[Linderel]'s diary
Written about Saturday 2010-06-12
Written: (5278 days ago)
I find myself listless, bored and rather too numb for comfort. Hmm.
Those of you who read Neal Stephenson's books might well enjoy this link.
http://redshir
Everything is so simple when it's just you and the night and the music. I wish it could stay that way.
Written about Tuesday 2010-05-11
Written: (5310 days ago)
Okay, I've calmed down now :D
And it's not such a bad thing, really. People move on, and we are not exempt from this. Our friendship won't be quite the same, but that doesn't mean it has to be somehow lesser than before. I hope the new girl is better suited for him than I was. I hope it works out between them. Who knows, maybe I can even make friends with her.
I guess that would be weird. But you know what? I don't care. I love him, and if he's going to be with someone, I want to know her, and support them both as much as I can. And slap either one of 'em around, should that prove necessary.
Well, of course they should be open to this line of thinking for it to be possible, but we're all adults. There shouldn't be a problem. I'll just smother that "jealous ex" part of myself and pose no danger for them. Yay.
It'll be alright.
I've had my suspicions for awhile now, but they have just been confirmed. Jukka has a new girlfriend.
I'm... I... No matter who I'm interested in now I still loved... love... him. Even though I was the one who made the decision that we can never be a couple. I still love him in a way, and am very attached to him. And as long as both of us were not in a relationship, there was an easy affection there that I'm really going to miss. Naturally, now that he managed to break his track record and actually catch a girl, there are going to be some serious limitations on the displays of that affection. And I... fuck. And of course, the prick that he is, he never said outright that he is with someone. Which, y'know, would've been nice because our relationship hasn't exactly been conventional, post break-up. But now that it's all out in the clear I've wished him luck and all that jazz.
One of these days, I'm actually going to mean it.
It's been something like two and a half years since we broke up, but I'd still wondered sometimes whether he wasn't the love of my life. I know we're ultimately incompatible but, gods, I loved the man. And this... this just made a tiny little crack in my heart and it's probably going to take me a while to figure this out and I'm not really sure how I'm going to hold up at his birthday party next week. But it'll work out.
At the moment I'm just trying not to cry anymore.
Dese dings be for sale.
Just finished my term paper for the spring term part of Introduction to Literature in English. Wrote it all today, and it's probably crap, but at least it's done. It's on Thomas Hardy's "The Darkling Thrush". Lovely poem. Yous should read it.
http://www.poe
I am now officially lying to her about my feelings :D
Apparently, I rock. <3
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Written about Saturday 2010-04-10
Written: (5341 days ago)
Latest manip: http://lindere
(Waiting for some of the stockers to okay putting the piece up here)
There is a cougar infestation in Elftown.
If you love me, please please please please consider buying my prints. Or a T-shirt. Of course you shouldn't if you don't even like the designs or anything but... meh?
http://www.red
Some days, I really feel like retiring. But I can't. Fucking fuck.
<3<3 Unfortunately, this rant seems to be missing a preposition... but perhaps that can be excused. I well understand how these things can get one to froth at the mouth.
*cough* Brain glitch! Posted the wrong definition by accident. It's fixed now.
Word of the Day for March 8th, 2010
invective
1. vehement or violent denunciation, censure, or reproach.
2. a railing accusation; vituperation.
3. an insulting or abusive word or expression.
4. vituperative; denunciatory; censoriously abusive.
http://diction