* i've been doing alot of ranty grumbling diary entries recently, so i'm not going to spend long ranting and grumbling... I'm so bloody tired though... I haven't been sleeping much the last few weeks so i'm completely exhausted =___= i was really grumpy in school today and at dinner time i was like 'right, need to vent at someone' but there was no one about when i got down there... And when people started appearing i had the distinct impression that no one was in the mood... so i ended up sitting on the bench listening to Stonesour and Bother came on and i just started crying out of nowhere.. I had a rant at Walker and i was fine. I'm not really sure what triggered it to be honest, i think i was just stressed out and tired and at that moment (probably due to the fact that i was sitting on the bench on my own listening to depressing music) i felt kinda.. i dunno, unheard... And i just decided 'fuck it, i've been feeling shit all week, i'm going to cry and i don't care who sees me'. But yes, Walker, Cross, Josh and Shammy all made me laugh, so i felt better XD Much <3 to them :p

Anyway, after my little outburst i didn't feel so much like jumping infront of a bus to see what would happen, but i still felt pretty shit. So i wandered up town with Walker, Matt, Gemma and Mark. We went to the party shop and we were goofing around downstairs for a bit, then we found some guys from the TV thingy outside on the highstreet and they interviewed Matt which was really amusing:

Walker: Awesome, you got on TV mate.
Mark: Yeah, looking like a total gonk with a pen sticking out from behind your ear.
Matt: Shit! *pulls pen out from behind his ear*

I found that really amusing XD Ooooh, 3rd lesson i felt like crap and Rach was really ill, so i took her home and then couldn't be bothered going back for Psychology.. So me and Amz went to tesco and got 'decorate your own' gingerbread men XD that made me feel better, gotta love making gingerbread man porn XD we were feeding this big massive seagull, it was so funny. We got attacked by a flock of them o___O then we saw this bloke in a car who we thought was dead.. turned out he wasn't though XD that was fun.

So all in all i've had a weird day... Bits of it have been really good and bits of it have been total shite... But whatever, i feel better now, i think i just needed to have a cry and rant at someone... And i've done that now so i feel fine ^___^ Josh has invited himself over my house tomorrow but he's going to be dissapointed because Deb just phoned and i think we're going out to dinner with her XD rofl, he's going to walk all the way from Mold to an empty house. Ha, it's his own fault for inviting himself!

Anyway, i'm going to bed now because i'm absolutely shattered. Night all!

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982558  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-10-09
Written: (6256 days ago)

Aaah, i've had a good day today XD Despite being in a pretty vile mood due to the fact that i had very little sleep last night. Reg this morning was amusing cuz me and Rach had to write on the walls, and we came up with 'Art and Depart', the act of painting a picture then chucking it out of a window and yelling 'depart!!!' ...This at the time was very funny XD Then first lesson i managed to scare Josh by telling him how i plan on killing him. Apparently the plan was flawless and he's now paranoid ^___^ Good good.
Art was amazingly funny too. [imperfectionist] had to take his work over to Mr. Taylor (who greatly enjoys telling Danny that he's going to fail) and i was playing this DOOOOM music on my phone as he went over XD Danny sat down with Mr. T for about 2 seconds and showed him his work. And this happened:

Mr. T: Have you considered pig farming?
Me Alex and Rach: *die laughing*
Me: I'd quite like to be a pig farmer... I like pigs!
Alex: *in retarded voice* Yeah! I like their leetle feet!!!
Me: o_______O *rofl*

...And for some reason we found that extremely funny. Then me and Al decided that we're going to dress up for his class on Thursday (me as a evil guy with a top hat and pimp cain, and Al as a Russian communist XD) and walk in late playing the DOOM music. Just to confirm the fact that we're the classes psycho cases XD Omg, Kel came up with the best phrase to say to a crazy person: "You're totally batshit." XD i thought that was amazing.
At dinner time i rescued a stuffed kangaroo that had been thrown out of the charity shop! Then i got stuck with an Australian accent for a while XD We couldn't decide what to call the kangaroo either, there was a debate in psychology..

Me: Well, he was called Chouji.. Nice round name.
Kara: I think Jeremy suits him.
Josh: Name him after me!
Kara: No, Jeremy!
Josh: But i want him to be named after me ;_;
Me: How about Chouji Jeremy Josh McInerny?
Kara: Yes!

