Owwwiiiiie ¬___¬ My finger is killing me >__< I burnt it last week when i decided it was a great idea to see what happens when you set fire to a plastic knife.. A lump of molten plastic fell onto my finger and burnt a nice hole in it XD It was funny at the time but now it's gone all manky and it's really sore.. Do not want =___= Yet another scar to add to the collection XD If i wasn't such a stupid idiot this kind of thing wouldn't happen all the time...

I'm supposed to be cleaning out the computer room now... Well i was supposed to be doing it 3 hours ago, but i got distracted by the awesomness of the Gorillaz website XD Then there was food, and now i'm here again procrastinating as usual. Gah. I'm almost done with the cleaning anyway, i just need to vacuum the floor and clean all the squished bugs off the walls and ceiling (i spend most of my life in this room and i can't stand bugs. I see one, it gets squished.) Sooo i'm gonna bog onto msn because then i can talk to people and clean... Ya. I'm done now.

</ramble>

GAH. There's a big ugly bug crawling up the door.
Fjrwopaifnewgbrejaf DO NOT WANT.
How am i supposed to get out of the room with that thing there?
Grrr.
*needs sleep*
Soooo tired... 2:25am =___=
I'm also hungry.
I'm going to get food before sleep.
Yum yum, food. We have Oreos <3
I'm going to sleep now.

</ramble>

Bah... After my little drawing spree last night, i have gone into another artistic slump... The artists block has once again positioned itself in my brain and scared my muse away. Stupid artists block... Actually, i think that since my muse has decided now is a great time to wander off into nothingness for a while, i'll draw him. I haven't drawn him for absolutely ages, he probably feels left out XD

Blah.. Other than that.. I feel ill today =___= I wish a was a guy sometimes ¬____¬ then i wouldn't have to deal with this... BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARG!!! Erm.. What else did i want to say? I'm applying for jobs here there and everywhere at the moment so hopefully i'll have one by the beginning of December.. If not i'll have to throw myself off a bridge because i won't have any money for Christmas presents for all my friends XD Over reaction and a half there...

Erm... Messages will be replied too soon, when i can be bothered... *lazylazylazy* That's all i have to say today, i think. Something else will probably pop up later and i'll do the whole "TO THE ET DIARY!!! *points*" and ramble like a moron for a bit... But until that moment i do believe i have nothing else to say except 'toodles!' :p

</ramble>

*sighsighsigh* I'm in such a goofy mood tonight... No idea why. I got started sketching [Lexi. Short and Sweet!]'s Crimboli gift art... And then that got me in a drawing mood and i started drawing away... Now i've been drawing for 4 hours and my obsession for Theo and Kat being together has come back X3 Don't worry Alex, you'll still be getting your Theo/Vince picture(s). But they will never be canon. NEVA!!! *squeebles* gaaaaaaah what the hell has got me in this stupid mood?! Dear me...

I'm not going to ramble now. In fact, i think i'm going to go to bed, because i'm extremely tired and i have nothing to do. If i carry on drawing i'll be up all night, so i won't. Yes. Bed time. Night!

</ramble>

Gaaaaaaaah! =___= I'm listening to a really sad song (Isaac's memorial song actually) and it's making me go all sniffly ;__; It's such a sad song! I'm going to have to do some Isaac fanart now. OMG. I'm actually going to do a serious drawing that doesn't involve wolves! :O

On a lighter note (is it? XD) I know what song i'm having played at my funeral now. Ok, that's not a lighter note at all, it's a very dark and morbid and sad note. Whatever. I'll be morbid if i want to!!!!!! >3< :p

</ramble> ...<again>

OMG. OMFG. I just watched Heroes. I'm not gonna post any spoilers, but PETER IS SO EFFING COOL!!! I had to restrain myself from squealing like a fangirl at him X3 He is just... Gah. Wow. Seriously. I'm a Peter fangirl from this moment on X3

Aaanyway... That's all i had to say.

</short ramble>

I CAN'T TYPE AT ALL TONIGHT!!! I FAIL!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!

And in all my stupid ex-boyfrined rantings i totally forgot to mention the Japanese exchange! I'm signing up for it! I hope to whatever God(s) there is/are that i get picked to go X3 I would be totally, utterly, completely ecstatic if i got picked. In fact, i'd probably die of a heart attack. That is all. Bed now.

</ramble>

Lololol, i'm listening to Miyavi's interview on an American radio show, and he's trying his very hardest to speak english X3 It's the cutest thing in the world... "H-how do i say this? Basket.. barr? Basketball!" X3 so cuuuuuuute!!

