Lay Down
Sleep, my little darling
I'll be nothing when you're gone
Lay Down
Just like in a coffin
I'll have nothing but a song!
I'll leave you in that coffin for real...
And I'll leave you in a church!
Lay-- Down!
Leave, you'll be lonely
I know, I won't go!
Lay-- Down
Sleep, you'll be lonely
I know, I won't go
It's not my turn
Lay Down
This pain will be long gone
With the abscence of your breath
I Know
I know that you loved me
But I won't love you when you're dead!
So I'll leave you in that coffin for God
I'll leave you in the dirt!
Lay-- Down!
Leave, you'll be lonely
I know, I won't go!
Lay-- Down
Before me
I know, I won't go
It's not my turn.
</i>Missing: </i>
Crisp, cold, lovely, brittle
As transparent as lovers who never lie
Yet as bitter as foes who never die
Winter's wrath could mean quite little
Yet I have given my staff and cloak
Strapped my shoes on another's feet
To watch them walk away without turning
When at last, summer stops lending her heat
When my heart stops beating, and my eyes freeze shut
Exhausted, expiring on a lonely, snowy road
My last thoughts are lonesome, pitiful things
Of all the love given
And apparently never owed.
--"Frostman's Lament"
by Darran Kern
Words cannot express the sheer hatred I have for you. It's physically painful. I literally ache and hurt from your betrayal. You and I both know you did it on purpose and your goal was to force me to leave do you could maintain your pathetic victim mindset and you could go on pretending you're not a fucking reprehensible piece of shit. Because you are. And you'll never have a better life until you own your own choices and honestly repent of them. Then maybe you'll be capable of love, and empathy, and sacrifice. You certainly would not recognize those qualities, even if they were held in your face for 8 months.
I hate you people. You sociopathic, broken, idiot narcissists. Yeah, it's all my fault. It has nothing to do with your appaling lack of empathy or your outright inability to take responsibility for you own behavior. You're selfish and you're useless and your a liar and I hate you and I hate me for wasting so much time on your sorry ass. You aren't worth shit.
There's nothing to me now. An empty shell unfolded.
How, will we learn to pray
When inside our demons are laughing?
How long will this go on? Arent we a bit much stronger?
Do you think you can save
me from living this way?
I don't know how to love, I just know how to live.
All I feel is hate
Will you forgive me?
For all those things I've done,
they keep on creeping by me
And though we've changed our ways,
still all our demons are laughing.
How long will this go on? Aren't we to get much stronger?
I'd like to think
you've came into my life to stay.
I don't know how to love, I just know how to live.
All I feel is hate
Will you forgive me?
I don't know how to breathe-- with you too far away
Don't know how to love
Will you forgive me?
No, I can't live this way
I don't know how to love, I just know how to live.
All I feel is pain
Will you forgive me?
I don't know how to breathe-- with you too far away
I don't know how to love.
Past lives I've lived, Uncontrolled but sacred
You've finally seen all that's left of me
So hard to feel, So hard to breathe
Will you forgive me?Missing: </b>
There you go. That's the move you were looking for. Congratulation
A groan... Of tedium escapes me
Startling and fearful
Is this a test? It has to be
Otherwise I can't go on..
Draining-- Patience
Drains vitality
This Paranoid-- Paralyzed
Vampire act is getting old.
But I'm still right here
Giving blood-- Keeping faith
I'm still right here
I'm still right here
Giving blood-- Keeping faith
I'm still right here.....
Gonna wait it out...
Be Patient!!
Gonna wait it out...
If there was no desire to heal
No loving embrace to see me through
This Tedious Path I've chosen here
I certainly would have walked away
By now!
Be Patient...
Wait it out!
Be patient!
And if there were no rewards to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This Tedious Path I've chosen here
I certainly would have walked away
By now...
... And I still may...
*Sigh*
I still may...
Be Patient...
Be Patient...
Be Patient...
I must keep reminding myself of this
I must keep reminding myself of this
I must defend my name! Myself in this
I must keep reminding myself of this!
And if there was no desire to heal
No loving embrace to see me through
This Tedious Path I've chosen here
I certainly would have walked away
By now-- And I
Still may-- And I
Must keep reminding myself of this
And I'm...
Gonna wait it out....
Gonna wait it out...
Wait it out...
Wait.. It... Out...
For Echo.
I am the son...and the heir...
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of...nothing in particular
You shut your mouth! How can you say
I go about things the wrong way?
