Last night, I slow danced for the first time in my life. I was actually asked a few times, but always declined... I'll admit that someone had caught my eye and I was trying to gather up the courage to go ask him. He disappeared from sight before I had the chance, though. And of course I didn't feel like dancing with just anyone. Then this another guy appeared before me and simply extended his hand. I thought for a second or two, probably tilted my head. He was cute, though, with shoulder-length black hair and a goatee, tall, very lean. And I thought 'Aaahh, what the hell, let's go' and took his hand. He raised it as if he were going to kiss it (didn't, though - shame that :P) and led me to the floor. Then came the pathetic part where I didn't really know how to dance, stepped on his foot a couple of times, and was too shy to even look at him in the face. He did take both of my hands in his and sort of bowed when the song was over, thanking me, so maybe it wasn't all bad.

It just bugs me like hell that I didn't even look at him, talk to him, or get his name... and that I'm probably never going to see him again.

Ah well. If I work on Tuomo, maybe I'll get him to dance with me.


Also, I feel like a fucking teenager (ironic because the bar's age limit was 22) but I figure I'm allowed... what with being socially dysfunctional and never really going anywhere. But I've now made a deal with my cousin to go out dancing with her when I'm around.

I'm thinking about a tattoo for one of my wrists. So far, my ideas are the following:
a) ankh
b) eternity knot
c) spiral of life

Yes, this has very much to do with strength, evolution of self, life, and staying alive. A tangible reminder.

Damn Seagulls gig = love. As always.
Got the new album autographed, too. Lauri is awesome. :3

Random observation, one that I've made to myself a few times before: I'm happier in bright weather. Srsly. I seem to be more likely to be in a good mood when the sky is clear and the sun is shining (or the stars are showing). I'm sure this is nothing even close to rare, but it's interesting.

Btw, the paintings arrived. Thank you muchos [Levoton] <3

I've always liked the odd Bruce Springsteen song or another when I hear his stuff on the radio, but I never actually looked for it before. Now I did, and I'm really digging it. One of the benefits of having a crush: it expands my musical horizons.

Holy shite I think it might be crap. Or not? Maybe? Yes? No?


Speak the names of stars and I gaze down
from my silently laughing journey
Offer a smile, let me kiss it
take our breath so suddenly away
Oh, do not talk, just dance with me
and let the world sway to a fade

*wibble* Short version: Went to a student party, saw him, talked to him (without even having to employ my brilliant opening line), braved the dance floor, kinda had a good time and am now probably even more in like with him. 'Twas a good day, today was.

I'm bloody well going to strike up a conversation with him the first chance I get. Hopefully this week. Got a good opening, too. 'Since I added you on Facebook, I thought I'd come talk to you...' :P

Well, it's happened. I knew it would, but it still hurts. I'm no one's most important person anymore.

Don't comment, okay? Just... don't.

Nymphic

Every other day
a new obsession
such a strong attraction

Oh so restless, running in circles
searching, searching
for a thrill
a reciprocal gaze
locked eyes and a stomach full
of butterflies

It's a quest for love, baby
or something very much like it
and I'm done sitting around
just waiting

Please go ahead, be my victim
of amateur lust
and clumsy blushing infatuation

My latest TV serie binge has been on Bones. I love the show, and the central characters. Especially Bones, Booth, and Hodgins. Hodgiiiins *drool* And in one of the episodes in season 2 there was this song at the end that's now stuck in my head and for some reason I want to cry every time I hear it ;_; It's just so lovely.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OY3sq-io7FE&feature=related

Yeah, this is for [Chimes]. xD
[Jitter] may spank me if I've totally raped the Greek mythology.


In thy bounteous womb grow
these perfect, ripened fruit
they tumble and they fill
our ever questing arms
O Amalthea!
thy precious horn
enwrapped in a vine of wisteria
it waits for the poor
and the worthy alike
as passes syzygy
after another and yet one
before the dark and thy fall.

We were talking about fish on the nanoer channel and I suddenly started to miss haring. o_o Voooorkjeeee, bring me haring when you come to Finland, 'k? :P

Am I the only one who's bugged by the new comment display? <_<

Off to home for the weekend. Back on Monday.

Unexpected visit by Mikko, who had been at a party in Teekkaritalo (across the parking lot from my apartment building) and decided to leave. He knocked on my window, asked me to come open the door, and then we spent the next hour or so just talking about stuff. It was nice, though now that he left I feel quite lonely again... Ah, well. I'll just continue watching the movie I suppose.

Watching Breakfast at Tiffany's. It's certainly... interesting. xD

25 thingy. Blame [Chimes], who tagged me, and [Jitter], whose example inspired me to post this here as well.

01. I tend to fill these memes in a random order even though I'm usually pretty obsessive. Everything needs to be alphabetised, for example. The order may be reversed as long as it's sequential.
02. I'd like to learn every language known to man, but I could satisfy myself with mastering seven, mother tongue included.
03. I'm very affectionate and craving of physical touch. I just happen to be picky in granting the 'privilege'.
04. I think hormones are the devil.
05. I'm insecure. Because I'm insecure, I suffer bouts of envy and jealousy.
06. Related to the previous: I take a superior attitude when someone thinks they're a good writer but isn't on my level. This is just inside my head, but I still hate it about myself.
07. I procrastinate too much.
08. Said procrastination is a habit I keep trying to kick, but apathy makes it a bit hard.
09. I'm a crybaby, and anyone who actually knows me can testify to that.
10. I used to get along better with teachers and other adults than my peers.
11. Saving money is hard. I don't know how people do it.
12. There are four tattoos adorning my skin, and more will be coming. They are an expression of my self.
13. My taste in music is rather wide. I'll try listening to anything you hand me, though I do have my reservations about certain genres.
14. I love my sisters more than anything or anyone else in the world.
15. I think I'm easily forgettable.
16. My memory is full of holes. I couldn't even tell you what happened in my life last year. Thus, the image I have of my days in pre-school and comprehensive school is vague at best, and I keep wondering whether everything wasn't my own fault after all.
17. I'm pants at drawing, but I still like doing it in the hopes that I'll slowly improve. I especially love water colours.
18. I'll never be good enough at anything I do.
19. My sleep is restless; I keep waking up. Last night was worse than most.
20. I've now learned again that not getting to my first choice of school isn't an entirely bad thing. Yes, I'm still lonely, and I miss my friends in the south, but I never would've met the people here otherwise.
21. Sometimes, I want a pet so badly that it's almost a physical ache.
22. On a lighter note, it takes very little to amuse me.
23. I used to have no trouble performing in front of a class. I want that back.
24. I'd like to run a small bookshop café in my retirement days - or even earlier, if my plans of teaching fall through. Preferably somewhere in central Europe, perhaps France.
25. I'll be hitting the gym shortly after posting this note.

Jack FUCKING Twist!

Brokeback Mountain <3

American History X is a brilliant movie... and so sad. ;_;