[Sideways]'s diary
For Echo. With Love.
My Reflection? Dirty mirror.
No connection-- To myself
I'm your Lover. I'm your Sinner.
I'm the Face in your dreams of black
So save your prayers
For when we're really gonna need 'em
Through all of your shame and pride--
Wanna go for a ride?
She is.. The One... For me
She's all I really need! Oh yeah!
She is... The One... For me
Emptyness is Loneliness, and Loneliness is Cleanliness, and Cleanliness is Godliness
And God is empty. Just like me!
Intoxicated! With the maddness
I'm in love with-- My sadness
Enchanted kingdoms? Bullshit fakers.
Fashion victims with their charcoal teeth
I never let on
That I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself
For what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting MORE
She is... The One... For me
She's all I really need! Oh yeah!
She is... The One... For me
She's my one
And only.
Here we go again. Bedbugs. Hell lice. Immortal vampires. Demons.
In these words that crash my ears
I now stomach this in fear!
For in turn, I gathered name
As the bastard son
Who by fire I would come
Through this wire I might cut
Atop this tower of loss and lust
I'll gravitate towards you!
I will, in the now, Hate you!
You Know, You Know
I'll make you wish
You hadn't burned our time before
I'll live through this
In a manner-- cursed at my own accord
You Know
If my shame spills our worth across this floor
You Know
Then Tonight- Goodnight!
I'm Burning Star IV
Only I don't even think of you
No, I don't wanna think of you anymore
Goodnight- Tonight- Goodbye!
Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye
In my presence you might wake
Through this fiction I must fake!
Your death to grace the face
of my character
With these lessons he might learn
All worlds from here must burn!
For as God demands,
in the end we miss
You Know
If my shame spills our worth across this floor
Then Tonight- Goodnight!
I'm Burning Star IV
Only I don't even think of you
No, I don't wanna think of you anymore
Goodnight- Tonight- Goodbye!
Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye
...
--There is no room for mistakes, my love
For as I have been told....today is the day I go.
I'm sorry I never played the part as your friend, as I should have
And from the look on your face...it seems that's all you've ever asked of me
It is time for you to go into these worlds alone... with all of my love.
I'm sorry,
But I love you so, so very much.
...
I'll make you wish
You hadn't burned our time before!
I'll live through this
In a manner cursed at my own accord
I DON'T WANT TO GO!
So come on bitch!
Why aren't you laughing now?
You left me here
To fend on my own!
So cry on bitch,
Why aren't you laughing now?
Yeah!
If my shame spills our worth across this floor
Then Tonight- Goodnight!
I'm Burning Star IV
Only I don't even think of you
No I don't wanna think of you anymore
Goodnight- Tonight- Goodbye!
Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye
Okay, thank god for aliases! Under my legal name, my sith name is
Dark Jerker.
BUT!
Under my alias?
Darth Darker. BWAHAHAHAHAHAA
Dedicated to Echo.
Lay beside me-- Tell me what they've done
Speak the words I want to hear
To make my demons run
The door is locked now
but it's opened if you're True
If you can understand the Me,
Then I can understand the You
Lay beside me-- under wicked skies
Through black of day, dark of night
We share this Paralyze
The door cracks open
but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining!
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turned to stone
Behind the door-- Should I open it for you?
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?
Because I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven, too?
Come beside me,
This won't hurt, I swear
She loves me not,
she loves me still,
But she'll never love again
She lay beside me
But she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still,
she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead-sure she'll be there!
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turned to stone
Behind the door-- Should I open it for you?
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?
Because I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven, too?
Lay beside me
Tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun
Yes, now I see it
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages--Turned to stone
Behind the door-- Should I open it for you?
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?
Because I'm the one who waits
The one who waits for you
I take this key
And I bury it in you
Because you're unforgiven, too
Never free
Never me
Because you're unforgiven, too
I'm on my phone, so I do not engage in the 30 minute process known as copy-pasting YouTube links, but do yourself a favor.
