You know that annoyance of recalling a really good book you want to read again, but not its title or author? Well, I'm currently having that, except with a fanfic. I can't remember its title, its author, or where I found it - so I can't backtrack my steps either. I only remember the pairing and generally what the fic was about. For this, I need stronger Google Fu than my own. Bah.

Oh well, maybe I'll just wait for it to pop up somewhere. I'm fairly certain it was on FF.net... maybe.


edit: Nevermind, I found it by googling after all xD

It's probably going to be an eternal dilemma for me, whether to love Jukka - or loathe him from the bottom of my heart. He's so fucking infuriating sometimes that it makes me want to beat him up and rip him to pieces. Never mind that he's now an ex, he's still a close friend and gods do I hate him every now and then. And get reminded of why exactly he is an ex...

I've really let myself into a crappy shape. Rode back home the meager two or three kilometres from the anime evening, and my breathing squeaked.
Well. That's what you get for neglecting medication. Again. Gods, when will I learn? xD

My two cents for the Hate Project. http://the-hate-project.blogspot.com

Nicked off le Squee, who stole it from [Tingis]. Also fixed spelling.


What was the highlight of your week?
It only just started, so nothing as of yet.

Whose car were you in last?
That of my yesterday's DM.

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Shall remain to be seen.

What colour shirt are you wearing?
Brown.

How long is your hair?
Shoulder length.

Last movie you watched?
The Pledge.

Last thing you ate?
Chocolate kiss, with mocha-flavoured filling.

What was last thing you drank?
Milk.

Are you happy right now?
Reasonably content at least.

What did you say last?
"What will we do with the rest of the soup?"

Where is your phone?
On the desk, next to me.

What was the last museum you went to?
Erm. Can't remember. Probably something in Edinburgh, last year.

What colour are your eyes?
Blue-grey-green.

Who came over last?
My friends so rarely come to our place, I don't really remember.

Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?
My tiredness x_x

What are you listening to?
Fujishige Masataka - Keep Your Style (from Prince of Tennis sountrack)

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Allison :o

What are your favourite stores?
Book and craft stores.

What makes you the happiest?
Music and friends :3

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Finishing up playing D&D.

Are you left-handed?
Nope. I'd like to be ambidextrous, though.

What's for dinner tonight?
There was sausage soup.

When is your birthday?
18th November.

Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Mom.

When is the last time you were in a swimming pool?
Uhh... been a while. At least a couple of years I think.

Where was the last place you went shopping?
Suomalainen Kirjakauppa, a book and office supply store. :P

How do you feel about your hair right now?
I want it to grooooow past the annoying stage.

Do you have any expensive jewellery?
Possibly. I don't wear it though.

AIM or MSN?
MSN.

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up this morning?
... I don't remember stuff like that. <_<

Do you drink beer?
Ew! No.

Who do you miss?
Allisooooon :P And Laura. And Atte, because he's not on any of my IRC channels anymore :(

Myspace or Facebook?
Neither, really.

What is your favourite subject in school?
Don't ask me such difficult questions xP Arts, or music, or history. Possibly.

Do you have any talents?
Aye, I fancy that I do.

Do you have any children?
No, and I never will. Not human children, anyway.

Did you take a nap today?
Noes.

Ever met someone famous?
Erm. I have Robin Hobb's and Torey Hayden's autographs...

Do you want to be famous one day?
Not really. I wouldn't mind a bit of glory for writing a successful novel, but the spotlight ain't a place of my liking.

Could you handle being in the military?
No sir no way xD

Ever been to Las Vegas?
Nuh-uh.

When is the last time you updated your blog?
I don't really count the ET diary as a blog, so that would be... a bit over two weeks ago.

Have you been to New York City?
Nah, but I'd maybe like to.

Ever been to Disneyland/world?
Nope, not yet. Don't know if I ever will, I'd probably freak out.

Last thing you cooked?
Uhm. Noodle wok, possibly.

Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Err... nothing, really.

Last time you were sick?
I had a slight cold in July, if that counts.

I think I might need to work on self-restraint some more. I like to think I made an honourable effort in Dutchieland, but... Yeah. Today, when I was (theoretically) supposed to be getting supplies for [Iuna]'s Portfolio Contest prize, I ended up buying a collection of jewellery instruction cards instead. Sigh.

