[Sideways]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2012-04-07
Written: (4613 days ago)

The piercing, radiant moon
The storming of Poor June
All the life running
Through her hair

Aproaching guiding light
Our shallow years in fright
Dreams are made winding
Through my head

Through my head
Before you know
I'm awake

Your lives are open wide
The reasons give them sight
All the life running
Through her hair

The Spiders all in tune
The evening of the moon
Dreams are made winding
Through my head

Through my head,
Before you know
Awake!

Through my head...Through my head
Before
You know I will be waiting all awake...

1149080  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-03-30
Written: (4622 days ago)

Theyre trying to build a Prison

Following the Rights Movement
You clamp down with your iron fist
Drugs become conveniantly available for all the kids

Following the Rights Movement
You clamp down with your iron fist
Drugs become conveniantly available for all the kids!

"Well I buy my crack
I smack my bitch
Right here in Hollywood!"

Nearlly two million Americans are incarcerated
In the Prison System
In the Prison System of the U.S.

They're trying to Build a Prison!
They're trying to Build a Prison!
They're trying to Build a Prison!
For you and me to live in!
Another Prison System
Another Prison System
Another Prison System

Minor drug offenders fill you prisons
You don't even flinch
All our taxes paying for your war against the new non-rich

Minor drug offenders fill you prisons
You don't even flinch
All our taxes paying for your war against the new non-rich

"I buy my crack
I smack my bitch
Right here in Hollywood!"

The percentage of Americans in the Prison System
The Prison System
Has doubled since 1985

They're trying to Build a Prison!
They're trying to Build a Prison!
They're trying to Build a Prison!
For you and me to live in!
Another Prison System
Another Prison System
Another Prison System!
For you and me
They're trying to build a Prison for you and me
Oh baby, you and me...

AH!

All Research and successful Drug Policy SHOWS
That treatment should be increased
and Law Enforcement DECREASED
While abolishing mandatory. minimum. sentances!

All Research and successful Drug Policy SHOWS
That treatment should be increased
and Law Enforcement DECREASED
While abolishing mandatory. minimum. sentances!

Utilizing drugs to pay for secret wars around the world
Drugs are now your Global Policy
Now you police the Globe!

"Well I buy my crack
I smack my bitch
Right here in Hollywood!"

Drug money is used to rig elections and train brutal, corporate-sponsored dictators around the world!

They're trying to Build a Prison! 
They're trying to Build a Prison!
They're trying to Build a Prison!
For you and me to live in
Another Prison System
Another Prison System
Another Prison System!
For you and me!
AH!
They're trying to Build a Prison for you and me...
Oh baby, you and me.

1149076  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-03-30
Written: (4622 days ago)

Ugh, think my roleplay writer's block is gone! So if you have a roleplay in need of descriptive, master posting, I'm very versatile, so please invite me!

1148997  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-03-27
Written: (4624 days ago)

Push back the square
Now that you need her
But you don't
So there you go
Cuz back in School
We are the Leaders
Of it all

So

Transpose! Or stop your life
It's what you do
Transpose! Or stop your life
So Run!

So why don't you run? Why don't you run
Back to School

All you are
See I'm on the next page
All you are
So it's time to put the Book up
All you are
Yeah I'm on the next page
All you are
Hey who's the bookworm now!

Push back the square
Now that you kneed her
In the throat
Now there you go

Cuz back in School
We are the Leaders
Of it all

So why don't you run?

1148919  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2012-03-26
Written: (4626 days ago)

Of the moment quiz time!

TV Show of the moment: Through the Wormhole with Morgan Freeman
Activity of the moment: Volunteer work/ D&D
ET Member of the moment: [Aeolynn]
Food of the moment: DiGiorno stuffed crust pizza
Object of the moment: Dragonsluggie plushie
Misery of the moment: No Xbox
Quote of the moment: "So fell Lord Perth, and the ground did shake with that thunder."
Character of the moment: Leon Thunder
Movie of the moment: Memento
Song of the moment: "No More Tears" by Ozzy Osbourne

Bonus lyric of the moment:
"Cant understand the day you left
Mentioned something 'bout it being for the best
And I can't say I disagree
But it's killing me

Now I'm standing facing west
Tracing my finger 'round your sillhouette
I haven't gotten used to it
But it's the brightest thing I got
When I'm covered in rain."

1148910  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-03-25
Written: (4626 days ago)

Found this while moving boxes. The lyrics to a song I wrote from my old band.

