i'm happy for you, and all the life you live
minus the the love i never got to give
i'm sure i'll be fine in the end
just wake up and realize i have another "friend"
same old story, it's getting weary, it's getting old
repetition as it all unfolds
i'm happy for you and all the life you live
forget about the past, something that brings me joy,
was never meant to last...it's all the same in the end...
and i'm left...as just a friend

i backed my car into a cop car the other day ,well he just drove off sometimes lifes okay , i ran my mouth off a bit too much oh what did i say?!? , well you just laughed it off, it was all ok,and welll all float on ok, well, a fake Jamaican took every last time with that scam, it was worth it just to learn some slight of hand,bad news comes dont you worry even when it lands. good news will work its way into all them plans ~ Modest Mouse

moved my poetry to here

"Take a Breath" by ME


Take a breath, and take it slow,
the lighting fixtures start to glow,
above your head, highlighting your features,
indeph secrets, revealed in a light so low, bruises and scars, from when they beat you,
now I see, this was never about me,
take a breath and take it slow,
i was too blind to see, you were never mine
to keep, when the world keeps you in pain
and so out of reach, so i take a breath, and i take it slow, the tear under my eyes start to show, and once i again i sit in my thrown, only to realize lonlieness and feel oh so low, now your gone, and things are better, without me it all worked, so i take this breath....and for the last time release it slow, as i fade away with the coming of the snow....


"I Dream of Everything" by ME


i have hopes and dreams
burried in everything i've seen
shattered and tried, you think my hope would
of died,push on even though everything seems
to be gone, in a world so cold, finding
light and warmth in your smile comforts me
to an innocent ease,i wish i could be there
with insite to share, so i hope, and dream
once again, and all the sudden everything isn't so bleak and grey,hoping that you'll
be my new hope today, i'm probably wrong,
but i pray i'm not, that this dream is a
reality, and this lonlieleness will fade and
go away, so listen to this, this bored
cliche', won't you hold my hand today


"Burned Out" by me


there's a star up in the sky, and it calls your name to me,i wished upon once, i even wished upon it twice, but it all seems so pointless now, that star up in the sky, burns and fades like the light of my life, it's slowly burning out


now i stare into the sky, but i see no light, engulfed in what we were, obsessed with this fear, the brightness fades to black, and so does my heart, i forgot where to begin and i have no clue where to start


there was star up in the sky, and i can no longer see, i tried to take this back, i tired so hard, but it became so useless now, that black empty sky, shows no sign of your light


now i stare into the sky, but i see no light, engulfed in what we were, obsessed with this fear, the brightness fades to black, and so does my heart, i forgot where to begin, and i have no clue where to start


now i stare into the night, and wonder if your looking back, can you see me from his window, can feel my shawdow breathing down your neck, does he fill this hole in your heart, can you finish what you start, or will everything burn out into the endless night sky, untill you whither away and die

with this same old game we play, day by day it's all the
same, when you're by my side, and when you're not,
tomorrow comes with another fight, just to wait a whole 5 minuets to reunite, wee see through the rumors, we see through the lies, so why does it feel like my life is passing me by?, another endless night, another time I feel like I could die, but it's alright, in the end it's all the same, so just forget the past, let's see how long it'll last, before our appologies become empty, and the broken promises don't mean a thing, just one more day, just more time, till we both say goodbye

my s/b is almost over and it still blows!

hrm haven't written in here in awhile...got a new job...not much else to say but i'm bored