Oh well, Friday is payday. Until then, I can just do some planning.

While I try to gather motivation to actually start jogging and stuff, I've found a foolproof form of exercise.

Dancing at 2 a.m. to anime music in your dark bedroom with nothing but panties and maybe a morning robe on is good fun, and I do believe also beneficial. Aside from the fact that it is, eh, rather late. But nothing stops me from doing it in the morning, either. :P

Wheeeeeeeeee.

Been totally negligent towards ET - and teh internets in general - for a couple of days now. Reason being that I'm on an anime binge. This will probably continue for a while, but I'll try to be around. Especially since I promised to get the judging of a contest done by the end of this week, and there's my 10 Days participant wiki to fill. Sowwy to everyone who may or may not be inconvenienced in any way, or, heaven forbid, miss me. <_<

*snerk*
http://noob.lanita.org/~apostate/Political_Debates_of_Tomorrow.jpg

I found lyrics :O
They are very angsty and teeny, but what more is to be expected from a socially retarded, depressed 17-year-old hopelessly in love? xD
I really don't know what's with the repetition of the same line at the end of every verse...


1.
As I sit here
in my messy room
I wonder what would happen
if I told you
that I truly love you
In a way have loved
ever since we met
This is all I know and I will say it
I love you

Chorus:
Would you be shocked?
No, I don't think so
somehow I think
you already know
although in my confession
I didn't say it all

2.
I fear the future
what it holds in for me
will you be my friend
or will you be my foe?
'Cause you never know
what will happen
in this game called life
Yhis is all I know and I will say it
I love you

Chorus

3.
These feelings of mine
I cannot hold secret
it's just too painful
and maybe you'll hate me
but my heart is full
Please understand
I don't mean any harm
This is all I know and I will say it
I love you

Chorus

And I just want you to know
that all I really want
is to be close to you
and see that you're okay

Hah xD
http://images.wikia.com/uncyclopedia/images/9/96/Vistaohlord.png

Blame Trues for this, he resurrected it xP
http://kevan.org/johari?name=lami
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=lami

http://the-hate-project.blogspot.com/

Here's an idea, and I'll blame it entirely on [Teufelsweib]...
My NaNoWriMo project for this year will be a children's book. :P

In a moderately rare silly mood. Allison, who has a habit of getting me to do stupid stuff, challenged me to write silly poems. And so I shall. xP And it will be extremely juvenile. Oh dear me.


Once there was a gentleman
of quite the tiny size
called by his neighbours
the charming Mr. Ant
one who with his six legs
helped all the ladies carry their bags
(and quite the ladies' man he was, it was said)
and was very much liked all around
-- until one day, venturing outside the nest
he climbed the wrong kind of tree
indeed, Mr. Ant, to his great indignation
ended up inside a farmer boy's pants!



*hides in shame* xDDDD

Have got to be tired to cry over what is most probably nothing. I guess smilies do make a huge difference online.
Meh. I need sleep.

Looking in the mirror, I can say that I have a fairly pretty face. But I still hate my body. Oh well. Baby steps...

Once there was an urge
a calling buried and forgotten
yet while watching life pass
through this lens
I've awakened to realise

There is a fascination
for skewed perspectives
as if it would help me regain
the clarity of vision
lost for so long
but

Something fragile
like hope, fluttering
on transparent wings
enters the soul
shimmering faintly inside
gently soothing

As I sit still
for a fleeting moment
here, in this space
with your reflection and mine
finding a fraction of
certainty.

Nicked off [Teufelsweib].

1) Hello.
Halloes :o

2) How are you on this fine day?
Okay. I could have tried to accomplish things instead of sleeping in and watching TV and sitting on the computer, but maybe next week...

3) Where are you?
At home, in my room.

4) Can you see the sky right now? (if even through a window)
Aye. It's half-cloudy, and it looks like it might rain.

5) What's the most random thing you can see right now?
I don't really get this question... how do you define random? But I'll humour you. Umm... a Kinder egg surprise box. Y'know, the yellow thingy inside the egg that contains the surprise.

6) If you were in Star Wars, would you be on the Light side of the Force or the Dark side?
Probably the Light side, because Marc Hamilton (Luke) and Carrie Fisher (Leia) are/were hawt.
For a more serious answer... I'm not sure. Depends on the circumstances, but I'd try to tread the Light path.

