If She Only New

My life is so confusing
And I can't keep refusing
The feelings I have
They are not bad
I'm scared to let them out
Afraid to loose what i've got
But I think about this alot
And she won't stay out of my brain

Lately I've felt alone
And she was there to help hold on
To life and not to give up the fight
She inspires me...gives me strength
Allows me to feel like me
And thats ok
But in this moment i feel guilty

I have gf but shes in NC
Its to far away
She can't provide
What I truely need inside
To stay alive
I can't survive
Without someone by my side
Not online
Ortherwise I will probably die

I don't want to live a lie
i can't control my feelings
And i don't want to ruin
The friendship i have
These feelings just makes me tremble
I can't assemble the words to use
To say what i mean
I never saw this coming

Don't have the courage for this duty
I need to tell her but my thoughts are faulty
And I mean what i think
But this gurl won't be able to return the feelings
At least as far as i know
And she is gona go
soon

I haven't that much time left
And I can't imagin her not being around
She is someone that I have found
Who cares if i'm around
Who wouldn't just leave me in the lost and found
I just wish this shit was easy
And all this prolly sounds corny
But somehow i'm in love
With a person that can't love me back

I've betrayed my thoughts and in depression light rarely shines but this gurl shined such a bright light on me it over came the darkness of my brain and she might not ever understand what she has done for me and what she could continue to do for me if she only new............

My Beautiful Suicide

I'm loosing the battle with life
I try to hold on with all my might
Should I stay and ignoure the light
And continue to fight
Or just let go and float up to heaven
Or down to hell
Lately i really don't give a shit
thats why i'm writing to say i may take my life

An end to the pain would be so great
But it seems as though happy is out of my reach
I look for shelter from the storm
But even those i trust don't care how i feel
They can't see that this pain is real
Through everything that endure
I can't seem to ever find a cure
With my soul decintegrating
My life force is fadeing

This is my time to say
This might just be my beautiful suicide
I can't run and I can't hide from the pain
That burns inside
And never dies
Just try's to take me away
And its winning
I hope no one feels pain when i'm gone
Cuz i've felt enough

I'm not as strong of a person as i look
My mind is slowly dieing
My heart is always crying
And from the deepest depts of my being
I feel as though i'm being betrayed
By everyone
I don't know why
But it feels as though
I can't survive

I may not make it to be famous
But i can essure this could be my lithium
Unless someone saves me from
All of the pain
Someone to stop the rain
And bring the sun back
And help me come out of the black
But only one can do this
And she doesn't know it

my first poem in along time its called The Dark




Evil feeds on our weakness
And in the darkness
The path is clear
That the dark is the route to all fear
For what would we do if we lived in black
And endless tide night and ash
But no one has ever experianced pitch black
People fear what they don't understand
And its hard to understand why black is black
Dark isfear thats amatter of fact

If there is anything you take from this song
Take this, please try to proove me wrong
Take aim at the darkness
it won't bite
Its just whats in the dark
That don't come out in the light
have you felt the cold of night
The infernal darkness all around
The dark clouds you mind you can't even make a sound
just try to escape it, i dare you, go now!

If you seek adventure stay home
Cuz you don't want to end up it the dark all alone
its my place of refuge from all of the hate
From all of the politics and the shit they debate
An escape from the world to just sit and think
The dark is where you will find me
And what will you see
An blackfire inferno
Raging like the sea
so just let me be
please just let me be free

people can't understand what help the dark provides
a safe haven where all can reside
it don't play favorites
It daon't even care
So just let go of you mindless stares
And come in to dark wher the weather is fair
Dark can be bad if you don't know how to use it
And even if you do don't abuse it
becuz ur skill in the dark can be a matter of life and death
And if we're not careful there wil be no one left


I'm sure that after reading this poem you feel as though i am evil and demented and that my love for the dark had to come from somebody who was deeply tormented, someone truely isane and person whos brain had experianced acid rain, but i assure you that my brian is fine and if you don't understand what i'm trying to get by then i'll be the one that lives and you'll be the one that dies

