[Your Favorite Stranger]'s diary

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Written about Monday 2005-06-27
Written: (7089 days ago)

Please, leave me be.
You've hurt me too many times
I want to be alone now
Please, just let me go
If you'd just go and be happy
I could go my own way
And be happy too
All by myself.
If only I didn't have to hide
This pain from you
But I do
Because hurting me
Knowing how I feel
Would hurt you
I want to scream
"You said you loved me,
You lied to me
More than once
You broke me up
You gave me heaven,
Then tore it all apart."
I want to forgive you,
I want to talk to you again
Like friends
But it's gonna take a while.
Please, let me go
If you just go away,
I can go away too.
I can forget.
I can be numb
I can die.

605566  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7094 days ago)

I hold your image in my mind;
Hoping it wont fade with time.
If ever I was tired or sad,
You'd pick me up and make me glad
If I was happy u were too.
Oh baby, I'll always love you!
Just this morning when I awoke
I found you frightend by thunder's stroke
We sat and held each other awhile
Baby, I loved it when you smiled
It made me feel needed, wanted;
Different from girls who only flaunt it
Right now I wish I could go back
To this morning on the porch we sat
Love, I'm gonna miss you bad
Thinking of what we could've had
If only you hadn't been taken away
I wouldn't sit here crying today
I'll miss your laugh, miss your eyes
And though I know your soul now flies
Although I know your hurtings done
I stand here and cry because now your gone.
605525  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7094 days ago)

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Written about Tuesday 2005-06-21
Written: (7095 days ago)

He's just a boy,
He rides to school
There's not much different about him.
During the day, he smiles
Living, laughing, caring.
People say he shines
Like the sun
When he's happy
Which is most of the time.
If someone is hurt, he comforts them
If someone is laughing he is too.
People say things to him,
Hurtful things,
But he pretends not to hear.
During the day
He lives, he laughs, he loves.
During the day he's normal.


When he gets home,
It's late at night.
He throws off his clothes,
And you can see how diferent he is.
As tears roll down his cheeks,
His wings convulse with his sobbing.
He doesn't know they're there.
He puts his head in his hands,
Sad beyond everything.
He loves a girl
She scorns his love
No one else knows
His secret
He hides it, wanting to help others
Trying to fill up his emptiness
By taking away other people's
Inside, he wants to get away;
Outside, his magnificent wings flutter softly.
He doesn't seem to know it though.
He doesn't see his beautiful escape.


Every day, the boy lives, laughs, cares.
Every night he cries
Every day, he helps someone else,
Cradeling their heart with his unseen wings.
Every night, he wishes he could get away,
Away from his pain, away from this place
This place of hurt, and fear, and weight
The boy doesn't know,
But anyone else could tell you
Anyone he helped, and cared for could tell you,
That the boy was an angel.
604775  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-06-21
Written: (7095 days ago)

A river runs softly through a forest, which is filled with tall, old trees. All is peaceful, and only nature's sounds can be heard; birds' songs, the occasional sound of a falling branch, the gentle rushing noise of the river itself. It is in the evening, and though it is summer, few bugs are out. It is a beautiful place, seemingly undisturbed by man.
Suddenly, the silence is broken by such a terribly sad and heart-wrenching noise, that even nature seems to listen. The sound is a sob, from a boy who has been sitting quietly, unnoticed, on the river's bank. The boy himself sticks out from the forest, with his red hair, black shirt and baggy pants. But the sound of his crying is an age-old sound that can be heard anywhere, from anyone.
The boy, though, is crying as though his heart had been ripped out, held up for the veiw of all, then broken in half and stuck back in, as a poor excuse for a heart. His sobbs aren't really that loud, but the feeling in them speaks louder than any amount of volume could. They speak of hurt, they ask questions: Why do my friends abandon me when I need them the most? Why couldn't they be there for me? Why does all this hurt, even though it's happened so many times? Will it ever not hurt? There's feelings of love, loving so deeply, and so purely, it was the perfect description of the word. But that love, that perfect feeling, it was cast away as though it had no meaning, as though it was worthless. The boy's crying tells it all, tells it all to the creatures of the forest, and they are really the only ones who would understand it. No one else would take the time to listen to this boys crying, he knows this. The only words he speaks are so broken, they're barely even words; almost just a feeling being uttered: "No one could ever know how this feels . How bad this pain is. No one."

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Written about Monday 2005-06-20
Written: (7097 days ago)