Aaanyway. Yeah, i'm in a weird mood tonight because i've been thinking alot. I've noticed something, about my ex. When i'm not with him, i'm fine, it doesn't bother me. When i'm with him and i have friends around, i'm kinda 'meh' about the whole thing. But the minute i'm on my own with him, i miss being with him so much ¬___¬ I never expected to miss him at all when i broke up with him, it felt like the right thing to do but now i'm not so sure anymore.. I hate him when he's being mopy and clingy like he was when we were together, but now we're not together anymore he's being more like the guy i originally fell for.. And that is so annoying. I know i can't have it both ways though, and if i go back out with him (which is something i NEVER do. Second chances don't exist in my world) i won't have the Josh i like, i'll have the Josh i want to murder with a pick axe. *grumbles*

It's ok though, i'm just going through that phase of 'was that a good move?'.. All is well because James (the Mc.Donalds guy) texted me and he is the sweetest little thing ever X3 He is sooo unbelievably clueless about women, but in such an adorable way. He said: "All i know is that once a month i have to buy them chocolates and leave them alone." XD awww! So yeah, i'm meeting him on Saturday and we're going out for a drink, nothing special, just coffee and car-talk =3 That should probably put me in a better mood. I just need to completely forget about Josh, it's not going to help the situation if i get all mopey about it! :p

</ramble>

Do be do be do... I now have the daunting task of finding and re-downloading EVERY SINGLE ONE of the Sims2 mods and hacks i had before the game crashed and deleted everything. Aye. I just found some old backups of my downloads, and i had over 400 XD (unfortunately the backups are corrupt and can't be used ¬___¬ depressing much...) aaanyway... That's over 400 downloads to find, install and misuse :p I've been playing the base game and i was like 'wtf this isn't the sims' because when i used to play it, i pretty much hacked it to pieces and turned it into a completely different game XD all good then... Roite. Downloads ahoy!

</sims ramble>

Gaaaah, mad day today... I've been all jelloid and weird all day because at dinner i broke up with Josh (officially <_< >_>) and it kind of made me go into hyperactive-omg-i'm-single mode. Which involves alot of hysteria and squealing and yelling 'matt!' in the squeakyest voice ever XD Yeah, i react strangely to breakups. No regrets though. The whole fiasco has made me realise how much i've wanted to break up with him for a while. He's making himself sound like the victim, like it's all my fault, but that's what he does so i'm not going to start an argument about it. I'm better than that (and him) so there's no need ^___^ ..I find it amusing that he's still clinging to me obsessively. Now i can just laugh with [Lexi. Short and Sweet!] about what a loser he is, since we've both been there, done that and we will soon have t-shirts XD

Aanyway, enough about that.. I went to the dentist and got told that i have perfect teeth! (Y) I was well chuffed because normally he rants at me about how i'm not brushing them enough or whatever, but he seemed satisfied today X3

And in Mc.Donalds today i was wearing my 'I am the Stig' top:

Dude: Anything else?
Me: Erm.. no, that's everything.
Dude: Ok, that's £1.99...Awesome top by the way.
Me: Lol, ya, i am the stig *grins*
Dude: Aren't you a bit too short and female to be the stig?
Me: Nono, see they use camera tricks. I just look tall and male.
Dude: Ooooh i see. Clever that *laughs*

We kept talking about Top Gear and cars while i was waiting for mum, and he was rambling about how it's nice to be able to start a conversation with a girl because he normally has problems finding a common interest XD So today i have learned that my 'Stig' top is a good way to start a conversation with a guy XD XD aah lol...

Anyway, that's all i have to say. I'll be off to finish up on my room now. Turrah luvs!

</ramble>

AAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! MPH was sooooooooooo effing cool X3 i want to go next year!! GAH!! I will rant about it tomorrow, i'm too tired now :p

..This weekend has gone waaay too quickly... It doesn't feel like i should be in school tomorrow... I think it's because i've spent so little time at home.. I was at Ruth's on friday night, didn't get home again till 3 on saturday.. Then i cleaned my room until 8 =___= then fell asleep.. Up at 9 today, left the house at 10:30 for MPH and got back at 9pm... So i guess i haven't had much time to just sit on my comfy sofa and read or draw or watch Top Gear, which is what i normally do over the weekend XD

Ach, one thing about MPH. I spied a Lotus Exige in the showroom and the guy let me sit in it X3

Me: ...Can i just have your keys now?
Man: *laughs* Now what do you want those for?
Me: ...Safety check.
Man: o_O You'd have fun stealing this you know. It doesn't drive down stairs or through revolving doors.
Me: ...It does when i'm driving it.