Search "Teamfourstar dragonballz abridged parody" or simply "tfs abridged" what follows is the highest quality fan-made anime parody ever created. This shit is professional. And also, when I'm saying I laughed so hard I cried tears of joy and mirth and nearly asphyxiated, I am not kidding.
Sample dialogue from episode 18 (Frieza saga, on Namek, when Gohan steals Vegeta's final dragonball, and almost gets away with it by hiding the ball as Vegeta flies by.
V: I know I just sensed someone.You have three seconds to Show yourself! Or I'll turn this place into a barren wasteland! So... Pretty much the same, but on fire. *raises hands, charges attack* 3...2...1...
G: *pops up from behind rock* uh, Hi! Vegeta... Sir?
V: Well! If it isn't Moe Holland!
G: How did you even--?
V: Space-Hulu.
G: Figures.
V: *Lands in front of Gohan* so, whatcha doin out here?
G: *pales* oh... You know... Flyin around
V: Flying around?
G: *nods* Flying around
V: Thwartin my plans?
G: Thwartin your plans? *O-O*
V: Are you?
G: No?
V: Good. Cuz that would be bad.
G: How bad?
V: Id have to kill you.
G: Thats bad. *O~O*
V: Indeed. Stupid looking watch you got there. *peers at dragon radar*
G: *hides radar quickly.* Yes. *stern face* It tells time. And nothing else.
V: Well duh! That's what a watch does. *pimp look* Dumbass.
G: Well... I'd better be going....
V: Hold on a second, *kneels next to Gohan*
G: Can I... Help you? o~o
V: *caresses Gohan's face with evil look* No. But maybe I can help you....
G: O~o ...I need an adult!
V: *EvilER grin* I AM an adult. *Knee smashes Gohan's ribs in*
G: uh... ugh... *cough* collapses* X_X
V: Btw, I only hit you because I have pent up agression against your father. Lol. Take that. *flies away*
Keep your secrets in the dark
Nothing matters anymore
Body is breaking, Drive me crazy
This is not your place,
No, this is not your playground, it's my Heart!
We were stupid, we got Caught!
But nothing matters anyMore!
So what?
Here we are, Juggernaut.
Courage broken, lashed to scars
Could this love be what I want?
Body is breaking, Driving me crazy
It's your Fault!
We were stupid we got Caught!
But nothing matters anyMore!
So what?
Here we are, Juggernaut.
So let's Hang us a hangman
We'll bury our burdens in blood...
NO! NO!
Let's hang us a hangman
We'll bury our burdens in blood...
Become stronger, Juggernaut.
Answer me
Did we take this to far?
You've given all I could need
Did we take this to far?
But your Kiss won't leave me be
Did we take this to far?
And your Teeth just won't stop
Chewing out my Heart!
We were stupid, we got Caught!
But nothing matters anyMore!
So what?
Here we are, Juggernaut,
We are Juggernaut,
We are Juggernaut,
We are the Juggernaut.
What?
What?
What?
Re-ignition translation-- begin
Cosmopoliton reflection within
When our action cause reaction what starts
a transmission of a love in one heart
Re-ignition
Re-ignition
We love to make you overstand
that this gross sphere-- is not Jah land!
Apart-outside, who can escape
Our destiny confirmed in fate?!
Re-ignition cancellation-- can't win
No celesty to caress me begin
When grace melts inside your hand and my heart
Is the glory that much closer or apart?
Re-ignition
Re-ignition
We hope to make you overstand
that this gross sphere--is not Jah land!
Apart-outside, who can escape
Our destiny confirmed in fate?!
Always and forever-- near or far
Safe in your bosom-- here we are
Pain does not mean-- feel no joy!
Re-ignition-- for girl and for boy
Re-ignition
We hope to make you overstand
that this gross sphere- is not Jah land!
