Sometimes, I really hate people. For the smallest of reasons. This usually happens when I am tired... okay, well, being tired is the normal state of affairs for me, but anyway. There are levels. Bloody humanity as a whole begins to feel like a huge annoyance.

Yeah, I think I should head to bed. Cranky-Lami is no fun, unless you happen to derive amusement out of general snippiness aimed at various idiots of the race.

If there's one thing I hate about winter, it's dry skin. And even that is more the fault of my stupid body than the season. <_<

Received my SETA (Finnish LGBT association) membership card <3

http://www.formspring.me/Lamiena
Booyah. :P

Mr Singapore said no, which was not the outcome hoped for but at least half-expected nevertheless. He was very nice about it, though, and doesn't seem like the kind of person who would begin avoiding me, so it's okay. I suppose. Either way, this was a huge personal victory for me.

I has a Pubky-card :3 And a very cute finger puppet.

Why is it that when I've finally summoned up the courage to ask Mr Singapore out, I can't seem to find him? <_<

Landmarks in Western Science review

Boo on all of you. :P
Happy Valentine's Day. More importantly, happy Year of the Tiger!


Blues for the Fallen

The house of my heart
has its windows barred

Once, long ago,
fairytale princes came
to knock upon a door
painted daintily in a pattern
of red and blue pansies
and sat on their valiant white steeds
would profess a love undying,
unwavering and eternal
and there would lilt through the air
a most beautiful melody
but the door never opened

What maiden live there?
Perhaps a long lost princess,
now captured or simply mistrusting
of sweet promises, whispered vows—
perhaps a witch
wicked, bitter, heartbroken
never to show her face to the world

Not one of them stayed
those handsome young men
one by one starved, left, or was lost
to the darkness of the woods
but the song still echoes around the trees,
faint
and becoming weaker
while a shadow in the doorway moves inside

The windows are barred
in the house of my heart.

I promised to post a photo of my new tattoo once it healed, right? Well, here it is, finally. I'm just a few weeks behind. :P

Well, that was rather short-lived. Techie student and I are no longer anything even resembling a couple. Neither of us is comfortable with the thought of anything remotely serious, and he doesn't know how to handle vagueness. So, friends it is. Don't worry; I'm not too upset. I am very fond of him, but I shan't suffer of a broken heart since I hadn't fallen in love.

On Cats by Doris Lessing review

Fuck it's cold :D -20 ºC (= -4 ºF) today. Very clear and pretty and brrrrr.
Of course, in some other parts of the country it's probably ten (or more) degrees colder... but we'll recall that not only is Oulu a port town, but there are also two lakes. xD So when it's cold, it's biting.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0960890/
You all need to see this movie. Especially you, Viking. It's totally fucked up and completely, utterly awesome.

Pretty depressed and busy right now. Everything will be on hold for a few days, which - among other things - means that the results for the Portfolio Contest will be delayed even further. My apologies.

The Garden Party review

Tattoo no. 5
spiral of life

Couple of hours old in this picture. More photos shall be posted as the skin heals.

I keep being afraid that, since our relationship is still so fresh and couldn't yet really be called 'dating', he'll find some reason to back out. That I won't be what he thought I was, that I won't be enough... or that perhaps I'll be too much. That he just won't like me anymore.

And gods, isn't this ridiculously pathetic? But it's true, even if it can't be based on reality. After all, losing people is one of my greatest fears, and that fear does not care for logic. Nope.

Oh ffs shut up already. Yeah, anyway... I'll be spending today and tomorrow with Laura, and I doubt I'll be online much if at all. So have yourselves very enjoyable Thursdays and Fridays.

Huh. :D
http://ethesis.helsinki.fi/julkaisut/hum/taite/lt/lilja/