I am human! And I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
She is the sun... And the air
All that shines as the winter's getting colder
She is the sun and air...
And, nothing in particular
You shut your mouth! How can you say
I go about things the wrong way?
I am human! And I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
There's a club, if you'd like to go?
You could meet somebody
Who really loves you
So you go, and you stand on your own,
And you leave on your own,
And you go home, and you cry,
And you want to die...
When you say it's gonna happen "now"
Well-- when exactly do you mean?
See I've already waited too long
And all my hope is gone
You shut your mouth! How can you say
I go about things the wrong way?
I am human! And I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
Never mind all the lines drawn, I'm coming!
And there is no better part of me!
You'll see
The darkest light-- How blind I'll be!
I forget that you chose to accept
The horrid thing-- what's left of me!
My Dear
It is all right, you do know...
Our laughing feels so good!
But the world misunderstood-
There was no joke--in what I meant
Someone please come shelter me from
All that I am, and never again-- Will I
Believe the same old story!
Someone please come shelter me from
All that I am, and never again-- Will I
Relive the same old story!
I've given up on all I loved before
For honest moment of
Clarity!
Well, we need to feel alright
Please let me breathe
In a Life I made out of nothing
To cleanse this useless
Identity!
Will you hear all the world and its "Why?"s
Just wait...
Will the latter half be as good?
Well, it could- only I
Misunderstood
It's all my judgment,
I'm to blame
Someone please come shelter me from
All that I am, and never again-- Will I
Believe the same old story!
Someone please come shelter me from
All that I am, and never again-- Will I
Relive the same old story!
I failed
I failed you...
I Fail!
There's no understanding such miracles
When the worst-- It always comes true!
Ha! Still...
I am the nothing you have saved.
Someone please come shelter me from
All that I am, and never again-- Will I
Believe the same old story
Someone please come shelter me from
All that I am, and never again-- Will I
Relive the same old story!
It eats us like cancer-- we're hoping for something
Maybe an answer-- With all that you've done for me!
I gave you nothing
It eats us like cancer-- we're hoping for something
Maybe an answer--In all that you've done for me
I'm Made out of nothing
Made out of nothing
Hey! so I've been writing a Star Wars fanfiction for my friend [Maloryn]. It's working out great, and I'm really proud of it.
It's set in the Old Republic a couple hundred years after the Darth Bane trilogy in a timeline I'm pretty sure is empty and relatively fair game for me to shove whatever I want in there. It's a original characters, so I couldn't possibly invoke nerd rage for that stuff. But my lack of obscure technical knowledge and frequent abuse of artistic license might set somebody off, just a little ;)
If any of you awesome and generous Elftownians wanna look at it, it's on
Star Wars: The Needle
I haven't gotten it neatly organized and it's all first draft so far. But it's really good. :D
*blows whistle waves hands*
ex-girlfriend Gasoline blues
Last night I saw that beauty queen
Watched her paint her face on.
I want to be that magazine
She based this life on.
I wanna waste her monthly blood.
Wanna get some on my love
I want to get some gasoline
And burn her house down!
She got nothing to say.
She's got bills to pay.
Got no one to hate
Except for me.
Last night I saw that beauty queen
Gettin high on Revlon.
Wanna be that magazine
That she wastes her life on.
Wanna waste her monthly blood.
Wanna get some on my love.
Wanna get some gasoline
And burn her house down!
She got nothing to say.
She's got bills to pay.
Got no one to hate
Except FOR ME.
ME.
When I saw that beauty queen
I watched her paint her face on
I wanna be the one unclean
That she wipes her ass on.
Wanna waste her monthly blood.
Wanna get some on my love.
I want to get some gasoline
And burn her house down!
She got nothing to say.
She's got bills to pay.
She got no one to hate
Except for me.
She's got nothin but shame.
She takes pills for pain.
She's got no one to blame
Except for me.
For me.
I'm all dressed up with nowhere to go
Walkin' with a dead man over my shoulder!
Waiting for an invitation to arrive
Going to a party where no one's still alive
I was struck by lighting
Walkin' down the street
I was hit by something last night
in my sleep
It's a Dead Man's party
Who could ask for more?
Everybody's coming
Leave your body at the door
Leave your body and soul at the door.
Don't run away!
it's only me...
All dressed up with nowhere to go
Walkin with a dead man...
Waitin' for an invitation to arrive
Walkin with a dead man, dead man? A dead man!
