[Lady Raaz]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2009-02-04
Written: (5582 days ago)
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Hidden secrets loom in the passage way
  Hidden desires that cannot be explained stand still
      Hear is my Hidden secret.
    Getting over you is hard that it seems.
Your lies pulled me, Your eyes held my heart; but hear you knew not of.
     You broke my heart everyday
    You broke me everytime you spoke.
My thoughts were hidden from you. My emotions distorted in my heart.
    You never saw it; You never cared to know.
  As long as you had me, nothing else matter to you.
    Your hidden secret is deeper than everyone knows.
      You never saw.
  He sees, he knows. He wishes me healed.
      His eyes see every part of my soul.
   He sees the brokeness you left me in.
      So hear is my hidden secret.
    I may be broken, I may be shattered;
      But he cares not.
 He loves even still.
He cares only if He hurts me; He cares for the hidden emotions;
  He looks deeper than physical beauty. He looks the beauty inside.
      He is now my hidden secret, tho known by all.
    Your hidden secret will never hurt me again,
   For next time you see me I will be in his arms.
    My hidden secret is love that cannot be torn by distance,
By anger, by pain, by war, by innocence.
     He sees my innocence and will not take advantge of it.
          My hidden secret is love everlasting.
 This is the Hidden Secret of all who truly live.
     Our one common secret. Our one common Hidden Secret.
      The world's Hidden Secret.
    But wait is this really my hidden secret?
Or Is it that I still feel for someone else.
       If I do, I will push it away for the love I have now is irreplacable.
I will not keep it long soon it will fade and My hidden secret will once again diappear in the night.
     Here is my hidden secret.

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Written about Wednesday 2008-11-19
Written: (5659 days ago)

Shadows cloud my mind,
Voices whisper and speak of the end.
Thoughts of death enter in.
Someone helpme fight this.
I cry for help and no one helps me.
They see but they really don't.
They say fight them but how can I?
I don't know how.
Is there anyone who knows how to?
Help me.

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Written about Thursday 2008-11-06
Written: (5672 days ago)

Beliveing in love has never been easy.
Hoping in something that I can never imagine.
Seeing it broke me down,
Feeling something like it made me drown,
Wanting it just drove me crazy,
There I was trapped praying for something to happen.
Than you found saw me, saw me for what I really was.
You saw how I was broken, but called me sweetly broken.
Your hug caused me to be faint,
Your smile caused me unbreatheable.
Shock how you could see but cared enough to care for me,
Here I am entrapped by Your love. You brought him to me.
I will only continue if it be Your will. AMEN.

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Written about Thursday 2007-12-13
Written: (6001 days ago)

I am sorry for what I did to you.
I never ment to hurt you.
Sometime maybe in the future you will forgive me.
Until that day i will wait saying i am sorry.

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Written about Thursday 2007-12-13
Written: (6001 days ago)

Trapped in this thought of blocked memories.
Pain that screams through the heart and mind.
Life and breath no longer there.
I have created my own prison.
This prison is not cold or dead,
But full of life and love.
This prison is comfort, peace,
Joy, and love.
I have created my own prison.
This prison I will stay in for all of my life.
Even after life here will I stay.
Here in the presence of my God and Savior Jesus Christ.

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Written about Wednesday 2007-08-22
Written: (6114 days ago)

Does someone hear me?
Can anyone see me?
Or is everyone blind?
No one sees that i am not alright.
No one cares so why should i.
It all ends tonight maybe not my life
But everything i know is going to change.
I am tired and restless
Dead inside to all who know me.
This is it no one sees...
No one sees the tears that are shattereed across the floor.
Blood stayed tears that scream for help.
So say what you want about me.
This is the end.

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Written about Wednesday 2007-08-15
Written: (6121 days ago)

tears fall why are they doing this.
i don't understand i wish i could die.
why? please someone tell me why?

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Written about Tuesday 2007-08-14
Written: (6122 days ago)

sometimes i really don't understand why they do what they do.
i wanna get it but i just don't.
can anyone help me understand why people act the way they do?

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Written about Saturday 2007-07-14
Written: (6153 days ago)

How can you say that i am not in love?
How do you no for sure?
No it is not who you think,
But if you can guess i might talk for a little while.

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Written about Saturday 2007-07-14
Written: (6153 days ago)

Get back u hav lied to me.
You don't see your self has human.
You think you are above all the rest of us.
You say you can do this and that but i know better.
I swear has God as my witness never again.
I will never again fall into the things you say are true.
Never again will i believe with my heart.
You don't see that this isn't me.
You don't see that aren't you are powerful.
You don't want to hear it,
But i will say it anyway.
Your past has killed you,
Your past has darkened your view.
You don't see it but i do.
You have let everything that happened to you then
Destroy you now.
You have made a world that you can't escape.
You have made a world where no one can enter.
You don't remeber the last time you recognized your self.
I am not just talking about but to all those who are hurt.
To all those who have tried to hide your pain.
This is for you.
Don't hide anymore just be yourself.
Don't lock yourself up in aworld that you can't escape.
Just walk out into the rain and breathe agian.
It is okay to cry
To be who you are meant to be.
Just shine.
Don't let your past hold you back.
So don't be afraid to come out.
Don't be afraid to scream
Don't be afraid to cry.

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Written about Tuesday 2007-06-26
Written: (6171 days ago)

Cold and broken
Do not know myself anymore.
Trapped in an endless heart brake.
Tears are all anyone care see.
Pain inside I try to hide.
But you looked at me gently.
I swear I saw you look straight though me.
But now the only thing I know is the way you make me feel.
Tears that come now come because of what you have done.
I guess you could say I that I found someone I can be myself with.

But that is okay as long as I am with you.

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Written about Friday 2007-06-22
Written: (6176 days ago)

what place can i see that is hiden from view? The heart is weak the mind is strong but yet i ask again what place can i see that is hidden from view? Why do i see it yet no other can? whta power is held here? Can anyone tell me? Can anyone say what it is?

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