Just another something I wrote.....
I feel like running away
For this place that I hate is
Abundant, never ending, ever growing
I fell like I don’t know where I’m going
Please tell me what my fate is
Got nothing left to lose
Got nowhere left to go
No one left to love
Got nothing left to say to you
Cuz baby, I’m dead to you!
When you turned your back on me
Is when I truly knew
At last I could finally see
I didn’t mean a thing to you
You used me
For what you needed me for
Then you tossed me
You said didn’t want me no more
You turned your back
Left me in the dark
You scarred my soul
Forever I’m marked
It’s all your fucking fault
I’m this way
I rewind it; replay it in my head everyday
I wake up, I break down,
My fucking heart feels like its bound
To you
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know where to go
Who to turn to
What to hide, what to show
My arms
Covered in scars
My eyes
Seems they’ve lost their stars
And I just don’t fucking care anymore
Don’t care who fucking stares anymore
You used me, you stupid fucking whore!
I don’t need you, I don’t need anything anymore
This is where I leave
Where I slowly die
You left me and I still don’t know why
I needed you,
I wanted you,
couldn’t live without you
You fucking fool,
I die where you left me,
I’m slowly fading away
And I still haven’t heard from you since that day.
Way back when
But I thought I knew you then
But I guess I never did
What the fuck, I was in love
But I’m only a kid!
~Dee
Decated to Andrew....fuck
Written:2005-0
The pain
By Diana Marie Horton (me)
My obscured dread
My heart so blue
My tears that bled
Like rain for you
I feel this pain,
That I have caused
I feel ashamed
I feel so lost
The tears I restrained
Held back at all cost
Descend like acid rain
Burning into my soul
Killing me inside
Never to be whole
With this pain that I hide
every tear that I shed
A part of me dies
Soon to be dead
I silently cry
The pain that I have caused you
Is killing me wonderful
I told you it true
It was predictable
But you wouldn’t listen to me…
Why weren’t we meant to be?
Both dedicated to Dillon Leon Boss...
It wasn’t a sudden change of heart,
It was us slowly falling apart
My love for you faded and changed
My heart, confused, became deranged.
Blood and tears both fell like rain
Trying to extinguish this hurt and pain
This pain I feel I must hide
For if I don’t, I’ll ruin my pride.
I love you still, but it’s not the same
I’m sorry, love, that I caused you pain.
...........17 new scars mark my soul it's pain.........
So confused, living a lie
This shattered heart’s prepared to die…
Tired of being a heartless bitch
Please someone help pull the switch
To weak to go on
To weak to die
To weak to look you straight in the eye
Past the blood and the tears
Lies my soul drowning in fears
Afraid to hurt
Afraid to love
My broken heart
My darkened soul
So black, black as coal
Wishes not to be loved
Not to be pitied
Not to exist
If only I could have just one wish…
If you only knew
The pain that I hide.
Daily deceived
By my every lie.
The love that I had,
That’s gone now too.
Baby I’m so sad,
And so damn confused.
I don’t know what to do any more
I don’t know what I’m still living for.
Baby if you only knew
Every thing I’ve ever hid from you
I don’t know what to do any more
I don’t know what I’m still fighting for
I lost my love and now my mind
I feel so cold lost in time
I don’t know what to do anymore
I can’t be with you any more
My heart is so blue
It’s so sore.
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know what to do
Oh, I don’t know what to do
Anymore
I never wanted to hurt you. I just didn’t want to live a lie. But something inside tells me that I made the wrong decision. Maybe it is because I feel guilty still for breaking your heart. I don’t think I’ll ever know why I felt what I did…But that doesn’t change the fact that I hurt you…Dillon and I have been going steady for a year now, And I love him so much. But I still hurt inside for what I did to you. I’m sorry if I dug up some old memories you wished to remain buried….but I had to make sure you were doing ok….I’m so sorry…maybe I should not have sent that message…but I had to….I’m so sorry….
-Dee
a smile faded apon her face, one that once would shine, and light up any room she came upon, but now, slowly, both she and it is fadeing......j
hehehehhe, im evil!!!!
hello!! im ky! my best friend in the world is [Rain Kissed Angel] she has always been there for me and i love her to death!!