Apart-outside, who can escape
Millennium confirmed in fate!?
Most epic metal song ever. Depressing lyrics, but the song has a happy ending. The ending is instrumental tho, so you might not get it.
Straws Pulled at Random, by Meshuggah:
What solace-
lies in the arms of fate?
The ill embrace of uncertainty
When did I leave this-
in other hands
To be pulled down at chance?
Ripped away by destiny-claws,
Am I another of fate's possessions dwelling-
the lie of freedom?
Just another straw pulled at random!
Re-claimed-
by deceiving time-
A silent judgment-
I can not overrule
Drawn back!
into the origin-vortex
Uprooted and ground to dust!
Retracted into anti-existence
A magnet repelled by life's polarity!
Denied the self control of fate,
We flow suspended in semi-life
Until the ever imminent day
When oblivion claims our breath
Nowhere indefinitely!
Not dead, not alive!
Existence-patt
As Will
and Fate
DIVIDE!
Have I appeased the gods of fate?
Am I allowed another day?
Must I die to escape
The scanning eyes
of death??
(((world's most awesome song outro ever. Also, Tomas Haake(the drummer) is a percussion god)))
hope you at least liked the poetry, sugar.
I'm too lazy to do link bullshit on my phone, but if you really want to laugh your ass off (and maybe weep a little,)
Go to Youtube and type in "Gotye parody the starwars that I used to know."
You can get addicted to an overuse of graphics...
And making Greedo shoot first,
Han shot first
And when you try to make the Force make sense
You introduce the midichlorians.
XD
And you didn't have to change it all!
Have your friends direct your movies
And they'll turn out better!
XDDDD ;_; ....
Should be able to resume writing tomorrow
Sorry for being slow to start The Dark Tower: Wild Card... I'm insanely busy and worn out. I somehow got a 38 hour workweek immediately after getting hired, plus 9 hours of group, 7 hours of meetings, and, as always, I live with a bunch of hypocritcal cockbiting fuckfaces who keep me on the brink of insanity. So time to write has suddenly slimmed way down... And my addiction to ES5: Skyrim is not helping. Should be able to get more writing done soon tho
Starting a Naruto fanfiction. Perhaps I can find an audience for a more modern, popular anime ;)
Was it in the cold of that knife you screwed
In the heart of the enduring?
'Cause when you opened that door
You knew, well now, there'd be no returning
Or room to mourn what we have lost
To wait while they're willing
As you're the hound of blood and rank
And boy you've got another thing coming
Come on, come on, come on
You've gotta give it to me!
As though you wanted to
Come on and set me free! yeah!
I'll dig it 'til we've made your grave!
Oh, you've been a bad, bad boy
I'll cut until I carve it out
And stick it in a sad, sad song
Baby no no no
Why the bother? You're no brother
You're the wrong I need
Boy, we all found an audience
While you found the worst of me
You got another thing!
Put 'em up against the wall-- now they're of no use to you
God, it's time for the curing
Only your in for that big refuse
Surprise boy! This tide's come a turning
No room to mourn what you have lost
Oh, no waiting while they're willing!
Poor little Hound of blood and rank,
Who deserves every ounce of what's coming
Come on, come on, come on
You've gotta give it to me!
As though you want it too
Come on and set me free! yeah!
I'll dig it 'til we've made your grave!
Oh, you've been a bad, bad boy
I'll cut until I carve it out
And stick it in a sad, sad song
Baby no no no
Why the bother? You're no brother
You're the wrong I need
Boy, we all found an audience
While you found the worst of me,
You got another thing!
Come on, come on, come on
You gotta give it to me!
As though you wanted to
Come on and set me free! yeah!
I'll dig it 'til we've made your grave!
Oh, you've been a bad, bad boy
I'll cut until I carve it out
And stick it in a sad, sad song
Baby no no no
Why the bother? You're no brother
You're the wrong I need!