The Love of My Life

I met this gurl
If i could i would give her the world
She is the apple of my eye
She's awesome and devine
And she's mine
Thats no Lie
For this gurl I would die

I can't stand when she's gone
I just wish she would get on
And talk to me
So that i can once again be free
And maybe then you all can see
That i am fine just being me
If only could she see
How much my heart bleeds
FOR HER

Oh Brittni......
I hope you can see
That you have made me so happy
And I'm so glad you let me
Be your man
I want to stand
Right bye your side
As husband and wife
I just wana spend my life...........
with you.......(softly)

I don't know how it happened
I don't know why
But I have to say
I loved you ever since that day
when i almost took the pain away
And brittni its true
That I love you

I fell flat on my face
For you the gurl of my dreams
And when your not around i despair
And I can't even try to be happy
I can't understand it
And I can't sleep without talkin to you
Somehow you stole my heart
And I don't want you to ever give it back

Oh Brittni......
I hope you can see
That you have made me so happy
And I'm so glad you let me
Be your man
I want to stand
Right bye your side
As husband and wife
I just wana spend my life...........
with you.......(softly)

I've never met anyone like you
A person who accually feels the way i do
And can understand my pain
unlimited stress
Shattered by your voice
And when i'm with I feel as though
Anything is possible

Oh Brittni......
I hope you can see
That you have made me so happy
And I'm so glad you let me
Be your man
I want to stand
Right bye your side
As husband and wife
I just wana spend my life...........
with you.......(softly)
with you.............
with you....................
with you...........................(trails off)




these feeling are so crazy but i'm so happy that i have them

Any one

There's a pioson Like acid
Eating away at my soul
Through these adolescent phases
And rageing hormones
there is no escape
I lie awake
Wondering if
I'll ever be with
Any one

Any one.....could make me feel good
But they don't care
Lifes not fare
I want someone to hold that will hold me back
Someone that make out with me
And not care about what others think
Mental conpanionships isn't always enough......

Alone in the dark
Scadered about are the keys to my heart
No body has ever unlocked
This vault in my chest
I wait and just fade into lonlyness
People are cruel
They are all fools
If only they would see me
if any one would see me

Any one.....could make me feel good
But they don't care
Lifes not fare
I want someone to hold that will hold me back
Someone that make out with me
And not care about what others think
Mental conpanionships isn't always enough......

My luck is worst
I think i'm just cursed
no body know's the potential in me
They can not see what i can be
y can't they see
I want there to be more to me
I just want to be free

Any one.....could make me feel good
But they don't care
Lifes not fare
I want someone to hold that will hold me back
Someone that make out with me
And not care about what others think
Mental conpanionships isn't always enough......

I wish i new how to end this pain
And all of the shame
I don't even know who to blame
Is it me is it them
I just don't wana spend
My life all alone
I just wish someone would see into me
And know my pain
And to help me dry the rain
Thats has stormed for so long

Any one.....could make me feel good
But they don't care
Lifes not fare
I want someone to hold that will hold me back
Someone that make out with me
And not care about what others think
Mental conpanionships isn't always enough.......

In this life
There is only one thing i need
and the thing is any one

One of my farorites -Dark a New Form of Light-

In history everyone has a dark age when all hope fades
And life is rage
And people aren't human there more like demons
They say that it ended but that ain't true at all
We've always lived in the dark
And we always will
Becuz no one can ever realize true light that resides inside
They are just alive and nothing more

The world is dull and grey
And those who stick out are pushed away
Rejected by society
All these labels are put on us
But this is what i say, fuck the labels
We are not punks, goths, preps, geeks, burnouts,
Or whites, blacks, latins, orientals,
We are just people
But no one can see that light
Or understand its might

