Sweet serendipity
to find on your path
such strong conviction,
unwavering faith;
although paper-thin
this veneer, your one
beloved illusion of truth
is the heart of the enigma:

You, immersed
in your epic quests
holding steady
against so many nefarious plots
to take this reality away.

The chemist from room 3 moved out today. I don't blame her, living in a single flat is probably much nicer. I do mourn the fact that we (the remaining two occupants) no longer have a microwave oven or a shower curtain. Sure, we can live without those for a couple of days... okay, I can live without those for a couple of days. The other one goes home every weekend, the lucky bastard. But perhaps she can at least acquire a shower curtain for us.

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*cringes* I added a person on Facebook who I thought might've been him, and sent a message. Apparently was someone else entirely. Fucking embarrassed now...

It was silly anyways. *goes find a wall to bash her head against*

Last night, I slow danced for the first time in my life. I was actually asked a few times, but always declined... I'll admit that someone had caught my eye and I was trying to gather up the courage to go ask him. He disappeared from sight before I had the chance, though. And of course I didn't feel like dancing with just anyone. Then this another guy appeared before me and simply extended his hand. I thought for a second or two, probably tilted my head. He was cute, though, with shoulder-length black hair and a goatee, tall, very lean. And I thought 'Aaahh, what the hell, let's go' and took his hand. He raised it as if he were going to kiss it (didn't, though - shame that :P) and led me to the floor. Then came the pathetic part where I didn't really know how to dance, stepped on his foot a couple of times, and was too shy to even look at him in the face. He did take both of my hands in his and sort of bowed when the song was over, thanking me, so maybe it wasn't all bad.

It just bugs me like hell that I didn't even look at him, talk to him, or get his name... and that I'm probably never going to see him again.

Ah well. If I work on Tuomo, maybe I'll get him to dance with me.


Also, I feel like a fucking teenager (ironic because the bar's age limit was 22) but I figure I'm allowed... what with being socially dysfunctional and never really going anywhere. But I've now made a deal with my cousin to go out dancing with her when I'm around.

I'm thinking about a tattoo for one of my wrists. So far, my ideas are the following:
a) ankh
b) eternity knot
c) spiral of life

Yes, this has very much to do with strength, evolution of self, life, and staying alive. A tangible reminder.

Damn Seagulls gig = love. As always.
Got the new album autographed, too. Lauri is awesome. :3

Random observation, one that I've made to myself a few times before: I'm happier in bright weather. Srsly. I seem to be more likely to be in a good mood when the sky is clear and the sun is shining (or the stars are showing). I'm sure this is nothing even close to rare, but it's interesting.

Btw, the paintings arrived. Thank you muchos [Levoton] <3

I've always liked the odd Bruce Springsteen song or another when I hear his stuff on the radio, but I never actually looked for it before. Now I did, and I'm really digging it. One of the benefits of having a crush: it expands my musical horizons.

Holy shite I think it might be crap. Or not? Maybe? Yes? No?


Speak the names of stars and I gaze down
from my silently laughing journey
Offer a smile, let me kiss it
take our breath so suddenly away
Oh, do not talk, just dance with me
and let the world sway to a fade

*wibble* Short version: Went to a student party, saw him, talked to him (without even having to employ my brilliant opening line), braved the dance floor, kinda had a good time and am now probably even more in like with him. 'Twas a good day, today was.

I'm bloody well going to strike up a conversation with him the first chance I get. Hopefully this week. Got a good opening, too. 'Since I added you on Facebook, I thought I'd come talk to you...' :P

Well, it's happened. I knew it would, but it still hurts. I'm no one's most important person anymore.

Don't comment, okay? Just... don't.

Nymphic

Every other day
a new obsession
such a strong attraction

Oh so restless, running in circles
searching, searching
for a thrill
a reciprocal gaze
locked eyes and a stomach full
of butterflies

It's a quest for love, baby
or something very much like it
and I'm done sitting around
just waiting

Please go ahead, be my victim
of amateur lust
and clumsy blushing infatuation

My latest TV serie binge has been on Bones. I love the show, and the central characters. Especially Bones, Booth, and Hodgins. Hodgiiiins *drool* And in one of the episodes in season 2 there was this song at the end that's now stuck in my head and for some reason I want to cry every time I hear it ;_; It's just so lovely.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OY3sq-io7FE&feature=related

Yeah, this is for [Chimes]. xD
[Jitter] may spank me if I've totally raped the Greek mythology.


In thy bounteous womb grow
these perfect, ripened fruit
they tumble and they fill
our ever questing arms
O Amalthea!
thy precious horn
enwrapped in a vine of wisteria
it waits for the poor
and the worthy alike
as passes syzygy
after another and yet one
before the dark and thy fall.

We were talking about fish on the nanoer channel and I suddenly started to miss haring. o_o Voooorkjeeee, bring me haring when you come to Finland, 'k? :P

Am I the only one who's bugged by the new comment display? <_<

Off to home for the weekend. Back on Monday.

Unexpected visit by Mikko, who had been at a party in Teekkaritalo (across the parking lot from my apartment building) and decided to leave. He knocked on my window, asked me to come open the door, and then we spent the next hour or so just talking about stuff. It was nice, though now that he left I feel quite lonely again... Ah, well. I'll just continue watching the movie I suppose.