A river runs softly through a forest, which is filled with tall, old trees. All is peaceful, and only nature's sounds can be heard; birds' songs, the occasional sound of a falling branch, the gentle rushing noise of the river itself. It is in the evening, and though it is summer, few bugs are out. It is a beautiful place, seemingly undisturbed by man.
Suddenly, the silence is broken by such a terribly sad and heart-wrenching noise, that even nature seems to listen. The sound is a sob, from a boy who has been sitting quietly, unnoticed, on the river's bank. The boy himself sticks out from the forest, with his red hair, black shirt and baggy pants. But the sound of his crying is an age-old sound that can be heard anywhere, from anyone.
The boy, though, is crying as though his heart had been ripped out, held up for the veiw of all, then broken in half and stuck back in, as a poor excuse for a heart. His sobbs aren't really that loud, but the feeling in them speaks louder than any amount of volume could. They speak of hurt, they ask questions: Why do my friends abandon me when I need them the most? Why couldn't they be there for me? Why does all this hurt, even though it's happened so many times? Will it ever not hurt? There's feelings of love, loving so deeply, and so purely, it was the perfect description of the word. But that love, that perfect feeling, it was cast away as though it had no meaning, as though it was worthless. The boy's crying tells it all, tells it all to the creatures of the forest, and they are really the only ones who would understand it. No one else would take the time to listen to this boys crying, he knows this. The only words he speaks are so broken, they're barely even words; almost just a feeling being uttered: "No one could ever know how this feels . How bad this pain is. No one."
Those words said, he buries his head in his arms and sobs more. Therefore he doesn't notice when a man walks up to him. The man sits down next to him, and when the boy looks up, their eyes meet and it's as though they were talking without words. 'So you think that no one has ever felt the way you have, son?'
The boy nods, 'No one understands this, they couldn't; they've never felt it.'
The man smiles sadly. 'You poor boy. You think you are so alone in this world. Let me tell you something about someone I know. This man he had friends, and they were all close to him. He had showed these people things about themselves, and taught them, and loved them. And they him. There were crowds of these people, and though all were equally dear to him, he had a few very special friends. These people did everything together; they traveled together, they fished together, they ate together, they hung out together. They did this every day of their lives. These people were very special to the man. He saved special things to tell them, and them only. They would ask him questions, and he them, about life, and love, and things like that. Words cannot even begin to describe the bond between these people.'
The boy broke in; 'But he had so many good friends. This is what I mean; no one knows how I feel. They all have a bunch of friends just like these, ones that they can share everything with without being stabbed in the back.'
The man just looked down at him and said 'I'm getting their boy, hold on.'
He cleared his throat and continued: 'Then, one day, while the man and his friends were camping out on a mountain, a mob came to get the man for something he had supposedly done. All of his friends knew he was innocent, yet all but one ran away. Later in the day, even that one friend lied and said that he didn't even know the man, that he hated him just as much as everyone else. So this man was alone, back-stabbed by all his friends, they had left him to face the mob by himself, to face everything by himself. He felt allone. Even the man's own father abandoned him, left him all alone out there. He felt such hurt, such pain in his heart, it was the greatest, most horrible pain ever felt in the world.' He looked down at the boy with such a caring gaze, the boy forgot to be sad for a moment. 'Thankfully you cannot even imagine the pain this man felt. But I wanted to tell you this so that you know that no matter how bad you feel, there is always someone who feels worse than you. I want you to remember this story, and keep it with you. This man loved, purer, and stronger than anyone in this world, and was rejected worse, and colder than anyone can imagine.' He patted the boy's back and wiped the tears off his cheeks. 'I'd best be getting back now, my family will be worrying about me.' He stood up, and began to walk away.
The boy thought for a moment, then turned where he sat and called out, "Who is this man?"
The man turned and smiled sadly, then called out softly "I am that man, boy." Then he walked off into the forest, leaving the boy sitting there.

600049  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-06-16
Written: (7100 days ago)

i love Elftown, because no matter what is happening in the real world, i can be myself and and talk to other people here. it's awesome

599577  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-06-16
Written: (7101 days ago)

~The Best Things In Life Cannot Be Seen...That's Why we Close Our Eyes When We Cry, Kiss, And Dream...
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~Not All Scars Show
Not All Wounds Heal
Sometimes You Can't Always See
The Pain Someone Feels
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~Nothing stays the same forever because forever is a very long time and with time comes change.
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yes i stole these from someone's house, but since they didn't have the authors, i'll never know

599301  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-15
Written: (7101 days ago)

jefferey kent maxwell...yeah i like that one...

599274  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-15
Written: (7101 days ago)

"Keep your foot at the level of the couch!"
My mom, making a joke about the fleas (we have to get it bombed tomorrow, stupid cats), and a pun on "Keep your hand at the level of your eyes!".

598093  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-06-14
Written: (7102 days ago)

This is by [Ivan the punk king] i read it in his diary, and i had to put it here:

This is for Nikki [_xxxPirate cnt] cause things arnet always right in the world


December 4th -The Hero Dies In This One


As I leave here today, apartment 108
I'll always keep you in my heart.
Anderson is cold tonight,
The leaves are scattered on the ground.
I miss the seasons,
And the comfort of your smile.


Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.


As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.


As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.


Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.


As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.


(The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who we are.)


Stay who you are.
You must go on.
Stay who you are. [x42]

594869  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-06-10
Written: (7106 days ago)

Your voice;
A little bit deeper
This time.
Your words hit
A little bit deeper
This time.
They stab
A little bit deeper
This time.
Into my heart,
A little bit deeper
This time.
My thoughts are
A little bit deeper
This time.
My hurt set
A little bit deeper
This time.
I sink
A little bit deeper
This time.
I cut
A little bit deeper
This time.
Puddles of blood;
A little bit deeper
This time.
I sleep
A little bit deeper
This time.


A Little Bit Deeper
J. K. Maxwell

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Written about Tuesday 2005-06-07
Written: (7109 days ago)

I woke up this morning,
Poked my head into the air
The air was fresh with summer
Saying it was finally here.
I hurried down to work
To quickly get it done
I really started sweating
In the burning summer sun.
I hauled some boards,
Pulled out some nails,
Got dirt all on my shirt,
Was thankful for the breeze's tails,
As they eased the sun's hot burn.
A bee's wings across my lips,
A rabbit's fur beneath my hand.
The singing of birds reaches my ears,
My eyes see the green of the land.
We smile, we laugh in the heat
Hearing the music, we dance.
Maybe it's summer that makes you so free,
And attentive to nature's romance.


Nature's Romance
J. K. Maxwell



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