I've had a rather shitty week this week =___= No particular reason why.. Just one of those weeks where you feel utter crap for no reason at all, you know? I haven't wanted to go out or do anything, i've just been cleaning my room like a mad person. It's finally nearly finished, but i've kind of lost my will to actually finish it XD I have work on saturday which i'm not looking forward too =/  A 10 hour shift in the Paddock Rooms is never fun, send me back to the VIP Boxes pl0x D;  I've been sleeping really badly lately too... Hence being on Elftown at 3.30 in the morning XD last night i didnt sleep at all, then i went downstairs to make a coffee in the morning and burnt my wrist on the hob which for some reason had been on all night =___= so now i have a really sore, swollen, red wrist and i'm exhausted but i can't sleep D; bad times.  One bright spark from this week though is that my laptop broke XD That may seem like a bad thing, but it's not. Because we have a new computer guy. See, we always have a 'computer guy', the guy who fixes the computers in my mum's work. She's very clever and gets friendly with the 'computer guys' so they can fix our diseased computers for free XD  Anyway, her company recently got rid of the old, fat, builders bum computer guy and hired a new one, Tommy. So Tommy came round to fix my laptop because it blue screen of death'd me again. And i was shocked, because it wasn't the old, fat builders bum guy. It was a sweet, funny 25 year old who really likes coffee. Oh, and he's absolutely gorgeous. I was completely embarassed, because i was expecting the builders bum guy, so i made no effort to look nice at all. I looked like a mad hobo, wearing my scraggy arse jeans and my hippie jumper and no make up whatsoever. But feh, who cares, he was sooooo yummy scrumboes, and surprisingly nice too. From my experience, hot guys are always complete wank stains. Hmmm... I think i'll have to break my laptop more often ;p  ...*eyes up the PC*... I wonder if smashing it with a hammer counts as accidental damage? XD
Anyway. After this weekend i'm determined not to be such a grumpy bore, because i've been hermiting away for days and not wanting to see anyone. Hopefully work on Saturday will help whack my sleeping patterns back to normal and i'll actually be able to go out during the day time. If not, pubski ahoy!
I'm done ranting now. Hopefully i'll be able to sleep a bit. Might ring Tommy tomorrow, my laptop is being a bit laggy... Hmmmm... ;p  more like my brain is being laggy XD snap out of it girl *slap*

Roite, i'm done.

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Well helloooooo there ET diary, my friend that i hardly ever speak to anymore!

Yes. I've been very busy =D gone are the days when i had time to write loooooong entries in here diligently every day, now it's lucky if it gets a short entry a week. But yes, i've been busy, and i'm still busy, but not as busy as i was before, so ET diary here i come :D  I've been busy with sketchbooks, massive amounts of them, for college in September. As well as that i've been applying for jobs here there and everywhere, looking round wrexham for cheap places to rent in September, sorting out my Bloodstock gear, wondering where exactly my life is going at the moment, and being very frustrated about the state my room has got into again. So that's what i'm working on today and tomorrow, the big clean. I have a to-do list and everything, because i'm just like my mother: If i don't have a list, i can't get anything done. So i'm cleaning my room out so i can have a reuinion with the floor, i haven't seen it in such a long time. Then hopefully things will slow down and i'll have a bit more time for chilling and i can stop stressing over every last little thing. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

But despite all the stressing i've actually been relatively happy recently. Things seem to be going well and i haven't really had any massive depression spells like i used to in sixth form. Well i had one the other day, but that doesn't count because i was PMSing and it was over the stupidest thing in the universe XD  

So, plans. Today and tomorrow i'm cleaning. Wednesday i'm going into Mold with Amz. I found my locker key so i'm going to go and clear out my locker before the bloody school closes, return Miss B's pencils (because i'm sure she's complaining about them at every possible opportunity) and go and be smug at Miss Franklin because i got into college even though she said i wouldn't. Then thursday i might go to pentre since i have money now, friday is a chillaxing day i think, then the weekend i'm going to shop for my Bloodstock wardrobe!

Oh, and i think i have an ear infection :D Genius.

