Fighter: I like swords.
Black Mage Frustration ++
Who have I become? Who is this abominating failure I find in place of myself? And where did I go? I am being invaded by this pathetic existential existance. But I'm stronger than that. And if I am not, then I will become stronger than that. Because I cannot live in defeat. I cannot bear the spoils of victory to be lost by my own unworth. I must achieve victory, even over myself. If this 'me' means to take me down with it, then I shall destroy it. I have no need for weakness or failure. So I must overcome my own tendencies, to abolish this monster who has taken the place of me and hampers my ability to such an extent. It's really quite absurd. Why should I be held back even by me? I am something great, and nothing, not even my own faults, can stop that greatness. The most that can be done is that it may be slowed, perhaps. But I'll not allow for that. There is no time for that. There is so much left to be accomplished, so much to create, so much to share, so much to teach, so much to learn. I will persevere and I will conquer.
But I will not do this to the neglect of those that I love. Life is lost the moment love is, and to abondon love is to wish for death. Happiness is found in two places only, love and accomplishment
So you others who are held within my soul, take heart, for I will not leave you to the wolves of this forsaken land. No, I'll carry you with me to the wonders I will achieve, and you will be happy there. But while I can carry you, pick up the slack where you fall, I cannot live for you. That must be your choice. Choose life, and do not give up. Everything depends upon it.
3: 0, 0, 0
4: 1, 0, 0
5: 0, 1, 0
6: 2, 0, 0|1, 1, 0
7: 0, 0, 1
8: 1, 0, 1
9: 0, 1, 1
10: 2, 0, 1|1, 1, 1
11: 0, 2, 0
12: 3, 1, 0|1, 2, 0|2, 1, 1
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0, 0, 0 = 1+ 1+ 1 = 3
1, 0, 0 = 2+ 1+ 1 = 4
2, 0, 0 = 4+ 1+ 1 = 6
3, 0, 0 = 8+ 1+ 1 = 10
0, 1, 0 = 1+ 3+ 1 = 5
1, 1, 0 = 2+ 3+ 1 = 6
2, 1, 0 = 4+ 3+ 1 = 8
3, 1, 0 = 8+ 3+ 1 = 12
0, 2, 0 = 1+ 9+ 1 = 11
1, 2, 0 = 2+ 9+ 1 = 12
2, 2, 0 = 4+ 9+ 1 = 14
3, 2, 0 = 8+ 9+ 1 = 18
0, 3, 0 = 1+27+ 1 = 29
1, 3, 0 = 2+27+ 1 = 30
2, 3, 0 = 4+27+ 1 = 32
3, 3, 0 = 8+27+ 1 = 36
0, 0, 1 = 1+ 1+ 5 = 7
1, 0, 1 = 2+ 1+ 5 = 8
2, 0, 1 = 4+ 1+ 5 = 10
3, 0, 1 = 8+ 1+ 5 = 14
0, 1, 1 = 1+ 3+ 5 = 9
1, 1, 1 = 2+ 3+ 5 = 10
2, 1, 1 = 4+ 3+ 5 = 12
3, 1, 1 = 8+ 3+ 5 = 16
0, 2, 1 = 1+ 9+ 5 = 15
1, 2, 1 = 2+ 9+ 5 = 16
2, 2, 1 = 4+ 9+ 5 = 18
3, 2, 1 = 8+ 9+ 5 = 22
0, 3, 1 = 1+27+ 5 = 33
1, 3, 1 = 2+27+ 5 = 34
2, 3, 1 = 4+27+ 5 = 36
3, 3, 1 = 8+27+ 5 = 40
0, 0, 2 = 1+ 1+25 = 27
I don't see how I do all the things I do. What the hell is wrong with me? And where do I get all the time I have from? I spend 15 hours a day outside of the house, and yet I have so many side projects that I consistently update.... wtf, mate?
and this ava, amy, nohemi bit is obviously getting out of hand. i wasn't looking past the awesomeness of having two girls agree to share me to see the fact that it's not actually what either of them want. I repeat, what the hell is wrong with me?
