why do people never listen to me...?
i'm only trying to help, and no one takes me seriously...
she didnt mean anything...
she still doesnt
you know who you are, please
just trust me
you never had a problem with her before
you should know she can be the best friend anyone could ever ask for
ever...
i'm lucky to be her friend
and i'm lucky to be you're friend...
but you never listen.
i dont lie
i dont
and she doesnt either.
she never lied to you...
she's only doing what you told her to...
she has a new friend...
is that so bad?????

losten up, please
maybe you wouldnt be so sad as often if you accepted things more often
please, just listen to me this time...


i'm sick...

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/387115624
go to it
its fun to see what will happen ^-^

hahahaha
i just made a username on one of those dating sites
just for the hell of it
and i'm actually meeting some pretty cool people
lol
theres this one guy who lives about 15 minutes away from me and he has wings tatooed on his back
his comment thing says red bull can bite me, lol
its a whole lot of fun
even if you're not single
lol

he would always tap this rhythm on the wall. once, i asked him what it was, and he told me : "its a rhythm that i'll never make into a song." sometimes, i catch myself tapping that same rythm on the desk in class. i'll never do it the same way he did it. he was so passionate about his music, always got so into it. when i sing, i try to find that same passion inside me. but it never shows. he was my passion, he was the hope i founf in my music. but, now that rhythm is all that remains of his unwritten song, that hopeful dream is gone, like it was never here to begin with. his crooked picture hanging on my dutifuly on my wall is what helps give me stranchth, that shadowed image of pain and loss makes me realize, i'm still alive. i'm still here. and if i cant live for myself, i'll live for him.tapping that rhythm on desk in class may help remind him i'm still here, and as long as that remains true, so are his memories. in my heart, he never left, his blood never spilled, his mother never cried, he's been here, leading me. i let him die, i let him leave, but i'll never let him go, not so long as i'm here. he'll never dissapear.

IN MEMORY (FOREVER LOVING YOU)
OF KIR
A LOVER, AND A HATER
EVERYONE'S HUMAN.

i dont want to feel alone anymore... no one knows how fucking tired i am of people lying to me and telling my it's alright, and that it's going to be okay without him. know one knew him like i did, and no one thinks that i miss him... and no one knows that it hurt to even talk about him... STOP FUCKING LYING TO ME!

i am so confused right now, my lifes going complete hell, my brains truning to mush inside my very brain... *sigh* im a mess... i like four guys... FOUR!!! now if thats not enough to mess with someones brain then i dont know what is... one of the guys hates me totally and completely, another one is liked by one of my friends, another one has a girlfriend, and the last one likes me... a lot, but his parents wont let me near him... they think im on drugs and, therefore, a bad influence to their little Robby...

*screams* any one who has experience with this sort of thing... HEEEEEEEEELP MEEEEEE!!!!!

it hurts too much to say, but i cant keep it in anymore... and i know that im going to regret saying this, but, my best friend killed himself and i dont know if i can tell anyone... i mean, his name that is. its just that... if anyone knew who he was, then they'd be all like, "omg, i'm so sorry" or "is there anything i can do?"

THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DO IS GET MY FUCKING FRIEND BACK!!!
thats all i want... thats what was on the christmas list i never gave to anyone...
but i know... i know that i cant get him back, and i know that hes now just a fleeting memory...

but i dont want that to be true anymore.

life sux

accually... love sux
i know that so many people have said this and emphasized it... but i just don't get why it has to be so true...
the truth hurts...
a lot of people say that too accualy...
but it's also really weird that the truth can be a blessing and seem like a trip to heaven and back to make all of the bad things seem to dissapear right before your very eyes... and come back to only seem like a talk away from being solved.

but then there also is this... lies may come in a really crappy wrapper that seems to be truth

and by the way...

I KNOW I AM NOT A SLUT!!! THAT IS YOUR FREAKIN LIE IN A CANDY WRAPPED TRUTH!!!

i wrote a poem dedicated to someone... i'm embarassed to say who...

the first light of the moon?
i think of you.
the last until daylight?
i'm thinking of you.
while under starlight?
still thinking of you.
wonderous twilight?
i fell in love with you.
why am i so rejected?
especially by you.
i'v been hated by so many
over and over again
but never by you
never by your gental words
your gental voice,
until now.
i try...
maybe not hard enough
i try to better lives
but i shorten them it seems
why do you hate me so
when i cant leave your side?
i'm governed by your words
you were different from everyone else
not black of heart
nor sour of soul
you were there for me
you werent embarrased to talk with me
butnow
you say
never speak to me again
why?
maye
i was never
worth it
not even from the begining
but now
in the end
i'm begging you
just answer this...
why am i nto good enough
no matter how hard i try
maybe
just maybe
you were to good for me
maybe
you'd be happier
if i were dead
maybe
the world would be happier...

-[scars of winter rain]

today is fethers day T.T my dad's far far far far far far far far away... *~cries~*

I wish i could see him, just to tell him
and maybe
for the first time
call him "dad" to his face

because even though he wasn't there for my whole life
he's there now

today is white day... (but nobody knows what that is... thats okay) so... HAPPY WHITE DAY EVERYBODY!

so... uuuhhhh... i dont have much to say... uuuhhhh... i dunno... uuuhhhhh... i spy a duck... i spy some cow pooh... i spy... a little brother named matt... HEY MATT GET OUTTA THE WAY ~matt runsaway~

well... nuthin is going on in the world @ the time... nuthin interestion... ~dodges flying cow~ nope nuthin at all, ~runs away from a giraffe with wings~... someone save me from bordom...

~runs away from some weird lady with big green wings and a big round stomache~

okay... NOW things are getting weird...