Boy, we all found an audience,
While you found the worst of me
You got another thing!
We caught you on the wrong side of lying
And in the dust we left you dying
If only words could keep you hiding
Well go on, cowards, we've offed you
Cowards, we've offed you!
I hope your life's a living hell
It's all on you, boy
I hope your life's a living hell
It's all on you, boy
Ok, putting it up now. :)
I'm posting the final chapter of my dragonballz fanfiction tonight, and starting the sequel to it, as well. Pretty much none of you read it, but I'm still proud of it and I'm still posting it. I don't hold it against anyone. I like my work, and am not asking anyone to pat me on the back of it. I really value comments and critiques, and I learn from suggestions. And yes, I love to know that others enjoy my work too.
So if you like DBZ, or enjoy criticizing writing, please go to DBT: Cell Games Finale. It's about 110,000 words, roughly the equivilent of a 150-200 page book. I really want to know what you think, pro and con, good and bad. Thank you!!!!
A war against time--destined to lose
I'll just sit and watch TV
A magical force--hypnoti
I'll take in all that I can see
I'm seeing chains now hold me down
The Recline of modern man
Neatly displayed in bundled lives
An hour glass --and I'm the sand
Generator--dec
Universal--dev
Ahhhhh
Cyber involved Adversity
So straighten up and go online
Sexual drive intensity, the darkest Pit that you can find...
Anonymous geeks Who can't keep pace
Put your life into a disk!
Strainful powers, a social disgrace
Wages war with little risk
Generator--dec
Universal--dev
Substitution--
Electronic--ab
Ahhhhhh
Ohhh...my head is always lost and always changing mind
Whats wrong just feels so right
I think I'm going blind!
Generator--dec
Universal-- devastator
Substitution-- evolution
Electronic--ab
Ahhhhhhh
Okay, rant time!
Ladies, look at Loki
This is the new Legolas. The new Captain Jack Sparrow. The new Sesshomaru. He is a new all time low in what fangirls femmefap to.
And I won't stand by it.
Okay, look at him again
Let's break down why he's not. Fucking. Attractive. Ever. With science!
1. Pale skin (a sign of low class, poorness, and ill health. I have it too, but I wouldn't call it a positive trait.)
2. Eyes are small and close together (a classic trait signifying low evil, animalistic tendancies, jealousy, and, above all, stupidity or ignorance)
3. Small, pointed chin (marks inferiority, effemininity, young naïveté, weakness and cowardice)
4. Thin, long nose (typical trait marking evil, psychosis, physical frailty, and thieving tendancies)
5. High, square forehead (I haven't looked this up to determine exactly what it means, but it's not attractive. even animes use this trait constantly in characters portrayed as unattractive)
okay, that's just his face. He's short, and mousey, and thin. His armor and clothes are so baffling to me because THOSE are all classic manly symbols, a scepter, shiny metal, horned helm, black trenchcoat. But he makes it all soooooo Pansy!
As for his voice. Ohhhh god. His nasally, whining, cringe worthy, four year old demanding a toy voice! Fuck his voice!
His mannerisms are all so devious, so coy, so preposterously self centered and supremely assholish. The way he's always crouching like a scheming cat and darting his beady eyes at everything.
I'm not trashing the character. Tom Hiddelston does a great job and his casting was superb.
But my point is he was deliberately cast and deliberately acted as the most pathetic, uninspired, cowardly, obscenely jealous, deliberately fashion-failin
Is this what I wish for those and they know
Could depend on how coward I should act
From Hell they shall crumble within<b>
If she won't give me the love I came here for
With pen I am armed here to react!
<b>Hey now, hey now, What is it boy?
All these things that trouble you,
Go visit your mirror image of what might have once behaved
Hey now, hey now, What is it boy?
No I won't rest, 'til dead. 'til dead do you part!
This is how I feel my god from what's been dealt
The flies that flutter fight--Tonight
From Hell they will crumble within
Is this love that I'm feeling or is this hate, the same?