Current List of Going-ons:
Making an animated movie
::designing characters
::creating story
::creating scenes
::drawing scenes
::drawing animations
Making a game
::designing gameplay
::designing interface
::designing mechanisms
::building mechanisms
::designing art scheme
::programming the bastard
Making a Graphics Engine
::designing the bastard
::programming the bastard
::updating the old bastard I'm using to make the new bastard.
Making a Perfect Physics Engine
::designing the bastard
::trying to figure out the calculations necissary
::trying to implement them properly
::programming the bastard
Making a new system of counting
::counting by colors, yes, that's right boys and girls, by colors.
Designing graphics methods to compete with things like the Unreal3 engine
::multiple mapping
::methods
::implementati
::concepts (hardest part)
Creating a program to predict the future in a controlled environment
::yes, you heard right. Predict the future. I have a damned good reason, too. And I'm coming along splendidly, all things considered
Creating the Chaos System for storytelling.
::needs more work on future predictions
School
::5 AP classes (7 tests): Calculus, Computers, English, Economics, Studio Art
::speech and debate class
::academic decathlon (SUPER HARD WORK AND SUPER LONG HOURS)
Playing Games
::Devil May Cry
::Need For Speed: Hot Pursuit 2
::Final Fantasy VII
Juggling women (this one sucks) {Edit: This one has since been fully resolved. Much to my personal happiness. I'm all yours, Nohemi.}
::Ava
::Amy
::Nohemi
Play online RPG's
::GM for 1
::participate in 2 others
All the movies I watch on a regular basis
Writing a story
Writing music
Hanging out with friends
Bus rides to and from my house
Eat
Sleep (occasionally)
Make music videos
Art
::normal art
::design art
::art series of Great Battles that never were.
How the hell do I have time for all of that? Really, though! And that's not even going into the work involved for Decathlon.
Something is seriously wrong with me.
Wow. Honestly, how much can go wrong in just one day?
So far (I'm in 3rd period, btw),
I woke up late (again, DAMMIT!!!)
I missed the first bus at my first stop, and so had to wait for the next one.
I missed the first bus at my second stop, too.
I completely missed my last stop.
I even missed the last stop of the bus line.
I had to walk all the way to school from there.
I went to first period uber late.
Turns out, it was actually second period.
And we were having a test for second period.
So I got seated at the front and got started late.
And didn't finish the last 17 questions.
Do not have my work done for Calculus, which is next period.
Do not have my work done for Speech and Debate, which is 5th period.
Did not study enough for Decathlon, which I need to do 4th and 5th.
Because we are having competition today.
To see who stays and who doesn't.
And I'm not ready.
And while I HOPE it just gets better from here, I sincerely doubt it.
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Message to [Hedda]. Tell me your thoughts on the matter.
spider man 2 sucked. straight out. it had 2 redeeming factors about it. TWO... well, by my count.
1: The fight scene(s) between Spiderman and Doctor Octopus... awesome and fun to watch. Very well done. No stupid lines, either.
2: "Go get em, tiger."
That's IT.
That gives Spider-Man 2 the WORST MOVIE SINCE LOTR:ROTK AWARD. Congratulation
[og_ghost]:
nah. I think I'll stick to hate and unhappiness. :D
What a love I have lost
What a woe I have gained
What a burden it is that holds me down now!
Pain, thy name is woman
yet woman, why must you know my heart so?
Like each word exchanged added demons to break my mind
The key to my being is in your firm grasp, and you chose to make my end untimely
It's best simply to enjoy the presence of friends, nothing further
Those who fall in love sell their souls and dance with the reaper
And those who survive are changed forever
and it is rare that they change for the better
so sweet sorrow goodbye, bittersweet thorn in my life
a pain ridden corpse now left empty.