With willing eyes/ and rotting brain
I crawl to grasp your love
Out from beneath those you hold high
In truly spiteful retort/ and high refrain
I slide to taste your love
Out from under your lowest lies

There you go, on and on, and I stay here
Comparing the lie of your beauty to those I draw near...

But this I implore you
Be precious to me...
And listen to me well
If I shouldn't love you... If I should hate you
Then I might go.

With sinful voice I decry your pain
All crushed up worries inside my brain
You let it out and it draws near
Slavering jaws drip spit like tears

You could've stayed mine,
But I'm alone here to pray!
You should've stayed inside
But you went walking away!

Now I'm left alone to face my fears
Snapping teeth at any beauty that draw near

But this I implore you
Be Precious to me...
And listen to me well
If I shouldn't love you... If I should hate you
Then I might go

INSANE!!!


"Precious"
by The Thoughtful Thinking  

1148822  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-03-15
Written: (4636 days ago)

Across the floor in the hand of where we drove the drill
A cautious ear to the mouth of your confession
Think of all the things we put him through
In the face of his god would he tell the truth?

Still recorded were the words that dribbled out his kiss
When eyes go blind in this man of what could once become-

Sever the limbs of his torso in sleep
And burn what remains so the world may now see no longer
Will we wait for your answers
Now back to the hell where you've come from

Think of all the times you once had
Write them in a letter that says goodbye
And I! Goodbye!

You'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
You'll stomach the hurt, and break for him here just how much he's worth

Slowly discarded were the remains of his lonely youth
Among the alley where the dwellers scared to notice

Picture a young boy in pieces and streets with leveled malfunctions
No name to be called redeemer
We'll fix him restore him!
With the love if no other

Think of all the things you did before
Write them in a letter that says reborn
Reborn!

You'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
You'll stomach the hurt, and break for him here just how much he's worth

Following you across the interstate walking away
I'll fire on!
On the wrong way out
On the causeway to Neverwhere

Dear my friends in the time we've spent
Forever and after beyond this, when will our nightmare ever end?
Dear my friends in the time we've spent
Forever and after beyond this, when will our nightmare ever end?

Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops
Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops
Forever you will, forever you will learn
Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops
Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops
Forever you will, forever you will learn
Missing: </i>Missing: </b>

1148520  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-03-08
Written: (4644 days ago)

Behold, I didn't say watch, damn you
Curse your eyes with black pools of smoke
Hide in your armchair in dim corners of darkened rooms
Splayed out like you're fucking the shadows
A lit cigarette cherry like a third eye scanning

Across acid pitted mahagony tables, landmines across the loud wood floor
My buckled boots announced me from down the hall
Sure, I killed you in the basement, but above ground you haunt me now

Words don't do justice to the hate translated by two pale blue orbs
Reflected glass floating in the sea of pepper,
That fucking color that's neither black nor grey
Would that I could cut you like I did before
But there's not courage for that
I could, you know?

If even your name was the herald of soulful violence
Mine is still seppukku, my belly open wide
Fuck you, I said behold! Fear my thunderstorm
I can see your hands aren't around my chair arms,
They're around my throat

I'd sit if you left any chairs, but you prefer my legs worldweary
My broken blade is still sharp, I swear it
It's better half will remain in me to remind me of this
The other place I'd rather not go--the house on the hill
With a basement of crumbled glass and dust

Still, with a smile, I see the first bit of rain punch through the rotted cieling
A droplet upon your face...


Dual HARAKIRI: Vol. 3
By Darran Kern

1148300  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-03-02
Written: (4650 days ago)

Pretty soon, I don't know when, but Something is going to Happen...

Time can kill the greatest of men
Even the strongest
Find themselves on the floor
It doesn't have to be this way

Time keeps moving on and on

Fragile time
Can not waste again
Fragile time
Can't be laid to rest
Fragile time
Can lead you to the grave, or
Fragile time
Can start eternity

It kills their walk
I watch them wash away
It kills their walk
I watch them wash away
And It kills their walk!
I watch them wash away!
It kills their walk
I watch them wash away


It's all worth while
As Time goes on
It's all worth while
As Time goes on
It's all worth while
As Time goes on, and on, and on...
 

1147533  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-02-09
Written: (4671 days ago)

Well, sorry for the false advertising on chapter 3. That stuff is in chapter 4, I forgot the huge flashback goin on in chapter 3 was too long to include the stuff I guarantee is in chapter four.

Also, I have about five or six active friends on et. I would like to have five or six watchers on the chapters. I know some of you could give a fuck about DragonBallZ, but this is the first completed novel, fanfiction or otherwise, that i have ever written. Even if you don't care for the subject matter, what I'm looking for, is your artistic input.

