Reading today my heart grows heavy and its hard to see any hope for this world. The world is full of bloodshed from people of both sides screaming God is on their side, but I disagree. God doesn't favor the foolish. And that is what this is. God has long ago stopped smiling upon any one nation and Mother Earth weeps with the blood seeping down into the soil as all humans can understand is bullets overhead and the bombs that scar her body with each explosion. How far shall we go before we destroy this planet? Why is it that every nation or ethnicity claim that they are right and therefore, better than any other race? why is it just so damn hard for us as humans to take the best part of each society and better each other? Why can we not lay down our guns? Therefore with a heavy sigh I wrap up this entry with a cliche: Why can't we all just get along?

This entry was also meant for someone and if they read it he knows who he is. you are a very eloquent orator, so why not put it to better use than using it to incite men's blood to boil and womens cry of outrage? It only takes one person to set in motion the changes of a lifetime. Will you rise to the task or will you be another common Hitler?

Screaming all around
wanted you around
why can't you let me be
Got you in my head
Wish I was dead
so I don't have to see you
all around me Not really there but
you're all I see Get away from me
cause I'm screaming all
around wanted you here with me
you loved another broke my heart
said it could never be
What should I do now I can't get away
from you Cause you're all I see now

I care I hurt
cause caring leads to pain
cause once I care
they cut me like a knife
through butter
So easily hurt by someone
turning away from me

My heart breaks apart
from my love for you
because I know
I'll never hold you
close to me and be
able to just to hold
your hand and make you
smile.

I find myself staring at you all the time
so hard I must be going blind because around
you is all a haze, but you are always the clearest
in my mind. I love you would you be with me?
But of course you cannot hear me cause all
these words of affection that is pouring
out my heart is going to my head leaving so
many things left unsaid.

Love
frees us
come fly with me
love lightens our feet
come and dance with me
love fills our heart with joy
come sing with me
Heartbreak
chains us down
see my broken wings
heartbreak
makes our feet into lead
see how slow I am
heartbreak
fills us full of sorrow
see my empty heart oh how it bleeds

How can you love someone
so dark and cruel
who drags you along not caring
for you, but at the same time can be
so gentle with their touch.
How can they be a devil angel
wrapped into one?

Cars
Got one today
Cranked her up
and felt her engine
purr.
Rolled the windows down
and let the wind blow
over my skin
I have found my love.

I am.
I am the person you hate
because I am different
Because I don't wear the same style
or the same hair
because I don't wear make up
or have a book bag sized purse

I am the person who you clearly despise
Because I do whats comfortable not because everyone else does it.
Becase I am content with ten dollar shoes instead of those that cost a fortune.
I am the person who could be
your best friend but you will
never know so I will be here
stuck in your could have beens.
              -Buffy

Alone.
Alone and unwanted she
sits in the corner
impassive on the outside
crying on the inside
her soul is quickly withering away
and no one stops to pull her up
out of the darkness into the light.
                 -Buffy