The truth
beating its way through
my trembling lips
in my heart's blood
is nothing to be called
unexpected
but neither is it easy
to stand here, in front of you
forming word after another
knowing so well
they could be, oh, ever
so gently
be handed back
breaking me in half.

I no longer care who sees this. I like the guy, and I'm afraid I'll not be able to keep the words inside me for much longer. Every day, the feeling grows. Nearly every night, as clichéd as that sounds, I see him in my dreams. Be it one way or the other, I need to know. I need to know.

I'm going to print 'Free Hugs' on a hoodie. :3

Some of the extended family coming in today. Yes, that includes my cousin and her kids. I'll be needing peace and quiet after this again. <_<

Snatched.

(1) Dated one of your best friends: Before or after they became one of my best friends?
(2) Loved/Liked: Even as we speak...
(3) Cried: You're talking to a bloody crybaby here.
(4) Drank alcohol: Yeah. I hate the taste of most beverages I've tasted.
(5) Done drugs: That would be a no.
(6) Broken the law: Only small violations like walking across the street when the light was red... :P
(7) Broken a bone: Nope.
(8) Cheated on a test: No, no, and no.
(9) Skinny dipped: A few times, aye.
(10) Played Truth or Dare: Yeah, although I can only remember one instance... with [Teufelsweib] and [sequeena_rae]... xD
(11) Ridden in a fire truck: Nope.
(12) Come close to dying: Only in dreams.
(13) burned yourself: In the kitchen, yah.
(14) Given someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: Yush!
(15) Eaten a worm/mud pie: If this has ever happened, it was when I was a kid. Either way, if I have... I'm glad I don't remember. That's gross. :P
(16) Stayed up till four on the phone: Can't say I've done that. I doubt talking on MSN counts as being on the phone.
(17) Tipped over a port-a-potty: No. o_O
(18) Fell asleep while eating: Uuuhh, no.
(19) Met someone famous: Not really.
(20) Been in a school play: Once, I think.
(21) Cried in public: Embarrassing like hell, I tell you.
(22) Seen someone die: No, fortunately. Unless we count bugs. <_<
(23) been in a fist fight: Nope.
(24) given someone a bruise: Probably.
(25) gotten a bruise: I'd be surprised if I hadn't.
(26) knocked someone out: No, I don't have that kind of strength. :P
(27) been knocked out: Noes.
(28) flipped any vehicles: Erm no.
(29) cut someone: If I have, it's been accidental. But I don't think so.
(30) been cut: Aye. I'm both clumsy and an ex-cutter.
(31) burnt any buildings down: No. o_O
(32) sex in public: Errrrm I doubt kissing counts here.
(33) mooned someone: I can't remember what this means. <_<
(34) acted kidnapped in a car: Not that I recall.
(35) flashed someone: Could be.
(36) kissed an ass: Metaphorically or literally? Well, either way I think the answer is no.
(37) blew something up: Only in my dreams.
(38) caught your yard on fire: Erm, no.
(39) threw a firecracker at someone: I'd never do that. o_O
(40) been in any wars: No, unless you can count snow wars.
(41) stayed up all night: A couple of times. Not for me, really. xP
(42) slept all day: Unfortunately this has happened, yeah.
(43) watched the sunrise: Yes. <3
(44) rode a motorcycle: Nope. I've thought about hitching a ride on one, though, if ever given the chance.
(45) driven a car: Only play-driven.
(46) wrecked a car: Nuh-uh.
(47) gotten a titty twister: Maybe.
(48) given a titty twister: Possibly.
(49) posed for a nude pic: Does a half-nude self portrait count?
(50) been suspended: Nope.
(51) been expelled: Nay.
(52) been arrested: Naaaay.
(53) been in jail: No, sir, I have not.
(54) have you ever had sex: Depends on what you mean by sex. I'm a virgin, though.

Our version of a Christmas tree is an itty bitty cypress. About the height of a 1-year-old child... no wait, scratch that. Much shorter. Joy.

Here's a question: Why are all the best dreams always interrupted? :P

OFMG who was it?! xDDDD
Whoever donated in my name, I want to give a proper thank you :P

So, my lappy looks like that. You get to help me now. Should I call her Femke or Ursula? (Yes, I know, I've had her over a month without naming her... gasp :O)


Update: She is now called Femke. ^___^

Library Anecdote:

  * Patron: "I am looking for a globe of the earth."
  * Librarian: "We have a table-top model over here."
  * Patron: "No, that's not good enough. Don't you have a life-size?"
  * Librarian: (pause) "Yes, but it's in use right now."


Things People Said <3

Words learned today: persnickety (:P) and caron.

And I wants feedback on the poem, damnit. xD

Cast away the shackles that bound
to the frost covered earth
broke free of the chains
that tied down for so long
left the burdens behind at last

Look here, tell me
can I find those answers
in your eyes or my own
even if I've been lost
in these years of shadows

Tell me can I
find that ray of sunshine
to tilt my face up
and smile, so hopeful
embrace myself with your arms

Whisper with me
of the secrets I held
banish the demons
one by one by one
and stand beside me as I enter my path

Terry Pratchett has Alzheimer's. ;_;
But as he tells us to be optimistic, I shall attempt to do so.

I made a friend join. Go say hi to [Rikkiviisas]. ^_^

Aaaahg. Panic. I lost one of the friendship bracelets Laura gave me. Or, rather, I didn't put it back on my wrist yesterday after washing the dishes and now can't remember where I placed it instead. May not seem like much of an emergency to anyone else, but damnit, I've been wearing it all the time for months now and it's about as essential as my Prometheus necklace! Gah. Must find it.

These kids almost give me a headache with their playing - especially when they're playing against each other.