The dude seemed to find my attempts at stealing his car very amusing XD I got stuck in the seat and all, it was so low XD I was like "I'm sorry, but i'll never be able to get out of your car... No really, i'm stuck XD".. So yeah, highlight of the day, that was :p 

</ramble>

Ok, panic over with mum, i'm not in trouble anymore XD I've actually done something to my room though. IT'S VAGUELY CLEAN! You can see the floor anyway XD I need to put all my clothes back in.. that's it.. Yay!

I've just been digging around on my hard drive and i've found a few old drawings that i'm going to submit to DA.. Just for something to submit really.. Ya.

Erm.. What else did i want to say? That's it for now i think. I'll be back on later when my room is finished (Y) bye bye loves! XD

</ramble>

I am in sooo much trouble with my mum... gotta go, might not be on for a while...

HAY THAR!
Aye, i'm in a surprisingly good mood today o___O it's surprising because i'm incredibly, unbelievably tired. And normally when i'm tired, i'm in a really bad mood. But today, not so much for some reason o_O I did get in trouble with Mr. Humphrey's for yelling 'SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!' at Toni XD I knew my temper would snap at some point today, it just happened to be at her! :p I also had problems with the ex. Yeah, i'm calling him an ex now because we haven't spoken for 3 days and he doesn't seem to have any interest in continuing the relationship, so neither do i. Despite this i'm in a really good mood. Infact.. I think i'm in a good mood because i'm free from that idiot. I never realised how much he riles me up XD

Anyway... Enough about that. My mum bought me some JD chocolates <3 I was going to take them to Ruths but.. i kinda ate them all ^_^;; i'm so addicted to JD. Not even funny. I'm considering going to Mike's party tomorrow night.. I'm not really sure because i'm staying at Ruth's tonight and will likely be up till all hours in the morning.. Then i have to get up early on Sunday to go to MPH.. If i have a party inbetween that then i will get little/no sleep over the weekend (so that'll be three nights without sleep) and will be completely and utterly dead by monday. I think i'm going to have to give Mike's a miss. Shame really, me and Alex are always the life (or clowns) of the party. We can't very well make fools of ourselves if i'm not there! XD Bah, there'll be other parties!

I'm done talking now.

</ramble>

Do you know what? I am such a failure at life... I just typed a big procrastinating entry in here, rambling about my hopelessness, and then deleted it like a retard... Now i have to write it all again! Dear me...
My printer is so fecking LOUD! It's on quiet mode aswell, but it still sounds like a Ford Escort with an engine full of gravel being chased through a war-zone by ten million ambulances who in turn are being chased by ten million fire engines. Seriously, this thing could not get any noisier. And now it's gone and used all my paper, so i'll have to go all the way downstairs and look for some more. It's freezing, i don't want to leave the warmth and safety of my hovel. BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
I'm going to turn this into a long rambly rant, simply because i really don't want to do my psychology work... What does a picture of an elephant and a run-over sheep have to do with anything at all? Really... Bloody psychologists...
Bah. Oh well, i have the Psychology trip to Manchester and the art trip to London to look forward too. I'm not going to Poland anymore because we decided that it was far too expensive and i'd much rather spend the money on a finalboss!Xemnas coat X3 Yeeeeeeeeesssss i'm lame enough to do that. £55 (around $99) for it off Ebay XD ridiculously over priced for a black and white faux leather jacket, but i don't care, it's too cool an opportunity to miss XD So for christmas i'm getting KH CoM, KHII, an Axel action figure (because they don't do Xaldin ones. Or i can't find one.) and a Mansex.. Sorry Xemnas coat. Does anyone spot a common theme here?
Good lord i really can't type tonight.. I keep adding random letters on the end of every word, it's utterly crap. My brain is beginning to pack in already and the all-nighter hasn't even begun yet. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD almighty i'm so going to be dead tomorrow. Mother wants me home tomorrow to help her move something... furniture, i wansn't listening properly... Then i have to go straight over to Ruths for an Eddie Izzard marathon. I am going to be so unbearably tired on Saturday it's not even funny. Then i have to be up early and home to do homework and such, THEN i've got MPH on sunday *le gasp* i'm going to have such an exhausting weekend! I'll be dead come monday morning DX will this madness never cease?! *dies*

Really, i'm going now, i need to stop procrastinating. I have sooo much work to do and so little time with which to do it, twatting about on ET is the last thing i should be doing. I'm off, toodles my dear friends. Messages will be replied to later tonight/tomorrow/when i can be bothered. Depends how special you are :p

</ramble>

Blarg... I just found my checklist for art and discovered that i haven't even done nearly enough work to qualify for a decent grade... So i'm going to have to pull an all-nighter tonight if i want to stay on the course... It's my own fault for being such a procrastinator... Last night at about 2am after 3 hours of TS2, i decided i was going to do my Psychology essay.. then:

Emily: OMFG, GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!
Me: ...Well hey thar convenient excuse to procrastinate. What?

