I'm checking email. Not this, not my friends page, not a message board or a website or an instant message or a phone call unless urgent as hell. Clearly I'm not ready for social interaction at this point, and since I seem to simply be driving nigh on most people away from me for one reason or another, I figure communication is not the thing right now. It's funny how talking ruined one good thing after another. I'm tired of being the bad guy. How I do things seems to be antithesis to others, lately. Maybe the vow of silence is a better aim for one to seek. Or mayhaps it is merely a sign that my psyche is contrary to humanity at the moment and I'm an insensitive asshole. Could be a nice "I'm not grown up." Hell if I know. A balance of it all, tempered by a lively spattering of generalized frustration and anger at the fact. I'll be back when all is said and done and I'm not so damn chaotic. Trust me, no one wants me around right now.

If you want me, write me a letter. If it's urgent, you have my cell number. Toodles.