7) What colour would your lightsabre be?
Hmm. Green.

8) Would you rather be a hobbit, an istari, an orc, an elf or a dwarf?
I can't even remember what the Istari are! Hobbit or elf... elf, I think. Yeah, I'm shallow enough for that answer. Realistically, though, I'd probably be a hobbit.

9) Why?
Because elves are pretty and talented. Could do without vanity, though.

10) If you have met someone online and have never seen their face, never spoken to them, but have messaged them for years and declared your undying love for each other, is it real love?
You might think it is. It might feel like it. But it really isn't. Let's face it, you might be all head over heels until you meet, and then you could even hate the person on first sight. Online personality is just a fraction of a person.

11) Yeah, but they could be anyone…
Erm. Yeah.

12) Doesn’t that worry you?
I don't do online romances. Unless it's roleplay. So on a personal level, it doesn't really. But on a general level, yeah. You could seriously get hurt there.

13) Does it really piss you off when you see how shallow Elftown’s been getting lately? (not with its own consent)
Not really. Of course the illiterate and the people with nothing but pasted content in their houses annoy me, but there are many really awesome, interesting personalities to make up for it! You just have to find them.

14) Do you like the Elftown guards?
Sure I do.

15) Do you prefer spring, summer, autumn or winter?
Like them all. Can't choose. Were I forced to choose, though, I'd probably pick spring. Warming weather, but no allergies yet.

16) Why?
Look above.

17) Where do you feel most free?
Outside, in nature. Or at a gig.

18) Which animals can you relate to most?
Relate to... I don't actually know. Cats, I guess.

19) If you could pick one person to be executed for crimes against humanity, who would it be?
Nobody. I would pick nobody. I don't believe in execution. However there are people who would deserve a life sentence... tenfold.

20) Would you rather be in a baking dry desert or a freezing cold snowy mountain peak?
Mountain. Then I'd either burrow under the snow to keep warm, or hope to find a cave somewhere.

21) If you were in the Matrix, what would your name be? (i.e. your hacker name)
Lamia

22) Is Elftown better than Elfwood?
Aye!

23) Does it annoy you when people don’t put any description at all?
It depends. An empty description annoys me less than one filled with pasted things and questionnaires and other such rubbish.

24) Should all the shallow invaders be thrown out by the Guards?
Only if they give them a reason to.

25) If you could start your own religious cult, what would it be called and what would it involve?
Erm. I'll get back to you on that.

26) If you could be left hurling into nothingness for all eternity with one thing to keep you sane (be it real, imaginary, metaphorical, visible or invisible), what would it be?
Pen and paper, or books, or a friend.

27) You’ve got this one chance to ask God/the Goddess/ WHOEVER one thing (however cliché) and one thing only. What is it?
Why the heck did you screw up so very badly?
Or no, wait. Scratch that. Why didn't you take me when I asked you to? <_<
Scratch that too. If I had to pick a deity, it would be the earth itself. So, Gaia... how the fuck do you stand us?!

28) What's the one phrase you’d love to be known to future civilisations for saying (even if you didn’t ACTUALLY say it)?
"So long, and thanks for all the fish!"

29) What's the one song/line you wish you’d written?
Don't make me choose. :P
Oh well, I gueass I'll just try to be happy with the things I have written. They're not half bad after all.

30) What would it say on your gravestone?
"Quirky, but sweet."
Or a quote from one of my favourite songs.

31) Will you even have a gravestone?
That shall remain to be seen. A person's desires can change greatly during their life, and I hopefully have much of mine left to live.

32) What would you like to happen when you die? (i.e. what song will they play at your funeral, etc)
I wish to be cremated, my ashes either spread in the wind or in some beautiful garden or park while they play something from Damn Seagulls, Queen, or Uematsu Nobuo.

33) You can bring one person back from the dead, or to you from afar to be your guide through this life. Who is it?
Can I give this to a sister?

34) What's the one thing you want to shout from a mountain top?
I'll tell you when I know...

35) Did these questions suck?
No.

36) Will you post this on your page?
No way, I don't put questionnaires on my description. It's ugly.

37) Will you tell many people so that THEY in turn put it on their pages?
They'll do it if they want to.

38) Thanks ^_^
Very welcome.