[Linderel]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2008-12-03
Written: (5631 days ago)
Next in thread: 1057253, 1057255

Here's one way to tell you're addicted.
You're knitting, so both your hands are occupied and you can't be bothered to pause every other minute to click for the next posting. So, you take a good position, keep knitting, and use your toe to hit 'N' so you can still keep reading. Bwehehehe. Yaaaargh...

13419 unread postings in Junk, btw.

*deflates* Need that chocolate soon.

1056964  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2008-12-01
Written: (5634 days ago)
Next in thread: 1057267

Ah, fuck. The guy at one of the other three computers in here has some subtle enough cologne or something that it doesn't make me want to gag and he smells good -_-
I think I'll need to depart soon.

1056962  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2008-12-01
Written: (5634 days ago)

Stolen from Trin, who nicked it from Allison.

Do you mind explaining things to children?
Nah.

How many times a day do you go to the bathroom?
I don't count it o_O

Can you neatly write with your opposite hand?
No xD I'd like to be able to, though. I've vague intentions of training myself to be ambidextrous.

Do you prefer chicken, beef, pork, or tofu?
Depends, but I'd say chicken.

What are you doing besides this survey?
Working on Christmas presents ;3

Do you have a clock in the room you are sitting in right now?
Can't see one on the wall, but there's my cell phone if that counts...

What is the name of your neighborhood or development?
Kaijonharju

If you were a cow, would you sleep standing up, or lying down?
I already doze standing up... Uh, yeah. Depends.

If you could go outta town right now where would you be going?
Helsinki, damnit. Two more weeks till holidays.

What is your favorite video game?
Zelda: Ocarina of Time

When did you cry last?
Don't recall at the moment, but it can't have been too long ago.

Have you ever played the game MASH?
Nnnope.

You're gonna get a piercing, where is it?
Navel. It'd be the left brow if I didn't wear glasses.

How do you feel about your first true love?
Is there more than one true love? Eh, I guess it depends on what you're looking at. Answer to this, however, is I don't know.

When you were little, were you totally into Barney?
Who?

Do you play games on your cell phone?
Only when I find I need to wear down the battery or I'm really, really, really bored.

Are you an aunt/uncle?
Wellll... if you count my cousin's kids, then yeah. And Laura's dogs. Otherwise, that would be a no.

If you could change one thing about your looks, what would it be?
Less stocky, plz.

What kind of magnets are on your fridge?
Uh. Don't remember.

Who was the last person you had a serious talk with?
Uuuumm. Memory fails.

Who do you call when you need comfort?
Laura.

What movie do you want to see?
Sex and the City, for one.

Who is your favorite actor?
Johnny Depp is still the first answer to this, though I've developed a rather strong case of Rickman adoration.

Who is your favorite actress?
Emma Thompson.

When is the last time you did a puzzle?
Loooooooong time ago. Too long.

What songs would you put on a cd if you were about to burn one?
Depends on the mood of the CD.

When did you last go to the gym?
Uh. When I was still in senior secondary? :P

What cable company do you have?
N/A.

Have you ever played Monopoly, and won?
Mm-hm.

How easily do you apologize?
Depends on the situation.

Have you taken any medicine lately?
Nup.

Hottest thing you see right now?
A Finnish-to-English dictionary? :D

Does everything happen for a reason?
I sometimes like to think so.

What is your favorite online game?
Durrr. FreeRice? :P

Favorite TV channel?
Uh. SubTV?

Last place you got a hair cut?
Laura's balcony :P

Last person you made a bet with?
No recollection whatsoever.

Stayed in a hotel lately?
Nope.

What is something you are scared to do?
Socialising.

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Former employer.

Do you have four generations still living in the family?
Alas, no. Well, not in the immediate family, anyways.

Best rib place you've ate at?
N/A

What is one of your family tradition?
Erm. We go to our summer house for Christmas, but even that is sorta... sporadic.

Is there anything you always do before you go to bed?
Nothing comes to mind that I would do every night...

What goes best with soda?
I don't drink soda.

How many lights are on in your house?
Don't know, I'm at uni at the moment.

Wanna get anything off your chest?
Nothing I can think of right this second.

What is something you learned today?
That kilts became common in Scotland only when George III made a visit attired in one.