So in this world
Dark is a new form of light
Cause this world is changed
and there's no end to the fight
It is so the bright in the darkness that makes you true
So in all what are you to do
Live in the in ignourance
Or Search for the brighter dark, a new form of light

Everyone is blind to real world
Coruption is the worlds middle name
So why is it that people take the blame
There will always be coruption, and fighting
Its just nature's way
Nobody always agree's with someone else
That's what make's us, us
We are ourselfs not someone else
Individualism is the light in the dark
It keeps us real, it keeps us free

Everyone lies, and cheat's
We just have to except our faults and live with them
But it's a fine line
Someone that follows all the rules will have no fun
And some one who breaks them will be on the run
It's a thing called balence it keep's everything the way it should be
If you can find the balence Then you have found that dark a new form of light

So in this world
Dark is a new form of light
Cause this world is changed
and there's no end to the fight
It is so the bright in the darkness that makes you true
So in all what are you to do
Live in the in ignourance
Or Search for the brighter dark, a new form of light

MY latest -So Move On-

Lifes not fair its full of despair
The tradgidy of earth is overpowering
Any ray of hope will fade
And your brain will decay
just to find that your still alive
living in a zone of nothingness
Not knowing where to start or end
Everyone wants life to be perfect but it's hardly that
We take everything for grantet and appreciate nothing
And we only realize this when we loose something
And even though that something is gone
We have to try to live on
And reach normalcy
For that is the only to free

I don't believe how gast life go's
Everything is changed so fast
In an instint life can turn upside down
And you can't even tell the floor from the wall
Exsisting only physically
Cause your mind isn't were it should be
And life don't care
It just continue's to tear at your sanity
Just when you think your at the top
You fall so far down you can never get up

But thatz just life you got to roll with the punches
Get back up when you get knocked down
And fight your way through everythging
Its just you against the world
But you can win, your the underdog and your always on top
You have to move on
dwelling in your self pitty doesn't solve anything
So move on....So move on....So move on(loudly)
So move on..........(quietly)

Getting stabbed in the back by the world
Is all to common
Its a normal attack
No one is safe from this harsh reality
And you don't know what to do
When you are oh so srcewed
Out of work can't feed the family
Locked up in prison you used to have a bently
Hooked on drugs it shattered ur dreams
To depressed, got on medication, overdose now ur on a permenant vacation
No matter what hand ur dealt
You have to move on

But thatz just life you got to roll with the punches
Get back up when you get knocked down
And fight your way through everything
Its just you against the world
But you can win, your the underdog and your always on top
You have to move on
dwelling in your self pitty doesn't solve anything
So move on....So move on....So move on(loudly)
So move on..........(quietly)

and in the fading light of the end world only one will know the true meaning of anything

New song titeled -My-

My life force is dieing
My heart is crying
I don't know what to do
I'm screwed
My moms a ho
My girlfriends a no show
My best friends a pussy
My dad is phsyco
Thats way to many my's i know
But what am i to do
I thought i was a nice dude
But now I've descovered that everything i know's a lie

Theres this guy right he's fucking my mom
But they won't even have the decentacy to tell me what's going on
I mean come on i'm not nieve
When ur in the dark till 3 in the morning, ur not just talking
She said she would'nt do it again
But then she just has him at my house while i'm sleeping?
What the fuck is that
All's i know is I'm gona pop this niger in the fuckin back
2-3 times atleast maybe even 20
And if he gets up I'll shoot him back down
Maybe he'll now realize who he's messin with

i belong alone
In this world I hate
For no one i know is true
And I can't live with people like that
I'd end it all now if only i had a gat
But i guess that wouldn't solve anything
I just can't wait till i can start and new life
And leave the old one behind

Now I had this gurl crystel under my wing
To her i could say anything
No matter what are love was strong
Even though i had not known her for very long
Nothing could break it
But now she's gone
She moved along
I was just a boy toy in her sick little game
She must have found someone else more amusing than me
So ya see chicks are evil as can be
Spawned from satan
Jaded by me and sentaced to make the life of men misserable until the end of our days

