Dear diary,

Today I had a lot of energy (most of it excess nervous energy after having to call my old employer - I hate making phone calls), and actually Got Things Done. Of course, as it's me, I had to drop a couple of things from my to-do list to be done later, but still - I've actually accomplished something today. Yay!

And this will probably be the last diary entry for today. Sorry 'bout the spam. xD

So, a couple of months ago, I got an mp3-player from [xerya] as a souvenir from China. This is all well and good, and gods know I'd wanted one for a very long time. However, I have one itty bitty problem.

The manual is in Chinese.

Small details and coincidences amuse me. Like this one:
I have a Realms of Lemire Arena character named Zahra. Snazzy girl, I like her. Okay? Okay.
Now, there's a parliamental candidate named Zahra Abdulla. And this is what amuses me, because she's a member of the Green Party and thus has a chance of getting my vote. Harharhar.

*blink* I have a feeling I possess a really weird sense of humour. Do I?

Oh gods. I love languages. xD
Now I remember why I wanted to study English... But that will come later. I still have time even after whatever education I'll be going for now.

Affixes, I will master you!
(and understand these monstrous words)

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I was going to post a survey stolen from [Paz], but I got bored, so you get this instead.

*snag*


70 THINGS YOU PROBABLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME:

1. DO YOU SNORE?
Sometimes. Mainly when my nose is stuffy.

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
A lover. But I'll fight if I must.

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Being left alone, probably. Losing the people I love.

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
Not a maniac, per se, but I did like 'em.

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
Can be amusing sometimes, but mostly it's just... pointless.

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Sometimes.

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
I'll leave that for someone else to be the judge of.

8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
It has its sides. I like the liberty - but then again, I miss the companionship, the cuddles, the affection. Good friends just don't quite compare, no matter how much love there is.

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
Black.

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
Mm-hm. <3

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
No, but I would like to, one day.

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
Perhaps. If there are, they're undiscovered by myself, too.

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
You can't ask me such hard questions! D:

14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY?
Never seen him, so I couldn't say.

15. Have you eaten sushi?
Oh yes. <3

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
No, but I would like to. If only because it has Depp. *drools*
edit: I've just been informed it doesn't have Depp in it. Phooey. *sulks*

17. DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?
Erm. Yes. o_O

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?
Who keeps count?

19.Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
Umm... I've never tried.

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
Yes, twice. I cried at the first lift-off.

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
Just for sport? Go to hell you fucktards, and BURN.
For food? By all means.

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
We'll see. If I find someone who I'd like to spend the rest of my life with, certainly. I'm not one much for the marriage institution, though I appreciate the symbolism.

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yeah, mostly.

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Too many things. ;_;

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU"?
I... don't remember. But it was certainly in the last few days. I just wish I said it more.

...

Scratch that answer. I just said it a couple of minutes ago. I love my important people so much. <3 *cries for some obscure reason*

28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?
There is some speculation about him actually being an alien.
Oh, and have you seen Bubba Ho-Tep?

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
Uh. At some point, maybe. It's been a few years since the last wedding I attended. I do remember getting teary-eyed after giving the couple my own present after the reception and all was over with.

30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
I don't like eggs. Unless they're an ingredient in something.

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB
Well... I'm a blonde, so I can't really answer this question.

32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
Pet eats it.

33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
00:07

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
More than one, actually.

35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
It's okay, if there are no better options.

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
Um. Wednesday.

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Baths are heavenly... But I usually prefer showers either way.

38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?
Only if you're on crack.
I might be more inclined to believe in the Hogfather. ;)

39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?
Why, yes, though I can be a bit ticklish.

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Not really. Unless we're speaking metaphorically, and I'm not going there tonight.

41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
Milk. My friends. Chocolate. Anime. Writing.

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
Hmmm. Creamy. The peanuts in peanut butter have been properly killed, right?

43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
I do it all the time.

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
Nope. I hope I'll never have to, either.

45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?
Zip. Zero. Zilch.

46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
I'm assuming drug free means I don't use drugs. If so, then yes. Except for medical use. *grumbles*

48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
Greyish blue-green... I think.

49. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Just now, some minutes ago.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
Could be better, but it's okay.

51. WHO'S BETTER?
At what? Better than who?

52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
Apart from the occasional thought-sharing experiences... nah.

54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Unfortunately I don't. I'd like to learn the guitar and the piano, though.

55. HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN MONEY?
That would be a no.

56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
I don't know. I've never tried.

57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
Maybe. If I can get over my prissy, town-living self, it could be quite fun. Provided I'm in good company. I used to camp in my backyard, but that doesn't count, now does it?

58. DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH?
Uh, sometimes, I think.

59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
It's a nice thought, but mostly I fear the magic in this world is dead...

60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
That's what they say, isn't it? I haven't quite decided on this yet.

61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?
It's a sad thing it has to happen, but yes.

62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
Do the what? This sounds interesting.

64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?
I don't know, I haven't been outside. But probably yes.

65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Vanilla ice cream with toffee(?) sauce. :3

66. DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?
Nah. I occasionally indulge, but that's like, really, really rare. I don't think I even have nailpolish anymore. I gave it away. o_O

67. DO YOU WEAR THONGS?
No way, they're way too uncomfortable. I've tried, once... Not my thing.

68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?
I don't watch enough TV to be able to answer this. :P

69. DO YOU SHOP AT ABERCROMBIE?
I don't think they even have shops in this part of the world. But even if they did, I doubt it. I do most of my clothes shopping in second hand stores. <3

70. FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?
Hmmm. I don't know. But Damn Seagulls and Queen are always of teh awesome.

