FEELING THIS
FEELING WHAT?
FEELING LIKE CRAP!
well now the annoying guard has fucked off all i have to worry about now is moving..shit! i really feel like crap lately, u'd think i'd be happy..well my op was cancelled i guess that's what's bought me down..bastards sent the letter to my old address..i give up!
wow i didn't realise the date..how time flies. Dear bleak box today has been unsuccessful as i planned to go cycling and get out of this shitty place and the weather (and other things) were not on my side. So no cycling and instead continuous use of the net. On the bright side - if there is one - i've started planning my next song to put on my demo album. It is called..hang on i won't tell you i've already had my poem stolen by [Zanther Corvenus] >> asshole << so nope i'll say nothing else on those terms, christ someone might even steal this entry. Why do they feel the need?? Ok so u have no answers, never mind. Met someone on here today, depressed gal and now i worry for her lol i worry more about people than me! strange strange me...well at least that counsilling thing's been cancelled. I'd of had to go to launceston for it! major no no. Oh well take care box!
green pills, cousilling... damn! are we thinking something is wrong here? think i might 4get the shrink, it'l only confuse me..
recorded my first rock song today, wicked game (the H.I.M version) turned out pretty good i did all the guitar, drums and vocals on it, i've yet to let my dad hear it!
natural globe of an age near forgot live on in your mystic orb forever to roam the skies. oh rippled night sky, your pale grey shades heed a warning i can't read alone. Am i alone here? wondering at your ragged message? For instance, does it perhaps give reference to last nights dream, for the wind is as strong now as it was there. The heavens themselves, i dreamt, were angry.Their winds rampaged throughout the land consuming all in their way. i do remember a fall in which i half drowned in a sea of pity bearing mercy to our family name. Does this abnormal night sky give warning to things to come or was the wind as a metaphor?
i watched the moon for ages last night. i saw it through the glass window first and decided its a better atmosphere to look at it without glass in the way. the moment i pushed the window outward and away the moon beamed around the corner of the pane, absolutely glowing in the sky. it was unterly incredible! you make think i'm strange to watch the moon but really it is amazing when you just stop and think how old it is. living on an estate in bude is near on unbarable, i've only got to look out my window and there are neighbours glaring in. thats why i wait until night to open my curtains and spy on the sky. my mates reckon i'm a vampire!