I think I just might be horribly territorial.

lami-otaku - yeah, I had to do it too.
Besides, I'd already started keeping a list on my computer ages ago.

Ofmg it's a drawing. For the first time in like... forever. *insert whining of how crappy it is here*

On the crowded, lonely alleyways
a winding cobblestone hell
underneath a glaring sun
we walk, forward, for nothing

Sell your soul for a copper penny!--
a street vendor cries
beckons with yellowed, rottening smile
that holds no promise

So the children are content to stare
eyes wide in fear or awe-
the rocks are heavy in your grasp
and someone turns to lead you away

In another place
you would lie down, sigh
let the snow angels bless you
with their cold lifeless embrace

Here, hours crawl by
they circle around as a cage-
who told you to come?
One no longer remembers.

Thinking of submitting to the Elftown Museum Permanent Exposition - a photo/poem/story, depending on what seems best.
Suggestions?
(Proper stalkers will know where to look!)

Not that I really expect anyone to react, but just in case. :P


Edit: Submitted the photograph currently in my drawing slot. There's just something very speshul about it. :3

My cousin must have the worst luck ever.
I'm sure I've told some of you how hard she has it with her children, and now, to add insult to injury, they suspect the youngest - a three-year-old - might have leukaemia.
Shit, I say.

Stolered from [Vou].

1. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Certainly. <3

2. How many girlfriends/boyfriends have told you they loved you?
One. Maybe. I can't remember anymore.

3. Longest relationship?
Fourteen months, approximately.

4. Do you hate your last boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yes, sometimes - just as much as I love him.

5. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Oh, have I ever...

6. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend mad?
Uh, yeah. A few times.

7. Are you happier single or to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I like both more or less equally. Before this relationship, I was quite happy to be single, but I'm not complaining now either!

8. Ever dated some one with a STD?
Not that I know of.

9. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Probably...

10. Think any of your ex's feel the same about you?
Contact between Mart and I became very scarce soon after I broke up. With Lea I'm still friends, though we didn't spend much time together for about a year after we separated. Jukka also seems to care for me.

11. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
I'm certainly not the perfect girlfriend, but I like to think I've improved since my previous relationship.

12. Have you dated people who were not good to you?
No.

13. Have you dated someone older than you?
Aye. Both Lea and Jukka are older, the former currently... uhm... 25? I'm not sure. The latter is turning 23 in May.

14. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends on what they did.

15. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Infatuation at first sight, yes - love at first sight? Not really.

16. Do you want to get married?
I haven't quite decided on that yet. The symbolism does appeal to me, but I don't feel the pressing need that many seem to have.

17. Does heart break really feel as bad as it’s said to be?
Possibly worse.

18. Would you believe your ex if she/he said they love you?
Neither of the ones I'm still friends with would say it lightly. Especially not Jukka. So I would have to. Would break my heart, though.

19. Would you date your best female/male friend?
Were she not taken, possibly. I'm not sure who my best male friend is.

20. Have any of your ex's called you by a nickname after the break up?
Not that I recall. Of course, Jukka has always called me by my IRC nick.

21. Do you regret any of your relationships?
No. I regret that they had to end the way they did, but for a moment I have not regretted being with those people.

22. Are you in a relationship right now?
Mm-hm. ;3

23. Do you like anyone?
I'll leave that for you to figure out.

24. Wanna date anyone?
These questions are beginning to get redundant.

25. Who posted this?
I took the questionnaire from the diary of [Vou], who got it from [Erubeus], who in turn found it somewhere else.

26. Think anyone else will post it?
If they're bored enough.

It always gets to me the most - the thought that I'm a disappointment to my family. To my dad, who is sometimes quite vocal about it. (As much as he is vocal about anything when angry - he just rants/yells for a moment and then sometimes takes off.) Probably because it is true. I am a disappointment, to myself at the very least. Have always been. I'm trying to change that, I really am, but... it takes time.
I don't think any one of them realises how worthless they can make me feel with just a few little words, and it never fails to make me want to do something very stupid. I know that compared to oh so many others, I don't have it bad at all. I guess I'm just weak. I'm so pathetic it's not even funny anymore.

