Salt from the sweat on my leg stings my lips
As I sit on the bed with my knees to my chest.
I stuck in a predicament; caught in a hole:
I love you with everything left of my soul.
But, then when I see him everyday at my school,
I kinda start tripping’; I feel like a fool.
How is that I feel for you so deeply,
Yet whenever he asks, I would sell myself cheaply?
I don’t understand them; these emotions of mine;
But I suppose this is the war waged from the beginning of time:
On one hand, there’s love; on the other, just lust;
Playing tug-of-war with my head, ‘till I think that I’ll bust!
I want to be true to you, honest I do!
But if he asks one more time, I don’t know what I’ll do.

          Lust And Love
              J. K. Maxwell

NO ONE CAN
COMPREHEND HOW MUCH I
LOVE
HER
for_all_the_forgotten: no. no one can
except me because that's how much i love you.

"i look up at the moon, the same one you lie under every night. the same moon that knows all and sees nothing. she looks down on us and knows of our pain. i regret that. and for that i resent myself. regret is not something you should feel so deeply at 14..."

got that from surfing the diary entries

went upstairs, cried on my bed under the covers, came back downn, and told him i love him. of course he probably won't get the message until tomorrow but i don't care. he'll get it eventually.

for_all_the_forgotten: lol, i got the message through, might've died trying but i got it through
?
for_all_the_forgotten: i managed to tell you that the computer was going down, even though it shut off trying
what message
for_all_the_forgotten: computer is not working quite well or something like that
no you didnt
for_all_the_forgotten: oh well then i gues it just dies without success. how like reality.
for_all_the_forgotten: *died
lol
for_all_the_forgotten: "teardrops keep fallin on the bed, they just keep fallin..." my owm personal rendition of raindrops....lol
w/e
for_all_the_forgotten: i'm not being very cheerful am i?
idk
for_all_the_forgotten: that was a rhetorical question
idc
for_all_the_forgotten: are you ok?
no
for_all_the_forgotten: of course not, you never are
for_all_the_forgotten: stupid me why should i even ask
idk you've seen me happy tho
for_all_the_forgotten: yup
for_all_the_forgotten: i like it when you're happy
lol
for_all_the_forgotten: yay! he laughed!
for_all_the_forgotten: don't say you didn't
for_all_the_forgotten: that would be dampering my happy mood and that's illegal
for_all_the_forgotten: if you did that, i would have to arrest you
for_all_the_forgotten: and then that would be putting another damper on my happy modd, so that there would be no happy mood at all
for_all_the_forgotten: *mood
arrest me and take me away from hell that is my life
for_all_the_forgotten: ok * arrests him and takes him to wyoming*
for_all_the_forgotten: i believe you said wyoming?
ya
for_all_the_forgotten: you said to take you away from missouri so i';m taking you to where i hope V lives
i live in Pennsylvania
for_all_the_forgotten: you said misery
no i said hell
for_all_the_forgotten: hell; misery missouri same thing
no
Meadville pennsylvania=HELL
for_all_the_forgotten: ok then i'll do it all over again *arrests you takes you away from Hell=Meadville, PA and takes you to Wyoming* happy now?
no
for_all_the_forgotten: that's what i thought you'd say....
for_all_the_forgotten: wouldn't it be nice if we could fly?
no
im afraid of heights
here are the powers i want
Invisilbility,Inviciblity,to make no sound,go through walls,and not be afraid of heights and fly
o yeah
to feel no pain
i g2g ttyl
for_all_the_forgotten: emotional or otherwise? ok bye
bith
both*
bye
for_all_the_forgotten: ahh. bye

"Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you."
-- Unknown.
you wanna know who that's to? oh well; you don't ever get what you want.

"Find a guy who calls you "beautiful" instead of "hot"
who calls you back when you hang up on him or calls just because
who thanx your perfect although he knows the worst thing about you
who will lie under the stars and listn 2 your heartbeat or will stay awake just 2 watch you sleep
wait for the guy who pursues you
who kisses your forehead
who holds your hand in front of his friends
the one who constantly reminds you of how much he loves and cares for you
the one who turns to his friends and says "that's her" "

"i live my life like a roleplay: anything and everything is possible if you just write it out"

i need someone to pretend with me. someone to take me to another reality. far away. where anything is possible.

Why do you ask me if you don't want to hear?
I'll always tell you the truth about how i feel.
But you don't really want to know do you?
Just as long as i listen to you,
About your problems and why you're happy,
Or why you're sad, or bored or lonely,
As long as i listen to that, i'm your friend.
I would never think about weighing you down with my problem,
Why i'm sad, why i'm lonely.
i never really want to to anyone about how i feel.
I'm just there for you to talk to:
I don't need to have someone listen to me too.
If that's your thoughts,
You
Are
Wrong.

the only thing i want in my life is to be left alone. away from all those people who don't know a thing about me. away from all those jerks who ask but don't really want to know. all those people who, in their minds, put me into some kind of class with other people who are "just like me". If there's not anyone out there who's real, i want to be left alone.

I hate her because she's not me, and because she's always making you sad. But also, i could be her friend, because when she makes you happy, you're very happy.

for what you don't know you do to me, i'll always for give you. always.

I may not ever be there when you cry,
To wipe the teardrops from your eyes.
I can't be there if you should need me,
But know that if I could, I would.

When you laugh at something crazy,
Or tell her "I love you baby",
I won't be there to laugh with you,
But if I could, I would.

I'm you're friend, though you've nevee seen me
No matter what, I always will be.
I don't care how many miles apart,
This is what's written in my heart:

I want to wipe all your tears away;
I want to laugh at the funny things you say;
I want to be there for you always:
Someday, I swear I will.
Missing: </i>

fuck it all sasha! do you think i've never been hurt?! do you think i've never known what it's like to have someone walk out of my life and come back the next day pretending i'm not there?! it hurts! i'm not saying i've felt the same thing as you, but damnit i have been hurt before!!

"yes you poetry is inappropriate and your english is attrosive! please take the time to post a poem or don't do it at all! we won't fix it for you!"

ooooo i wanna cuss right now!!!!!!

why does he think i do things like that on purpose to hurt him?! i had no idea and he thinks i did! i thought he was infatuated with tessa! all guys have issues....

Today when i went to the beach with my mom, mar, casey and jesse, i was rather thoughtful. the beach has a thing for doing to me.

Elven names:Nienna Elensar, and Rumean Kordethess, meaning "Meadow rider Black eternal elf"
Hobbit name:Dimple Hamwich of Buckleberry Fern

*cries and cries and cries*