Got my best suit and my tie
Shiny silver dollar on either-other eye
I hear the chauffeur comin' to my door
Says there's room for maybe just one more!
It's a Dead Man's Party
Who could ask for more?
Everybody's coming
Leave your body at the door
Leave your body and soul at the door.
Don't run away!
it's only me
Don't be afraid
of what you can't see....
Bored. Feel like making a silly list of cheers and jeers. *wonders if it will provoke anyone into conversation..
okay, here goes. The catagory is "All-time Favorite" and "All-time Hated." these are things that may not be my current favorites or agonies, but they're hall of fame type shit.
ALL-TIME FAVORITE
Movie: "There Will Be Blood"
Director: Paul Thomas Anderson
Best Actor (Acadamy Award, Golden Globe) Daniel Day Lewis
Song: "Just Another Day" by Oingo Boingo
Song Credit: Danny Elfman (yes, the same guy who did Batman and Night Before Christmas. No, it's not orchestral. No, you've never heard it. Ever. If it's on YouTube, I'll eat my hat.)
TV Show: "KABLAAM!" on Nickolodeon
Early 90s SNick show, sketch comedy animation that beat Robot Chicken by nearly a decade. Don't think I'll ever laugh that hard ever again.
Highlight: "The Prometheus and Bob Tapes" fucking gold for a kid. Still holds up ok, too.
Video Game: "Sonic the Hedgehog 2" Sega Genesis
This was the first video game I ever enjoyed playing. It was so awesome that my two-year inability to beat the second level didn't stop me from loving it. I didn't ever really enjoy real video games until I beat GTA: San Andreas for the first time age 16, but I never would have been a gamer, late-bloomer or no, without this game. When I finally beat it a couple years ago (it's one of the last games to require you to beat it in a single sitting before the advent of save files, also, the last level and two boss fights must be won while taking absolutely no hits whatsoever,) I cried. Because the comics, games, and cartoons of Sonic were my childhood. Nostalgiaaaaaa
BOOK: "Lisey's Story" by Stephen King
This one isn't well known. It's a powerf magnum opus story about an aging widow of a famous fiction writer now two years dead, as she pieces together her life without her famous husband. She wages war with a psychotic fan stalker who will not stop until she is dead, and through the life of her husband, and his strange childhood illness, mysterious past, and horrifying secret, she triumphs and forges her own
story.
This book is fucking victorious. You buy naow!!
Aaaand, quick movie genre breakdown, because I love movies and want to shove more in.
ACTION: "Terminator 2: Judgement Day"
COMEDY: "Groundhog Day"
THRILLER: "Memento"
HORROR: "Child's Play"
Drama: "Capote"
Now, it's time for the good ole meat an pohtaytoes, the shit I cannot. Fucking. Stand. Forever.
ALL-TIME HATED
MOVIE: "Beowulf"
This is the only movie in my life I have ever walked out of. It ruined the greatness of the epic poem. "Beowulf" was like the very first pulp action story. Sure it had some substance, but ultimately it was the Steven Seagal movie of it's day. The movie tried to square-peg an actual point to all the wanton violence. A Pansy, emo, bullshit point. Revolting. Offensive. Art style sucked.
SONG: "The Reason" by Hoobastank.
If you're not a musician, your brain simply cannot fathom the full spectrum FAIL that this song is.
The song is tedious, horribly paced, in a preposturous key and tone, and the lyrics are so bad, if you think of the lamest, most socially broken, ugly, half-retarded emo kid you knew in highschool, I guarantee you his poetry is better. Much better.
The true mortally sinful, hellbound part of this song is whoever produced it. The lead singer must have been absolutely high out of his mind, and the producer too, because whoever the singer is, whom I do not think is a bad vocalist, was BRUTALLY off key. UNBELIEVABLY so. Like, sounds like a stray cat, in heat, getting stabbed to death off key.
TV SHOW: "King of Queens" on CBS
Not funny. Not in the same galaxy as funny. Mind-numbingly not funny. Fuck you, CBS. That's right, keep hiding behind Big Bang Theory and rake in your CSI syndacation money. #1 comedy? Fuck you, King of Queens is not allowed to inherit Everybody Loves Raymond's mantel by default. NOT. FUNNY.
VIDEO GAME: "Ninety Nine Nights" for XBOX360
wow. You'd think after 20+ Dynasty Warriors games, somebody would do something right with the genre. Especially with a new console. WRONG.
