Nice car! Where'd you get your ride?
A trophy, badge of honor, over-compensation?
Nice tie! Advertise your pride
Since when did what we pay for colored cloth guage our gravity??

Ah ha!

So you got your little world
Picture perfect, its a pearl
Now go and try to sleep in the bed you made!!

You should be careful what you wish for!
Because everyone of us has the devil inside
You should be careful what you wish for!
Because all of what amounts becomes you

No you're not the first to fall apart
or even the first one to complain
you better get careful or
you'll compromise everything you are

The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us,
You're all the above

"Im making the choice to be out of touch.
Leave me be," he said! He said
"Leave here in my
Stark raving, sick sad little world
leave me here!"

I've never had a fake confidence
It's more than I would care to explain
But I have an open door
policy When it comes to blame

The world is a joke when out of love
Please come back to us,
You're all the above

"I'm making the choice to be out of touch,
leave me be," he said. He said

"Leave me here in my
Stark raving, sick sad little world!
Leave me be"

Hey guys my com got utterly assassinated by the nastiest virus I've ever seen. I'll try to stay active on my phone until I can get it wiped and fixed, which could be a while :(

Hey my Internet is down, so sorry to all my new friends, but it might be a day or two before I can get back on in full capacity. Of course my phone still works and you are all welcome to text or call me. My number is on the friends only info thingy at the bottom of my house wiki. I'm still brainstorming all those rp ideas! Any way I love you guys, and hope to be back to rp, hang out and write soon!

Hey So I'm Back! Things are better than they were before. I got my shit straightened out, stopped doing drugs, and I have 82 days clean and sober! woo, lol. Anyway i'm not any sort of born again freak just because I had something of a life changing event, but I like to think I got a better grip on things now. I'm out job hunting, and I'm not isolating and feeling miserable. That's a pretty big change! Anyway i missed all you guys while I was gone, and I'm glad to see some of you missed me! I hope y'all like the new me, because I do. See you around!

Wear the Grudge like a crown
Of negativity
Calculate what you will
Will not tolerate
Desperate to control
All and everything
Unable to forgive
Your scarlet letterman

Clutch it like a cornerstone
Otherwise it all comes down
Justify denials and
Grip them to the lonesome end

Clutch it like a cornerstone
Otherwise it all comes down
Terrified of being wrong
Ultimatum prison cell

Saturn ascends
Choose one or ten
Hang on or be
Humbled again
Humbled again

Clutch it like a cornerstone
Otherwise it all comes down
Justify denials and
Grip them to the lonesome end

Saturn ascends
Comes 'round again
Saturn ascends
The one, the ten
Ignorant to
The damage done!

Wear the grudge like a crown
Of negativity
Calculate what you will
Will not tolerate
Desperate to control
All and everything
Unable to forgive
Your scarlet letterman

Wear the grudge like a crown
Desperate to control
Unable to forgive
And sinking deeper

Defining
Confining
Sinking deeper

Controlling
Defining
And we're sinking deeper

Saturn comes back around
To show you everything
Lets you choose what you will
Will not see and then
Drags you down like a stone
Or lifts you up again
Spits you out like a child
Light and innocent

Saturn comes back around
Lifts you up like a child
Or drags you down like a stone
To consume you 'til you
Choose to
Let this go
Choose to
Let this go

Give away the stone
Let the ocean take and transmutate
This cold and fated anchor
Give away the stone
Let the waters kiss and transmutate
These leaden grudges into gold

Let go
Let Go
LET GO!

Okay, so, Thanks to Noxxie and Akane I guess I'll stick around. Those two girls are really nice.

What was it like to see
The face of your own stability
Suddenly look away?
Leaving you with the dead and hopeless?

Eleven, and she was gone
Eleven is when we waved goodbye
Eleven is standing still
Waiting for me to free her by
Coming Home

Calling me with a sound
'wakening me within a gesture
Drawing me down and in
Showing me where it all began...
Eleven

This has truly scarred you, Eleven,
But you are the voice that's been calling me back Home!

