I... got a self-reminder message. A quote. By St. Clement of Alexandra.
"If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes."

This is all well and good, but I've never scheduled any messages. Upon checking, I saw that there are more scheduled at irregular intervals. One for November. Two for both December and January, respectively. And I am going wtf.

No, yeah, it's a nice surprise, but I got slightly freaked out xD Thanks. If I focus on them enough, they may actually help me.
I have my suspicions as to the guilty responsible party. :P

Trin left D:
But, well, we had fun. Ate lots of ice cream and candy and foxberry muffins. And went camera-happy in town. It was a good weekend. :3

Tomorrow I'm going hoooooome. For a whole week. It'll do good for me. <3

"Keep smiling," says Ian. Pretty much out of nowhere, but it means a lot that he'd care.

Trying...
Well. Trin will be here in about five hours.

Stolered.


Think of five names, spontaneously

Laura
Jukka
Allison
Trin
Squee

DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP THE TOP!!






1. How did you meet #3?
Right here! I don't remember the particulars, but we probably started chatting on wikis and forums. Then I signed up to take Maria Magdelena - although I don't remember whether that was before or after we added each other on MSN. At some point she proposed a relation, we started talking even more, and what do you know... she's my beloved little sister now. <3

2. What would you do if #2 and #5 were going out?
Be quite shocked, and pinch myself because surely it would have to be a dream.

3. How long have you known #2?
About three years. We'd been on the same channel (for Finnish nanoers) for a while, a month or two maybe, but I only really became aware of him when he was recruiting people to go with him to see the fourth Potter film.
A month later, we were a couple. <_<

4. How do you know #5?
Again, from here. And again, I'm blanking on the details. We do have 98 pages' worth of messages since July 2006, and the first one suggests we'd known for some time before that as well...

5. What would you do if #4 confessed they loved you?
But she does love me!
Ha. That's what you get for posing ambiguous questions. But no, really, I'd be quite surprised, since last I checked she only plays for one team.

6. A fact about #1.
She's diabetic and tends to scare me half to death. :3
Oh, and she likes groping my cleavage. I'll never get her to stop, so I've just resigned myself to restricting her from doing it in public.

7. Who is #2 going out with?
No one, as far as I know.

8. What does #5 do for a living?
Sheeeee's working in a bakery? Yeah? <_<

9. Would you live with #3?
This was in the plans at some point, as a matter of fact. :P

There is no ten! :O

11. What do you like about #1?
Quite a lot. How she takes care of me, how she's gentle with those she cares about, her sense of humour (most of the time), her ability to spin stories on the spot... I also envy her for being so... open. >_<

12. What would you do if #2 died?
Angst. And cry. And curse. And call him a bastard.

13. Do you miss #1?
You have no idea.

14. What is your opinion of #3?
Lovely <3
She's cute, lively, crazy, beautiful, thoughtful, considerate, sensitive... shall I go on?

15. Would you ever go out with #1?
If she weren't my de facto older sister... yeah, sure :D

17. Ever get really personal with #1?
Depends on the definition.

18. Have you ever slept over at #5's house?
Nuh-uh. I hope to, one day. ;3

19.Do you think number #4 is attractive?
I'd do her. :P

20. What do you like about #2?
Uhm... His intelligence, sense of humour (most of the time), geekiness, trivia-infested brain, how he can be so gentle with me even if he's really a prick. The random noises he makes. Oh, and then there's the dimples.

21. What would you do if #1 died?
Contemplate going right after her.

22. Are you dating #2?
Used to. First he broke up with me after five months. Then there was a ten-month interval during which we were simply good friends and I was finding it hard to get over him. Then when I was finally starting to recover, we started again. Dated for another five months, and then I left him and decided that while he might have been something like the love of my life, we shouldn't ever be a couple.

23. Name one quality of #5?
Hilarious. :P

Ever heard of the film 2:37?

Neither had I. Saw it about a month ago, was intrigued, and today finally rented. Get it and watch it.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0472582/

I am a decent writer. Good, even.
I need to be better.

*inferiority complex*

More Japanese music! Mika's fault again.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RxOhJusrDI&NR=1

Wtf one of my nude stock photos was reported? WTF?