I think that's it, expect another big ranty update in a few weeks lmao XD

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Wheeeeeeeeee, i haven't written in here in a while, but feh! I'm getting a kitten X3 after much nagging i've convinced my mum that it's a really good idea for me to withdraw £350 from my savings and buy a little Siamese kitten X3 she's agreed to pay for food and what-not up until i get a new job (one more regular than chester races, which has turned out to be so irregular it's not even worth it XD) and yay, kitty!!! X3 I'm hoping to get a blue or chocolate point boy, so i'm looking around for one under 350 X3  The only thing i'm struggling with now is thinking of a name o.O  any ideas? XD

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I got into college X3 I got a conditional offer, which basically means provided i do ok on the summer project our tutor gives us, i'm in! Amz got in on the same course with the same offer as well, so chuffed for her and all X3  I wrote a diary entry a while ago about 'taking the leap' and finally breaking free from the Alun, after being there 7 years... And here i go i suppose :) this course at Yale will be the stepping stone for me to go to Brighton art college in a year :D I'm so glad i got in, it looks amazing and Sheena, our tutor, is really nice X3 So huzzah, i'm off into the real world! Since me and Amz are on the same course and probably in the same group, we're considering renting a flat up in Wrexham somewhere so we don't have to travel too far every day.. There's a surprising amount of jobs going in that area too, so i may be moving very soon, which is a scary and exciting thought :D growing up at last :O  Ooooh more news, more news... My mum and dad are buying my nans house for her, since we've paid off the mortgage on ours now... She's always rented it, but my parents have suddenly decided to buy it and help her pay the mortgage so she can own the house! That means she'll have a lodger (aka me) with her if and when i go to Brighton XP So yay, it's all kicking off now X3
Anywho, i gotta go clean up some stuff and do the dishes, so that's all for now i guess :D

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Woooooow haven't written in here in ages. I'm only really writing in here now so i can have a belated spazz about Diversity winning BGT X3 I'm going to marry Ashley and adopt the little afro kid, who i think is called Perry... or something like that, i don't care, he's absolutely adorable, i could fluff his hair all day X3 and i'm sooooooo glad they won, i've been rooting for them from the moment they auditioned, so yay! Happy X3

Yeah, i'm meant to be on holiday this weekend.. But i came home early. Long story, don't feel like explaining it, but i'm gutted really... I wanted to see my family, but i didn't even make it to south england before i came home =[ So yeah, feeling very moody and depressed and lonely.. But despite feeling lonely, i also don't want to see anyone. I'm a self-destructive person like that XD I dunno, Mizz wanted to come over, but i kind of avoided the subject... Dom wanted to come over but i bipassed that altogether... It seems that i live to make myself miserable, and i have no idea why XD Oh well, parents will be back soon and i'll be wishing i was on my own again XD

Umm... Not much else to report. Got my college interview on Weds and if i don't get in then i'm completely screwed for life so wish me luck XD

That's it really :D 

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I AM VERY VERY PISSED OFF AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY >:{  <<<good face there o.O   BUT IM STILL REALLY PISSED OFF!!! I have no idea what's getting to me so much, i have no real reason for being pissed off, i just feel like smacking someone round the head with a bit of wood =___=;; I'll get over it XD

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Omg i've just realised i feel really fooking sick D; and good effort with the pink writing ET, thats mint (Y)

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Weeeeelll, contrary to what i expected i actually ended up enjoying working at the races :D twas a fun time..
Had a rough night last night. Was feeling very hormonal and tired and upset about everything, and i think i pissed Omari off somehow cuz he was being really arsey with me this morning which has upset me =[  But Nath has been the best friend he could possibly be today and made me feel better, so i love him for that =] BROS OVER HOES LMAO!!!

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LMAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOO! I'm having one of those uncontrollable giggling fits right now, because i just remembered the conversation i had earlier with Chad, which cracked me up XD I was absolutely fuming because my art teacher had just pretty much got the head of the art department and ganged up on me with her to threaten to pull me out of the art exam, for no good reason either! But that's not important, what was important was the conversation i had with Chad afterwards XD We were walking up town, past a building site so i could go home and follow the bloody commandants orders.

Me: *spots a small digger* I want that digger. I want to steal it and kill Miss Batten with it.
Chad: Yeah, just chase her down the street with it.
Me: Scooping at her face.
Chad: BATTEN!!!! I'VE GOT A DIGGER!!!!
Me: *bursts out laughing*
Chad: "Yeah, i've got a digger, and what have you got, your paintbrushes?? Ooooh?" and she's there in the digger scoop just waving her paintbrushes around screaming.
Me: *laughing hysterically*
Chad: And you just go and hold her over a cliff, and she's like "oooh no, i'm over a cliff in a digger!" and she can't move for an hour, so she's stuck there with her paintbrushes.
Me: *died from hyperventilation long ago* XD

It was so funny XD Him and Amz always manage to make me laugh, even when i'm in the most horrible mood XD And later on we were just sitting there talking normally...

