ALL THE WORK *poems, art, and or song lyrics* ON THIS PAGE IS MINE.

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Some of my most recent works of art....


Take a deep breath and close your eyes as the blade slides across your wrist…slowly cutting the tender flesh; blood drips from your finger tips. The little droplets of inward pain slowly descend to the floor. Finally releasing the haunting memories that still hurt from the night before…



One memorable scar for one short moment of release. One memory that never goes away, for a moment that didn’t last. One more thing to lie about when a friend sees a fresh cut. One more moment to waste. One more drop of blood that drips off your fingers. One more mess to clean up. One more thing to worry about…One memorable scar for one short moment of release? It seems worth it when the blade's pressed to my skin...



Hey dad, this is for you, you sick fuck!

Behind the masks
Lies the tears
And my past
That I fear
The scars I hide
Underneath my clothes
Diminish my pride
When I’m exposed
Fake smiles
And bottled up screams
Mouth full of bile
As you shatter my dreams
You stand there amused
You scream and you yell
My life you have bruised
And now it is hell
Living a lie
Or not living at all
You laugh as I cry
And clap as I fall
You’re bringing me down
And won’t let me go
But you’re gonna die
Painful and slow
It’s your turn to Bleed
It’s your turn to scream and plead
Yeah, Dad, that’s right
Your lil girl has learned to fight
I get it from you
And all that shit you put me though
I ain’t gonna hold back
Your next to get whacked


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A blank past, a blank future...

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This Is For You....

Close your eyes
Let me hold you tight
It’s ok to cry
You don’t have to fight
I’ll always be here
Right at your side
There’s nothing to fear
Nothing left to hide…
Take me in your arms
Kiss me and hold me close
When the bad memories swarm
And remind me the path I choose
Tell me it’s alright
And that you’ll always be there too
Tell me I don’t have to fight
And that I mean everything to you

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So lost and alone
My cold heart of stone
Seemingly breaks
As you walk away
Not looking back
To see the tears in my eyes
Knowing your heart
Is full of despise
If you looked deeper
Then maybe you would have seen
Just how much
You really meant to me


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(just something I'm working on...It is unfinished)

If you only knew
How hard I try
To keep the memories
Buried deep down inside…
I’ve hid them so well
All this pain inside
But it’s been like hell
Fighting to survive
Pushing myself back up to the top
Only to find I’m swimming through rocks....

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I can breathe
I’m alive
I should be happy
Living this lie
But I sit here
All alone
So lost in my pain
I weep and groan
Tears of blood
Start to flow
As memories flood
And I know you know
About my past
That I’ve struggled to hide
All the scars I’ve hid
From my painful life
I didn’t wish to live
Maybe I’ll end it tonight