Now don't go away I'm not done with what i have to say
I'm struggleing through school
My life is a reck
The school is full of preps and rednecks
Just driving me insane
And picking at my poor demented brain
And all of this time no ever stops to think about me
Or understand me, or get to me, or give a shit about me
But i geuss I'm just another face in the crowd
I guess I'll just fade into the shade of existance
And dissapear into everyone's greatest fear

i belong alone
In this world I hate
For no one i know is true
And I can't live with people like that
I'd end it all now if only i had a gat
But i guess that wouldn't solve anything
I just can't wait till i can start and new life
And leave the old one behind

My newest song - Anger Messenger -

My anger is outstanding
Why is my mom so demanding
She's driving me crazy
She thinks she can control me
But only one can do that
And thats me

She through a fit about my homework
I would have done up nice and good
But she can't be sane
Now tell me explain does it matter when somethings gets done as long as it gets done i think not
I mean whats her deal
Is she strying to steal
My last remaining sanity
On the edge of exsisstance I need her to leave me be
I just want to be free

Its my Life
So leave me alone
I'll tackle all my problems on my own
I don't need anyone But me
Don't you see
The more you try to control me
The more you push me away
I deal with this shit everyday
Do you think that makes me wana stay
Before you know I'll be gone
And you would have wished you realized you were wrong

I try to be civil just talk to you
And it go's fine
But you walk a fine line
Of nice and insane
Your more insane than nice
I geuss thats why we get in so many fights

I can't be control like a wildfire
My rage shifts and comsumes
Whatever its needs to feed itself
And you fit it to much
And its going to grow
Faster than anyone knows
It will remain silent until it explodes

Its my Life
So leave me alone
I'll tackle all my problems on my own
I don't need anyone But me
Don't you see
The more you try to control me
The more you push me away
I deal with this shit everyday
Do you think that makes me wana stay
Before you know I'll be gone
And you would have wished you realized you were wrong

and i just want to say mom i love you with all my heart
But fuck you
fuck you
fuck you
fuck you
fuck you
fuck you...............................

This is my latest song - LoveFire -

Blackfire
Whitefire
Put them both together and what do you get
What you get is perfectfire
We are so close
Are being together is almost enevitable
Are relationship is growing like a vegitable
It pains me when she's not around
And the pain won't go away
the plus is I know she feels the same way
Thats why i know that our love will forever stay

Gurl you are the one that makes me feel right
I want to hold you all night
And never let you go
I hope that one day we can be face to face
That would be just great
I can't believe, how fast
I'm falling for you.........

You have helped mend my tearing heart
Now i can't stand to be apart from you
Your the one that i want to grow old with
The one that will not care
If i loose my hair
And be there through thick and thin
Through every passing relative

But before the relation end it has to start
We live on ether side of the state we are so far apart
I want you to be here
I just want to hold you in my arms
And tell that your mine
I want our souls to intertwine
And form one line, one soul, one being
For love can do many things
For you it makes me sing

This is loveFire
What is lovefire you ask
Its that burning sensation for someone you love that never fades
Its burns like the ever glades
And rage's on
Its a fire of love that consumes soul

"Can you see my pain"

Life can drain you of life
For it is complicated and suffincating
Sometimes it feels as though a thousend knife stab you in an instint
Athough they don't apear and can't be seen
They are still there
To stab and tear
At your fragil being called your soul
These knifes can't be controled
They are triggered in many different ways
On those depressingly sad days
And when the tide of an old relationship comes in
The pain comes back
There's nothing you can do
But try to live the pain through
Its hard I know

Can you see my pain
Coming down like rain
Wait thats not rain its acid
Just adding to they inferno
That burns inside
It feeds the fire
And makes the pain stay for ever

