I've decided I'm going to send cards to people while I'm on my trip, from every place I can. Who wants to get cards from all over Europe? xD

March 19th, 2007. This day marks ten months since Jukka ended our relationship... and it marks the revival of our partnerhood.
Yes, that's right. I have ceased being a single, and I'm loving it! It's a silent joy, and there are some issues we need to work around, but I'm hoping for the best. It'll work out this time. It has to.

Message to Elftowners: STOP changing your names! >:S
*vent vent*

Okay, carry on. xP

Dear diary,

Today I had a lot of energy (most of it excess nervous energy after having to call my old employer - I hate making phone calls), and actually Got Things Done. Of course, as it's me, I had to drop a couple of things from my to-do list to be done later, but still - I've actually accomplished something today. Yay!

And this will probably be the last diary entry for today. Sorry 'bout the spam. xD

So, a couple of months ago, I got an mp3-player from [xerya] as a souvenir from China. This is all well and good, and gods know I'd wanted one for a very long time. However, I have one itty bitty problem.

The manual is in Chinese.

Small details and coincidences amuse me. Like this one:
I have a Realms of Lemire Arena character named Zahra. Snazzy girl, I like her. Okay? Okay.
Now, there's a parliamental candidate named Zahra Abdulla. And this is what amuses me, because she's a member of the Green Party and thus has a chance of getting my vote. Harharhar.

*blink* I have a feeling I possess a really weird sense of humour. Do I?

Oh gods. I love languages. xD
Now I remember why I wanted to study English... But that will come later. I still have time even after whatever education I'll be going for now.

Affixes, I will master you!
(and understand these monstrous words)

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· kumarreksituteskenteleentuvaisehkollaismaisekkuudellisenneskenteluttelemattomammuuksissansakkaankopahan

I was going to post a survey stolen from [Paz], but I got bored, so you get this instead.

*snag*


70 THINGS YOU PROBABLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME:

1. DO YOU SNORE?
Sometimes. Mainly when my nose is stuffy.

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
A lover. But I'll fight if I must.

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Being left alone, probably. Losing the people I love.

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
Not a maniac, per se, but I did like 'em.

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
Can be amusing sometimes, but mostly it's just... pointless.

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Sometimes.

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
I'll leave that for someone else to be the judge of.

8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
It has its sides. I like the liberty - but then again, I miss the companionship, the cuddles, the affection. Good friends just don't quite compare, no matter how much love there is.

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
Black.

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
Mm-hm. <3

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
No, but I would like to, one day.

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
Perhaps. If there are, they're undiscovered by myself, too.

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
You can't ask me such hard questions! D:

14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY?
Never seen him, so I couldn't say.

15. Have you eaten sushi?
Oh yes. <3

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
No, but I would like to. If only because it has Depp. *drools*
edit: I've just been informed it doesn't have Depp in it. Phooey. *sulks*

17. DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?
Erm. Yes. o_O

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?
Who keeps count?

19.Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
Umm... I've never tried.

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
Yes, twice. I cried at the first lift-off.

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
Just for sport? Go to hell you fucktards, and BURN.
For food? By all means.

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
We'll see. If I find someone who I'd like to spend the rest of my life with, certainly. I'm not one much for the marriage institution, though I appreciate the symbolism.

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yeah, mostly.

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Too many things. ;_;

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU"?
I... don't remember. But it was certainly in the last few days. I just wish I said it more.

...

Scratch that answer. I just said it a couple of minutes ago. I love my important people so much. <3 *cries for some obscure reason*

28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?
There is some speculation about him actually being an alien.
Oh, and have you seen Bubba Ho-Tep?

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
Uh. At some point, maybe. It's been a few years since the last wedding I attended. I do remember getting teary-eyed after giving the couple my own present after the reception and all was over with.

30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
I don't like eggs. Unless they're an ingredient in something.

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB
Well... I'm a blonde, so I can't really answer this question.

32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
Pet eats it.

33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
00:07

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
More than one, actually.

35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
It's okay, if there are no better options.

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
Um. Wednesday.

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Baths are heavenly... But I usually prefer showers either way.

38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?
Only if you're on crack.
I might be more inclined to believe in the Hogfather. ;)

39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?
Why, yes, though I can be a bit ticklish.

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Not really. Unless we're speaking metaphorically, and I'm not going there tonight.

41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
Milk. My friends. Chocolate. Anime. Writing.

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
Hmmm. Creamy. The peanuts in peanut butter have been properly killed, right?

43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
I do it all the time.

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
Nope. I hope I'll never have to, either.

45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?
Zip. Zero. Zilch.