So that's how we settled his name XD I have no idea if i spelt Josh's last name right o__O It's pronounced mac-an-earnie, which i find hysterical.
What else happened today? I broke up with Josh (the other Josh.. boyfriend Josh).. Well i sort of did o__O it was meant to be joking but it came out sounding serious and he took me seriously.. but then we found out he didn't.. so... i have no idea tbh XD but in my mind i'm single <_< >_> ...And i slapped Cross XD I was in a pretty short-tempered mood anyway.. Then Dominic started pissing me off so i kicked off at him and basically said "If you hate us all and think we're all retards then why do you come down here every dinner time and try and be part of the crowd?!", which i think was a very valid point.. And Cross grabbed me and told me to leave him alone, then started having a go at me about it. Reflex kicked in and i smacked him round the face then stormed off to English Lit XD Alex nearly wet herself laughing, it was great :p

So yeah, eventful day today. Oooh, and i got some rum truffles! Yum yum! That's about all i have to say, so i'm gonna stop rambling on now XD bai!

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982343  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-10-08
Written: (6257 days ago)
Next in thread: 982352

Oh yeah, one more thing. To all my friends on here who may read this, thank you all for.. Just existing! And being my friends <333 I love you all! You've all cheered me up when i was down, made me laugh when i was in a bad mood and helped me through the tough times, and i can't thank you enough <3
Why am i doing this?? Well, because i think that every once in a while you need to let your friends know just how much they mean to you! AND I DON'T DO IT NEARLY ENOUGH!! So THANK YOU FRIENDS!!! 

*HUGS!!!*



^___^ That's all, i really am going to bed now! Night all! *waves*

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982334  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-10-08
Written: (6257 days ago)

*grumbles* Bloody english lit homework...

OMFG WE'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE!!!

Yes, you may have noticed that i'm in a much better mood tonight. Sunday night blues are a bummer.

I'm doing the bloody full stop enter key thing again. I went through a phase where all my diary entries were like this.

I just watched Star Trek - Nemesis... Now i'm rooting out all our ancient Star Trek vids and watching them all. When i say ancient, i mean like the very first series up to the most recent series. My mum is a Star Trek nut, and i'm slowly following in her footsteps >___<

Nerd.

I'll be speaking Klingon next ¬___¬;;

Mutti got me a new top today. She's been buying me alot of clothes recently. She must want something.

I have a bottle that looks like a rum bottle but it's actually a glass water bottle. We fooled Walker that it was rum.

I love my friends ^___^

I didn't get Paul the bus driver today, which upset me greatly.

School bus tomorrow.

Bah.

That's the end of this weirdness.

Goodnight my dears! xXxXx

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982127  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-07
Written: (6258 days ago)

*grumbles* Bloody english lit homework...

Ok, i had a nap before and i feel a little better now i guess, although my stomach is hurting like hell... I think i was just really tired before, and that's understandable. I only just realised how little sleep i've been getting recently... I'll go to bed at about 1am but not get to sleep till 3am... Then i'll wake up at least twice every hour for no reason... I'm getting about 3 hours sleep a night, and it's not good sleep... Meh. I dunno what's causing it, but whatever. Probably stress of some sort, i have no idea. I've done this before though... I'll survive off very little sleep and lots of coffee, food and alcohol... Then i'll realise that i've put on weight and reverse the process. Lots of sleep and very little food *sigh* i don't know why my brain can't just work normally like a normal persons brain XD

I feel so sick now though... bleh. *sigh* i should go to bed, but i feel like... I don't know what i feel like. Have you ever had that feeling where you know you want to say something important but you don't know what it is? Like there's something niggling in the back of your mind... But you can't quite figure out what it is. It's so irritating. I was just talking to Em on msn and she's got this horrible ability to make me really think about life. Normally i'm the kind of person who tries to avoid thinking about it, because if you think about it you realise how monotonous and depressing life actually is. But whenever i talk to her the conversation either goes into insanity, or into a really deep and phylosophical debate. And now i'm sitting here wondering why the hell i'm sitting here. Where am i going? What am i doing? Why do i bother getting up every day, and going to school, and working for an education that's going to be lost when i die anyway? Why do i strive for things, and hope for things, and set myself goals that i know i'll never achieve? I have dreams, but i already know the difference between dreams and reality... At the moment i just kinda feel like a spectator on my own life... I want to yell at myself 'Hey, you, stupid! You're doing it wrong!' but i just can't... I genuinely feel like i'm on a set path and there's bugger all i can do to change it... I have no motivation to change it... I'm the most pessimistic person in the world. My theory on life is that we're all going to die so why bother making the effort to live life 'to the fullest'. What's the point of it all in the end? We can strive and struggle to succeed till the end of time, but at the end of the day we're going to die and leave everything we've achieved behind us anyway. Is that the point of it all? To leave a mark on this world? To make sure that people remember you? Does that even matter?! You'll be dead, who gives a damn who remembers you and who doesn't?! It makes no bloody difference if 10000 people remember you or 1 lone person... Eventually everyone will forget. Because the people who remembered you will die. So what is the point? If you can survive on the bare minimum, why bother striving for more than that? *sigh* The world just seems like such a madhouse... No one knows why we're here, no one cares... We just make our own stories. Well this is my one. How exciting it is. Born, live, die. Exactly the same as everyone elses. In 100 years time no one will have any idea who i am. So why bother.