1055940  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2008-11-22
Written: (5643 days ago)

Huh. I haven't eaten anything other than a few pieces of chocolate in about 32 hours. My liquid intake yesterday consisted of a few sips of water and a mug of tea.
Think I ought to take some bread before I crash into bed...

My rhythm is so totally fucked up xD

1055505  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-11-18
Written: (5646 days ago)

So, I'm 22 now. Don't really feel much different, and the day has been decidedly anticlimactic. It rained instead of snowing - I have this silly wish of getting snow for my birthday every year - and I'm most probably going to spend the evening by myself, munching on chocolate and crisps and watching CSI episodes.

In other news, I gots new glasses last Saturday. Will post picture when I can be arsed to take one.

1055280  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2008-11-17
Written: (5648 days ago)
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1054933  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2008-11-14
Written: (5651 days ago)

He asked me if I'd ever prayed. I said I hadn't.

A lie, that was. I wish I'd told him the truth, just to see his reaction. The truth is I did pray once. Just once... no, make that twice. The first time, I can't have been more than eleven, and I begged to be taken away. The second time, I was seventeen and asking for something to believe in. There was never a response. None. I wish I'd told him that I know that even if God exists, he's a busy man, and I'll never be one of his children. I wish I'd told him that the Bible is nothing more than mythology to me. I wish I could have told that complete and utter stranger how fucking tired I am of my life, and how God or Jesus or whoever is not going to save me, because they're not real for me and I'm not real for them and I am not one of his children.


...uh, yeah, just ignore this little piece of bitterness here if you want to. I don't know why I get so angry.

Also, apologies to those who do believe. Sometimes, I wish I could share your faith. But I can't, and I never will. It just isn't meant to be that way. And no, I don't really want to talk about it.

1054868  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2008-11-13
Written: (5651 days ago)
Next in thread: 1054884, 1055334

Had young mormon men at our door :o
The one who did the talking had an adorable accent, though I had a tiny bit of trouble understanding him because of it. We chatted a bit, but in the end I just sent 'em on their way.

Darn he was cute. >_<

1054250  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-11-09
Written: (5655 days ago)

I has another villanelle. I know the rhythm is off, but I really, really would like some opinions on this. The vignette, too. *points at mood and previous entry*

Bound maiden

With crown of feathers upon fairest hair
see this fragile form not meant to bow
proudly she bends her head to prayer

Elven child of Earth, now laid bare
forced to break each sacred vow
with crown of feathers upon fairest hair

Her wings bound, yet she will not despair
or question her people, her goddess how
proudly she bends her head to prayer

With one last song she will ensnare
and plant seeds of hope, defiant now
with crown of feathers upon fairest hair

As in a dream she becomes aware
of caresses upon pale fevered brow
with crown of feathers upon fairest hair
proudly she bends her head to prayer

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Written about Sunday 2008-11-09
Written: (5656 days ago)

Tea and Roses <- story for the 'Paradise' theme!

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Written about Saturday 2008-11-08
Written: (5656 days ago)

If you're able to breathe safety
stability, take it in like air--
large gulps, as if starved
for the sensation
(for peace from clamouring voices)
if you are able--

Take no note of
the scars and scratches--
mere illusions
(illusions, stains in your eyes)
get the silence you need
in familiar arms

and spare no thought
(not a single one)
to the reality that awaits--
cold, lonely, so far away
If you're at the end of your rope
search for the ground under your feet.

1053689  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2008-11-05
Written: (5659 days ago)
Next in thread: 1053693

I has villanelle. Comment plz.

Within the lights

Come, now, do not be coy
as the dance, the pulse grows
take refuge in this joy

Do you see that frail boy
who all his burden throws?
Come, now, do not be coy

Who would this haven destroy?
As mortality slows
take refuge in this joy

No denial to alloy
where your heart tonight goes
come, now, do not be coy
take refuge in this joy

1052792  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2008-10-30
Written: (5666 days ago)
Next in thread: 1052955

New single from Damn Seagulls is out! Go listen. :3
http://www.damnseagulls.com - just click on the 'we make records not websites'.
Someone fails, probably me. I can't seem to actually download the song, which is very sad indeed.

1052468  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-10-28
Written: (5667 days ago)
Next in thread: 1052598, 1052623, 1052625

It's official, I'm an art model now. o_o
The first session was today. The class consists of a handful of mostly middle-aged people. I kept my clothes on, but next time I'll be nekkid.
I. Um. Hope my arm will have healed sufficiently by then.