Sinking slowly in this brutal society
Depression and pain always worsening
You try to stay a float
But its to hard
Stuck in the rapids of life
just holding on and hopeing that the river will will slow down a let you breathe
But it never does it just go's round and round
Like a wirlpool
Dizzy and confused
Disorented lost in the haze of nothingness
You wonder does anyone even care that i exsist
Or am i just wondering this world invisible

Can you see my pain
Coming down like rain
Wait thats not rain its acid
Just adding to the inferno
That burns inside
It feeds the fire
And makes the pain stay for ever

Its hard to decide which path to choose
Should I do what i'm told
Should I just make the world my throne
Good vs. Evil
I'm betweent the 2
Trying to figure out what to do
But i should call that shots in my life
Many other things factor in the to your decisions
Your mind is swayed by this or maybe by that
But you can't always control which way to go
It should all be simple
But it never is and never will be
You never be free from the pain
All it does is gain speed as it rolls along
That is something you should know by the end of this song

Can you see my pain
Coming down like rain
Wait thats not rain its acid
Just adding to the inferno
That burns inside
It feeds the fire
And makes the pain stay for ever


The pain it sleeps inside just waiting to awaken
Alot of time pain comes out as anger
And sometimes it can leave your soul mangled and misshapen
The delicate balence of everything
It is so easily disrupted by all of the coruption
I mean look at this world
Everyone is judged
I mean wheres the love
It is pretty much gone
I guess its time to say so long
But remember pain can't always be seen
And most can't find the seem

And in the wake of the earthqauke that I create
I want you to know that the pain it barelly ever shows
And what you say to people does make a difference everyday you effect more lives than you know
Please listen to this subliminal message and just leave people the fuck alone
And you will be better off
For you won't be getting brutally murdered in your sleep
Becuz of someone in high school that you thought was creepy
That you picked and called them names
Thats how killers are created
Before i leave know this no one from the rage that dwells inside

Can you see my pain
Coming down like rain
Wait thats not rain its acid
Just adding to the inferno
That burns inside
It feeds the fire
And makes the pain stay for ever
and ever
forever it stays
It's not goning away
forever it stays
forever

Why do feelings always consume our souls
Why do these stupid things make us feel useless and numb
How come these scars create holes that can't be seen
Why are other people so fucking dumb
In there ignourance they're bliss
And they don't even know what they have done
Even if as drastic as the life of one
My friend camela now is dead
Becuz of an ex boy friend
She couldn't deal with the pain so she took her own life instead
With nowhere to run and nothing to lose
She took the pain away

It wasn't her time to go
And i don't know how it got so bad
But its makes me ever so sad
She was in her prime
Like a shiney new dime
And when i'm done with this ryheme I just hope she knows that I'll miss her

This song is deticated to one of closest friends [Classy Canadian Chick] the name of it is Casteina

In this world your life sit on the edge of existance
And some times to make it you need assistance
You can't always do it on your own
Or forever be alone
I'm a lone wolf in the darkness
Walking blind in hopelessness
Waiting for someone to help
But these crys for help just come out in a yelp
Then everything that i've longed for
Seemed to be right behind a shut door
But I can't open it I'm to weak
Then you came along
And made me feel like for once I belong
I've been in the darkness to long
And you showed me the light
And gave me a reason to fight

Oh Casteina you may have saved my life
You made everything feel right
You brought me out of the night
And showed me the day
And help me find my way
Before the end of this song
I just want to hope and depend that
That you will always be my best friend............

Castiena is a great friend
I will love her until the end
When I'm down
You are up
And tell me not to give up
You tell me that my time will come
And i will be happy
I can't help but believe you
And I'm sure your right
But as of now I'm a bird that can't take flight
I bet that you could probably sho me the runway
And help me fly
Just by
Being my friend

Oh Casteina you may have saved my life
You made everything feel right
You brought me out of the night
And showed me the day
And help me find my way
Before the end of this song
I just want to hope and depend that
That you will always be my best friend............