BOOK:
Lemme preface this by saying that I'm about to piss a LOT of people off. That being said,
"The Vampire Lestat" by Anne Rice
Cannot. Fucking. STAND Anne Rice. She sucks. Very, very badly. Her writing is the equivalent of a sledgehammer. Blunt, super-forced, cold, metallic, ugly. LAME.
I loved Interview with the Vampire! I was pumped to read the next book. Then I read
"I am what you would call a 'rock star'" and knew from the first paragraph the mountain of elephant feces I was in for. Apparently the whole first book, in all it's genius, was an elaborate hoax, and I was reading the REAL story. Twilight. It's fucking twilight. With just a sprinkling of actual substance on the sunlight sparkles.
Movie genre blitz of SHAME:
ACTION: "Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines"
COMEDY: "Forgetting Sarah Marshall"
THRILLER: "No Country for Old Men"
HORROR: "The Hills Have Eyes"
thanks for reading! :D I'm excited for the hate mail
That last one isn't so good. But, dear Echo, this one is better. Hell, it's worth looking up. Google it.
I've got a Chrome Plated Heart
Wings on these fingers, tryin to tear it apart
Got angels cryin-- From up above
And they got rust in their eyes
Got rust on their love
But I have learned to leave no stone unturned
Keep the one against my back
And the love is real-- as the day is long
And the night is black...
As Black. As. Night.
I've got a two dollar stare
The Midas in my touch, And shine up in my hair
Got bad intentions-- from the soles of my shoes
Got red hot fever!
And these chromium blues
But I will feel another lover's wind
Drive for miles and not look back
And the love is real-- as the day is long
And the night is black...
As Black. As. Night.
And I'll dance in time!
And the times are rough
I'll pay the price!
And I'll pray that it's enough
And just outside your door
Where it always rains
I'll take the time to polish
These scratches-- And these stains!!
On my Chrome Plated Heart
Wings on these fingers tryin to tear it apart
Got angels cryin-- From up above
They got rust in their eyes
Got rust on their love
And the only way I know
Where the train will go
Is when I'm layin on the tracks
And the love is real-- as the day is long
And the night is black...
As Black. As. Night.
For Echo
When there's lightning
You know it always brings me down
Cause it's free and I see
that it's me
Who's lost and never found!
I cry out for magic
I feel it dancing in the light
it was cold
Lost my hold
To the shadows of the night!
No sign of the morning coming
You've been left on your own
Like a Rainbow in the Dark
Do your demons--
do they ever let you go?
When you've tried
do they hide deep inside
Is it someone that you know?
You're a picture
just an image cut in time
We're a lie
you and I
We're words without a rhyme!
There's no sign of the morning coming
You've been left on your own
Like a Rainbow in the Dark
When there's lightning
it always brings me down!
Cause it's free
and I see that it's me
Who's lost and never found!
Feel the magic!
Feel it dancing in the air
But it's fear
and you'll hear
It calling you beware!
No sign of the morning coming
There's no sight of the day
You've been left on your own
Like a Rainbow in the Dark
"I have a problem
that I can not explain
I have no reason
why it should have been so plain
I have no questions
but I sure have excuse
I lack the reason why I should be so confused
I know
how I feel when I'm around you
I... don't know
how I feel when I'm around you
Around You...
Left a message
but it ain't a bit of use
I have some pictures
of what might be the deuce
Today you saw
you saw me, you explained
playing the show when running down the plane
I know
how I feel when I'm around you
I... don't know
how I feel when I'm around you
I... I know
how I feel when I'm around you
I... don't know how I feel when I'm around you
Around You..."
"Roulette"
By System of a Down
--
Sometimes, life's too fucking weird, ain't it, Sugar? ;)
Nyaa, nyaa nyaa!
Nyaa, nyaa, nyaa nyaa!
If you had the courage
To stop me from turning into what would be
The worst in everybody's eyes
Hey! I'm no angel
Or devil of your conscience
To tell you who to be
Good, bad, ugly, or otherwise
If you had good common sense
Your choices would be grinning far less
I want no part in this self-deprecati
Worthless chemistry
We made our beds!
To lie in them proud
Proud of our great mistakes!
This warring knife,
The flash of this blade
Turn about-face!
I implore you! Brother
Don't walk away
Don't walk away from me!
This is our war...
Oh, you think they have it all,
While you were left with nothing?
Oh, oh. You took the fall!
