You thought your strength could hold me down,
But in one second I threw you to the side and ran away.
You thought you could convice me this was right,
In a second I threw you to the side and ran away.
I should have know something was up when you pushed me down on the couch.
I should have know you were going to do something when you would not let me up.
You right you should have payed attention but you didn't.
Now I am bruised up and down. I bruise easily you know.
In a second I threw you to the side and ran away.
You will never have me again.
This time I am gone for good.
You should have listened more to my heart but you didn't care.
You saw what you wanted and went after it.
In a second I threw you to the side and ran away.
You look at me as a trophy and nothing more, even when you deny it.
You wanted me but not in the way I wanted you.
You wanted me before I could give you everything, so now I am gone.
In a second I threw you to the side and ran away.
This is the way is it gonna be until you learn true control.
No more talking. No more laughing. I am gone so see you later.
In a second I threw you to the side and ran away.
I want you to know though, I forgive you but I cannot talk or see you right now.
I want you to know that, but you left me no other choice.
In a second you lost everything you loved.
In a second I threw you to the side and ran away.
Shadows cloud my mind.
Pain of confusion explodes from within.
I cannot seem to stand.
I cannot seem to breathe.
I am choking on my own confusion, on my own desire.
Falling to my knees, I need to breathe.
Hoping in any outcome that is for the best.
Praying for my King to save me once again.
My heart is slowing, my beats are dying.
God in heaven, where are You?
I cannot find or see You.
Do You see this confusion deep within my heart and soul?
Can You so me the direction to go?
I am standing in the mist of many roads.
I am kneelings in the midst of a thousand directions.
which is my path?
Which is my road?
Any path I choose someone will get hurt.
I cannot win. I will not be able to stop crying as I begin walking.
Father, do not leave me know in my own confusion, I plead.
Do not abondon me when I stand, kneel, fall.
Please stay here holding tightly to my hand that is shacking.
Breathe in Your breathe of life and pick me up.
Carry me through the pain, the confusion, the fear.
Do not allow this confusion to kill me.
Do not allow it to choke me to death.
God in heaven, save me.
I cannot stand outside Your arms.
Do not let me fall.
Shadows are disappearing form my mind. Nothing is holding onto me.
Stop! This isn't a game.
It kills me to watch all this play out.
I want an answer.
I need an answer.
God in heaven, only you can fight this fight.
Draw me in close. Shield from them both.
Protect my heart, O Father.
Let neither of them near with out Your permishen.
Hide me behind You and never let them touch me.
God in heaven, fight for me, rise up and fight.
Show them both what I am really worth.
Take them away if not for me.
Destroy them both if not good enough.
This is not a game anymore.
If they want me, they have to come to You.
It is killing me inside to try and fight this on my own.
Own my, i lie broken, bloody, shattered, and afraid.
Yet You, Father, hold me close to Your heart. You heal me.
Please hold me. I was once unprepared and now I don't know what to do.
I want all doors shut. Nothing but You.
God, he can never know my hidden secret.
He can never know apart of me still loves him.
Stop this fight. End it! Only You, Father, can.
Stop this fight.
Seeing you like this breaks my heart.
I pushed til it hurt you.
I never ment to. Dont blame yourself I asked.
I hope you see we will make it threw this.
The end i dont what it will be like.
We will find a way threw.
We always have.
Unlike most we are just alike.
However there are things in both of us that have to be taken care of.
For now the pain will be here but soon it wont be.
Dont worry about this it will all work out. dont be afraid.
Dont push me away now.
Stay close it is the only way this will past.
Together we will make it threw this.
Caring this together is the only way.
Dont die out because of it.
Stay, and breathe threw the pain.
It will end soon.
I promise
Forever I promise it will soon enough.
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...
