Ugh. Feel like ramming my head into a wall. Over and over again. Endlessly. Until I don't feel feelings anymore.

Carefully, all things considered, admit the lie
A farce grown into a full existance
Making known to the self the failure
Was from the start, not by the end

Petty choices, born of cowardice
To choose the distant, and weakened
And ruin the chance anyway
What shred there ever was

If given chance to try again
No other choice was found
A rotten house, built of empty championship

False promises, born of hubris
Did break upon her stumbling block
A thorn by any other name
Draws blood, gives itch in wounds-- the same

By that same torture that unmade you
Make yourself again
Wield it as your brittle blade

Do you bite that edge? do your teeth crack?
Does it prove a hollow meal?
Could you ever admit your wicker home
Shelter's from neither rain, nor sun?

If said again, a thousand times
Another thousand hours would you be deaf
To bells that toll for unasked dyers.

So, let fly the healed bird, admit
Admit you've been a catalyst
Eaten of to feed the survivors
Picked clean, without mercy
Flesh you gave freely earns no rebate
Soul you broke as bread until crumbs be what makes you

Repent! Repent, crooked creature
Faltering, meek sin who begs forgiveness from
Now healthy lions who leave you in snow
Make yourself a thorn, wound before you bleed
If not, find that crumbs and ribs are seeds

The morsels do become to the earth, and the ribs
Do form new roses. So leave
Admit defeat, craven liar
Eternal dyer, admit that redemption is not
In survival, but Ressurection.

"The Thoughtful Dead"
(c) Darran Kern 2013
 

 

I think that someone is trying to kill me!
Infecting my blood and destroying my mind
No man of the flesh could ever stop me!
The fight for this fish is a fight to the death.

A White Whale 
Holy Grail  

What remorseless emperor commands me?
I no longer govern my soul
I am completely immersed in darkness!
As I turn my body away from the sun.

A White Whale 
Holy Grail

Split your lungs 
with blood and thunder
When you see the White Whale!
Break your backs
 and crack your oars, men
If you wish to prevail!

This ivory leg
 is what propels me
Harpoons thrust in the sky!
Aim directly
 for his crooked brow,
And look him straight in the eye!

A White Whale 
Holy Grail

*Sigh*
Mother, do you think they'll drop the bomb? 
Mother, do you think they'll like the song? 
Mother, do you think they'll try to break
 my balls? 

Ooooh.... ah
Mother, should I build the Wall?

 
Mother should I run for president? 
Mother should I trust the government?
Mother will they put me in the firing line?!

Ooooh, ah
 Is it it just a waste of time...


--Hush, now baby don't you cry! 
Mama's gonna make all of your 
Nightmares come true 
Mama's gonna put all of her fears into you 
Mama's gonna keep you right here 
Under her wing 
She won't let you fly 
but she might let you sink 

Mama will keep baby cozy and warm! 
Ooooh, Babe. Ooooh, Babe Ooooh, Babe. 

Of course, Mama's gonna help build the Wall
--- 

Mother, do think she's good enough
 for me? 
Mother, do think she's dangerous
 to me? 
Mother, will she tear your little boy apart?!

Oooh, ah 
Mother, will she break my heart... 

--Hush now baby, baby don't you cry! 
Mama's gonna check out all your girl friends for you 
Mama won't let anyone dirty get through
Mama's gonna wait up till you come in 
Mama will always find out where 
You've been 

Mamma's gonna keep baby healthy and clean! 
Ooooh, Babe. Ooooh, Babe. Ooooh, Babe.. 
You'll always be a baby to me.


 
 

Okay, I know when the Constitution of the United States said that all men could have unalienable rights that the government could not take from them, the founding fathers didn't mean it like that! Come on people! Maybe they meant women. Maybe they meant minorities, but truly, they did NOT mean homosexuals.

When the Federal Government said states could make their own laws and have reasonable levels of sovereignty, they only meant that states had the right to discriminate against their own citizens, destroy freedom of speech, and bankrupt their own economy. No, you may not legalize marijuana. We will shoot ATF teams directly into your face and/or balls as is gender appropriate.