And that spawned into an hour long conversation about KH... Dear God... I just can't help it, my brain is permanently set on 'procrastinator mode' ¬____¬

Right now i'm having a conversation with Ruth about how Noel Fielding and Russell Brand would make a good couple >_> any excuse to avoid doing work *headdesk*

...Not to mention that my Organization XIII sims are playing up something rotten. Xigbar spent 4 hours trying to end his life by sticking his head in the trash compactor, Xaldin gave birth to alien triplets (why the stupid fool had to use the telescope i'll never know) and Larxene decided it was a great idea to somehow break every electrical applience in the house. So i'm annoyed with them. Yes, i am allowed to be annoyed at my stupid malfunctioning sims <_< >_>

And to top it all off i'm severely pissed off with Josh (boyfriend-like creature) for no rational reason that i can explain... I don't know why, but i just can't look at him without thinking 'what an utter bastard'... womans instinct kicking in 2 months too late maybe? I have no idea, but i don't even want to be in his presence at the moment.

And to add insult to injury, my Psychology teacher thinks i'm schizophrenic. Thank you very much for your confidence Mr. Rhind ¬_______¬

Apart from all that, i'm in a good mood at the moment ^___^ Me and Ange had a lol on the bus on the way home today cuz she accididentally sent a txt to her aunt that was meant for her boyfriend XD it was so funny. Aaah yes, this is the reason i love being alive. Life is just so full of hilarity, stupidity and wtfosity.

</ramble>

Abfjoejrepafwekfrjwapjreoaigrea O_____O

I've been sitting on my foot for the last three hours. I now can't feel it at all. I tried to stand up and did a sort of retarded face-plant belly-flop onto the sofa XD what a twat...

Aaanyway. I'm not rambling now either because i have to go to bed as soon as i get the feeling back in my foot. Turrah luvs.

</ramble... ish... thing...>

|………..|
|………..| Put this on your
|………..| page if you have
|…….O.| ever pushed a
|………..| door that said pull!
|………..|

...Guilty XD

Yay! I'm back! My computer came back today and David did an absolutely spiffy job!! Gaaaah!! I can't believe he charged us so little for this, it's like having a brand new computer X3 Yay!

Anyway.. I shall ramble about stuff later, i have to go and clean my room now, then i will probably be installing TS2 and get stuck playing that all night XD

</ramble>

MY BABY IS BEING TAKEN AWAY FROM ME TODAY!!!!!! *sob*

When i say my baby, i mean my computer. Poor old Gandalf (yes i named my computer Gandalf) is getting a bit juddery and crap, so he's being whisked away to get all the wirey stuff replaced and a harddrive upgrade, so i'll be able to play the sims 2 without it taking 40 years for them to flush the toilet (Y) ..But i feel like i'm sending a child into surgery at the moment. Gandalf has been a loyal, if very temperamental computer.. David says there's a small chance that he's a bit outdated and that a better option would be to just buy a new computer. Naturally, me being the sentimental fool that i am, if that happens i intend to have a funeral for Gandalf.

Oh incidentally we came up with a name for the printer, which we never got round too. He's now called Xaldin. So i have Gandalf the computer, Xaldin the printer and Dylan the PS2... I'm so unbelievably sad... I can't decide what i'm going to call my tablet when i get it XD I'm really looking forward to getting a tablet because it means i'll actually be able to do some decent art for a change. YAY!

Anyway, must be off. I have to try and throw together a halloween costume.. Oh i've just had a brilliant idea. Zombie pirate. I'll take my pirate costume, rub cotton wool all over it so it looks like cobwebs, roll in the mud outside for a bit, then paint my face zombie style. Voila, zombie pirate. AND NOT MANY PEOPLE DO THAT, DO THEY?!?! Bah, there are too many vampires, witches and devils at halloween. I'm going to be a zombie pirate. Yes.

</ramble>