I keep being afraid that, since our relationship is still so fresh and couldn't yet really be called 'dating', he'll find some reason to back out. That I won't be what he thought I was, that I won't be enough... or that perhaps I'll be too much. That he just won't like me anymore.

And gods, isn't this ridiculously pathetic? But it's true, even if it can't be based on reality. After all, losing people is one of my greatest fears, and that fear does not care for logic. Nope.

Oh ffs shut up already. Yeah, anyway... I'll be spending today and tomorrow with Laura, and I doubt I'll be online much if at all. So have yourselves very enjoyable Thursdays and Fridays.

Huh. :D
http://ethesis.helsinki.fi/julkaisut/hum/taite/lt/lilja/

*headdesks* What an incompetent fuck. Do you perchance lack basic reading skills?

Ahem. So. I ha(d/ve) a problem with one of my works on deviantArt. Looked through the FAQ and the Status Forum before sending an inquiry:

This is a minor annoyance, but an annoyance nonetheless: A deviation I submitted last night refuses to show up in anywhere but the Featured view (and my Poetry gallery, where I also put it). I cannot see it when I switch to the Browse view, nor is it showing up on my profile page among my newest deviations. I was just wondering what's up with that.

And I wait for an answer, certain that all will be solved... only to receive this now, hours later:

Hi,
I apologize for the delay. Can you please let us know if you are still having this submission problem.

For those deviations that were still affected by this issue if you cannot locate them in your gallery I would advise you go to the browse section of your gallery which you can locate by going to your Gallery page and then select the Browse text link. This section will display all deviations for you even if they are marked as unfeatured. If the missing deviation is not in your gallery but displays in your browse section all you will need to do is mark it as featured which is explained in the following FAQ. :)

http://help.deviantart.com/866/

If you need any further help please let us know.


<_< Yeah. Sure. Are you certain it's not you who needs help? Thanks so much, I think I'll just live with the minor annoyance. Not up for trying to put you straight.

An Ode to Cats

The dark tail swishes,
twitches
once, twice, and stills
as the beast stalks her prey
(quite unknowing
humming gently under their breath)
and she crouches, low
silent, careful
velvet and steel on white-stained grass
Creep just
 a little
   closer and

POUNCE

The prey is hers—
a satisfied purr
body cleverly entwined
around the captive's legs
That twinkle is not evil, no
but your heart has been stolen
(all
   over
     again)
and is being softly held
between small, playful paws.

!!!!!!!!
http://www.thecontrarianmedia.com/2010/01/christopher-lee-to-release-metal-album/

Behold the Man review

[Jitter], your gift arrived! Thank yous :3
I just hope I can actually use 'em... strong scents tend to cause me headaches <_<

11:36 <nekorin> Moi. Sä et oikeastaan tunne mua, mutta älä välitä siitä. Mäkään en tunne sua mutta se ei oikeastaan kiinnosta mua. Ajattelin vain kertoa että jos kohtelet mun Lamia huonosti niin sivelen sun kivekset hunajalla ja köytän sut kiinni muurahaispesään. <3

Now this is sisterly love. :3 Laura said this to Lauri (and isn't that hilarious?) a couple of weeks ago. Translation:

Hi. You don't really know me, but don't pay that any mind. I don't know you either but that doesn't really matter to me. I just thought I'd tell you that if you treat my Lami badly I'll paint your testicles with honey and tie you up in an ants' nest.

Frustration occasionally leads to experimentation.
One of these days I will write a poem with no punctuation and not one single capital letter.

... maybe.


blink

quietly, tendrils of sleep
withdraw
ebb
leaving fragments

can almost taste, almost
hear but never touch

even reaching
farther than arms
can go
  ...made of clay
  tied down, bound

to the ground

melody becomes whisper, then silence
flit far away
into realm of dreams


I open blurred eyes
and cannot follow.

Book 1 of 42. :3

Wildfire by Sarah Micklem review

Received a Vorkje-card. <3
_{(You accidentally changed my surname. :3})

So in a nice little twist of the usual routine, I'm now apparently going to be counting days until I see the boi again. :P Not that I don't like being home and seeing my people just as much as before, but damn.
Well, the same countdown nicely doubles as horror panic death because I'm supposed to get some uni work done and the deadline to turn in the IntroLit term paper is an hour and a half after I return to Oulu. So yeah.

I'm making a toy for Surma (the tiny black cat who lives with my boi) out of gift-wrapping ribbon, yarn and an old Christmas ornament. I think I'm pretty much a goner on both counts. xD

Fascinating.
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/22/science/22angi.html?_r=2

Oh yeah, and:

Hyvää joulua!
Frohe Weichnachten!
Merry Christmas!
God jul!
Feliz Navidad!
Prettige Kerstdagen!
etc.

I am now the happy owner of prints of Sir Edward Byrne-Jones's Pygmalion and the Image, parts III and IV. I'd be happier if I found parts I and II somewhere to complete the series, but these two are already pretty damn awesome.

I love [Triola]. <3<3<3
_{(That is to say, the present was here waiting and you are teh best evar.)}

I can has boifrend. His name is Lauri.
He makes music, lives with a tiny black cat, and is really rather funny and cute. He is also a techie student.
Let's see how this one goes.