As of the 2012 election, there is no legal limit or regulation of any distinguishable kind on presidential campaign donations. Corporate sponsors and multi-millionaires already accounted for over 99% of campaign donations to not just presidential nominees, but senators and house representatives. No, your favorite politician is not corrupt. These two facts are not corollary. Go back to sleep. You are still free, America. Shhhhhh.

Home? It whispers words...
And on one bullseye smote the honest...
Before the hunt... 
I feel I'm getting used to them

--Tired from the effects from memory--
Fluttering relapse!
In Sparks of sudden interest and truth... I'm

Trying to get myself from this stain!
It Begins to multiply, whoa!
Unclean echoes through this song,
Yes, and in it's words, I'll rise!

But yes, I caught disdain!
It Begins to multiply, whoa!
Unclean echoes through this song,
Yes, and in its words, I'll rise!

--Can you see what you cannot have?--
Which, in all honesty,
You may think you do, but you don't!
One Question... question: 
Love?
I wouldn't give you the time of day!

Like I said,
Pinging in that same tone of voice..
Can you even hear me in this sound?

So, I caught this stain!
It Begins to multiply, whoa!
Unclean echoes through this song,
Yes, and in it's words, I'll rise!

Yes, I caught disdain!
Now it begins to multiply, whoa!
Unclean echoes through this song,
Yes, and in it's words, I'll rise!

--I wish you'd leave me alone!--

...In all calm consciousness
I come pummel you down
Inspire pained thought unconsciously
Why can't you clean it?
Brought back in each mistake,
I begin a with lie
I wish that this was all a lie...

"Oh, what's the matter with you?"

BORN!
Then I said,
What the fuck is all this shit FOR?
(Change my view?)
I could not lie to you

BORN!
Yes, I asked
What the fuck is all this Shit FOR? 
You know, I could not lie to you

--Then, dirty, I begin speaking--
Not thinking about what I said
It was a 
Just one, then another, and again
It was a
Lie. A lie. Lie. Lie. Lie. Lie. LIE?

BORN!
My hands are cold,
What the fuck is all this shit FOR?
I could not lie to you

BORN!
Indeed! I asked you 
What the fuck is all this shit FOR?
You know I could not lie to you.
One more, 
It was a
I told a
Dirty lie.

(Why don't you stop the fiction?)
Change my view? 

This is all about me.

 If there was a single day I could live... 
A single breath I could take...

I'd trade all the others away.

The blood is on the wall,
So you'd might as well just admit it!
Should bleach out the stains,
Commit to forgetting it!

You're better off empty and blank!
Than left with one single,
Pathetic
Trace of this.
Smother another failure!
Lay this to Rest.

Console yourself!
You're better alone,
Destroy yourself!
See, who gives a fuck?
Absorb yourself!
You're better alone,
Destroy yourself!!!

I'll chain you to the truth,
For the truth shall set you free!
I'll turn the screws of vengeance,
And bury you with the honesty!

I'll make all your dreams come to life
Then slay them
As quickly 
As they came.
Smother another failure!
Lay this to rest.

Console yourself!
You're better alone,
Destroy yourself!
See, who gives a fuck?
Absorb yourself!
You're better alone,
Destroy yourself!!!!



And see who gives a fuck.

FAILURE!

Also, Christmas miracle. Tried to fly American Airlines to Fort Lauderdale to get home. Got cancel pwnt. No surprise, AA is a notoriously miserable airline to fly with. Yet, with an entire plane-ful of people getting screwed, an hour in line nets two tickets to miami, which puts me roughly a train and a bus away from Fort Lauderdale. So, that's awesome. Thank you baby Jesus, thank you for saving me from the Hell of spending a day in Dallas. Hallelujah!

F.O.D. is an acronym for "Fuck Off and Die." not really directed at anyone in particular. If anything, it's kinda how I think the last two years has told me.