That's right, I'm not looking for praise, or little "Cool!" comments. I want criticism on the story. I want you to comment and lambast what doesn't work and laud what does. I want comments to appear under these chapters. I want DBZ fans to comment on what I change and fellow writers to remark on my writing style and the flow of the story!

Plus, I need a proofreader. Chapter three got revised at like 3:00 in the morning and it has ugly typoes I can't really mess with on my phone, so volunteers to proofread, um, I'll think of a little bonus to give.

For instance, I am currently writing the second novel of DragonBall Turbo, called Enter the Slave Master which is a fully original storyline. It has seven major villains in it, and I've been thinking of auditioning two of the villain spots to other DBZ fanfiction writers. What this means is if you give me a character concept profile, I may just write him/her into the story. Keep in mind there's a fair chance of that char becoming a reaccurring character if they're any good! The funny thing is, the titular character of Enter the Slave Master was just a loose concept sone idiot in rehab gave me when he saw me writing Cell Games Finale and I just took it, based the Slave Master around his personality, and started writing. It's been fun so far!

So, my friends, support and share DBT: Cell Games Finale, please!!!!??? It's very important to me!

1147281  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-02-03
Written: (4677 days ago)

Chapter 2 is finally fully posted on DBT: Cell Games Finale! Chapter threw is going up tonight! Expect a longer chapter with tons of action! Vegeta, Trunks, Piccolo, and Hercule are all in the thick of it tonight!!!

1147264  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-02-03
Written: (4677 days ago)
Next in thread: 1147331

WARNING: the following diary contains many, many uses of the word "fuck" and a consistant, unshakable hatred of Apple products. Enjoy!

Fuuuuuuuck! FUCK YOU APPLE! Your operating systems are fucking BULLSHIT!

Do any of you know how fucking FUCK much it blows to use Elftown on an iPhone? It fucking SSsSSSSsssUCKS
obviously they designed this glitchtastic, industry sub-par piece of trash just to surf fucking YouTube and do nothing else!

Do not even think I'm being ungrateful. This thing beats my 6 year old LG flipphone by the circumference of the fucking earth but COME ON!
Oh, by the way I pressed 17 buttons to make the eight character phrase "COME ON!" appear on this fucker. When did we invent the fucking shift key? 1712?????

It is im-fucking-possible to edit stories, or post on roleplays with this thing! Do you wanna know what I do to scroll to the bottom of a fucking page? I go to the last paragraph on the fucking white edit box and hit enter like fifty (no exageration, fucking FIVE ZERO times,) then I hit delete another, ANOTHER fifty times. If I am fucking four leaf clover lucky, this will drag text from beneath my visible edit structure UP to where I can fucking affect it. This often takes as many as eight tries, as this USUALLY causes iPhone to get confused and simply glitch the page out, making ANY editing impossible.

That's fucking right. If I were at that point to start typing "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times..." one of two things would happen. Either I hit "submit changes" and none of that shit appears, or I get

"It was the bxhodigsgodcjZkdjcxlgzfixkhzjgxkgzkfzkf"

fuck YOU Apple. Did you think on your fucking touch screen you could make the fucking thing distinguish between an edit box and the entire web page? Was that fucking impossible? Or to make this thing with enough ram to fucking handle fucking typing?

At this point in my rant, I had a "worst of times" glitch event, where I was forced to select-copy my rant, refresh the page, hit paste, and re-proceed to restrain myself from wishing steve jobs was burning in hell right now. And thank you, auto-correct, but I meant hell, not he'll.

Also, it is, so far as I know, impossible to delete ANYTHING off this phone. Movies, songs, broken-hopelessly glitched download queues that cause the pop-up prompt to enter my fucking iTunes password EVERY fucking THIRTY SECONDS!!!

FUCK YOU, APPLE!


Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to return to my two-hour and counting quest to see if I can continue posting Chapter 2 of DragonBall Turbo.

... Fucking shitPhone.
1147252  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-02-03
Written: (4678 days ago)

Of the moment quiz list! Feel free to post in your diary so I can learn about you!

Game of the moment: SmackDown! Here Comes the Pain
Anime of the moment: DragonBall-Z
Show of the moment: Justified
Song of the moment: "Orion" by Metallica
Shoes of the moment: Nike Air Force 1
Weather of the moment: Rain
Book of the moment: A Clash of Kings by George R.R. Martin
YouTube video of the moment: "Halloween is Grinch Night"
Quote of the moment: "What! You need to talk to Mr. Deez!"
Activity of the moment: Pokemon Roleplay
Crush of the moment: Echo!!!
Inspiration of the moment: TheAmazingAtheist, Jesus. (What?)