UNDER A DEAD OHIO SKY...
Eleven has been and will be waiting
I'm defending her light and one dream

Eleven I have found you!
Sleeping lost, and numb, blind
Eleven I have found you!
I am wide awake!
And headed home!

Come with me... I know you remember me...hold your light, hold you light, please believe this memory

I am with you please be free
To relay a memory
Hold your light, hold your light
Hold your light where I can see!

I"M HEADED HOME!

HOld your light
Eleven leaded through each gentle step, by step
By inch by loaded memory

I'll move to heal you
As soon as pain allows so we can
Reunite
ANd both move on together

Hold your light
Eleven lead me through each gentle step, by step
By inch by loaded memory
Till 1, and 1, are one!
Eleven so
GLOW CHILD GLOW
I'm HEADED BACK HOME!

My blood before me in this empty grey house
On this dusky grey floor
I couldn't swear I cut myself with this shattered piece of glass
I couldn't tell you what was broken first

It feels like theres suppose3d to be magic words said here
Something to give this blood meaning
I couldn't swear to you who I is, who I am
I could tell you I cam here to cut you
Can you swear to yourself who you are too?

Dual HARAKIRI Vol. 2
By Darran Kern

What solace
Lies in the arms of fate?
-The ill embrace of uncertainty

When did all of this Deny our hands
To be pulled down against

Ripped away by destiny's claws,
Am I another of fate's possessions?
Dwelling the lie of freedom
Just another Straw Pulled at Random

Reclaimed by deceiving time
A silent judgment I can not overrule!

Drawn back into the origin
Uprooted and ground to dust!
Retracted into anti-existence
A magnet repelled by life's polarity

Denied the self control of fate
We flow suspended in semi-life
Until the ever imminent day when oblivion claims our breath

Nowhere indefinitely
Not dead, not alive
Existence-patterns ripped of symmetry
As will and fate divide!

Have I appeased the gods of fate?
Am I allowed another day?
Must I die to escape the scanning eyes of death?

-Straws Pulled at Random
By Meshuggah

A groan...
Of tedium escapes me, Startling the fearful
Is this a test? It has to be
Otherwise I can't go on

Draining Patience
Drain vitality
This paranoid, paralyzed
Vampire act is getting old

But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
I'm still right here

But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
I'm still right here

Gonna wait it out
Be patient
Wait it out

And if there were no Rewards to reap
No loving embrace to see me through
This Tedious Path I've chosen here
I certainly would have walked away by now

And I still may

Gonna wait it out
Be Patient

And If there was no Reward to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This Tedious Path I've chosen here
I certainly would have walked away
By Now

I don't follow

Because I should  not

You left me here... you said you were.....not...not...not


I don't cry! I
Don't think I should

You couldn't last through this
Didn't think you would

But I can see what haunts you Inside
Inside
Our nightmares come to life
Inside
But Inside we come to life

A bronze plated statue's bearing me
Deeper in Gold
And who could shelter us alone?
As we Grow Old?

You're slowly....
Slowly growing old, old, old
You're slowly, You're slowly growing old, old, OLD!

Can you nurture me
In the Ritual?

oh..
To Change
What the child will grow to be?

YOU'RE PONDERING AN EVER-FUCKING-INTIMATE STRUGGLE!

Is it the nature of the child?
Can you nurture him to satify your needs?

Selfishly...
you satisfy..your needs
Selfishly......you satisfy your needs...
Selfishly... YOU SATSIFY YOUR NEED!

Selfishly...you...........

You pick apart my soul
And set it before me
Oh.. I feel all these times,
and I slowly came unglued

Life picks out the path and sets it before me!
Your free will is not an option
, you see
In The End
YOU'RE JUST A PAWN JUST GETTING USED

In the end....
We end up getting used..
In the end, we end up getting used

But in the End, I can see you through.



-Melancholy
Theory