...Sorry, that was incredibly depressing. Tiredness does that too me. I guess that was the thing that was niggling in the back of my mind. Oh well, at least i got it off my chest. Time to go and try and get some sleep. Gotta beat this pattern i've got myself into or i'm going to end up doing this for the rest of my life... Bah. Night everyone, sorry if i've caused any depression or feelings of hopelessness with that rant. Not intentional. Those are just my views. You can ignore them. Nighty xxx

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982053  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-10-07
Written: (6258 days ago)

Bah. I'm not in the best of moods today... Last night i was bummed cuz my parents were going out and i had to babysit my brother instead of going to Amy's party, which was really annoying.. and said brother was being a little pain in the ass. Then Josh appeared and they were being pain in the asses together, and i was getting really pissed off with them... I put Sleepy Hollow on and they shut up for a while watching that... Then Ethan got a nose bleed and i had to sit with him while he bled everywhere (which was actually quite funny) but Josh was no help at all and just sat there watching TV... I was like 'wtf, you could at least give me a hand here...' Seriously. My brother was bleeding everywhere and i was trying to clean him up and keep grabbing more clean tissue and keep his face over the damn sink so he didn't bleed everywhere and stop him from passing out which he nearly did (he doesn't like blood and there was ALOT of it).. and Josh didn't even offer to help ¬___¬ ...But anyway, the bleeding stopped eventually and we watched the end of the film, but then i wanted to watch Deathwatch (horror not really suitable for a 9 year old). Ethan refused to go to bed and was being really awkward going "I'm not going to bed until mum and dad get home" and once again Josh was not helping the situation at all. I was getting seriously annoyed by this point but... bah. Nothing gets in the way of me and my films, so i put Deathwatch on anyway and told Ethan if he couldn't sleep because he was scared of the film then it was his own fault for not going to bed when i told him to. M + D eventually came in at 12:30 ish, and Ethan finally went to bed, followed closely by parents. I was like 'Hooray! Now i can watch the end of the film in peace!' but no such luck.. Josh was annoying the hell out of me and i couldn't watch the damn film for having to constantly hit him to get him to back the hell off... Grrrr... I was so tempted to just kick him out and tell him to bloody well walk home... He wouldn't let me sleep either, kept me up till 3am complaining that he was too hot or too cold or that his fucking knees were hurting... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

So yeah, basically i just had a bad night last night... Got woke up at 8 by mutti and spent the whole day grumbling and being moody XD I'm now really tired and i feel ill... So if i snap at anyone i'm sorry, blame lack of sleep and annoyance that i could have been at a party having fun last night instead of being annoyed by my brother and my boyfriend ¬____¬ grrrr....

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981626  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-10-05
Written: (6260 days ago)

Wheeee! I've been playing videogames with my brother for the last 2 hours XD it's the one thing that we can do together for hours on end without arguing XD We've found a connection!!! OK, those people out there reading this who haven't played Bloody Roar (3 or 4) will not get any of the following rant, so feel free to skip ahead to the next bit if you wish. Anyway. Yeah, on Careers mode on BR4 you can steal other characters attacks. I was playing as my Xion (who owns all) and i fought Uranus (the demented woman) about 6 times in a row and stole a bunch of her attacks. Now she's very... Feminine in her attacking style, so we stuck all her attacks onto Xion. AND OMG. He looks so effing gay now it's not even funny! Ok, it is, it's hilarious, but whatever. The divvit. The attacks look normal on Uranus, but when you see them on a guy it's just hilarious XD So much butt wiggling and hand flapping and hip thrusting. So yeah we turned him into a complete fag-end (new insult created by me while screaming at the PS2 while i was fighting Nagi XD) Then i went on arcade with him and perfected Ryoho in dragon form (which is really hard to do! *proud*) so i was chuffed... Then mum walked in and told Ethan to go to bed and at that moment Uranus did this attack and shouted "GET LOST!!!".. So me and Ethan pretty much wet ourselves, and then kept yelling "Get lost" at mum in really posh english accents XD aaah good times.

Aaaanyway. Drifting away from the subject of videogames... Erm. I'm a little bit pissed off because tomorrow is Amy-mofo's party, and i can't go because i'm babysitting my brother ¬___¬ kinda annoying. I don't mind too much though, i can play videogames. Josh is apparently coming over, but i'm still going to sit and play videogames all day whether he's there or not XD I <3 Bloody Roar so much. If i had a choice in the matter i'd just sit and play it 24/7 XD Oh bum, i'm going back onto the videogame thing... Oh well... Grant says i'm cool cuz i'm a female gamer, so it's a good thing as far as i'm concerned XD

I don't really have anything else useful to say. I'm totally nackered now so i think i might get a reasonably early night for once in my life XD toodles!

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