For them to walk all over
You made your bed...
So soft, and comforting
Your dreams await-- the grey
Good morning!
We made our beds!
To lie in them proud
Proud of our great mistakes!
This warring knife,
The flash of this blade
Turn about-face!
I implore you! Brother
Don't walk away
Don't walk away from me!
This is our war...
We've got you by the throat
HaHaHA!
All that you want to be...
Welcome, oh...
To the everlasting all-time low!
Please put your hands together
For the ever-failing one man show:
Domino!
"Ladies, and broken Gentlemen!
The undisputed champ
Of misery,
And in this corner
We find his challenger
The pride of Utopia
The greatest thing ever"
Oh... Oh...
HA-HA! HA-HA!
HahaHA!
Oh... Oh...
HA-HA! HA-HA!
HahaHA!
If you could recall
One moment in your past
That defied you to be
That made you the man
We've come to love
All the above?
This diaster binds-- Us absolute
The thousand lies you tell yourself
That nobody ever loved you, right?
Oooh, but I would do anything for you!
The Question fits the questioned heart...
Your signals crossed! Your message lost!
HA-HA!
..."Welcome back to the main event, the fight of the century
Where two great champions fight to the finish
The fight's in the last and final round
Let's get back to the action
And get you the play by play
They meet in the center of the ring...
The challenger sways to the right,
Swings a right hook that pops Domino's jaw
Followed by a quick left to the body
Oh! And he fires another left!
Yes! Domino staggers to the ropes!
The challenger squares up,
And here's a finishing flurry! Again! Again!
And the champ falls to the mat!
The crowd is on their feet!
The ref calls the fight! It's over!
He's out! He's out!! He's out!!!"
...
Nyaa, nyaa, nyaa
Nyaa, nyaa, nyaa nyaa!
This will won't last forever..
Your time has come!
It's now or never!
We made our beds!
To lie in them proud
Proud of our great mistakes!
This warring knife,
The flash of this blade
Turn about-face!
I implore you! Brother
Don't walk away
Don't walk away from me!
This is our war...
One by one!
We are together! We fought together!
One by one!
We are together! We fall together!
Oh... Don't be afraid, dear brother...
We are together! We are together!
Brother!!!
We are together! We fall together!
I've got a little red bow
And I bought it for you
'Cause I know you're not fair.
I don't get it, oh well...
And you colored my skin
And the colors don't blend
'Cause I'm gonna get you
And your little dog, too!
There's a yellow brick road
That we follow back home
'Cause I know you can't wait
Your belligerent hate...
There's no place like home
There's no place like home
Like HOME!
I've got a southern belle, too
And her ruby-red shoes
With a body of straw
Are you sick of it all?
Like a man made of tin
With an oil-can grin
So I'm gonna get you
And your little dog, too!
There's a yellow brick road
That we follow back home
And I know you can't wait
Your belligerent hate...
There's no place like home
There's no place like home
There's a little white porch
Where you wanted it so!
Can you let me go down
To the end of the road?
From the black and the white
A Technicolorful life!
Can I stand by your side?
We can make it alright...
Like HOME!
'Cause I'm home
There's a little white porch
Where you wanted it so!
Can you let me go down
To the end of the road?
From the black and the white
A Technicolorful life!
Then it's no surprise
I'm a cowardly lion!
What I want from this world,
What I wanna resolve,
When I want you to stay,
So I watched you await!
I don't wanna be bold,
I don't wanna be cold,
I don't wanna grow old,
I DON'T WANNA GO HOME!
My phone is broken. It sucks. I'll try to get it replaced soon. I won't be on very much until I do. Sorry.
For Echo. With Love.
My Reflection? Dirty mirror.
No connection-- To myself
I'm your Lover. I'm your Sinner.
I'm the Face in your dreams of black
So save your prayers
For when we're really gonna need 'em
Through all of your shame and pride--
Wanna go for a ride?
She is.. The One... For me
She's all I really need! Oh yeah!
She is... The One... For me
Emptyness is Loneliness, and Loneliness is Cleanliness, and Cleanliness is Godliness
And God is empty. Just like me!
Intoxicated! With the maddness
I'm in love with-- My sadness
Enchanted kingdoms? Bullshit fakers.
Fashion victims with their charcoal teeth
I never let on
That I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself
For what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting MORE
She is... The One... For me
She's all I really need! Oh yeah!
She is... The One... For me
She's my one
And only.