Your deviation, listed below, has been made temporarily unavailable from deviantART due to it containing nudity or a model of questionable age, and therefore we require a Model Release Form

Uh, well, I'm pretty darn sure I marked it as containing nudity so... Questionable age? Wtf? >_<
*sigh* Apparently I look a bit too young... And some douchebag didn't get that I was modeling myself. For chrissakes... *goes bitch to Help Desk*

If you're at all open to music in Japanese, check out Shiina Ringo. Mika (the friend from the previous entry) played some of her songs for me and now I'm quite hooked.
YouTube link for the lazy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AIg0bgzQs30

Failed the phonetics exam. >_<
Which is... just... pathetic. I mean, even with guesswork, it should still be pretty hard to get enough answers wrong - it was a true/false type of exam, fifty claims... and... uuuungh.
This is not good for my mental state. I've been unsteady enough lately without this sort of thing. Then again, the unsteadiness is probably what caused me to fail... No energy to study means bigger chance of flunking.
I just hope I'll pass the Finnish structures exam of this morning. If not, I... gah.
And then there's that Writing Skills course. Oh, gods, the Writing Skills. If my first essay was bad, the second one was worse, and I turned it in a day too late. Maybe it'll get better if I could just find some focus somewhere... maybe...

Please can I just die? Or disappear. Either works for me.
Of course, what I really need is a good long cuddle. I was momentarily comforted by going to see a... sort-of friend. Had a bit of a cry, listened to music, drank tea. Just chatted. And I hugged him before I left (to finish the darn essay), the memory of which kept me going until around the time I saw Mikko. Mood started going downwards from there, and then there were the exam results and. Yeah. Even Pronunciation class didn't cheer me up, and usually classes with Ian are the high points of my day.

So. I.
Need to get over how pretty Mikko is. The crush is detrimental to my mental health. (Hmm, repetition there. Interesting.)
Have to find out when I can re-take the phonetics exam and actually study for it.
Should try to shape up a bit in Writing Skills.
Need a friend I can be open with. Now my hunger for affection and the separation anxiety is just killing me. I hope the aforementioned person won't mind a Lami-shaped clingy thing in his life.

Uh. Yeah.
Uni is lovely, but my mood swings are worse now than what they have been in the last year or two, and my studies suffer for it.

I has a T-shirt design, lol. It's terribly cheesy, but maybe - just maybe - someone will like it enough to buy one. :P
http://www.redbubble.com/people/linderel/clothing/1814792-2-beautiful-flower

This is supposed to be a good piece? This?
I think I must crash them back down to earth. Structure, description, dialogue, everything is second-rate. I'll just have to be a little less harsh when I actually comment...
Contains lesbian erotica, do not view if (for some peculiar reason) icked by it.
http://b3nwa.deviantart.com/art/Teacher-s-pet-94705870

Drank two mugs of coffee today (okay, yesterday), which I almost never do. Might not be good for my stomach. Then I got a nosebleed for the third time in as many days, and of course I couldn't help swallowing some of that. Not a happy camper yo.
No villanelle this weekend. No making sense of PayPal, either. Well, this week, maybe?

Oh, and I'm supposed to write a 900-word essay on Scummy Man for Writing Skills by Tuesday morning, and I haven't even watched the damn thing yet. Anyone seen it? I'm interested in hearing people's views.

PayPal is making my head ache.
That might also have something to do with the fact that it's five in the morning, but let's not bother ourselves with details. Instead... I think I'll just go to bed and try to make some sense out of PP later. <_<

Some things I just hate about dA.
It's goddamn heavy. Takes forever to load anything. Sometimes, it doesn't show me the contents of a gallery.
Oh, and it eats submissions! You submit them, everything's fine, but they're not there! And if you want to upload them again you'll have to use another name because dA'll say you have a submission by that name already. Hate hate hate hate.

*fumes*

Lami is a happy kitten. =^___^=

1. Damn Seagulls are releasing their third album next February, and the first single from that album will be out during this month.
2. English Phonetics starts on Tuesday, so now I'll have lessons with Ian almost every day (Phonetics Tuesdays and Wednesdays, Pronunciation Thursdays and Fridays).
3. There are a ton of interesting courses that I want to take. Uni = love.

Bweeeeeeeeeee.

I made myself mature content banners for WritersCo. :o
(Thanks to [Jitter] for helping me with the blood spatter brushes!)
Now I only have to write something that I'd actually need them for. xD

I'm shadowing my own contest!

No, really. I decided to write my own stuff for the fourth round of Portfolio Contest. Just not sure where I should post them, aside from my usual wikis. Anyhow, I'm tossing the link here: Wildflower. Read and leave feedback plx?

Also, I have way too many notes in my sidebar. Among other things is a poetry contest that never got launched. Would any of you possibly be interested in participating in Strangers?

Want to die now, kthx. Totally locked up, so it was less of a presentation and more of a discussion. Whyyyy must I be so broken.

Presentation on Eveline in about an hour. I am so dead.