When something is in darkness
It is the best time
For light to shine
And I've been walking blind
In the darkness of my life
Then out of no where its something bright
Her name Casteina
Without her i wouldn't know where to go
I'd probably hit a wall
And trip and fall
Into the remnents of my brain
A place that is insane
But she is here
To help take away my fear

Oh Casteina you may have saved my life
You made everything feel right
You brought me out of the night
And showed me the day
And help me find my way
Before the end of this song
I just want to hope and depend that
That you will always be my best friend............

Life is an endless game
Your mind gets filled with pitty and shame
But geuss what not mine
My life is begining to aline
Thanx to you

This is my latest song "Rebel"

Ever since i came in this world my life has done nothing but swirl
Through out this time my poor little mind
Has been molded and changed, completely rearranged
My soul has been twisted, into a shape that only contains hate
Their is no time to waste, We have to move
Before my whole meaning comes unglued
I can't catch a break
And all that was good has come and gone
I don't think that I'm going to be in this world very long
Becuz everything is wrong
It's not the way it was supposed to be
Maybe I just went crazy
I mean that is ma nickname
But maybe its no longer just a game
What if I really am insane

I'm going numb
I'm forgeting my past
Could it be true atlast
The pain is leaving me
Maybe I will finally be free
This is awesome but to good to be true
This pain will not leave
Only cut and cleave
And leave scars so deep that they'll never be seen
But they'll be there
They ain't going anywhere
In that part of my mind there will always be despair
Step into my lair
That I call my mind
And try to contain the fear inside
Becuz once you in, there ain't nowhere to hide

In this messed up mind of mine
There is some goodness you will find
There are some things that give me pleasure
These things I will protect no matter the measure
To bad my greatest desires may be out of ma reach
I geuss thats why ma life is sinkin
Like a ship in bad weatha
But I geuss its just the life of a rebel
Denying what the common person wants
And doing things some don't aprove of
We are the ones that are different
We just want to experiment

I'm a Rebel babi
Yeah and I'm kick ass
I don't give a fuck about class
And when I say this
Scream if your with me
And for the millions of you Rebels out there
No matter what you don't be scared
You where ur hair the way you wana where ur hair
And the same goes for anything else
That you wana do
If thats what you want
Well yeah its up to you
Now stand my Rebel army
And say what you need
And do what you please
If your a Rebel then follow me

We are rebels yeah nothin else
And we ain't gona change
We will never be the same as anyone
This our life
Our pride
Our own reasons to shine
And If ur not of our kind
You'll never understand
And your plan for life is nothing like the one that we layed out for our selfs
An that is to be different
We are not just the average schmo
And we gona let the world Know

People say they're not prejidice but everyone is
People judge everything
Your look
Your scent
Your orient
Your attitude
Your personality
Your skin color
Everyone is diferent as it should be
So never believe that you can't express yourself
Be you and thats all that you can do
Becuz if your not you then what are you
Your nothing if act as though you are happy being something your not
Then your mind will rot and decay
And start to pull away from you
Then one day you wake up realize That your life is a lie to yourself and that you wish you could change but its to late
Now hear when I say this rebels shale prosper
For we can't be controled now go let the world know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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The Demon

There is this thing inside
Deep within it hides
Waiting for the moment to strike
I try to surpress it with all my might
I follow the light
Not the darkness
But soon my attempts will be useless
The anger is growing
The madness is showing
All of this time they joked
And picked and poked
But this isn't a laughing matter
I'm not just a normal kid
I'm the one that goes mad with i'm more messed up than you would believe
I'm the one with the M-16
Blowing up brains
Just cause my life sucked when i was a teen
I'm the craziest guy you've ever seen
But its the demon inside that I have locked up
In prisoned in my depths ready to blow up
Lets hope he never gets out
Becuz if he does people will run from me with screams and shouts

This demon I can not control........
Trapped in the deepest hole of my soul........
He his my hate
My anger is unstoppable........
So lets hope the demon doesn't get out
For then the end of the world would be probable........