Amz: So what are you gonna do?
Me: Well i'll get the bus back i think, or i might get a taxi so i don't have to walk with it all.. I'll give you a text anyway.
Chad: *in a really goonish voice* ONION
Me and Amz: *crack up*
Chad: SWEEEEEEEEEDE
Me and Amz: *dead*

Awesome times XD I might actually miss Sixth form =3

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I got the job at Chester Racecourse :D I don't think i even wrote about it in here... But anyway, i got it XD It sounds like amazing work to be fair, because you can choose when you want to work. If you don't want to work for a few weeks, then they're fine with that, they just let you do whatever hours you're comfortable with, and it's bar work which should be great fun! Also, £6.50 an hour ftw, i was only on £5.17 at Makro :D *happy*

I had the biggest spazz ever last night... I left Oblivion on for a few hours by accident and when i came upstairs my Xbox had red ring of death D: i nearly cried XD But i unplugged it all and left it to cool down over night, and thank god it had just overheated! It's working fine again today XD I nearly had a heart attack, jeez XD

Catrina's party tonight which should be fun ^_^ I've had a free house since thursday and Amz has been over, so we've made a lovely mess XD oddly enough though i actually enjoy cleaning the house, so i'm going to spend a couple of hours tidying up and then i'm going to pass out on the floor XD I'm exhausted! I've been going to bed really late every night but getting up at 9 every morning o.o not like me at all! XP

I think that's all i had to say... Yep!

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My house smells so nice today! My mum is cooking a big Indian banquet because we have 11 guests coming over for dinner tonight. It was absolutely hectic last night till about 11pm, with me and my mum and dad rushing around the kitchen making sure everything was prepared so we could just whack it in the oven today XD I went to bed exhausted and smelling of curry XD but now it's all cooking, and dad's burning about a million incense sticks all around the house, it smells soooooooo nice and... well, Indian XD I'm really looking forward to tonight now, even if i have to put up with noisy relatives in my house, it should be fun!
Uhhh... I don't really have any other news... I'm having a big spring clean this week, starting with the computer room and then my bed room and then the rest of the house while my parents are away next weekend, because i think everything is getting too dusty and no one else can be bothered cleaning properly XD My family go for the 'stuff it in the cupboard and forget about it' method... So, this week is the big clean XD Other than that nothing else exciting is happening... It's finally getting summery though, which makes me happy =3 I'm definately a summer person XD FESTIVAL SEASON AHOY! Me and Amz are going to Download and Bloodstock this year :D I've decided i don't care about spending ridiculous amounts of money on tickets and tents and alcohol and clothes and things, Download this year looks like it's really going to be a once in a lifetime, so i'm not missing it for anything! Wheeeeeeeeee!!! Excited now X3

I think that's everything... Tatty bye!

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I had an epic anime dream last night :D i don't often dream in anime, but this was like a proper episode with awesome characters and an actual storyline, i was well impressed XD aaaaahahahah

I desperately need a job... I r wanting to Bloodstock and Download this year, because Dir en Grey at Download = me there with booze and big hair XD  and Bloodstock is just epic win so i don't want to miss it :D I'm withdrawing money from my big savings account tomorrow o.o so depending on how much i decide to get i might just go for it and buy Download AND Bloodstock tickets and fuck my finances for the future, i've always been one to live in the moment and regret it later, so that's what i intend to do XD

I never learn, do i?

Going to bite the bullet and apply for Tesco soon too =/ i'm still not desperate enough to apply at Maccies though XD

That is all.

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Aaaargh, i'm so freaking tired... I've been sleeping really badly these last few days, which is fairly unusual for me... I either sleep really well or don't sleep at all, but recently i've been having alot of this stupid 'falling asleep only to wake up every hour for no reason at all and then go back to sleep again'... so yeah, hate iiiit. Can't wait for the easter holidays, when it'll be ok for me to lie in bed all day, because that seems to be the only time i can actually get to sleep XD
Ummmm don't think i have anything else today... Been re-addicted to Soul Calibur 4 tonight, i've been playing it for nearly 4 hours straight and that's not even bad for me o.o i'm such a game freak XD
Buuut now i'm to tired to think, which means i'm too tired to type, which means i'm going to go and TRY and get a normal nights sleep... Bleh.

