Stop! This isn't a game.
It kills me to watch all this play out.
I want an answer.
I need an answer.
God in heaven, only you can fight this fight.
Draw me in close. Shield from them both.
Protect my heart, O Father.
Let neither of them near with out Your permishen.
Hide me behind You and never let them touch me.
God in heaven, fight for me, rise up and fight.
Show them both what I am really worth.
Take them away if not for me.
Destroy them both if not good enough.
This is not a game anymore.
If they want me, they have to come to You.
It is killing me inside to try and fight this on my own.
Own my, i lie broken, bloody, shattered, and afraid.
Yet You, Father, hold me close to Your heart. You heal me.
Please hold me. I was once unprepared and now I don't know what to do.
I want all doors shut. Nothing but You.
God, he can never know my hidden secret.
He can never know apart of me still loves him.
Stop this fight. End it! Only You, Father, can.
Stop this fight.

Seeing you like this breaks my heart.
I pushed til it hurt you.
I never ment to. Dont blame yourself I asked.
I hope you see we will make it threw this.
The end i dont what it will be like.
We will find a way threw.
We always have.
Unlike most we are just alike.
However there are things in both of us that have to be taken care of.
For now the pain will be here but soon it wont be.
Dont worry about this it will all work out. dont be afraid.
Dont push me away now.
Stay close it is the only way this will past.
Together we will make it threw this.
Caring this together is the only way.
Dont die out because of it.
Stay, and breathe threw the pain.
It will end soon.
I promise
Forever I promise it will soon enough.

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...


Opening Credits:
Wild Horses- Natasha Bengfield

Waking Up:
Make Some Noise- Krystal Meyers

First Day At School:
Dare You to Move- Switchfoot

Falling in Love:
Innocence- Avril Lagvine

Fight Song:
Lose Control-Evanescence

Breaking Up:
Behind these Hazel Eyes-Kelly Clarson

Prom:
Let's Dance-Miley Cyrus

Life:
Unbreakable-FireFlight

Mental Breakdown:
Numb-LinkinPark

Driving Song:
Sand Up-FireFlight

Flashback:
When You're Gone-vril Lagvine

Wedding:
No es Dificil-Annet Morena

Birth of Child:
Arms Wide Open-Creed

Death Scene:
My Immortal-Evanescence

Funeral Song:
Hold Fast-MrcyME

End Credit:
Legice-Nicole Nordoman

I want you to feel. Feel me shacking in your embrace. I want you to see, see me with tears in my eyes just by seeing you. I want you to catch, catch me and keep me standing when I cannot stand with out you. I want you sit, sit with me under a canopy of stars that shine bright. I want you love, love me like the world is ending. I want you desire, desire me in a way that you want to wait. I want you to believe, believe me when i say "I love you" i meant it. I want you to understand, understand me in a way that no one can. I want you to look, Look through me and still see beauty in broken places. I want you to long, long for me to the point of being breatheless. I want you to think, think of me when you feel alone and unloved. I want you to know, know how much I love you and that I am yours. I want you to embrace, embrace me to where nothing nor no one else matters. I want you to hold , hold me as if i let go. I want you to have Faith, faith that God has it all under control. I want you to hife, hideme so no one else can find me. I want you find, find me and protect me from those that try to hurt me. I want you to love, love God before me always. I want you to protect, protect me from all thats is evil. I want you to send, send me running to the Cross and He who died upon it. I want you to run, run to Christ before all else fails. I want you to want, want me but want want God's will first. Who you are is who I love. Who God created you to be is what I cannot resist. Who you are becoming makes me rejoice. In your future, I pray, I hope that I am there with you holding your hand. Let God secure us if it be His will. Let God sustain this if it be His plan. Let God show us the direction to take. I want you to let God, Let God be in control no matter what.