Translated a poem of mine. It's pretty loose, but I kinda like how it turned out.

M/S Newtide

The port is hailing
a ship of new tides
the like of which has never been seen

sails sown
from petals of red roses
moorings twined
with threads of kind thoughts

the guns loaded
with pure love

Prepare to step aboard
and sail
to a new life

What I need to work on, among other things:
- expressions
- profiles (that is, drawing from the side and not the front)
- different postures
- HANDS!
- feet

Still got a long way to go... but I'm learning. I'd say I'm okayish, currently. :3

Non-meeting someone: standing next to your friend when he's talking to someone you want to get to know, but don't have the guts to, because you're scared of people. Jyrki Kasvi is a politician, a member of The Green Party and one of its candidates for the parliamental elections that are coming 'round the corner. He is also a geek. Unfortunately, I can't vote for him, because I live in the wrong town. Woe is me.
Anyway... I would like to properly meet him, but the way things are going now, he's going to know me as 'the girl who hangs out with Jukka'. <_<

This month, I need to draw/take a photo/do something else in the field of visual arts for the 30 day contest each day, and that got me into thinking... Maybe next month, I'll try to write something every day. I could use the practice, right now I'm writing sporadically, whenever inspiration strikes, and I really can't afford to place my trust on inspiration for the rest of my life. The sad truth is, sooner or later I will need to write something without a lightbulb going off in my head first.

Of course, practicing with prompts would be a good thing, too. If I can learn to stimulate the muse with just a couple of words or a picture any time I need to, it would be of the totally awesome.

And I don't want to hear about the odds or anything, I just want to try this. xD
But that's next month. Now I'm wondering whether it's worth it to mimic [Elegy - gone] and [Ocean Soul] and make a wiki of my entries to the aforementioned contest.

Instead of being grateful for all of those people leaving - I was hosting an IRC channel meet over the weekend, nice bunch - I actually feel so lonely I want to cry. That might have to do with the fact that Jukka and [nekorin] were in the meet, but still. It's almost weird. But well, I'm tired. Tiredness leads to heightened emotions and stuff. Sometimes. At least a higher chance to get all broody. I could have gone to my sister's place, but I was too tired to... I kind of wanted to go, but I have no energy. Humh.

Dude, this is seriously cool. Or sad, I don't know which. xD
The people have been playing the same game of Trivial Pursuit for something like six hours... A game of epic proportions indeed! Or just bad luck with die rolls and stupid, UK-centric questions.

Hmm. I really need to find a balance between being too harsh on myself and feeling falsely superior. Neither is good for me, and the latter will just feed the former, because I hate being a bad loser, and I hate the trace of contempt that creeps into my thoughts. It's revolting.
In short, I am still very much frustrated with the head I carry on my shoulders.

Failing to pay attention to food consumption in the morning when you're clearly hungry is a bad thing, right?
... thought as much. Oh well, maybe I'll eat something later when I get back from town and hope I won't faint before that.

Stolen from [Paz].

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Smoked Weed
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Been MUTUALLY Dumped
( ) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 4

Level 3
( ) Snuck Out Of A Parent's House
(x) Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
( ) Been Arrested
( ) Made Out With A Stranger
( ) Gone Out On A Blind Date

SO FAR: 5

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 7

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your myspace/elftown Friends (Ummm... yeah. A really brief one which is not to be spoken of. <_<)
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 9

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 10

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/Like Loved/Liked Someone Who You Can't Have
( ) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 13

Level 8
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite (probably, I think?)
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (offroading)
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 16

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
( ) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 20

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 21

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Stole something
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 23

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident/fourwheeler wreck

SO FAR: 25

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 26

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Looked
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 28

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 31

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
( ) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 35

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 37

Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care / Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or Anywhere (only watched it being made)

SO FAR: 39

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 3 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped Like A Monkey

SO FAR: 41

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Said "Penis" or "Vagina" (once or twice, maybe)
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 43

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/Ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes (Uhm, what girl doesn't?)
( ) Sat On A Roof Top
( ) Kissed a worm

SO FAR: 44

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Stayed Up for a while talking to someone you cared about

SO FAR: 46

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had / Been In A Tree House
( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 48

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts (kinda)
( ) Have/had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 49

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken (what's this?)
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused (everything is funny when you're in the right state of tiredness)

SO FAR: 50

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly (when they come in and need to be let back out)
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 52

Level 28
( ) Mooned / Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon / Flash You
( ) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

SO FAR: 54

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving / Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity (I probably have now)
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( )Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 56

Level 31
( ) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone


SO FAR : 58

Level 32
( ) been shot at/or at gunpoint
(x) Had sex (never all the way, though)
( ) flattened someones tires
( ) Rode car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Total: 59

I've done 59 things outta 150. Hrm.

The 30 Day Contest. Run by da iippo & Silvie. Go see!

I think I feel - and perhaps look - more alive at a gig than I do anywhere else, in any other circumstances, in this world. Afterwards I reek of cigarettes, my head hurts, my hearing is fuzzy, but I simply can't stop smiling.
I love love love music, and I love Damn Seagulls.