Happy New Year, everyone. Whatever your 2008 was like - let's make 2009 better.

I'm starting mine as a redhead.

I belong here, right? I have a place here, my own place, with all of you?
Gah. Shut up, shut up, shut up. Issues flaring up again. I think at least Allison knows what the heck I'm talking about, we had a discussion about it once. Iiiiignoooore thiiiiis if you wish, just one of those whines that I feel compelled to post.

Why the fuck is it that it can still hurt me so badly to part with him - in some ways even worse than it hurts to part with Laura? I just want to curl up with him, take a nap on his bed, hug him tight and never let go. That's sort of a problem, though, because it ain't happening. Why the fuuuuuck do I still love him so damned much? Makes no sense, no sir.

Sigh.

I'll just watch more anime now kthx.

Oh yeah, tried out WoW on his account. Made a blood elf rogue. As I figured, it wasn't very addicting for me, but I've nothing against playing a bit more if I get the chance.

Carrying 30kg of preteen girl piggyback style after running around playing one of the myriad varieties of tag with that same girl makes for great big ouch the day after. I ache all over the place. xD

My Secret Santa gift from le [Dint] :3

Loot from ze parents:
- Sex and the City DVD <3
- Monty Python Fluxx <3
- book on silver clay :3

Am now up to date in House M.D. - next episode coming out halfway into January. Commence withdrawal symptoms. <_<

Little Women keeps on being one of the loveliest films ever. <3

Home now. Will babble about *looks at clock* yesterday later, at the moment I just need sleep and baaaaadly. Seeing Laura in the day, we'll be going to town. Also, there are kids in the house again, so there'll be noise in the morning. Joy.

I am so utterly unprepared for the exam that I decided to just skip it altogether. It doesn't make much difference - I'm fairly certain I'd have failed it. Transcription, now that I could have survived, but the essay questions would have stumped me. I'll just sit the first re-exam and hopefully ace it. I have to shape my performance up for next term - this one for the most part went down the drain, and I've no one to blame but myself. I can yammer on about depression all I want, but there's also a lack of self-discipline involved. I keep making these empty promises to myself, over and over again, to get a grip. Well, no more. There's no choice but to do it or I'm going to fail miserably, and there's only so much failure I can stand.

Yadda yadda yadda. It's just more whining. Why are you reading this? Go away and do something more important. :P

Most of today has been spent not reading for the English Phonetics exam as it should have, but doing chores. Washing clothes and cleaning up my room, mainly. It could be called procrastination if not for the fact that my having to do these things now is a direct result of earlier - yes, you got it right - procrastination. I've still got to clean up the main area of the apartment, but I'll do that a bit later. Next in line is fooooood. Then I'll see about the photoshoot I've promised. Then perhaps after that I can at least attempt to revise.

When I'm distressed in a dream, I often wake up to feel that my breath is constricted - like I really was crying. Happened again last night. Don't know why this makes me feel uneasy, but it does.

Gah? D:
http://community.livejournal.com/mock_the_stupid/3159030.html

Blueberry cookies with a hint of cardamom and cinnamon = yum.
It's almost a shame that most of them are going to Ian xP

I has mail from Norway! :D

Visited abandoned house with an upstairs neighbour I occasionally hang out with. Now frozen. About to watch BBC's 'Pride and Prejudice' because apparently talking about it makes one want to see it again. This is totally your fault, Trin - not that I actually mind.

Things to do before the 19th:
- clean up the room + common area of the apartment
- do a photoshoot or two
- finish Christmas presents, mail those that need mailing
- read and practise for phonetics exam
- watch Tsubaki Sanjûrô and return it to Mika
- decide what to pack
- wash some clothes
- probably one or three something elses I'm forgetting

Got the payment details for the model gigs. 100€ - thank you very much :D
Will get it on Monday.