omg talking to him agian... and ready to kill myself... o jeez
so ya interesting days... lifenight=fun jsut the whole thing not jsut one part of it liek the entire thing omg and I got a softballl shirt!!!!!!!!! yay!!! lol i'ma dork... tonight went to HS with sarah!!!!!! yay! fun, met everyone down tthere... must say much better then some people i know... having typing issues tonight... steph is getting and opperation like a major one! omg please pray for her.... wow .... i am confused??
interesting quotes...
it's like chocolate milk... you just gotta have it
the greastest trick satan ever played was getting the world to believe he doesnt exsist
in the exact same position only in probably more trouble.... cuz people would hate me, and even if that did happen, there'd be too much other stuff going on for anything else and then...well...
(i know what it means...) I think I could do it and I did want it cept something happend to prevent that (gotta stop before I get too far...)
steph is getting an oppernation... wow....
me and the remote are taking a ten minute break O.o omg what is wrong with me?
there's a penny on the floor and you're gone
i'm trying to right what's wrong
a stronger man might do it with more grace
there's a penny on the floor and i'm wise
i look up to the skies
i cry and pray and i stare out into space
there's a penny on the floor and you're standing at the door
turn around and say goodbye
someone like you comes around just once a life
there's a penny on the floor and and i'm strong
i'll try to carry on
realizing no one can take your place
there's a penny on the floor and and i'm fine
i know it's gonna take some time
before i look at you without looking at my own face
there's a penny on the floor and it stays
as a tribute to the ways
you filled my soul with courage hope and grace
::Clarks::
^^^^
new anthem trying even harder to let it go... shhh dont tell the remote....!!!!
the end will justify the pain it took us to get there
never love something so much that when fate takes it away your whole world will turn black
Its all a bunch of simple tricks and nonsense...
You see the hat???? I am MRS. NESSSBITTT!!!!
welll kiddies me and my remote have another blissfull friday night planned...sigh
i have a 2 hour delayyyyyy yayyyy
got the kelly clarkson cd today... well burned it, and I wonder why I feel stupid when I have no idea what's going on on weds. nights? lol i amze myslef lol
never love something so much that when it disappears your whole world goes black...
and yet another one bites the dust... good job living in the gray there buddy, but now you have offically made the move over to black...
bored... last night was fun, chip yelling about war was kinda annoying, and of course me and britt's least favorite person was there, but hey what can you do? I wish guys wouldn't screw girls over, I wish they knew the difference between friends and friends with benefits because there is on. I swear guys only see in black and white (refer to the diary of [Wirey] for the black/white thoughts) but yea for everyone who's been screwed over by a guy I feel your pain...esp if you lose a good friend from the deal...
but ya...it's adam's birthday tomro!!!!! yay! omg its so scary evry i know seems to be getting so old!?!?!? o wow i am so gna miss these kids when they leave with the exceptions of poss. one.... b/c how can you miss someone you arent even friends with?
today was another normal boring day... bleh... i hate boring days... i need someone to come to school and mix it up, someone should come and shadow me that would be fun...
I really dont want this NHS game show to go on cuz honestly i am not sure if its gna work the way everyone thinks it will and ya... i dk it just seems weird...
well i gues i am out for now... more tomro cuz its friday!!!!!!!!
He's such a beautiful disaster
wow interesing couple days....
March for Life = amzing... are you guys soulmates? just shut up! lol
and jess might out nick.. grl look out i dont want to discorage you cuz he seems nice now (key word seems) but i dk... its jsut too funnnyyyy
gtg gilmore girls and house is on
i am tired and sick and depressed
and this is the last thing i need to do
but i must think of you
it's not like I can just forget
believe I have tried
but how can I forget when I remember you everywhere
and I know its not like you're trying to remind me
in fact its just the opposite
but everything reminds me of something you did or said
so maybe if you would stop being everywhere
so maybe if you would stop teasing me by your absence
or maybe if we talked this out
you would disappear
and I could forget
and not have to constantly think of you....