Bonus: lyric of the moment:
"...I'm standing on top of my Monopoly board
That means I'm on top of my game, and It won't stop
Till my hip don't hop anymore!
And you can't stand cuz it ain't cool to be cocky anymore!
And you spit when these fools can't dribble a drop anymore!"

1147067  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-01-29
Written: (4683 days ago)

For Echo!

From my heart and from my hand
Why don't people understand
My intentions?

Weird Science!
Plastic tubes & pots and pans
Bits and pieces and
Magic from the hand
We'll make it!

Weird Science!
Things I've never seen before
Behind bolted doors
Talent and imagination

Weird Science!
Not what teacher said to do
Living tissue,
warm flesh

Weird Science!
Plastic tubes & pots and pans
Bits & pieces and
Bits & pieces and

My Creation!
Is it real?
My Creation! It's my Creation!

Oooh, Weird Science!
Magic and technology
Voodoo dolls and chants
Electricity
We'll make it!

Weird Science!
Fantasy and microchips
Shootin' from the hip
Something different
We'll make it!

Weird Science!
Pictures from a magazine
Diagrams and charts
Mending broken hearts
We'll make it!

My Creation!
Is it real?
It's my Creation!
I do not know
Some hesitation
And a heart of gold
It's flesh and blood!
I do not know. I do not know!

From my heart and from my hand
Why don't people understand
My intentions?

Ooh Weird!
It's alive!
Weird!

Magic and technology
Behind bolted doors
Not what teacher said to do
Living tissue, we'll make it!

It's my Creation!
Is it real?
It's my Creation!
I do not know
Some hesitation
And a heart of gold
It's flesh and blood!
I do not know. I do not know!

Oooh, Weird Science!

1146950  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-01-26
Written: (4686 days ago)

Wisdom is outside, calling in the streets
She shouts in the town square, at the city limits,
Right here and now she says
"How long, you idiots? How long do you love stupidity?
The haters loving only their hating
And fools all hating the knowledge?

Step down when I say 'step off' See,
I'm holding nothing back here
I'm telling you right now!
Cause I called you out and you shook your head
I held out my hand and you wouldn't even look at it

But you won't heed my warnings, hear my truth
You wouldn't even listen when I dismissed you
I'll laugh then, when it comes down on you
I'll tell you 'I told you so' when you finally feel that fear

When your fear breaks your will, and your life
And this pain's on you like a tornado
When you're scared and the hurt is straight fucking you
Then you call me, but I'm not answering you by then

You'll even call early to try to get me and you won't find me
Because you hated the truth, and you wouldn't fear your Master
You wouldn't take my warning, you hated all of my answers."

Then, you all gonna get what's coming to you
You'll take everything you gave out
This was easy. you shoulda listened. Now you're dead.
The just desserts of fools is yours to eat, and it will end you.

Still, those who have the time to give a listen, listen now
And the Master can still keep you safe
And the knowledge will keep your thoughts free.

Proverbs: Chapter 1, Verse 20-33. "Hey yo bitch" translation.



1146913  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-01-25
Written: (4686 days ago)

a weird little song I relate to, and no, it's not about you.

Rocked, silent, in a soft lullaby
Panic stirred me awake
By a ringing phone in time
Where and when... Would I see her?

Crazy were the words
That scribbled out your mouth
I stuttered placing
Your face to those words
Where and when... Would I kill her?

I'll wish on this, I'll wish with this
I... I will wish
At the bitter end of my day, well, where were you?

But you had your turn, and you made it work
Now I'm the laughingstock of your joke
As crazy as it may seem, I cried for you when you
Told me to date all of the things
That made you end up in my life
And I'll believe anything... I have no luck with girls.

I overheard--That you were unhappy too
Misleading trust--Into a relationship that makes no sense
Over and out, Connecticut!
But you had your back turned
There as you faded away, at the end of my day
I found out: You weren't worth what I thought of you!

Write this down in your diary you abuse
Can I make plans? Can I just get through to you?
Is this weird? Do I scare her?!

I'll wish on this, I'll wish with this
I, I will wish
That you could share the love you shared with others
With me... Me

But you had your turn, and you made it work
Now I'm the laughingstock of your joke
As crazy as it may seem, I cried for you when you
Told me to date all of the things
That made you end up in my life
And I'll believe anything... I have no luck with girls.