Opening Credits:
Wild Horses- Natasha Bengfield
Waking Up:
Make Some Noise- Krystal Meyers
First Day At School:
Dare You to Move- Switchfoot
Falling in Love:
Innocence- Avril Lagvine
Fight Song:
Lose Control-Evanes
Breaking Up:
Behind these Hazel Eyes-Kelly Clarson
Prom:
Let's Dance-Miley Cyrus
Life:
Unbreakable-Fi
Mental Breakdown:
Numb-LinkinPar
Driving Song:
Sand Up-FireFlight
Flashback:
When You're Gone-vril Lagvine
Wedding:
No es Dificil-Annet Morena
Birth of Child:
Arms Wide Open-Creed
Death Scene:
My Immortal-Evane
Funeral Song:
Hold Fast-MrcyME
End Credit:
Legice-Nicole Nordoman
I want you to feel. Feel me shacking in your embrace. I want you to see, see me with tears in my eyes just by seeing you. I want you to catch, catch me and keep me standing when I cannot stand with out you. I want you sit, sit with me under a canopy of stars that shine bright. I want you love, love me like the world is ending. I want you desire, desire me in a way that you want to wait. I want you to believe, believe me when i say "I love you" i meant it. I want you to understand, understand me in a way that no one can. I want you to look, Look through me and still see beauty in broken places. I want you to long, long for me to the point of being breatheless. I want you to think, think of me when you feel alone and unloved. I want you to know, know how much I love you and that I am yours. I want you to embrace, embrace me to where nothing nor no one else matters. I want you to hold , hold me as if i let go. I want you to have Faith, faith that God has it all under control. I want you to hife, hideme so no one else can find me. I want you find, find me and protect me from those that try to hurt me. I want you to love, love God before me always. I want you to protect, protect me from all thats is evil. I want you to send, send me running to the Cross and He who died upon it. I want you to run, run to Christ before all else fails. I want you to want, want me but want want God's will first. Who you are is who I love. Who God created you to be is what I cannot resist. Who you are becoming makes me rejoice. In your future, I pray, I hope that I am there with you holding your hand. Let God secure us if it be His will. Let God sustain this if it be His plan. Let God show us the direction to take. I want you to let God, Let God be in control no matter what.
Hidden secrets loom in the passage way
Hidden desires that cannot be explained stand still
Hear is my Hidden secret.
Getting over you is hard that it seems.
Your lies pulled me, Your eyes held my heart; but hear you knew not of.
You broke my heart everyday
You broke me everytime you spoke.
My thoughts were hidden from you. My emotions distorted in my heart.
You never saw it; You never cared to know.
As long as you had me, nothing else matter to you.
Your hidden secret is deeper than everyone knows.
You never saw.
He sees, he knows. He wishes me healed.
His eyes see every part of my soul.
He sees the brokeness you left me in.
So hear is my hidden secret.
I may be broken, I may be shattered;
But he cares not.
He loves even still.
He cares only if He hurts me; He cares for the hidden emotions;
He looks deeper than physical beauty. He looks the beauty inside.
He is now my hidden secret, tho known by all.
Your hidden secret will never hurt me again,
For next time you see me I will be in his arms.
My hidden secret is love that cannot be torn by distance,
By anger, by pain, by war, by innocence.
He sees my innocence and will not take advantge of it.
My hidden secret is love everlasting.
This is the Hidden Secret of all who truly live.
Our one common secret. Our one common Hidden Secret.
The world's Hidden Secret.
But wait is this really my hidden secret?
Or Is it that I still feel for someone else.
If I do, I will push it away for the love I have now is irreplacable.
I will not keep it long soon it will fade and My hidden secret will once again diappear in the night.
Here is my hidden secret.
Shadows cloud my mind,
Voices whisper and speak of the end.
Thoughts of death enter in.
Someone helpme fight this.
I cry for help and no one helps me.
They see but they really don't.
They say fight them but how can I?
I don't know how.
Is there anyone who knows how to?
Help me.
Beliveing in love has never been easy.
Hoping in something that I can never imagine.
Seeing it broke me down,
Feeling something like it made me drown,
Wanting it just drove me crazy,
There I was trapped praying for something to happen.
Than you found saw me, saw me for what I really was.
You saw how I was broken, but called me sweetly broken.
Your hug caused me to be faint,
Your smile caused me unbreatheable.
Shock how you could see but cared enough to care for me,
Here I am entrapped by Your love. You brought him to me.
I will only continue if it be Your will. AMEN.
I am sorry for what I did to you.
I never ment to hurt you.
Sometime maybe in the future you will forgive me.
Until that day i will wait saying i am sorry.
Trapped in this thought of blocked memories.
Pain that screams through the heart and mind.
Life and breath no longer there.
I have created my own prison.
This prison is not cold or dead,
But full of life and love.
This prison is comfort, peace,
Joy, and love.
I have created my own prison.
This prison I will stay in for all of my life.
Even after life here will I stay.
Here in the presence of my God and Savior Jesus Christ.
Does someone hear me?
Can anyone see me?
Or is everyone blind?
No one sees that i am not alright.
No one cares so why should i.
It all ends tonight maybe not my life
But everything i know is going to change.
I am tired and restless
Dead inside to all who know me.
This is it no one sees...
No one sees the tears that are shattereed across the floor.
Blood stayed tears that scream for help.
So say what you want about me.
This is the end.
tears fall why are they doing this.
i don't understand i wish i could die.
why? please someone tell me why?
sometimes i really don't understand why they do what they do.
i wanna get it but i just don't.
can anyone help me understand why people act the way they do?