I hate living in fear
Trying to decide wich way to steer
Man my sanity sits on the edge of a sword
Stray a little to the left or to the right and its all over faster than the speed of light
I'm just trying to stay alive
For the few things still good left in my life
But I can't be trusted one day I will snap
And at that point my personalities will overlap
And that will be it
Someone will be dead
Before the nights end
The world will be gone
Before i finish writing this song
But I will try my best
To keep the demon at rest
He will stay in his slumber
Or my life is over

This demon i can not control........
It is trapped in the deepest hole of soul........
He is my hate
My anger is unstopable........
Lets hope the demon doesn't get out
For then the end of the world would be probable........

Most of the time I'm a pretty calm guy
I don't pick fights
But I know my rights
If you fuck with me nigger
You'll be in a bag
This place of darkness
In my mind
I feel like i'm blind
To all of the pain
I always feel ashamed
All though I don't know why
I'm lieing to myself
For I'm gona be somthered in wealth
My lies are the route to my anger
I'm just angery at me
Not anyone else
I created the demon out of my pain, out of my hate, I made him for protection
And I'm just so dangerous
One day maybe the pain will be gone
Then it will be bye bye to the demon
But i don't know how long
I can last

this is my first song of my new album The life of a Rebel the song is called "This is the End"

This is gonna be the end, I'm at 3rd base
When it all just flew right back in my face
My head it aches
The world it quakes
Beneth my feet
I can not eat
Nor can I sleep
My world has crashed
My soul has been reduced to a pile of ash
I thought I had it made in the shade
But I should have known that was my biggest mistake

This....... Is the end........
Everything is gone........
And I wish.......
I could go back
And change what made......
Take back the things I say.....
Just to have you

This world is unfair
And its almost over
Becuz i fucked up
And it all blew up
Burnt and chared i can not resist
I just want it to be the end of it
All alone in this place
The look of death is apon my face
The days of my life are running short
No longer has my luck saved me
And this is the end

This........ Is the end........
Everything is gone........
And I wish........
I could go back
And change what I made........
Take back things I say........
Just to have you

I'm gona leave this place
Never say goobye
I will always know why
Becuz of love
She didn't want to hurt me
But she was a little late
Depression is the route to hate
And thats is all that love has given me
This time maybe she'll know what it feels like
Maybe she'll know that she is the path to my anger and my happiness
And in my time of darkness
She are the only light
But geuss what that light is gone
I don't know how long
Until the end

This........Is the end........
Everything is gone........
And I wish........
I could go back
And change what I made
And take back the things i said
Wait I'm not dead yet
Maybe I still have a chance

OR NOT

"I will be there" - Carl Frantz - Crazy C - This song is dedicated to my best friend who is a girl [Little Miss Ashley]

Ashley is so kool
Shes like a jewl
That sparkles and shines
And I'm glad she finally has her time
To be happy

I will be her friend until the end
I will help her to defend
Things that are bad
And things that make her sad
I just want her to be glad

I will always be there for her
If she has no where else to turn
And i would help her to learn
That people can be mean
Like they are machines
Becuz they seem to have no heart

I will be there...
To stare the devil in the face
With a glare
I'd even fight an angry bear
I would not be scared
All to keep you safe
You can have faith
In me...

You have been so good to me
So you see
I just can not flee
Or just ceese to be
I would help you wether you were
Her or he...

I don't want no one to hurt you
Becuz they don't deserve to
You are just so great
I don't know how someone could hate
Anything about you...

I will be here
To try to help decide what direction you should stear
And try to make things clear
And help get rid of your fears
I'm sure i'll be around for many years

I will be there...
Just to stare... the devil in the face
With a glare
I'd even fight an angry bear
I wouldn't even be scrared
Just to keep you safe
You can have faith
In me...