1052386  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-10-28
Written: (5668 days ago)
Next in thread: 1052405

I... got a self-reminder message. A quote. By St. Clement of Alexandra.
"If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes."

This is all well and good, but I've never scheduled any messages. Upon checking, I saw that there are more scheduled at irregular intervals. One for November. Two for both December and January, respectively. And I am going wtf.

No, yeah, it's a nice surprise, but I got slightly freaked out xD Thanks. If I focus on them enough, they may actually help me.
I have my suspicions as to the guilty responsible party. :P

1050868  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-10-19
Written: (5677 days ago)
Next in thread: 1051218

Trin left D:
But, well, we had fun. Ate lots of ice cream and candy and foxberry muffins. And went camera-happy in town. It was a good weekend. :3

Tomorrow I'm going hoooooome. For a whole week. It'll do good for me. <3

1050472  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2008-10-16
Written: (5680 days ago)

"Keep smiling," says Ian. Pretty much out of nowhere, but it means a lot that he'd care.

Trying...
Well. Trin will be here in about five hours.

1050311  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2008-10-15
Written: (5681 days ago)

Stolered.


Think of five names, spontaneously

Laura
Jukka
Allison
Trin
Squee

DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP THE TOP!!






1. How did you meet #3?
Right here! I don't remember the particulars, but we probably started chatting on wikis and forums. Then I signed up to take Maria Magdelena - although I don't remember whether that was before or after we added each other on MSN. At some point she proposed a relation, we started talking even more, and what do you know... she's my beloved little sister now. <3

2. What would you do if #2 and #5 were going out?
Be quite shocked, and pinch myself because surely it would have to be a dream.

3. How long have you known #2?
About three years. We'd been on the same channel (for Finnish nanoers) for a while, a month or two maybe, but I only really became aware of him when he was recruiting people to go with him to see the fourth Potter film.
A month later, we were a couple. <_<

4. How do you know #5?
Again, from here. And again, I'm blanking on the details. We do have 98 pages' worth of messages since July 2006, and the first one suggests we'd known for some time before that as well...

5. What would you do if #4 confessed they loved you?
But she does love me!
Ha. That's what you get for posing ambiguous questions. But no, really, I'd be quite surprised, since last I checked she only plays for one team.

6. A fact about #1.
She's diabetic and tends to scare me half to death. :3
Oh, and she likes groping my cleavage. I'll never get her to stop, so I've just resigned myself to restricting her from doing it in public.

7. Who is #2 going out with?
No one, as far as I know.

8. What does #5 do for a living?
Sheeeee's working in a bakery? Yeah? <_<

9. Would you live with #3?
This was in the plans at some point, as a matter of fact. :P

There is no ten! :O

11. What do you like about #1?
Quite a lot. How she takes care of me, how she's gentle with those she cares about, her sense of humour (most of the time), her ability to spin stories on the spot... I also envy her for being so... open. >_<

12. What would you do if #2 died?
Angst. And cry. And curse. And call him a bastard.

13. Do you miss #1?
You have no idea.

14. What is your opinion of #3?
Lovely <3
She's cute, lively, crazy, beautiful, thoughtful, considerate, sensitive... shall I go on?

15. Would you ever go out with #1?
If she weren't my de facto older sister... yeah, sure :D

17. Ever get really personal with #1?
Depends on the definition.

18. Have you ever slept over at #5's house?
Nuh-uh. I hope to, one day. ;3

19.Do you think number #4 is attractive?
I'd do her. :P

20. What do you like about #2?
Uhm... His intelligence, sense of humour (most of the time), geekiness, trivia-infested brain, how he can be so gentle with me even if he's really a prick. The random noises he makes. Oh, and then there's the dimples.

21. What would you do if #1 died?
Contemplate going right after her.

22. Are you dating #2?
Used to. First he broke up with me after five months. Then there was a ten-month interval during which we were simply good friends and I was finding it hard to get over him. Then when I was finally starting to recover, we started again. Dated for another five months, and then I left him and decided that while he might have been something like the love of my life, we shouldn't ever be a couple.

23. Name one quality of #5?
Hilarious. :P

1050162  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-10-14
Written: (5682 days ago)
Next in thread: 1050297, 1050316

Ever heard of the film 2:37?

Neither had I. Saw it about a month ago, was intrigued, and today finally rented. Get it and watch it.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0472582/

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