3. (complete.)

These are the days, the End Complete
A World still turning on path towards the Suffering
You are our Jury, we are as saints

Our minds divide, the past repeats
A hurt still brewing in the hearts of those we once bled
I am the Crowing, the living dead...

--Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind
Wave goodbye, my dear
Dig Deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind!
It's your home, my dear.

No room to save- the Worst displayed
What once was courage is now cursed in the harm we've made
We are the sinners- before our ways, our graves

Now leave in peace- Undead unsaved,
With World still turning on a path towards the End Complete?
I spite thee Jury! I've come for change!

--Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind
Wave goodbye, my dear
Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind!
Welcome home, my dear--

"Mama-- I'm living proof that Never
Is just around the corner...
A Ghost, to walk the path
Designed for you and I... But

No one will ever know.
*sigh*
No one will ever know."

--TRANSFORMATION--

We are the Fate of Heaven
The call of justice!
We are now waiting
While you wish away with your plans, Pray deliverance!
Well, this is no safe haven!

GOD He will not save you
    IS NOT He will not save you
          HERE! He will not save you from this

You've been stealing my lines,
NOW go on living your lies
For on your knees you will find
You'll face a jury in Hell

We are the Fate of killers
The call of justice!
We are now waiting
While you wish us away with all plans of deliverance
Won't save your soul from Satan

GOD He will not save you
    IS NOT He will not save you
          HERE! He will not save you from this

You've been stealing my lines
NOW going living your lies
For on your knees you will find
You'll face a Jury in Hell

--TRANSCENDANCE--

These are the days, the End Complete
A World still turning to the sound of the Suffering
You are our Jury, we are the saints--

--Dig Deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind
Wave goodbye, my dear
Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind!
It's your home, my dear--

You were the magic
That left a curse in time
You were the Beauty
We had to leave behind

No, no,
I don't want to go, oh no
Woah, But goodbye....
No, but,
Wave bye-bye...

"But I'm coming to get
You my love....
Oh, girl
Let the rabbit go run
It's over soon,
Let the rabbit go run
I'm coming to get
You, my love..."

2.

Identity without a hope
I repeat, and I boast--
This one lacks a home, mmm

It scurries with it's doubt
Behind the doors we always shout
It hides it far below...

Oooh, This is all:
--You and me--
In all
Our dreams
All nightmare long... Ha

Who will be your Pretty Little Enemy?
When I'm gone Your world will prove empty
I promise, you will always remember Me
The yoke's on you, Endlessly
While you eke out your existance
Your deepest scars continue to sink

We're down-- to this Fate:
Deranged.

And we were our own souls to decide
I promised you, but you always knew
What came into the night!
Hahaha

Who will be your Pretty Little Enemy?
When I'm gone Your world will prove empty
I promise, you will always remember Me
The yoke's on you, Endlessly
While you eke out your exististance
The deepest scars continue to sink

You'll end-- just like this:
Deranged.

--There is no me--Without you!
I will behave as--I will be--
An afterthought--Your make-believe
Your darkest day-- Your friend in need

Oooh... Oooh, hahaha!

Who will be your Pretty Little Enemy?
When I'm gone Your world will prove empty
I promise, you will always remember Me
The yoke's on you, Endlessly
While you eke out your exististance
The deepest scars continue to sink

We're one-- And the same:
Deranged.</i>

I know
This burden, grows heavier with every step
Out of balance, I can't see how it's happenstance
Seems it could be, Maybe it's a coincidence

"Hunt for- What you're told, Lion Slicer!
RUN      I run...
RUN WITH         with
DEATH"

I say
Gone--Away
My Heart's
Gone--Away
Take my
Ever-ything
My Heart's
Gone--Away

I see
Light fading, curses closer with every step
Seems however, I'm a victim of circumstance
Growing darker, there's no such thing as coincidence...

"Lion Slicer, Ridden of your Love!
RUN,             I run...
RUN WITH        with...
DEATH"

I say
Gone--Away
My Heart's
Gone---Away
Take my
Ever-ything
My Heart's
Gone--Away
Taken down...