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And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
i truly do wish i could forget and it's not like i havent tried, its just that with all this stuff going on... everyone getting the perfect guy for them... i just keep remembering, but i do want to forget, MEH i sound like a fool... i guess I am
omg Valentines Day will be funn this year... acutally it'll be depressing... o jeez let''s not start this now.. the Steelers are on soon... I am marching to save little children in like 12 hours yay! but I am not at the life house watching the game with all my favorite people *sad face* um um um um um ...... i forget..... o crap I hate it when that happens.... oooo yaaa now I remember I was going to complain about somethng (how did I forget that?) ya well hopefully tomro a very annoying person that I really am not a big fan of will not be there (britt knows b/c she's not a big fan of her either) welll meh i sound like an idiot... o well what's new? lol didn't have to take my SATs yesterday yay... snows good for something I guess... meh meh meh i dk probably gna leave now ttyl kidds *big sigh*
Our Father, who art in Pittsburgh, football be thy name. Thy kingdom come, 4 Super Bowls won, on earth as it is in Heinz Field. Give us this day a playoff victory, and forgive us our penalties, as we defeat those who play against us. And lead us into a victory, and deliver us to Jacksonville.
Amen.
GO STEELERS
wow wana know a secret...? I HATE SNOW!!!! it can die along with some really cool people I know but ya went outside with the lil kiddies and jess's little kiddies and then came in, had lunch, attempted to do homework, went to jess's, watched 3 hours of Gilmore Girls (world's greatest show after house) and returnd to my house...If i EVER get pregnant and have a kid I have decided it will be just like on Gilmore Girls because that would be amazing. I know its TV and blah blah but I think it would be better than the whole dominating mom thing most moms pull today....i have decided that matt annoys me, she deserves better than that...
gtg now disembarking from the I-net
o jeez the dance was interesting...
when i wake you're never there
when I sleep you're everywhere....
life rots.... do you realize that another year will pass and once again I will NOT have a man for valentines????
i complain too much....
o man last night was a blast! me, britt and a buncha guys... LooK ouT! lol thalina threw a book at my head today and now it hurts. Jess is HERE!!!! yay!! even though my house is crazy insaneo!!!!!!! people just randomly scream for no reason!! aaaahhhhhhh...
Well me and Jess are crazy<3 jess lol .....
It's closing time, and a drunk who has had his fill of alcohol for the evening stumbles out of a bar. He begins to trudge his way home, when suddenly a firetruck goes whizzing by, lights and sirens going.
To the surprise of onlookers, the drunk takes off running as fast as he can after the firetruck. He keeps up for a moment, but the firetruck eventually gets away and turns a corner.
The drunk slumps to the ground, and just before he passes out yells, fist in the air "FINE! KEEP YOUR ....ING ICE CREAM!"
omg I was baddddd today! I messed w.Justin's head Bad BAD no more STOP THAT IS VERY EVIL !!!!!! really my sweet I am so sry I feell really bad.... so the rundown
he texts me this moring *Anne tell lauren I hope she got to school ok and ........* we're were mess'n around about it being lauren getting to school ok and not me even though i got the text lol funny so eventutally kay texts him and is like *hey its lauren's friend her bus never made it and she'll be out of the hospital on friday* well he FrEaKeD and was like *are you serious?* and we were like *yes* and he was like *what hospital* kay *children 461 burn unit* and then she said *call anne to find out more after school* well this leads to like 5 missed calls for me in school and after he calls and I was like we wre just messn with you and he flipped and hung up and its all good dont worry about me but I feel bad he soundeed so scared on the phone *tear*
so ya the excitment for the day and it snowd which is what started this whole thing... I hate snow its ruining my life lol but seriously it is
why do everywhre I go there you are? cant you just leave? why do I alwasy think of you?
