Note: when the touch-pad mouse gets so hot you don't want to touch it, it's time to turn the comp OFF! and probably a good idea to go to sleep. ah, sleeeep....
yeah, that pic for Adelle kinda wore me out. course if I hadn't saved it for the last minute...thoug
'All I want for Christmas is SUMMER JOB!!!!!"
k, so it's not christmas time. i still feel the need for Santa powers, cuz this alleged summer job is NOT showing up!! no one, and i mean NO ONE wants a worker just for the summer. What's up with that?! grrrrrr. growl. *weeping and nashing of teeth* yeah, majorly stressing out now. need-money-sco
oh, and, Miyazaki 's (Spirited Away) new movie, Howl's Moving Castle, SO fabulous!! OMGosh, it's way cool! i'm so excited. wheee! i want to see it again, and i just saw it today! eish. the man is a genius!
I was really inspired today. My prof was telling us about when he was in grad school, and he and several of his buddies were planning about founding their own college in the Olympic Peninsula, and it would be centered around a single text book, which they would write called, "On Everything." well, that was such a great title, I'm now working on a short story about a book titled "On Everything," by 'Fanny Planchett.'
I've been wanting to write another short story for a while now anyway. oh This'll be so fun!
k, i'm going to bed. I have a job interview tomorrow. *yawn*
well, it's not exactly my ideal job, but beggars can't be choosers. I have an interview at the Eddie Bauer outlet, whoopie! not exactly where I'd pictured myself, but it's a paycheck.
wow, I feel productive! sort of. Leela now has an elvish name, and I actually did research for it. She's really excited, as she's wanted an elvish name for a while now, but, at least with modern culture, alot of elvish names don't really work unless someone else gives them to you, otherwise it would sound arrogant.
anyway, her name is Italoth (shining flower) Geldomelaith (joy of evening laughter).
you know, I feel like such a slacker cuz I'm considering dropping my english language class. but really, I don't need the class at all, and I wanted to take it because it said there was going to be "history of english" and really, there isn't. the prof is really bad, and I feel really stressed right now, mostly in getting ready for the summer. it would be SO nice not to have to worry about those papers. of course, I can't stand the thought that i would drop it becaue i'm afraid of the work. no, but I dont' have to do it. I could drop the class, there's no reason for me to keep it, and it would be such a relief not to have to do the research paper! I'll talk to an advisor tomorow.
just read the first two volumes of the manga 'Ororon.' So good! distrubing, but good. really should be rated 16+, lots of gratuitus violence, but that is part of the theme, and a few other things, but the DIALOGUE!!! holy cow, I am impressed! the art is fabulous to begin with, but the screen play is just awesome! so cool!
I just got the word, I am going to Aberdeen, Scotland next fall for the whole school year!! Yaaaaay!! :D oh, I am SO happy. and finals are OVER. had the last one this morning and it went pretty well so i'm not worried. it's such a relief to have it all over though. really, nothing more to stress about. not sure I can handle this but i'll try. as a professional stresser i'm not used to the freedom. ;P think i'll survive. anyhoo. i'm so going to bed. Night all!
I'm at the internet cafe right now, eating dinner and hoping to work on my term paper. my laptop has decided it hates me, and is so out of whack I can't even type a word document without it flipping out. yeah, sucks! and, of course, I come here to get an hour to so to work on my paper, and my email is down, so I can't access the paper. yeah, sucks! and, of course, I left my book, which I was right in the middle of, back in my room so I wouldn't distract myself instead of writting my paper. so instead, I get to share my troubles with all you wonderful people!! yay! stress level is nearing the roof and rising. big ole' paper is due friday, and I have just barely started on it, and everything from my stomach to my mother board seems to be doing everything in its power to keep me from working on it. yeah, i'd say i'm in need of some serious prayer power right now. I haven't been this stressed since...since i had six AP tests coming up! yeah. that sounds about right. curse my writers block on sunday!!
on a lighter note, is it absolutely GORGEOUS here!!! it feels like summer it's so warm! and all the trees are in full bloom, sakura everywhere! truent scholars sprawled across every bit of cool grassto be found. and spring break is only a week away, woo hoo!!
okay, enough about me. what about all of you?
