The English philology exam went down the drain. I doubt I even pass, let alone get in. Reasons?
1) Not prepared enough.
2) It was bloody cold in the room where I took the exam, their air conditioner was on too strong and I just wanted to get the hell out of there and couldn't concentrate.

Oh well. There's still folklore study, a week from now. I'll read for that one as much as I can and hope there aren't too many people applying. However, right now I am indulging in fanfiction, because I deserve a little bit of breathing in between, damnit.

<random>You know what's one of the really nice things (and redeeming qualities to his bastardness) about Jukka? He lets me bite him. :3</random>

I'm tired and can't be bothered to reply everyone one by one... So I'd like to say thank you to everyone who wished me luck today! ^____^
The exam went pretty well, I think... But I shall know the results sometime in July.

One down, two more to go. Then it's freeeeeedoooooooom!


Too many updates. Will catch up tomorrow, maybe.


And because I used a different kind of train coming back, the cost of the trip was 90.80€ in all. I weep.

First exam tomorrow. Since it's in Jyväskylä, I'll have to get up at 5:30 so as to catch the train. Just for the record, a one-way ticket costs 42,80€. *le dead* My bank account will be a very sad one after this trip. Ah, well, payday on the 15th...

But, I digress. The sole purpose of this entry is to say:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHH! *flail* *panic*


Thank you for your time. Carry on. ^_^

Argh. Worried. My sister is again not getting any money, even though she should, and to top that, the very organisation that should be giving her something to live on is taking away from her the funds she got from the Social Insurance Institution. This means she won't be able to pay her rent (due on Wednesday), pay her bills, or even buy food!
This thing has been going on for a year, back and forth, back and forth, and due to her depression, she doesn't really have the energy to fight back - and the person who has been taking care of the situation with her and for her is currently abroad somewhere and coming back on Friday. And since he cannot be reached, he can't explain all the details so that someone could step in for him...
I'm afraid for her, worried about her, and I want to go be there with her. Make her bread, buy her some long-lasting food. But you know, I need to read. As selfish as it makes me feel, I need to read, because my first exam is tomorrow, and I have no time for anything else. In fact I should be reading right now instead of typing this entry.

*sigh* Gotta love the system.

No one cares about the drawing *emo* ;_______;

Snatched from [Teufelsweib].

Rule #1:
If you open this you GOTTA take it.

Rule # 2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone
messages you and asks

Rule #3:
Only answer True or False

Q: Kissed someone on your top friends ? True
Q: Been arrested? False
Q: Kissed someone you didn't like? True
Q: You like someone? True
Q: Held a snake? False
Q: Been suspended from school? False
Q: Been fired from a job? False
Q: Sang karaoke? False
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? True
Q: Laughed until you started crying? True
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? True
Q: Kissed in the rain? True
Q: Sang in the shower? True
Q: Sat on a roof top? False
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? False
Q: Broken a bone? False
Q: Shaved your head? False
Q: Played a prank on someone? True
Q: Had/have a gym membership? False
Q: Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry? True
Q: Shot a gun? True
Q: Donated Blood? False
Q: Had your heart broken? True
Q: Broken someone's heart? True

I has drawn a self-portrait :o
It actually more or less looks like me xD Of course, I used a reference, but still. I'm kind of impressed. I will hopefully poke at it and make it a proper one. You know, with colour and everything.

I challenge you to read Yvonne Vera's novel 'Butterfly Burning' and make sense of it. Especially the ending. Really.

Just for the sake of procrastination. After this I'll be nose in the book, I promise. :P

HOW SHY ARE YOU?
I'm 64% shy.

[x] You don't like public speaking.
[x] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[x] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[ ] You hate using public restrooms.
[ ] You don't like to go shopping alone.
TOTAL: 3

[x] Being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[x] When you're in a group of people, it's difficult to think of what to say
[ ] You have a lot of trouble talking to the opposite sex
[x] You hate to be teased
[x] You hate answering the door (unless I know it's someone I know)
TOTAL: 4

[x] You can't stand people watching you.
[ ] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[x] You don't like to ask people for help.
[ ] You hate to read out loud
[ ] You don't like asking questions.
TOTAL: 2

[ ] You dread ordering food at restaurants.
[x] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well.
[ ] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[x] You wish you were more outgoing.
[x]You hate being in the center of any room
TOTAL : 3

[x] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[x] You don't like crowds.
[x] You prefer reading, writing or listening to music than being around too many people.
[ ] You blush easily.
[x] You spend a lot of time in your room.
TOTAL: 4

Add all the x's and multiply by 4 then put "I'm _% shy".

http://www.jenwang.net/art/comics/touchfood


In other news, I'm currently reading the book for my ethnology entrance exam. So far, I have concluded that the trade is just weird. Seriously. An article about men's underwear and its erotic associations? Got one. Symbology of bread? Researched.

I kind of get it, but then again not really. This field is going way over my head...