BURN UNIT 461
wow... gotta love it.... BORED!!! yawn...ok ya I am serious a date would be nice for friday...but not necessary...ba
I hate living at my house, cant stand my sister, when I turn 18 I swear I am getting my own appartment, so anyone who wants to move in go for it as long as you have enough money to buy food and pay rent and let me sleep on the couch, this is all I ask, I am so restricted here. I get yelled at cuz i want to do stuff with church, Not a drug gang just church, and I get yelled at cuz i dk why but I do cuz its my house... also I get yelled at cuz I look like a slob, well better a slob than a slut huh? nope i dont try to wear the little belly shirits and short shrikts just let me wear a black hoodie, jeans, and some tennis shoes and I'll be happy but no I have to go out looking like I am a 35 yr old woman... just shoot me! please! sigh.... I complian too much I need to be happy I have a home and parents who care.... etc. but jeez its just so annoying!
i've been on for 40 mins someone alert the internet police! O wait they did my dad just kicked me off
everytime you breathe I take you in
and my heart breaks again
and I drown
please just decide already... is it all or nothing? cuz I know it sounds horrible but i just cant take the inbetween...
at school bored out of my mind... gna fail the trig/physics test... BLAH Britt I LOVE YOU!!!!!... madd at a person... need a date for friday any one interested?
Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell
Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water
She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she crys
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water
She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water
-dk but its pretty in a black widow sorta way
I'm not scared, I'm not running, I'm just leaving it be, cuz I want to, not cuz of anyone else. I dont want to be an annoying stalker. Unfortunately the cost of my choice is the losss of an amzing friend, my loss, my price, my choice. Just cuz I choose it doesnt mean I wanted to or that I am happy with it, I just chose it, and I will live with it. But lemme tell ya its not easy. Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't. It's always there, "did you make the right choice?" and sometimes it just hurts so bad, cuz it was awsum but now its nothing. O well Life goes on...goodbye "as one last favor make an exception for me. forget me. the memories will pass. out of sight out of mind."
at least tonight is worry free, I can just chill and not worry about it ^_^. yay! *sigh of relief* My dad's kinda been on my case too, he thinks I'm not happy or something, psssshhh, he's just out there. Like he was yelling at me cuz my brother was all wet cuz no one changed his diaper (sounds stupid but go w/it) and he was like "you should have done it, you just should have checked, no forgetting is not an excuse, no that's not an excuse... blah blah blah" and I'm sitting there 1/2 listening to all this thinking "dude its your kid, not mine, you shoulda remembered to check before you left." i dk he's been weird lately saying i dont talk to him and stuff. Well maybe i would if when i tryied to talk to him he wouldnt be like "o ya... well..." or "no dont do that, i dont like that" so I just sorta avoid it, I'm not mean about it, I'm polite and respectful etc. we just dont have a daily heart-to-heart conversation. meh its probably just stage.... it'll pass
went out w/my mom and got an awsum shirt: big, and black oyes.. gotta love it, going to church later in like 2:1/2 hrs yay! lol I'm out ttyl
mewwhhh too early....OK so I am going to finally finish the big thing I have been working on all weekend, like the stories and stuff I keep breaking off cuz my parents are really cool
-Friday-
fight at school, the teachers were like freaking out like it was a bomb threat or something, unfortunately i missed the fight itself b/c I stayed up for some book disscussion, ya but anyways...inte
went to ben's game, o joy, worked the door and 50/50 fun times
came home and worked on my religion Midterm SG (do I know how to have fun or what?)
bed
-Saturday-
Went out with my mom, got some fun pens
came home got my brother ready to go the the Pitt game (he then went to his friend's house and watched the Steeler game while I was babysitting-li
worked somemore
talked to britt
took a shower
ate
left to babysit
babysitting=I will never have kids (did u get that?) I will NEveR have kids, so she probably is really sweet and all but it was really annoying and she wouldn't let me watch the game *_* little kids are very persuasive and kinda like same dictators, anyways after I put her to bed I watched some James Bond, WOOT lol
home and bed
-Sunday-
Not quite sure
woke up
got online while i watched siblings 4&5 while the rest went to church and pick up colleen
then i dk hw, church, lifeteen? i guess
I was gna go down the Lycem to see Sarah and Lick Me (heh lol) play but my mom ix-nayd that one cuz she wasn't driving me all teh way down there *tear* I was gna meet the Bambi kid too, sry Sarah :(
well I'll let ya know how that all goes ttyl