I'm Back (Time to put on the red, white and black) By Carl Frantz - Crazy C - This one gos to my first year in hockey since i broke my collar bone

Its been a little while
I'm no longer just a child
I here to play some hockey
I sure hope no one gets cocky
Becuz this is my team
I can do alot more than it seems

Last year I was in states
I was living the dream
Or so it seemed
I thought I finally got a break
And I did flying at those boreds with all that speed
Bye Bye is what my collar bone said to me

With my collar bone broken
It semmed like my team had sunken
Its was hard for my team with their best player on the bench
Why did it have to break
Damn I made a mistake

But guess what I'm back
Time again to put on the red, white and black
This is my time
Its my year to shine
They're gona make me a shrine

Last year I was the one that always scored
But this year gona do it alot more
Becuz I'm ready to go in
I'm ready for some diggin
This year is revenge

I will go back to states this year
And all the fans are gona cheer
And the title will go to me
For tournement MVP
You will all see

But it won't be easy
Becuz of these little sleasy
Players on my team
They fill my head steam
And if they screw up they will answer to me

Hey yo I'm back
Time again to put on the red, white and black
This is my time
This is my year to shine
They're gona maKe me a shrine
You all are blind if you don't see this
I'm back and back with a vengence

Its gona be a wake up call
For all these little punks who think their the best and thats all
If they don't give me no shit
Maybe I'll teach them some little tricks
I'm one of the best
So just do what I do and you will be set

They better be ready be ready
Cuz I'm back and I'm getting the C
Captain is for me
Becuz my speed
And the way that I lead
And I'm ready to breed
The best team
That anyone has ever seen

The Jamestown Lakers
We're no fakers
We're for real
We are the team that always steals
All the wins
And guess what if you blink the puck is in

Guess what I'm back
Time again to put on the red, white and black
This is my time
This is year to shine
They're gona make me a shrine
You must be blind if you don't see this
I'm back and back with vengence

TO EVERYONE WHO VISITS MY DIARY THIS MY FIRST ALBUM

"THE BEGINNING" BY - CRAZY C -

IT CONSISTS OF:

1)"I am me Crazy C"
2)"I will be rich"
3)"I'll be ok"
4)"This girl"
5)"The Party"
6)"Parties should rock"
7)"She won't love me"
8)"Someone"
9)"Don't fall in love"

HOPE YOU ENJOY ALL MY SONGS YOU WILL FIND THEM DOWN FARTHER IN MY DIARY

"I'll be OK" By Carl Frantz - Crazy C - Deticatec to all those people out there who think they're alone u can make it

In this world you can olny depend
On one
And thats number 1
I stand alone
I'm not some mindless drone

I will be on my own
I will never go home
I am completely alone
But I will fight
And save my soul so it can find the light

Its hard to fight it all alone
The path has been shown
And i must face it on my own
I will not buckle under the presure
No matter what measure
I have to take
It won't be able to break
ME

I can do it
I may not show it
But its clear to me
I will be
OK

I will make it through high school
I will make myself kool
And make the girls drool
I am no fool
I know i have to get through school

Just let me do this
My life is a mess
I've got deal with this stress
I'll get to class on time
I'll ask question not act like a mime

I have so much potencial
But my days are sequencial
I don't make the move
That would get me in the groove
But I will soon

So just trust me
I can do it
I may not show it
But its clear to me
That i will be
OK

I will through
Even my broken heart
It feels like its taken a dart
I just need a jump start
And someone to pull the out the dart

All though i will be famous
I think i'll be happy
Becuz i'll still miss my babi
The one that got away
The one you always wish would have stayed

Why does everyone
Hate me
Or are they just jealous of me
But I know their all soft
Like Jelly

But guess what
I can do it
I may not show it
But its clear to me
That I will be
Ok...

Ok...

Ok...