I finally saw Finding Neverland this afternoon. That is SUCH a good movie. I cried, it was so beautiful. of course, what could be wrong with Johnny Depp with a Scotish Accent? I want the sheet music for the credit's song. great stuff. *yawn* so tired. think i'll continue my nap....
:D :D :D yes, life is amazing!! School-fabulou
so, i totally just saw like the best play ever! I cried through the last three scenes! It was so sad.
so, i have a midterm today, and am taking off this evening for Winter Retreat with the youth group, and what did I do last night? I watched the last five episodes of the precious anime Fruits Baket!! and it is so, so, SO cool!!! ah! I love it! Poor Kyo-kun!! Ai! *runs and hugs adorable, cursed, carrot-top bishi, who immediately turns into a ginger cat in a puff of smoke* *sniffle~regai
okay, before you lose all faith in me i AM going to go read more of Dante, and study for my comedy midterm, and I am going on retreat this weekend, where I will be baptized on Sunday (don't ask me why I haven't been baptized before, it's kind of wierd, since i've been a Christian since the age of two...). I'm so excited!! yayness!
oh, and i dropped a credit, and have lots more time now, or i would if i wasn't like insanely busy with other stuff anyway. *rolls eyes* my social life is taking over!! not that i'm really complaining, it just makes homework hard to get around to.
I'll go do that reading now...
I am SO insane. i'm taking 19 credits! NineTeen!!! which means I pay extra money, and have like NO time for anything. my schedule is so bad. classes and breaks scattered everywhere. why is that bad, you ask? because there's never a chunk of time long enough to get anything done! and I already have stacks of reading, writing assignments etc. Add to that work, applying to my english major, applying to study abroad, bible study, youth group, art/writing, friends and basic self maintenence, I'm surprised I have time to eat let alone sleep! speaking of which, I should be doing that right now. I wanted to go to bed an hour ago but I had to wait for the repair man to come and fix my door. maybe it's just me, but I really didn't fancy sleeping in a room where the door didn't even close, let alone lock! and no way am I not locking down all my technology when I go to class! (laptop, scanner, camera!) hehe, yeah...*crashe
Happy New Year!
okay, so I know it's lame. so very lame. but i can't help it!! one of my bf's got DDR for christmas (actually his sister got it, but whatever!) and they went out and got a second pad, and now, after about four total hours of it, I am SO hooked!! I Love that game!! dude! it rocks! and it's such a workout too. it's so funny though, cuz i'm actually a dancer, and ben is *just* a gamer, so he does DDR so stiffly, like it's just another video game thing, and i'm actually trying to 'dance' with it! *chuckle* its hilarious!
the holidays have never been so crazy! so, a month or so ago, my grandma totally destroyed her shoulder, and a week ago, my mom broke her foot! they both had surgery, back to back, on the 16th, and are now resting up at home. So my sister and I have two sickies to take care of, christmas day to prepare for, homework to do, i have a story to illustrate (i may soon be published, keep your fingers crossed!) and yeah, life is totally nuts! So, we are rather deliberately cutting back on christmas. the tree isn't even half decorated, by normal standards, several long time traditions are being gently pushed aside. I've still managed to get in several hours on Ben's gamecube ( i love FF-CC! ), and am patiently awaiting ROTK-EE for christmas, and I still have five commissions to finish! yikes.
i think i've found someone to publish my children's christmas story, but I need it illustrated, and if I do that myself, it will save me alot of money, so I realy need to get to the old sketch pad. *sigh* well, as least my life isn't boring!! :)
oh, my good and gracious God!!! so, after a week containing nearly, what 9 hours of computer programing and not getting anywhere on our project, I then spend 13 hours over the weekend coloring a commission of Edgar Figaro, half of which was time spent in the computer. So, Naturally, when I entered the lab yesterday to 'finish' my project with my partner, i was none to thrilled. She wasn't either, having spent nearly 13 hour working on the project at home over the weekend. (before you think i'm a slacker, know that she didn't have to, and i would have gotten togethr to work on it, but she didn't say anything and just did it! )
SEVEN HOURS!! straight, in the lab yesterday! Seven!!!! when we finally turned it in, we had two versions of our program, one that met most of the code requirements, and another that would accasionally solve the puzzle! honestly, WE don't know how they work! we only wrote the darn things, we don't understand them!! *shrugs*" and honestly, looking at our code, on the one hand it almost makes logical sense, if you know just enough programming. if you really know programming, however, it makes NO sense at all and you have to wonder what in the world we're trying to do. in fact, we have no idea why it even compiles, because it 'shouldn't!' however, at that point, we were much more concerned with the entertainment value of the project. it may never ever manage to solve the puzzle, but it does print out amazingly appropriate lines from Shakespeare every move! 'this is what happens when English majors take comp sci..."