I saw a dream about someone entering a poem of over 35 lines for the Valentine Poetry Competition. It was a really good one, I think was a sestina or somesuch, and made me want to extend the line limit. Alas, I do not recall it so I could write it down. :/

Ah, shit. Apathy struck and is quickly turning to gloom. These few remaining bad nights suck.

Exchanging hats! Please ignore my stupid face and the questionable filenames... that really wasn't my intention. :P

Flunked today's development studies exam spectacularly - couldn't even start answering any of the questions, that's what you get when you don't prepare - and bought a book to cheer myself up.
I really need to get a grip. If I can't do it for my own sake, then for everyone else's. I can't take another failure.

Why do people have to be such idiots? Hate, hate, mass amounts of HATE. Not a happy camper today, no sir.

Mmm, fresh self-baked bread. <3
I made Patrick upload a photo >:D Or, well. I uploaded it for him. Anyway. :P

I'm totally in love with this song, All the Same by Sick Puppies. Probably has significantly to do with the fact that it's in the original Free Hugs video. I think I'm going to learn it by heart soon...

In other news:
- Baking bread for Patrick and my family today. Wish me luck, I don't want it ending in a kitchen disaster.
- Really, really, really should stop procrastinating so much. This is self-sabotage, oi.
- That latest sonnet? I would like some feedback, even if only to make sure I'm not proud for nothing. An author is often blind to their own mistakes and all that. (When they're not being overly critical, of course.)
- Made another stylesheet. It's brown. It needs finetuning. But you can try it, it's _lami3.css
- Ie jesu domine... *thwack* Yea, that was it. :P Except for one thing.

Another sonnet, this time for the ECM Fairy/Fae Poetry contest. Feedback appreciated, as always. I think this one's actually good. It better be, because I worked on it for almost two hours. *dies*


Dawn at the Fae Court

As morning dew so quietly gathered
upon the silky petals of flowers
on a meadow beside the riverbed
beneath trees so tall, as ancient towers
where faeries often held merry balls
young children trooped out, enjoying the sun
and soon stumbled into the fae queen's halls

While others broke, giggling, into a run
one tiptoed lightly round her bed of fern,
of softest moss; and timidly, shyly touched

For one brief moment, held in gaze so stern
as queen Titania woke and sat up
she stood quite still, nervously fidgeting
until she noticed: the queen was smiling

Elfy made me write happy with her requested words. Whut? o_O


Dawn
kisses gently awake
the little garden rose
before awed eyes of a child
newly given freedom to roam
She eagerly watches
leaves flying by in the
morning breeze
as if on faery wings
while stars, silently twinkling
bid a merry farewell
to return once again

Alas, a love poet I am not
when discussing matters of the heart
my wit will not dazzle, nor will it awe
the words are simple, mundane
any verse likely to make you yawn
yet, unheeding, I write of emotions
larger than life itself
trying to find the perfect lines.

I downloaded the Illustrated Guide to Free Hugs. If anyone wants it, I can send. :3

Please? Any feedback? Anyone?
edit: Fine, then. You all suck. Except for Lon.


Yeah, I'm just tired and grumpy. And hungry. I still love you. :P

Crappy crap crap? This almost-sonnet was supposed to be an entry to the Valentine Poetry Competition, but eh. Not so sure about it. Opinions, suggestions? Feel free to go so far as to propose improvements to the punctuation.


Eve of the Winter Ball

My soul alight with possibility
tonight our paths may meet, perhaps even join
yet I shan't have class - nor receive pity
so humbly, as decided with toss of coin

As winds whisper sweet nothings in my ears
this timid resolve grows inside my heart
to find solace with love's blind guidance; fears
so small beside memories of being apart
that the world matters not for this one night

Did anyone ever see your brilliant smile?
I willed it to return with all my might
yet you avoided this gaze every while

Call irony, or whatever you wish
I'm your chosen valentine - and you are mine