46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
I'm assuming drug free means I don't use drugs. If so, then yes. Except for medical use. *grumbles*

48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
Greyish blue-green... I think.

49. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Just now, some minutes ago.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
Could be better, but it's okay.

51. WHO'S BETTER?
At what? Better than who?

52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
Apart from the occasional thought-sharing experiences... nah.

54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Unfortunately I don't. I'd like to learn the guitar and the piano, though.

55. HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN MONEY?
That would be a no.

56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
I don't know. I've never tried.

57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
Maybe. If I can get over my prissy, town-living self, it could be quite fun. Provided I'm in good company. I used to camp in my backyard, but that doesn't count, now does it?

58. DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH?
Uh, sometimes, I think.

59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
It's a nice thought, but mostly I fear the magic in this world is dead...

60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
That's what they say, isn't it? I haven't quite decided on this yet.

61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?
It's a sad thing it has to happen, but yes.

62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
Do the what? This sounds interesting.

64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?
I don't know, I haven't been outside. But probably yes.

65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Vanilla ice cream with toffee(?) sauce. :3

66. DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?
Nah. I occasionally indulge, but that's like, really, really rare. I don't think I even have nailpolish anymore. I gave it away. o_O

67. DO YOU WEAR THONGS?
No way, they're way too uncomfortable. I've tried, once... Not my thing.

68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?
I don't watch enough TV to be able to answer this. :P

69. DO YOU SHOP AT ABERCROMBIE?
I don't think they even have shops in this part of the world. But even if they did, I doubt it. I do most of my clothes shopping in second hand stores. <3

70. FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?
Hmmm. I don't know. But Damn Seagulls and Queen are always of teh awesome.

Translated a poem of mine. It's pretty loose, but I kinda like how it turned out.

M/S Newtide

The port is hailing
a ship of new tides
the like of which has never been seen

sails sown
from petals of red roses
moorings twined
with threads of kind thoughts

the guns loaded
with pure love

Prepare to step aboard
and sail
to a new life

What I need to work on, among other things:
- expressions
- profiles (that is, drawing from the side and not the front)
- different postures
- HANDS!
- feet

Still got a long way to go... but I'm learning. I'd say I'm okayish, currently. :3

Non-meeting someone: standing next to your friend when he's talking to someone you want to get to know, but don't have the guts to, because you're scared of people. Jyrki Kasvi is a politician, a member of The Green Party and one of its candidates for the parliamental elections that are coming 'round the corner. He is also a geek. Unfortunately, I can't vote for him, because I live in the wrong town. Woe is me.
Anyway... I would like to properly meet him, but the way things are going now, he's going to know me as 'the girl who hangs out with Jukka'. <_<

This month, I need to draw/take a photo/do something else in the field of visual arts for the 30 day contest each day, and that got me into thinking... Maybe next month, I'll try to write something every day. I could use the practice, right now I'm writing sporadically, whenever inspiration strikes, and I really can't afford to place my trust on inspiration for the rest of my life. The sad truth is, sooner or later I will need to write something without a lightbulb going off in my head first.

Of course, practicing with prompts would be a good thing, too. If I can learn to stimulate the muse with just a couple of words or a picture any time I need to, it would be of the totally awesome.

And I don't want to hear about the odds or anything, I just want to try this. xD
But that's next month. Now I'm wondering whether it's worth it to mimic [Elegy - gone] and [Ocean Soul] and make a wiki of my entries to the aforementioned contest.

Instead of being grateful for all of those people leaving - I was hosting an IRC channel meet over the weekend, nice bunch - I actually feel so lonely I want to cry. That might have to do with the fact that Jukka and [nekorin] were in the meet, but still. It's almost weird. But well, I'm tired. Tiredness leads to heightened emotions and stuff. Sometimes. At least a higher chance to get all broody. I could have gone to my sister's place, but I was too tired to... I kind of wanted to go, but I have no energy. Humh.

Dude, this is seriously cool. Or sad, I don't know which. xD
The people have been playing the same game of Trivial Pursuit for something like six hours... A game of epic proportions indeed! Or just bad luck with die rolls and stupid, UK-centric questions.

Hmm. I really need to find a balance between being too harsh on myself and feeling falsely superior. Neither is good for me, and the latter will just feed the former, because I hate being a bad loser, and I hate the trace of contempt that creeps into my thoughts. It's revolting.
In short, I am still very much frustrated with the head I carry on my shoulders.

Failing to pay attention to food consumption in the morning when you're clearly hungry is a bad thing, right?
... thought as much. Oh well, maybe I'll eat something later when I get back from town and hope I won't faint before that.