The emotion's enough to kill the sane!
Hey now, hey now, What is it boy?
All these things that trouble you,
Go visit your mirror image of what might have once behaved
Hey now, hey now, What is it boy?
I only hope you know that I love you!
No you don't! Don't!
Feed little maggots off the westside
Of your sin
Run, little maggot
When they learn-- Of what you did
Feliz seria--que hora
Feliz seria--que hora
--From start to finish
I've made you feel this
Uncomfort in turn
With the world you've learned
To love through this hate.
To live with it's weight.
A burden-- Discerned
In the blood you taste--
But why would you deny me answers?
When I'm just a boy on the break of being
Honored in Hell, through it's fires
Be brutally honest ;
Was it better before me?
The curve of your body...
How I want--
How I want her with me
The truth of the story...
The visual
I wish you all!
A better end of all to come!
The truths be now here one by one!
I am to you, extant to none
The Memory to Fuel the Fire!
Lyrical Squish Tag:
"What's coming through is alive,
What's holding up is a mirror,
What's singing songs is a snake, and he's
Looking to turn my piss to wine
They're both totally void of hate
Killing me just the same...
The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me makes me
Open up my heart again
But I feel this commit
And over like a storm again...
Considerately
Venomous--Voic
Bleeds me, leaves me
Cracked and empty
Drags me down like some sweet Gravity...
The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me makes me
Open up my heart again
But I feel this commit
And over like a storm again....
I aim to
Connect if you
Slip away!
Fade away!
Days away I still feel you
Touching me--Changing me
Considerately killing me
Considerately killing me
Without the skin-- here
Beneath the storm
Under these tears-- here
The walls came down
And once the snake is drowned
I see the look in his eyes
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all the good times
I could have cried-- then
I should have cried-- then
And when the walls came down
There is this look in your eyes
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of the times
I have died
And will die
It's all right!
I don't mind
I don't mind
I Don't Mind!
I aim to
Connect with you
Stay, Don't
Fade away!
Days away I still feel you
Touching me
Changing me
Considerately killing me
Considerarely killing me
-H
by TOOL
Some actual poems I actually wrote:
Brain Freeze
It was the Bridge I crossed
On a morning deep with frost
I do not know what happened,
suddenly my mind was lost
It was the Bridge I crossed
On a morning deep with frost
.....
Destiny Decision
Take from me/ this cup
I will not taste it's poison
And yet/ For all Your shouting at what I must do
I trust to heed a smallest voice/ for what reason?
Beyond the lion's brawn
Beyond the eagle's sight
There's something in the beating of a beetles heart
As he scrapes the earth to be scraped off my shoe
Give back the cup/ I surely will fall
I hear, I heed, I love
I think/ Now I must/ A reason
I see all
....
Song of Illumanated Adversaries
A barren, desolate tyranny
This evil, radiant jealousy
A growing, twisted, violent tree
Draining the land with villainy
I take you,
Yeah you're mine!
I Am
The tie that binds
You to this fate
Annihilate
Your hopes and dreams and minds
Carving through the empty halls
Seeking warmer, cleaner, holy walls
Like an ion, stealing calls
Until the blessed, returned one falls
I take you,
Yeah you're mine!
I Am
The end of time
Of which to pray
To safely stay
Loved, and safe, and alive.
....
The Cleaning
I watch to observe something other than me
To relieve my constant pain
But how can I see what makes you worth
When I look only out
And let nothing in?
I wash out my soul!
And throw out all the trash
I am cleaned out and empty!
And nothing will come back
I write to create something other than me
To relieve my constant pain
But how do I make dreams reality
When I write it all out
And believe none of it?
I flush out my soul!
And scrub out all the plaque
I am cleaned out and empty!
And nothing will come back.
Copyright. Copyright Darran Kern 2003-2012. Copyright, damn you.