RUN,             I run...
RUN WITH        with...
DEATH"

--
...I Tried To Burrow A Hole 
Into The Ground
Breaking All The Fingers And 
Nails From My Hand
The Eyes Of A Child See No Wrong
Ignorant Bliss,
Impending Doom

Lost Love
Bright Eyes Fading
Faster Than Stars Falling
How Can I Tell You That I've Failed?
Tell You I Failed...
--

Gone--Away
My Heart's
Gone---Away
Take my
Ever-ything
My Heart's
Gone--Away
Take it NOW!

          

  

Welcome to our fortress tall,
I'll take some time to show you around
Impossible to break these walls
For you see, the steel is much too strong
Computer banks to rule the world,
Instruments to sight the stars,

Possibly- I've seen too much
Hangar 18- I know too much

Foreign life forms inventory
Suspended state of cryogenics
Selective amnesia's the story
Believed, foretold, but who'd suspect?
The Military Intelligence:
The two words combined can't make sense

Possibly- I've seen too much
Hangar 18- I know too much
 

Run, desire, run
Sexual being
Run him like a blade
To and through the heart-
No conscience,
One motive:
Cater to the hollow

Screaming
Feed me here!
Fill me up, again
Temporarily-- pacify this hungering

So grow--Libido throw
Dominoes of indiscretions down
Falling all around
In cycles
In circles
Constantly consuming
Conquer and devour...

'Cause it's time to bring the fire down!
Bridle all this indiscretion!
Long enough to edify
And permanently fill this hollow...

Screaming
Feed me here!
Fill me up, again
Temporarily-- pacifying

Feed me here
Fill me up, again
Temporarily-- pacifying
Missing: </b>Missing: </i>

Metaphor-- For a missing moment
Pull me in--to your perfect circle
One wound-- One chain-- One resolve:
Liberate this will-- to release a soul

Gotta cut away, clear away-
Snip away, and sever this
Umbilical residue
That's keeping me from killing you


And from pulling you out of me, here...
I can almost hear the scream...

Wooooh.....

Give me one more medicated peaceful moment
Give me one more calm, sedated peaceful moment--
Yeah, I don't wanna feel this
Overwhelming hostility!
Don't want to feel this
Cold, surrounding hostility!

Gotta cut away, clear away
Snip away and sever this
Necrotic tissue...
Gotta cut away, clear away
Get away, in spite of this
Umbilical residue
That's keeping me from killing you!

In spite of it and everything.....
Keeping me from killing you....

*Holds up phone with Skype app.*

I have teh POWWWWWAAaaaaaa!

You may add me. Due to the retarded amount of Skype usernames, probably 90% of which are bot accounts.... If you want to add me, my username is the first thing I found that wasn't taken:

isthistakenjerkface


Add me, so that I may return to the IM world! Death to Apple!

You too, Dani. I see you. Add me I mean....

 
She seems dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalities
So fragile, yet so devious
She continues to see

Climatic hands that press-
Her temples and my chest-
Enter the night that she came home
-forever...

Ohhh,
She's the only one that makes me Sad.

She is everything and more--
The solemn hypnotic
My Dahlia bathed in possession,
She is home to me.

I get nervous, perverse, when I see her it's worse
And the stress is astounding.
It's now or never she's coming home
-forever-

Oh 
She's the only one that makes me Sad


Hard to say what- caught my attention
Fixed and crazy, aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face
to recognize
Such a pheromone cult 
That terrorized

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

Yes,
I'm a slave--and I am a master!
No restraints- or -unchecked collectors
I exist through my need
To self oblige!
She makes something of me
That I despise!

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
You--you steal of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
You shouldn't be scared of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
You--you emptied me

She isn't real!
I can't make her real!
She isn't real!
Can't make her real!

Can't make her real...

The man on the left is 6'4" and weighs roughly 290 pounds.



Like a point-perspective BOSS.