I am having yet another period of, not baby fever, but kitten fever. Seriously. One can often find me lamenting the fact that I cannot take any pets that have fur or feathers, and especially the fact that cats belong to that group. Then once in a while I come across cute kitty images and get properly wistful.
Solution? I need to find a kitten that I can sort-of adopt. I'd be its aunt or something. I could meet it, but I wouldn't be the one keeping it. That's my substitute for every other animal, too. I am currently an auntie of two (most annoying) dogs and two rats (that I can't touch without getting spots).

I needs me a kitten. Stuffed toys are no longer enough. Why? Because I want something fuzzy and cute and warm to love.

...yeah, I know. Silly. That doesn't stop me from wanting it, though. Le sigh.

[tight pants hurt]

*snerk*

It is officially summer.

Today, for the first time this year, the temperature went above 25 degrees. It is hot. The humidity makes it even more difficult to bear. A warm wind, floating snow-like pollen, offers no respite. Both my window and the door to the balcony are open, but this makes little difference. Velvet trousers were definitely a mistake that needs to be rectified. Summer dress ahoy!

In other words, ladies and gentlemen, it's too damn hot to be waxing poetic - or reading for entrance exams, for that matter, but it needs to be done. Woe is me.

If you ever think I'm becoming too bitchy (mainly on the DP), just slap me. I shouldn't let my frustrations reflect as snarkiness in my notifications to innocent patrons. As you can see if you take a look, I just managed to chase a new patron away... Yay. <_<

(And if you feel I wrote this entry just for retribution, to hear someone say 'nah, it's okay, you weren't too snappish'... then you're absolutely right. I'm no saint. In fact, everyone should probably just ignore this and I should still feel guilty.)

Yesterday, I was at a joint birthday party of some friends from the anime club I'm part of. It was fun, I had my fair share of Asian-style food followed by various desserts and, for once, didn't get even a fledgling of a panic attack. Even so, I had to leave at some point, beginning to feel quite tired. My feet were aching, and I was supposed to stay the night at a friend's place, but decided I wanted to sleep in my own bed after all and thus, to walk home.

That was when I found a thin black leather collar in my coat pocket. Of the studded variety. I blinked, confused, checked again that it indeed was my coat that I was wearing, and backtracked to the livingroom of the apartment where the party was still going on. Nobody confessed, so... I still have it. I've no idea why it was in there. Someone probably mislaid it, putting it in the pocket of the wrong coat. Ah, well. I'll see if I can find its proper owner, and if not... I guess I'll keep it.

Walking home, couldn't help but notice that it was a misty night out. Between where I live and where I was, there's this bridge, and upon arriving on it, a strange exhilaration flowed into me. I couldn't see the lights of town on the opposing shores, I couldn't even see the water more than a few metres forward, and it was absolutely beautiful. Warm, calm, only a slight breath of wind. This tempted me to abandon the road in favour of the forest trail that circles the island (yes, technically it's an island I live on... kinda), and I gave in to the urge. I love trailing off from the road, actually. It has this sense of adventure, even in my own neighbourhood if it's at night.

Moments later, though, I figured this was not such a wise idea for someone who thrives on a dark, twisted imagination. Fascination quickly turns into fright, shadows become threatening, the path seemingly longer than ever. Not if you're with someone, but whilst alone...

Well, I'm here, obviously, still in one piece, so it's just a problem of getting too creeped out by things not so familiar. Kind of when we were at our summerhouse one particular Christmas and I was taking a walk. I swear, the forest on the side of the road turned a notch or two more threatening after I sang to keep myself company. Eerie.

Point? All of this merely further proves what a silly little creature I am. I hope that I'm at least a bit entertaining.


Also... thunder <3<3<3

YARRRRR! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 (x times infinity)

I have just been to watch Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End. And what do I have to say? EPIC.
It is darker than the previous parts, though it still does have scenes that make you roll in your seat and giggle like mad, but more importantly - oh, the epic.
Swords, love, storms, wits, GODDAMN BRILLIANT CAST. But that last one, naturally, everyone knew already. <incoherent babbling here>
I'd love to plunge into the details, but alas, spoilers are evil, they are satan-spawn, and I shall have nothing to do with spoiling anyone unless they are willing.

So let me just say this.

*SQUEAL!!!!*

My first ever attempt at a sonnet. Metre probably is more than a bit funky, and the last two lines don't rhyme at all... but I kinda like it. :3


Come hither. See; it is a lovely day
to sit in shade, enjoy the gentle breeze;
in thy sweet-lipped melodies to drown, sway
that bliss I would my constant ache appease

Honeyed whispers my pleading lips to balm;
thy graceful steps a sight mine eyes to bless.
I yearn: Embrace thy lithe body, so warm
This evening I will have no more, no less

thou beauteous bird of mine, my dearest
Calliope queen of hearts, of their breaking
My words they flow though naught will quench my thirst
I covet thy smiles they leave me shaking

A flower, born of desire, each petal
by one thy tender skin will caress, touch.