once this was turned in, my partner and I, between fits of hysterical laughter in which we collapsed on the floor of the lab, holding our sides and crying because our cheeks hurt, we sent our TA an email, "appologizing profusely in advance for the BS that is our program," and also explaining why there were two versions and such. it was the most pathetic thing ever! topping it all off with an apology for the humor in th program, for "after over 25 hours working on the program, whether it worked or not began to seem rather superficial!"
-conclusion. I am a slave to the computer. I shall never escape it's all consuming power! it has eaten my brain, my eyes, my hands, my art and now my program...i'm so screwed!
*sings* two weeks left! two weeks left!
only two weeks of the quarter left! Yes!! oh goodness i can't wait! Thanksgiving weekend was fun, but it was also a teaser. four days at home with the family, in my own room, and my own town, and my old time friends, and then i'm back here for almost three weeks. Blah! ii'm really having fun, and this week seems to be on of the better ones this quarter, but i still can't wait for Christmas Break! WooHoo!! Two whole weeks at home. oh, how fabulous.
and i am so busy still. Computer Science is so annoying! I had a total geek moment in lecture today. I just couldn't stop drawing, having finally gotten inspired for my first commission. then the prof started talking about "linked lists" and when he said the phrase "new Link" i just couldn't help it, and my 'notes' turned into sketches of Link from Zelda along with Navi, the evil fairy. i can't wait for a for real english class that I can get into! i'm so not in my forte right now...
and i am really wanting my blonde hair back. grrr....
so, there's this building on campus, and from the outside it looks really cool. It's very obviously modern and all, but it still reminds me of nothing so much as a cathedral! it's really ncie. but i had never been inside beyond the basement and first floor of this one wing. in the other wing, the inside is the trippiest place i've ever been!! it's so freaky! OMGosh! it's this HUGE atrium, and my friend and I just happened to be going around on the 5th floor, and suddenly the walls vanish and where in the humungeous ....place! ti's not like it 's all dark and spoooky, but it's so very, very high, and it's all concrete and glass and the bridges feel like they're floating, and it's all open to this huge space and there's just nothing there. and at the end of the halls the windows go all the way to the floor, so it looks like you cold just walk out of fifth story window!!! I have never been so tripped out.
Daaaaaagh! i ask myself, how is life so darn stressful. i think y da actually answered thsi question for me last ngiht, and it was rather profound and cool. at least his answer was. right now, I'm so confused. I've bene tressed before, but it's never bothered me like this before! and before all the things I ahd to do were hard in and aof themselves, now nothing itself is actually hard, there's just so much of it. at least i feel like there is. i also feel like two years ago I could have handled this schedule easily! now, i feel like Bilbo in FOTR, "I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter over too much bread." and i'm so tired. I don't get it and that in itself, of course, adds to my dilema. my very wise dad said, much to my surprise, that it was only natural, that uncertainty adds tension like nothing else. I am very uncertain about my future, tis true! like, what the heck am i going to major in and what the heck am I going to do when i get out?! those two things are rather big and very stressful. I hate not knowing. I've always either known or had some idea what my future was going to be, but then i grew up a bit and chucked it all out the wndow. anyways. prayers, please! whoever reads this! why do we need money? i wish we didn't have money, then we wouldn't need it, and we wouldn't need to slave for years just to get it. but that's getting into socialism, and I definately don't want to go there! anyway. life will get better! in the mean time...i need to go to class....