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Waaaaa, i'm not feeling too good =___= i didn't sleep well at all last night... You know when you have one of those nights where you're just tossing and turning and you can't get comfy, and then you open your eyes and it's light and you're like 'wtf, did i even sleep at all?'... Well that's what i had last night, and i woke up this morning feeling like death, ran to the bathroom and spent half a delightful hour throwing up =___= so not happy. Got to go into school for last lesson to pick up a camera to do film work, but i really don't feel like it. Thankfully, i'm not actually in the film this time so i don't have to act or do anything except point the camera and shout instructions at someone else XD I still need to find a guy to drag to buckley, and i've got the doctors tonight so i'm going to have to get a lift up later with my mum which is going to make life even harder because it means whatever guy we drag there has to find his own way there... BAH. *wants to curl up in bed again* It's fine, we'll work it out somehow...

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HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

I feel like i haven't written in here in ages... I really have been neglecting my diary since i used to write in here diligently every day and rant about nothing at all... I have no idea how i did that XD Although exciting things have been happening.. Well, no they haven't, but i'm just in a very unusually good mood considering it's sunday evening X3 lol a french person is talking to me on msn o.o aaah fun times... So what has happened that i wanted to talk about? Uhm... Ok, start with wednesday, i failed my theory test by THREE BASTARD POINTS!! THREE!!! Lol:

Woman: I'm sorry, but you've failed by three points.
Me: OH BASTARD SHITFUCK OF CRAP FACED ARSE CRAP WHORE!
Woman: ...Well that's a reaction i haven't seen before..
Me: :D

So yeah that was amusing XD  Went to pentre on thursday and met Barry (seriously, that's his name) again... Did i mention them last week? i don't think i did... We met Barry and Rob when i was drunk and giving out rolos to people and Rob was like omg sexy... And they invited me and Amz to this camping/festival type thingy and Rob said he'd get us tickets because he's working it so he can get them free.. So we were like 'yay fit guy buying us stuff!' ...But he wasn't there this week because he'd been arrested XD and me and Amz were obviously like 'oooh that makes him even sexier!' because we're awesome like that...But he's coming next week so yay, sexy ahoy XD We were playing various drinking games, wherein i ended up snorting vodka and red bull and then spitting it all over the table and my own face XD we were having a generally good time and then Barry and his 2 friends who's names i have totally forgotten asked if we wanted to go back to his house to have a drink and chill... But by the time we got up by Oasis in Queensferry me and Amz had sort of realised it was a really stupid idea to go wandering off into the night with three drunk guys who were obviously only interested in one thing XD so we left them somewhere and took shelter in the chippy where we made friends with the crazy foreign person in there who kept talking about giving Amz a 'free giant sausage' and she was so slow on the uptake it was hilarious XD she thought he was genuinely going to give her one of the sausages XD So fun night all round... Friday Amz's dog got put down, so i crawled out of bed and got dressed and went over there and i ended up crying as well, and we both cried, and then we watched an absolutely insane french movie and ended up laughing our asses off like usual :p but RIP Holly, she was such a lovely dog :(  <3
This weekend has been a nice lazy one, i've pretty much just blobbed around and done artwork... School wise i'm having a great old time because i'm FINALLY studying Roger Dean for an art exam, which is something i've wanted an excuse to do for YEARS! So i'm thrilled XD still have a mahoosive amount of film work to do, but we managed to film most of it, cut it, edit it and do the sound for it in a week, so considering we only have like 30 seconds left to film i doubt we'll have a problem with that :D
Harummm... Did i have anything else to report? o.o no i don't think so... Life is generally good at the moment :D which means only the occasional mad rant from me, like this one :D
Oh one more thing. I'm cutting all my hair off and dying it silver in a couple of weeks. Because i can. YAY :D
Right i'm going to shut up and go to bed now before i write a novel ;P

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I missed the bus again today XD No surprises there since i didn't go back to bed until 4am last night, and it feels like i've only had 3 hours sleep when i actually had closer to 10... stupid messed up sleeping patterns... I knew i would feel like poop today... Gah. And i have to get up super early tomorrow because i'm going into chester with my mum and she leaves the house at like 7.45... CBAAAAA... then i have an hour once i get there to find the test centre and go and fail my theory test :D fun fun... Bleh. Better go now, if i miss the NEXT bus i'm really screwed, because i'm meant to be in my film lesson in about 10 minutes >.< *head/desk*

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