I overheard--That you were unhappy too
Misleading trust--Into a relationship that makes no sense
Over and out, Connecticut!
But you had your back turned
There as you faded away, at the end of my day
I found out: You weren't worth what I thought of you!

Aha! Aha! What I thought of you?

So this isn't love!
So forever let it go! Forever let it burn
Here on the Backend of Forever, I wish I would never hurt again
What I thought of you?
I wish I would never hurt again

1146901  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-01-25
Written: (4687 days ago)

It's bugging me, grating me
And twisting me around
Yeah I'm endlessly caving in
And turning inside out

'cause I want it now, I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I'm not breaking down, I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

It's holding me, morphing me
And forcing me to strive to be
Endlessly cold within
And dreaming I'm alive

'cause I want it now, I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I'm not breaking down, I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

And I want you now, I want you now
I'll feel my heart implode
And I'm breaking out, Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode
Missing: </i>

1146863  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-24
Written: (4687 days ago)

This is for me and something I'm going through.

you had all of them on your side, didn't you? didn't you?
you believed in all your lies, didn't you? didn't you?

the ruiner's got a lot to prove he's got nothing to lose and now he made you believe
the ruiner's your only friend well he's the living end to the cattle he deceives
the raping of the innocent you know the ruiner ruins everything he sees
now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease

how'd you get so big?
how'd you get so strong?
how'd you get so hard?
how'd you get so long?

you had to give them all a sign, didn't you?
you had to covet what was mine, didn't you?

the ruiner's a collector he's an infector serving his shit to his flies
maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will suddenly realize
maybe it's a part of me you took to a place I hoped it would never go
and maybe that fucked me up much more than you'll ever know

how'd you get so big?
how'd you get so strong?
how'd you get so hard?
how'd you get so long?

what you gave to me
my perfect ring of scars
you know I can see what you really are
you didn't hurt me --nothing can stop me now.

1146821  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2012-01-23
Written: (4688 days ago)

This for the echo I heard last night


These days with the world getting colder
She spends more time sleeping over
Than I had planned

Tonight we're gonna order in
Chicken, wine and watching CNN
It dark I know but then again
It's the brightest thing I got

When I'm covered in the rain
I'm covered in rain
Covered in rain

From fireworks to fireplaces
Some are stored in far away places
Now we're people watching other people
People watching us right back now

Standing by the missing signs
At the CVS, by the checkout line
She puts her quiet hands in mine
Cause she's the brightest thing I got

When I'm covered in rain, in rain
When I'm covered in the rain, in rain

You'd said "Can't understand the day you left
You mentioned somethin 'bout it being for the best
And I can't say I disagree, but it's killing me..."

But now I'm standing facing west
Tracing my fingers round your sillouhette
I haven't gotten used to you yet
But you're the brightest thing I got!

When I'm covered in rain
Oh covered in rain, oh covered in rain
Now baby, don't mistake "that shit" fo love!

Cuz I love you, you.... Love you... You

Covered in Rain! In Rain! Let's say! Whatever!


1146766  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-01-22
Written: (4690 days ago)

"Oh, a working class face glares back
At me from the glass and lurches
Oh, forgive me, on the streets I ran
Turned sickness into popular song

Streets of wet black hoes
And worlds you can never know
You never have them, but they always have you
'Till the day that you croak
It's no joke!

Oh, a working class face glares back
At me from the glass and lurches
Oh, forgive me on the streets I ran
Turned sickness into unpopular song

And all these streets can do
Is to claim to know the real you
And know if you don't leave, you will kill or be killed
Which isn't very nice
Here everybody's friendly
But nobody's friends
Oh dear God, when will I be where I should be?

And when the palmist said:
"On Thursday you will be dead"
I said: "No, not me! This cannot be!
Dear God, take him, take them, take anyone
The stillborn, The newborn, The infirm
Take anyone!
Take people from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Just spare me!"


1146765  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-01-22
Written: (4690 days ago)

Nobody knows what human life is
Why we come, why we go
So why then do I know
I will see you?
I will see you in far off places

The heart knows why I grieve
And yes one day I will close my eyes forever
But I will see you
I will see you in far off places

It's so easy for us to sit together
But it's so hard for our hearts to combine
And why?
And why? Why oh why oh why?

Destiny for some is to save lives
But destiny for some is to end lives
But there is no end
And I will see you in far off places

If your god bestows protection upon you
And if the U-S-A doesn't bomb you
I believe I will see you
Somewhere safe
Looking to the camera, messing around
And pulling faces
Missing: </i>

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