Hidden secrets loom in the passage way
  Hidden desires that cannot be explained stand still
      Hear is my Hidden secret.
    Getting over you is hard that it seems.
Your lies pulled me, Your eyes held my heart; but hear you knew not of.
     You broke my heart everyday
    You broke me everytime you spoke.
My thoughts were hidden from you. My emotions distorted in my heart.
    You never saw it; You never cared to know.
  As long as you had me, nothing else matter to you.
    Your hidden secret is deeper than everyone knows.
      You never saw.
  He sees, he knows. He wishes me healed.
      His eyes see every part of my soul.
   He sees the brokeness you left me in.
      So hear is my hidden secret.
    I may be broken, I may be shattered;
      But he cares not.
 He loves even still.
He cares only if He hurts me; He cares for the hidden emotions;
  He looks deeper than physical beauty. He looks the beauty inside.
      He is now my hidden secret, tho known by all.
    Your hidden secret will never hurt me again,
   For next time you see me I will be in his arms.
    My hidden secret is love that cannot be torn by distance,
By anger, by pain, by war, by innocence.
     He sees my innocence and will not take advantge of it.
          My hidden secret is love everlasting.
 This is the Hidden Secret of all who truly live.
     Our one common secret. Our one common Hidden Secret.
      The world's Hidden Secret.
    But wait is this really my hidden secret?
Or Is it that I still feel for someone else.
       If I do, I will push it away for the love I have now is irreplacable.
I will not keep it long soon it will fade and My hidden secret will once again diappear in the night.
     Here is my hidden secret.

Shadows cloud my mind,
Voices whisper and speak of the end.
Thoughts of death enter in.
Someone helpme fight this.
I cry for help and no one helps me.
They see but they really don't.
They say fight them but how can I?
I don't know how.
Is there anyone who knows how to?
Help me.

Beliveing in love has never been easy.
Hoping in something that I can never imagine.
Seeing it broke me down,
Feeling something like it made me drown,
Wanting it just drove me crazy,
There I was trapped praying for something to happen.
Than you found saw me, saw me for what I really was.
You saw how I was broken, but called me sweetly broken.
Your hug caused me to be faint,
Your smile caused me unbreatheable.
Shock how you could see but cared enough to care for me,
Here I am entrapped by Your love. You brought him to me.
I will only continue if it be Your will. AMEN.

I am sorry for what I did to you.
I never ment to hurt you.
Sometime maybe in the future you will forgive me.
Until that day i will wait saying i am sorry.

Trapped in this thought of blocked memories.
Pain that screams through the heart and mind.
Life and breath no longer there.
I have created my own prison.
This prison is not cold or dead,
But full of life and love.
This prison is comfort, peace,
Joy, and love.
I have created my own prison.
This prison I will stay in for all of my life.
Even after life here will I stay.
Here in the presence of my God and Savior Jesus Christ.

Does someone hear me?
Can anyone see me?
Or is everyone blind?
No one sees that i am not alright.
No one cares so why should i.
It all ends tonight maybe not my life
But everything i know is going to change.
I am tired and restless
Dead inside to all who know me.
This is it no one sees...
No one sees the tears that are shattereed across the floor.
Blood stayed tears that scream for help.
So say what you want about me.
This is the end.

tears fall why are they doing this.
i don't understand i wish i could die.
why? please someone tell me why?

sometimes i really don't understand why they do what they do.
i wanna get it but i just don't.
can anyone help me understand why people act the way they do?

How can you say that i am not in love?
How do you no for sure?
No it is not who you think,
But if you can guess i might talk for a little while.

Get back u hav lied to me.
You don't see your self has human.
You think you are above all the rest of us.
You say you can do this and that but i know better.
I swear has God as my witness never again.
I will never again fall into the things you say are true.
Never again will i believe with my heart.
You don't see that this isn't me.
You don't see that aren't you are powerful.
You don't want to hear it,
But i will say it anyway.
Your past has killed you,
Your past has darkened your view.
You don't see it but i do.
You have let everything that happened to you then
Destroy you now.
You have made a world that you can't escape.
You have made a world where no one can enter.
You don't remeber the last time you recognized your self.
I am not just talking about but to all those who are hurt.
To all those who have tried to hide your pain.
This is for you.
Don't hide anymore just be yourself.
Don't lock yourself up in aworld that you can't escape.
Just walk out into the rain and breathe agian.
It is okay to cry
To be who you are meant to be.
Just shine.
Don't let your past hold you back.
So don't be afraid to come out.
Don't be afraid to scream
Don't be afraid to cry.